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Chapter 6 More and More


"Guess it's true, I'm not good at a one-night stand
But I still need love 'cause I'm just a man
These nights never seem to go to plan
I don't want you to leave, will you hold my hand?
Oh, won't you stay with me?
'Cause you're all I need
This ain't love it's clear to see
But darling, stay with me"

God it felt amazing. Being pressed up against him. His arms wrapped tightly around me, keeping us together. We had barely made it back into his apartment before he was kissing me. My hands framed his face as the kiss continued. I felt my back press up again his door. I groaned this was too much at once. The kiss deepened. My hands moved down his face to his neck and chest resting there. The banquet was a disaster thanks to your truly. Well not completely but in my mind it was. He made the night worth it though. I broke away from the kiss with a gasp. We were both breathing heavy. I knew what he wanted and trust me I was ready to give it to him. The need having been there since day one. It needed to be fed. With what had been revealed to me tonight about the plan with the Erudite still pained me. Why did Jeanine know about my defiance? I knew that Eric had a part of it.

"What?" He asked softly and shook my head moving away from him. I could feel his eyes on my back as I walked over to his couch. Tripping over my own feet. Damn these heals. Falling into the couch I growled to myself. I could hear him laugh softly behind me.

"Shut up." I was laughing too as I pulled the heals from my feet. He disappeared over to the kitchen and returned with a few glasses and a bottle. He set the glasses down on his coffee table and began to pour a clear liquid into them. I wasn't a fan of liquor but I did not mind to partake. "Eric, I'm sorry for tonight." I said as he handed me a glass. He just shrugged and took his own drink in hand and gulped it. I played with the glass in my hand for a moment before looking at him.

"Jeanine will get over it." He said still gulping at his drink before finishing it off. He was pouring his second before I took a single sip. I took a gulp of mine quickly and set my glass back on the table. He was going in for another gulp as I gripped his hand stopping him.

"No, I put you in a bad situation." I moved closer. "I should have kept my mouth shut." I took his glass from him and took a gulp. He raised an eyebrow at my actions and watch me put the glass on the table. "I will be a part of the program." I said without thinking. I don't know why I suddenly agreed to do it but something willed me forward. The questions I had needed to be answered. Maybe I could help him, or stop a massacre. I only knew I had to do something.

"Really?" He asked and smirked. He raised his hand and brushed his fingers across my cheek.

"On my own terms, Eric." I said as he leaned forward. The liquor had made me dizzy. I was a true light weight. He nodded and claimed another kiss. Heat flew through my body and I pulled away. "What's in that stuff?" He laughed and grabbed his glass drinking it.

"Only the good stuff." I reached for my glass and sipped at it. "I think it used to be called vodka." I nodded. The old world existed in the back of my mind. "You need to get out of that dress."

"You don't say." I said turning to him. His arms were around me again and he pulled me closer. The glasses disappeared. His lips were on mine. The kisses did not lack in need for either of us. His hands found the zipper to my dress and began to pull. Something in me stopped him. He looked at me questionably. "I'm sorry." I gasped and stood up, wobbling as I walked to the door. I don't know why my mind and body didn't agree at that moment.

"Avery stay." He said as he followed me. I brought my hands up to his chest and sighed.

"I want you." I whispered as he came closer. "Trust me, I've wanted this for as long as I can remember." He pulled me into another kiss and I groaned. I broke away and placed my fingertips to his lips. He smirked. His evil smirk. "I want this in love not lust." I said his smirk fading. I was serious. We search each other's eyes. He nodded slowly and stepped away from me. I took that as his understanding and said goodnight. I was soon in my own apartment staring at myself in the mirror. Wouldn't it have been so bad to just to give it over to him? I couldn't do it. How did I know that what he felt for me was true? I took my dress off and tossed over the back of a chair. I tossed on a tank top and a pair of boy short cut underwear. Returning to the bathroom I washed the makeup from my face. Throwing myself on my bed I tried to force him from my mind. Staring at the roof over my head I groaned. The need only building as I continued to think about him. I looked to my bed side clock. It was four in the morning. We had gotten back around midnight and I spent a short time with him in his apartment. I had been trying to sleep for the past two hours.

