A long Awaited Talk

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"She kissed me."

Those words had been stuck in Jack's head since he had hung up with Kevin, he couldn't seem to wrap his mind around it. He wasn't sure if he was angry, sad, or both. He knew that she was going through a lot and she probably wasn't thinking about what she was doing. All he wanted was for her to be back in his arms, for her to be happy again, for his family to be whole again.

Thirty minutes later Kevin heard a knock on the door, he knew that it was Jack and that this was not going to be fun. He slowly made his way out of his chair and over to the door, trying to be as quiet as possible so he did not wake up Kate.

"Hey Kevin," Jack said as Kevin opened the door, "thanks so much for calling me."

"Like I said Jack, that's what I'm here for," Kevin replied.

"How long has she been asleep?" Jack asked him as he looked towards her.

"About forty-five minutes or so," Kevin told him with a sad smile.

"What did she say to you?" He asked Kevin hoping that it would give him answers as to what was going on with her.

"She told me that it was her fault she lost the baby, and that you hated her for it." Kevin told him, "I told her that you loved her, but that's when she kissed me and told me she wanted to be with me again." "She didn't mean it Jack, she is just depressed, she just isn't thinking."

"I know," Jack, answered him, "I scheduled a doctors appointment for her for tomorrow."

"I'm glad to hear that," Kevin said as he placed his hand on Jack.

"She hasn't been eating," Jack told him, "I'm really starting to worry about her."

"As long as she had you she will be fine," Kevin reassured him, "you will get her the help she needs." "Just remember that if you need anything, I'm here for you."

"Thanks," Jack said as he gave Kevin a smile.

"I will leave you two alone," Kevin said as he made his way down the hall towards his bedroom.

Jack made his way over to Kate; he couldn't help but notice how beautiful she was when she was sleeping. For the first time in a week she looked peaceful and not upset and out of control. He only wished that he knew what was going on with her, why was she acting like this? What was going on?

"Kate," Jack whispered softly in her ear, "Kate, it me Jack."

"Jack, what are you doing here?" she asked him.

"Kevin called me and told me that you were here and that you were really upset," Jack answered her.

"Jack, please just leave me alone," she said once she figured out what was going on.

He wished that he could just leave her alone and things would all work out, but he knew that by leaving her alone it was only going to get worse. He knew that the best thing to do was to get her help; she needed to talk to someone about what she was going through.

"I can't do that," Jack replied, "I can't watch you do this to yourself."

"I'm fine," she told him, "I don't need you to fix me."

She knew that he was right, that she needed to get help because if she didn't get it soon she was going to have a serious problem, but she didn't care anymore.

"Please Kate, please talk to me," he pleaded with her, "I just want to know what's going on."

"Nothing," she snapped, "nothing is going on."

"So refusing to eat, running away, and kissing your ex-boyfriend is nothing now?" Jack asked her as he began to feel the anger building.

"I have been eating!" She snapped back at him.

"Not much," he told her.

"Why do you care?" She asked him.

"Do you even have to ask that question," he asked her, "I love you, that's why."

"How can you love me after what I did?" she said as she began to sob.

"It's not your fault," he whispered to her as he pulled her into his arms.

"Then why does it feel like it?" She asked through her sobs.

"I don't know," he replied, "but we are going to get through this."

"I don't think I can do this anymore," she said as she brushed the tears away from her face.

"Do what?" He asked unsure of what she was talking about.

"I can't pretend that everything is going to be okay," she replied, "that one day I will wake up and feel whole again."

"Kate it's not going to be easy, but we are going to get through this." He said as he pulled he back into a hug.

"I just want to go home," she said as she pulled away from him her eyes looking hollow and broken.

"Okay, we can go home," he told her, "but tomorrow I think we need to have a doctor look at you."

"No, I'm fine!" Kate yelled at him, "I don't need help, I just need you to leave me alone!"

This was the last straw for Jack, something inside him snapped and he just lost it.

"Kate, whatever you are trying to accomplish by putting everyone through this, you need to stop!" He yelled at her. "Can't you see that we are all hurting, that you are not the only one going through this?" "It's time for you to accept the fact that the baby is never coming back, no matter what you do, you can't change what happened!"

"I'm sorry that I can't be just like you!" She screamed at him.

"I'm not asking you to be, I'm asking you to get help!" he shouted back.

Kate had finally had enough; she slowly stood up and began to make her way to the door. She just couldn't take it anymore she felt so alone, so disconnected from everyone, most of all Jack. She knew that every word that he had said was true, that he loved her and she needed to get help, but the truth was that she didn't want to she didn't want to get better.

"Where are you going?" Jack asked as he began to panic for fear that she was going to run away again.

"I'm leaving," she told him as the tears formed behind her eyes.

"Please Kate, lets just get you some help," he pleaded with her trying to get her to realize that it was going to be okay.

"You can't help me," she whispered as she turned towards the door placing her hand on the handle.

Just as she was about to turn it she felt his hand on hers stopping her from opening the door.

"We can get through this, you aren't alone," he reassured her, "I will be with you through this."

She turned and threw herself into him crying harder than she did before; he put his arms around her and pulled her closer to him whisper to her that it was going to be okay.

"Can we go home?" She asked him once again.

"Yes, but you have to promise not to run from me again." He answered her.

"Jack, I'm so sorry for everything," She apologized, "I'm so sorry."

"It's okay," he told her, "I love you and I'm going to get you through this."

Authors note: Thanks for all the comments. Kate is finally going to get some help but her problems are far from over. Please comments and let me know what you think about this chapter.