Ziva dressed nervously not sure what to wear. Going for smart, casual. Nice black pants, fluffy sweater and warm winter coat in a beautiful shade of blue. She had her hair up in a pony tail. Monique had arrived home at 10 a.m looking slightly worse for wear. Ziva felt giddy like a teenager on her first date. Friends, just friends she told herself. Hearing the buzzer she picked up the phone and buzzed him in. Monique lived in an exclusive apartment block near the Thames. She opened the door and took a big gulp of air. He really was gorgeous. He was wearing a chunky knit grey sweater and burgundy jeans with a grey flat cap. It was a different look but really suited him. The famous DiNozzo grin was in place his eyes sparkling. Ziva felt her heart speed up and her face flush. Get a grip. She told herself.
"Ahh Miss David are you ready for the adventure of a lifetime? Let me be your guide for the day. London awaits my fair lady." Ziva giggled, fastening her coat she picked up her keys and purse.
"Nice to know your ego is still intact Tony. Come on then." She felt like a young girl going to her prom.
Tony had planned part of the day. Ziva was going to love it. Somerset House was a stunning location for ice skating. Ziva was slightly surprised but pleased with his choice. She had been skating several times while living in the US and loved it. Ziva and Tony had a magical time skating he fell a few times before regaining his natural balance. Ziva held his hand and found herself feeling a sense of disbelief.
Tony smiled down at her squeezing her hand. "You ok there Miss David? Ziva smiled up into his green eyes. "Yes Tony I just cannot quite believe we are here. It is really strange. But good, I have missed you so very much." Tony swallowed and cleared his throat. "Me too Ziva, you'll never know how much. So McGee keeping in touch the sneaky son of.."
"Tony, please do not blame Tim. He emailed to say Jackson Gibbs had died. We then contacted each other a few times. I begged him not to tell you. You were happy you did not need me causing trouble."
Tony pulled Ziva over to the side to take off their boots. No, he was happy now. Before he was existing. He lent over and kissed Ziva on the forehead.
She smiled shyly. "Would you like a drink? Hot Chocolate with marshmallows if I remember correctly." Tony pulled her up by her hands. They headed to the Fortnum's lodge.
Ziva sipped her drink sighing happily. "So Ziva what next?" She looked at him blankly. "After London? Have you thought about coming to D.C to see some old friends?" She swallowed and looked down.
"No Tony I had not but now who knows? You are with Zoe and you have to see how you feel. I do not wish to assume."
"Ziva, I still love you. Right here being with you is what I want but my position hasn't changed. You have to decide if I'm what you want and that includes being back in the States. I have to talk to Zoe and end it I don't love her she deserves better."
Ziva fought back tears. She wanted to flee. "Tony I need time please do not spoil today. Can we just this time for us?"
He nodded not wanting to ruin their date.
Tony dropped Ziva back at Monique's and told her he would pick her up for 7.30 pm he was taking her to dinner. She frantically looked thru her clothes. An elegant black dress caught her eye. Perfect. It stopped just above the knee showing off her toned, tanned legs. Her hair she left down in wild, sexy curls. Silver hoops completed the look. Her make up was understated smokey eyes, nude lips.
Monique looked her up and down and smiled admiringly. "Wow Ziva! Go get him." Ziva smirked pleased with her response.
Tony had very carefully picked their night first he took her to the London Eye for a champagne experience. Ziva was entranced although she had been in the UK for 6 months with Mossad it was always working. Never no chance to relax always focused on the mission. The view from the pod was amazing the whole of London lit up was spectacular it lasted half an hour. He told her how beautiful she looked. Ziva blushed. Tony was very handsome in a black designer suit with a blue shirt and tie.
"You are not so bad yourself agent DiNozzo. We are winning? NO twinning matching clothes." He smiled and kissed her hand. He felt overcome with emotion.
He realized he didn't know when he fell in love it was a gradual thing. Maybe before Jenny died after Jeanne definitely. He missed her when he was agent afloat then that awful summer. He should of told her then before Ray and EJ.
"Cheri what are you thinking? You look sad." She patted his chest reassuringly. Tony stole a quick kiss and smiled at her embarrassed face.
"Food Ziva we have reservations for 8.30 p.m. Let's go." The Michelin star restaurant Galvin at windows was spectacular. The view was amazing they had scallops and shared different mains. The conversation flowed freely. He told her about Tim and Delilah. Ziva had never met her. He then told her about the quirky Ellie Bishop. Tony was fond of her like a little sister.
"She's a good kid. As an agent she sure as hell isn't you. She's more of an analyst still but Gibbs likes her."
"Ziva about Gibbs he's been different since you left." Ziva shook her head. Tony filled up her champagne glass.
"Tony when Jackson died I wrote him a letter expressing my condolences. I heard nothing in return that told me all I needed to know. He has moved on and that is fine." Tony shook his head feeling anger burning thru him. Ziva had killed her own brother to save Gibbs. He felt a gentle touch and looked up into dark, expressive eyes.