Frustrated I left my bed and found myself standing outside his door not even bothering to put any pants on. My hand raised to knock but I didn't. Reaching for the nob I turned it. It was unlocked. Stepping in I closed the door quietly behind me. Glancing around his dark apartment I found him. He was still awake. My breathing was ragged as I stared at him. He sat on his couch with a glass in hand. The moon light came in through the window behind him. He hadn't changed out of his outfit from earlier. He didn't say anything only stared at me. I was very aware of how little I wore. At least I was still covered for the most part. I approached him. I noticed the bottle on the table empty, his glass showing the last remains of the evil liquid. I stood before him and took the glass from his hand. I finished it in one gulp. Looking down at him I moved to straddle him. The glass disappeared. His hands lightly moved up my bare thighs to rest on my hips. I leaned forward and kissed him. He groaned and pulled me tight against him. I felt heavy. The drink hitting me. I focused on him. I let his lips travel down my neck. Leaning back I grabbed his shoulders. I closed my eyes at the feeling. My own fingers found the front of his vest and began undoing buttons till it was gone.

"Avery?" My fingers stopped on the last button of his shirt. Looking down at him I waited. His hands came up to frame my face. He pulled me into a light kiss before moving back. "Wake up." What? I laughed a little.

"I am awake." I whispered. His face turned to a glare and he shook his head.

"No." I brought my hands up to his face. He felt real. "I said wake up." His arms came out and pushed me from him.

My body jerked up from the bed. I was covered in sweat. Gasping I looked at the bedside clock. It was seven o clock on a Sunday. The only day off anyone ever really got. Sitting up I pulled my knees to my chest. How much of that was a dream? I saw my red dress still draped over a chair. I must have passed out and me going to his apartment was the dream. This was going to suck. Late nights of no sleep. I wondered if he felt the same. I rolled out of bed and slid into a pair of jeans. I wondered around my apartment for a moment. Trying to recall all the events from last night. I had agreed to be a part of the program with Erudite. Erudite had a plan to track down and kill innocent people and they were going to use the Dauntless to do it. I jumped to sit on my counter. Chewing on a piece of stale bread I worked through more thoughts. I needed to know more. I needed to know why? Society worked as it was, why hunt down and kill people? A light knock came to my door. It was an unfamiliar sound to me. The last week Eric never bothered to knock. I called out that the door was open. In stepped Eric. I gave him a meek smile as he approached me.

"How did you sleep?" He came to stand between my legs. Resting his hands on the counter either side of me. I shook my head.

"Not good." My hands came up to his face as I leaned forward.

"Same here." He whispered and laid my head on his shoulder. I wrapped my arms underneath his and around him. He did the same lightly rubbing my back. "I got an idea to help make you sleep." He chuckled and I shook my head. I leaned back away from him.

"Nice try." He smirked. "I want to know everything about the project Eric." His smile faded and he nodded.

"Get dressed." I did as I was told. I pulled on my boots and a jacket. He led me to his office. He pulled a file out of his desk. I flipped through it briefly. "Right now the serum cannot detect if a person is Divergent or not."

"Then how do we know that they even exist." I asked sitting on his desk. He leaned back in his chair.

"When they take their aptitude tests, the results come back with multiple factions, not just one."

"They why aren't they dealt with then." I asked. Eric shrugged.

"All we know is that certain factions harbor Divergent's and that the ones who administer the tests are letting them slip into those factions."

"Which factions?"

"Abnegation and Amity." I stared at him for a moment. Something inside me screamed. "What is it?" He asked. I guessed he saw the look on my face. Memories faded back to me about my past.

"Has Jeanine been hunting Divergent's long?" Eric sat forward in his chair and shrugged.

"For as long as I can remember, before I deflected." I sighed. I was connected to all this somehow, I knew that my parents had something to do with it. I only had brief memories of them. My step parents or should I say the people who took me in after they disappeared never offered an explanation to it. I had to do some recon on it. I handed the file back to Eric.

"It doesn't make sense. People deflect and it shows defiance toward the system." Eric turned back to me after he filed the folder in his desk drawer. "But there is a test that tells us to be defiant." He smirked.

"Right now we should be concerned with those who wish to over throw the government." I nodded. "If we look at every case we would be here for centuries."

"Wait who is planning to over throw the government?" This was a newer development to me. Eric watched me for a moment before he stood. He did not answer my question. I looked up at him from my seat on his desk. He leaned in and gave me a gentle kiss. He was avoiding it. I sighed when he stepped back.

"Let's get breakfast." My stomach must have heard him because on queue it grumbled at me. I nodded. I would let the question past for now but I would ask again.

"Why am I so emotional?
No it's not a good look, gain some self control
And deep down I know this never works
But you can lay with me so it doesn't hurt
Oh, won't you stay with me?
'Cause you're all I need
This ain't love it's clear to see
But darling, stay with me"


A/N: Stay with me – Mary J. Blige, cover by Sofia Karlberg, youtube is great. Hope everyone enjoyed.