7

Everything else I had on my mind went away the moment I saw it. My eyes became wide and were at full attention. I took it into my hand, studying all of it's intricacies, it's color. I never knew it was white and gold. It's truly beautiful. "Where did you get this?" I ask. He tells me it doesn't matter. These were the times I want back. The times when I wore this locket. They truly were special.

Seeing it is a sight to behold, but when I see it it's something I do not recognize. I close my eyes and begin to rub my fingers all about it's inlays. It's like I'm seeing it like I did back then, when it was first given to me. I find the seem on the side, and lift it open. It's distinct tune plays a lullaby to my senses. Every time I heard this song, I felt happy. Even if I felt terrible, I'd open this up and be whole again, because when this locket was with me, so was Lelouch...
What am I doing?

I open my eyes again to see the picture inside. I never knew if it held a picture or not, but now it contained the photo of us all standing outside the school. Me, the student council, Lelouch. I long for those times again. "I didn't realize this was the picture it had inside of it."
"Really is a good one, isn't it?"
"It sure is." It truly is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. Cutting through the silence I hear "I'm glad you like it. I look back up at him. He has this little smirk on his face. It's honestly kinda cute, but I still don't know what to say to him about earlier.

He doesn't say a word. I start with "Suzaku..." and pause again. Not saying anything for some time. "I'm sorry about earlier. I wasn't thinking straight." He smiles at me. "It's nothing to be worried about Nunnally. In fact..." Why did he pause. It just frays my nerves even more. He leans in to tell me something "It was kinda nice, wasn't it?" I look away from him. "I mean, it felt good, yes. But... I thought you still weren't ready to move on. You know, from Euphy..." The smile leaves his face. "Well, yes. I couldn't truly say that I've forgotten her." He looks me in the eye. "But we have to move on, you know?"

I wish I'd never said that, then I wouldn't of heard it just now. What am I talking about, moving on? I mean yes, I've moved on, but I can't just throw him out like this. I look back up at him. His face looks content, happy. I try to see what I saw before, three in one. Lelouch, Suzaku... this is no replacement. What have I done. I look back down away from him. Silence grips us both.

He tries to speak "Nunnal-" I end it before it begins. That's what I'll do. "I really am sorry Suzaku." I don't see his face, but he doesn't speak. "Like I said, I wasn't thinking straight. I'm really, really sorry." I don't see him, but he see's me. "Can we just forget this ever happened?" I think not to look at him, but for some reason I do. I see his face looking not just depressed, but surprised. Like it was the last thing he expected to hear. The moment I see his expression, I apologize again.
"I really am sorry Suzaku!" Dead. "I didn't know what I was doing, I just thought-" dumb. " -that well... was feeling lonely and I waned someone to hold me again. It was wrong of me to do that to you. I should have sorted myself out and how I felt before I did anything." Numb. "I really am sorry."

No words. Just that same expression, which is eventually shaken off and turned into something more blank, and a bit angry. He goes "It's fine Nunnally, I didn't realize it meant so little." I've broken him. I've shown him myself and I've broken him. I wouldn't deny his claim of it meaning little to me. I should've considered him before I did anything. I speak "Things are still okay with us, right?" He doesn't answer the question. "Give me some time, okay?" Compliantly I say "Yeah, sure.". I don't watch him leave the room. I turn back to my locket. I've wanted it more then I've ever wanted to feel it in my life. I close my eyes, lift it open from the seem, and I'm taken away by the melody.