"Tony today has been so very special to me. Just being with you without any of this would of been enough. But thank you for all this. It is truly wonderful." Her hand covered his. Expense be damned it was worth every dime.Z
After their meal Tony took Ziva to a small intimate bar. She noticed the band and the small dance floor. Memories of Berlin and being in his arms flashed thru her mind.
"Would you do me the honor? Pretty lady." They were playing The way you look tonight very fitting. Tony hummed along making her giggle.
"You know that dance in Berlin was special. Then afterwards I really thought this is it. Finally I can tell her."
Ziva stopped moving and stared up at him. "Me also but when I saw you injured I had to protect you. It was not your fight Tony. Can we just leave the past for tonight or we will only argue. I am so tired of feeling like life is a struggle constantly."
He pulled her close. "For you sweetcheeks anything." She smiled and enjoyed being in his arms.
"Well Miss Dah-veed what's it to be?" I escort you to Moniques' or a nightcap at The Savoy?" Ziva pulled his head down and kissed him. It was slow and filled with emotion. Tony groaned and slipped his tongue between her lips. It was drug inducing the way she made him feel.
Ziva pulled back for air.
"A nightcap sounds good." She said huskily.
Ziva suddenly felt nervous Israel had been different she knew Tony was leaving. Now all she knew was a part of her soul had returned, could she let him go again? Did she want to? Would having sex cloud the issue? So many questions.
Tony could sense her hesitation. God he wanted her. He always had but if she wasn't sure. He had taken off his jacket, tie and shoes.
"Ziva hey?" He bent down next to the chair. "Stay the night and just cuddle. No pressure, I just want you next to me."
She took a deep breath stood up and took his hand. His care and consideration of her never failed to move her.
"Okay my love. First you should take a shower." Tony laughed he knew she was joking but it was such a comment from old times.
Tony spooned Ziva inhaling the fragrance of her hair. She was wearing her underwear a matching set of lace and silk in a deep shade of red.
He moved her hair and began to kiss his way from her ear round to the sweet spot on her neck. She moaned. He felt himself getting hard. God he wanted her but he had said cuddling.
"Tony this time be honest cheri that is definitely not your knee!" He grinned.
"No Ziva it isn't it's a natural reaction to being close to a nearly naked ninja."
She rolled over so she was on top of him. She felt his erection harden even more. Her eyes widened. She could feel herself getting wet knowing he wanted her so much. She bent down and began to feather kisses across his face. All the while gently clasping his hands.
"No DiNozzo. You will get your turn later my love." Ziva caressed the bulge in his boxers. She unhooked her bra. She used to worry about her breasts not being big enough but she knew Tony loved them.
He reached up tweaking one firm nipple making her gasp. He gave the other one equal attention with his clever mouth sucking, gently biting sending her into a frenzy of need.
"Ziva tell me what you want." He commanded. His fingers grazed her panties making her jerk.
"You Tony I want you. There, where your fingers are." Tony slipped one finger gently thru her folds she was soaking.
He slowly pulled her panties down never losing eye contact. God he wanted this woman forever, she was part of him.
Ziva smiled all shyness gone. "Your turn Tony. " She yanked his blue boxers down.
He pulled her to him enjoying the feeling of no clothes between them. Ziva raised herself up and very carefully took him inside her. She paused eyes wide she hadn't had sex since Israel and Tony was well endowed. Tony grabbed her hips the movement bringing him in fully stretching her.
"Oh." She gasped. Tony stilled found her clit and began to rub her nub gently, teasing. Ziva felt white heat shoot thru her. Tony knew she was getting close and began to move matching her stroke for stroke. Ziva tensed and felt pleasure shoot thru her. Feeling her release Tony jerked up and felt his own spill forth. Ziva collapsed exhausted. Tony kissed the top of her head pulling the quilt over them.
Ziva woke up pleasantly sore and aching in places not used for a long time. They had made love another twice the connection deeper each time. Panic hit her in waves they hadn't used contraception. Last time she wound up pregnant.
"Ziva what's wrong are you having regrets? " His rough voice made her stir he knew her too well.
"We did not use birth control and I am not on the pill." Tony scratched his head."Ziva I have never had any scares am sure it will be fine."
Ziva sat up in her distress not realizing what she was about to reveal. "No Tony after last time I cannot do this again." Tony also sat up his mind whirling. Ziva began to search for her underwear cheeks burning.
"Last time? Last time was Israel! Ziva what the hell are you talking about?"
"Our child Tony. Our baby who my useless body couldn't even carry." She began to sob. Tony sank back stunned. A child of Ziva and his he had dreamt it of course little ninjas with dark curls the DiNozzo smile.
"What happened you were having my baby and didn't see fit to tell me?"
Ziva was pulling on her dress tears streaking her face. "Do not Tony you have NO idea! I was coming back to you for our child. Only there was no heartbeat only twelve weeks and she was gone. Two years ago this week. I am going all we do is tear each other apart. This baby was not meant because we would be no good as parents. Goodbye Tony." She fled the room her heart breaking. Tony felt tears course down his face the perfect date, ended perfectly wrong.
