Buffy and Lindsey

"A new Man"

Pairing: B/L A/N

Summary: Buffy finds someone new when she goes to L.A. after the collapse of Sunnydale.

AN: Lindsey didn't die at the end of Angel; he wasn't even there in fact.

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Chapter 7: Doubts

Buffy and Lindsey's apartment

Lindsey woke up with a smile on his face because he felt Buffy next to him. When he woke up the other day he couldn't help but be depressed, and that he guess signified how much he had fallen for Buffy. He got up out of bed and walked into the living room where he saw that Willow was fast asleep on the couch.

Willow was such a big part of Buffy's life that he didn't know, which only made him want to know more about the red head. Sure Wolfram and Hart had files on Buffy's entire group friend but they weren't in much detail, not like Buffy's her self's was.

He walked over to the counter and turned on the pot of coffee before he headed into the bathroom. As he looked in the mirror he wonder if Buffy saw his flaws, if she knew about all things he had down when he worked for Wolfram and Hart, before Angel took over. Did she still like him? Or was he now merely a pawn to make Angel jealous?

Lindsey spit out the toothpaste that was in him mouth and then he wiped it clean with a hand towel. For some reason he couldn't imagine his life without Buffy and that hadn't even been together that long. This led him to think that Buffy's had cast a spell on him, after all her friend was a witch.

"Don't even think that," he said aloud.

"Think what?" Buffy asked as she walked into the bathroom rubbing her eyes.

"Nothing," he said as he walked out making sure to close the door behind him.

"Okay," Buffy said as she turned on the shower.

When Lindsey walked into the kitchen Willow was at the stove making breakfast. "Are you coming to see Angel today?" Lindsey asked.

"Yeah he asked me to stop by," he heard Willow say as he walked into the bedroom.

He walked into the bedroom and went straight to his closet. For some reason he couldn't shake that thought about Buffy betraying him from his mind. Maybe it was because the only other women that he had loved used him to make Angel jealous.

Darla was the first person that he had truly wanted to get to know better. If she wasn't a vampire he believed that he could have asked her to marry him. Even though he knew at the time that all she thought about was Angel. Does Buffy think that too?

The bedroom door opened and he turned around to see Buffy walking through the door. She walked over to her closet and grabbed some clothes to wear. She looked at him looking at her. "Are you okay?" she asked him. "You seem a little off this morning." She added.

"I'm fine," he said as he turned back to his closet and grabbed a shirt, then walking over to and grabbing a pair of pants out of his dresser. He looked over at Buffy, as she got dressed. She had told him that Angel was the first person, well vampire, which she had ever loved. It made him angry that Angel was the first person to have his hands all over Buffy's body.

He pulled on his pants and then his shirt and as he went to button it up he faintly felt him heartbeat. Does she regret that I have a heartbeat? Does she think of her past vampire lovers when I make love to her?

He finished buttoning up his shirt and then he pulled on a tie that matched his shirt. Does she wish I was cold and dead inside? He though as he walked out of the bedroom and into the kitchen where Willow had a plate of eggs and toast and a sup of coffee ready. "I could get used to this," he said as he sat down a started to drink his coffee.

"Well don't because I won't be here more than a week and Buffy can't cook," Willow said with a smile.

Lindsey smiled too. Did Angel used to cook for Buffy?

Angel Investigations

Lindsey sat at his desk and looked at all the paper work that he had. Yet for some reason he didn't feel like doing it. Buffy had been on his mind all morning and coming to work hadn't changed that. When they first got in Angel had called her and Spike into his office and about an hour later Spike and Buffy took off for somewhere unknown.

Does she talk about me when she's with Spike or even Angel? Does she let them know that I'm her man and no one else will do anymore? Or am I only delaying the evitable, where she will run off with one of them?

Willow had come into Wolfram and Hart later on in the afternoon and Lindsey watched as she walked straight into Angel's office, without even coming to say 'hi' to him. Were they all playing him? Did everyone know that Buffy didn't love him, everyone but him?

"Time to focus," Lindsey said to himself as he looked down at him paperwork. She still wasn't back from her trip with Spike. Where they off getting to know one another again?

Lindsey reached over and grabbed his first case file, he was supposed to be helping Gunn with these cases but he couldn't stop thinking about Buffy. What was wrong with him?

Buffy and Lindsey's apartment (later that night)

Lindsey had been the first home. When he left Wolfram and Hart, Buffy hadn't been back yet and Willow hadn't come out of Angel's office. He had seen Nina go in but that was it, he hadn't even seen her come out.

He knew no one there liked him, and who blamed them after all he did try to kill them before. Is that why Buffy is with him, to see if he is betraying them? Is she some kind of spy? Lindsey sat in one of his comfy chairs watching they ball game when the door opened and in walked Willow and Buffy laughing about something. Were they laughing at him because he wasn't included in the gang?

Buffy walked over to him and kissed him. "How was your day?" Buffy asked with a smile.

"Fine," he said simply. Was she prying for information? In all truthfulness his day sucked because he couldn't get her off his mind and he hadn't help on any of the cases because he couldn't even et off the first one. That's how much this was bothering him.

"What's wrong with you?" she asked. "You have been cryptic guy all day." She added.

Isn't that what she used to call Angel when they first met, before they started dating? Where they dating again? "I'm sorry I can't say anything else because nothing happened to me today," he said as he stressed the 'me.' "And how would you know you were gone all day," he said not looking away from the TV.

"I'm sorry I had important things to take care of," she said. "But that gives you no reason to act like this towards me," She said. "I thought you understood what a slayer was," she added as Buffy started to walk away.

"I do and as I understand slayers kill vampires no sleep with them," he said and Buffy stopped walking. She turned to look at him but he wasn't even looking at her. Had he gone too far?

"Me and you, the bedroom, now." She said as she walked into the bedroom. Lindsey slowly got up and followed her in making sure to close the door behind him. He saw her sitting on the bed and she had tears coming down her face. "You had no right to say that," she said. He didn't say anything. "What's the deal with you?" she asked. Still nothing. She got up and walked over to him.

She took his face in her hands. "Talk to me," she said.

"I don't have anything to say." He lied. Is this how she gets Angel to talk? With that he took a step away from her.

She looked hurt as her hands dropped to her side. "I think Will and I should stay in a hotel tonight," Buffy said as she walked over to the closet and grabbed her duffel bag. "It is obvious that you need time alone." She said as she started to put clothes in. "And I think we need to have some time apart," she add, although shakily.

He said nothing, he just watched as she placed clothes into the duffel bag. Buffy turned looked at him and there eyes met. "What happened to you today?" she asked and he took his gaze and looked at the floor saying nothing.

She walked up to him and placed a kiss on his cheek and then went to the bedroom door. "Am I still your girl?" she asked in a scared voice.

"Always," he answered as he looked up at her. "I love you," he said.

"Love you too," she said as she closed the bedroom door. He could hear her talking to Willow and explaining why they had to leave, and he heard Willow ask if it was her fault and Buffy saying no it was hers. Am I still you girl? Hadn't Angel asked her if she was still his girl?

He just let her walk out the door and maybe even out of his life, all because he was jealous. Would she go to Angel or Spike? Will she even wait to see if I still wants her or will she move in with Spike tomorrow? Lindsey sat on his bed and looked off into nothingness.

"You're such a fool in love Lindsey," he said to himself and he hung his head.

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AN: Sorry for the lack of updates. Nest Update will me May 13th.