Entry Six: Oh,
I feel simply awful. Today was not a day that I wish to go through
again, and yet, I have no doubt at all that it will be the first of
many, many more than I wish to experience. I have found yet another
curse of this so called gift. Why is it that Moreta told not of her
experiences with such things as the flight of a proddy green!? I
am Nine Turns now. I feel dirty. Should I? Once again I have come
across something that I cannot control, and though I am not the most
controlling of people, it bothers me. I think my luck, and the memory
of Faranth that I was within my own room when the green gave that ear
splitting scream and took to the skies. I think the great golden
Faranth that my door was locked. I thank her yet again that I lost
consciousness when the green was caught. But still, I remember
feelings that I am sure one of my age should not be privy to. It
disturbs me greatly. I know that Greens have flown often since
I was six, that first day that the world of dragon voices began as a
horrible buzz within my ears, but this is the first to effect me. I
am not sure why, but I believe it is because I have spoken to the
green in question, and as such my mind was linked that much closer to
her. Or perhaps it is simply because I am now nine, and though I am
yet to enter the section of my life known as 'puberty' I am in no
way as immature as my age-mates. I am probably a lot more mature than
a lot of girls older than myself. I am not sure if that is a good
thing or a bad thing. I guess it doesn't really matter, since there
isn't all that much that I can do about it is there? I spoke
to Navinkath after her flight. She said that she was greatly honoured
that I accompanied her and Hers in the experience. I told her about
how I felt, and she said that it was simply because I am a Hatchling,
and she will talk to the other greens. Nivinkath contacted me a short
while ago. She says that the other greens will refrain from sharing
their Flights with me. I am more grateful than I can ever explain,
though I have promised that when I am older, I will accompany
Navinkath on a flight, and I will find myself a partner with which to
experience it with. She says she would be most honoured. Why
would my accompaniment honour her? I am confused by this, but she
refused to explain, or perhaps she could not. -
