Chapter 7:
It's been running round my head
Running round my head
Try'na find the way
To forget it get it
Baby it's just too close...
Baby you still too close...
Try'na look ahead
Try'na look ahead
Gotta way to go before I can admit it
Too close...
Baby you still too close...
If you ask me how I feel... I'll say
I'm doing good
I'm doing fine
Hoping this smile hides the pain that's inside
I'm doing good
I'm doing fine
Don't ask again I might break down and cry
Am I ever-ever gone forget it
Don't wanna spend my life regretting
I just wanna leave you behind
I'm doing fine fine fine
Got me pinned against the wall
Waiting for your call
Better let it ring
Six times before
I pick it up you too close
Baby you just too close
Don't wanna let you see
What's inside of me
Just incase you see the shape of my heart
It's all twisted and broken
If you ask me how I feel... I'll say
I'm doing good
I'm doing fine
Hoping this smile hides the pain that's inside
I'm doing good
I'm doing fine
Don't ask again I might break down and cry
Am I ever-ever gone forget it
Don't wanna spend my life regretting
I just wanna leave you behind
I'm doing fine fine fine
Ask me I'll say... I'm doin fine
Mandy Capristo finishes the song, letting the loud applause fill the atmosphere which she tops with pride.
So far, it's been a pretty good day. The twelve thousand people who bought the tickets to attend the "Aching hearts" beneficial concert series seemed all to be here. The O2 Stadium is beyond full. People are screaming, dancing, having a good time. Even the CDs are almost all sold out. All in all, it's a pretty successfull event.
I grin as I watch Mandy walking off the stage. Seconds later Justin Timberlake walks on stage, leaving the girls breathless and the guys screaming like the girls should. Yeah, Justin is definitely one of the many highlights I made sure the event would have. Exclusive songs... Exclusive meetings backstage with the stars... All the help heartsick people.
"Hey," I hear Lucas voice, before I feel his hand around my waist. "I bought you something to drink." he says, handing me a glass with water.
"Thanks." I say before taking a sip of the icy cold water. It's beyond hot today, but that didn't keep the people from storming into the stadium as soon as we opened the gates.
Mmmmmm
Hey, yeah yeah yeah I'm in love with you...
you didn't have to run
I knew it was love from a mile away
but I had to catch ya
been running through my mind all day
baby
and they'll say I'm crazy
'cause anybody even when your father say
that I can't be with you
I don't hear a word they say
"He's amazing." Lucas says, listening to Justin's song.
cause I'm in love with that girl
so don't be mad at me
cause I'm in love with that girl
so don't be mad at me
so what you're from the other side of the track
so what the world don't think we match
i put it down like my loves on wax
guess what
im in love with that girl
cause she told me that shes in love with me
"Where's Miley?" I ask him, looking around. She's on stage next.
"In the dressing room with Selena. They've been babbling the whole day..." Lucas says sighing before shaking his head. "Women."
I let out a laugh, "What do you want? They haven't seen each other since nearly three months now. Miley and Selena were inseparable."
"Is Selena part of your family?" he asks me with a raised eyebrow.
now we didnt have to fall
but we fell in love to the bottom babe
no one there to catch us
like when you fell from heaven that day
baby
people always starin
but i dont even care nothing about it
babe
cause since i saw your face
ive been starin just the same
yeah mmmmm
"She's pretty close to us." I answer his question, "But no, she's not part of the family... She didn't go through the shit we all did. She's a... An innocent soul. Kind of like you." I say smirking.
"But I do belong, don't I?"
so dont be mad at me
cause im in love with that girl
so dont be mad at me
so what you're from the other side of the track
so what the world dont think we match
i put it down like my loves on wax
guess what
im in love with that girl
cause she told me that shes in love with me
I pull him into a hugg, "Don't you worry, you will always belong to us. We need at least one innocent soul in our family. For the balance of the universe." I say, showing him the tip of my tongue.
He laughs, before he shakes his head. "I would get Miley, but she just... She missed Selena so much."
I nodd, "I know..."
my pretty lady
youll always be my baby, baby, baby
its so amazing
how you became my baby, baby, baby
my little daisy
come here let me rock you like a baby, baby, baby
pretty lady
dont you know youll always be my baby, baby, baby
"Aren't you jealous?" he asks me suddenly.
"Of who?"
"Selena."
"Jealous? Me and jealous? I don't get jealous easily, Luc. I have trust in those I am with. I have trust in what I am doing. I know that she loves us all... But are... Are you maybe jealous?"
now dont it seem like these days
that everybodys got something to say
but i dont pay attention to the talk baby
and i dont really care
if they stop and stare
cause they see my number one
my number one girl
His answer is filled with a shrugg, "I don't know. I mean, Selena seems to be a wonderfull young woman it's just..."
"You feel like the third wheel." I finish his sentence.
He shruggs again before I pull him into another hugg. "Lucas, you are no third wheel. You belong to us. To all of us. I mean, even Kelsi accepted you - and she's a real big barrier." I say and laugh a little.
He nodds, "Is it weird for me to have those thoughts?"
i told you im in love with that girl
so dont be mad at me
im in love with that girl
oh no no
so dont be mad at me
i dont care
so what your from the other side of the track
so what the world dont think we match
i put it down like my loves on wax
guess what
im in love with that girl
cause she already told me that shes in love with me
haaahhhhhhh ooooooooooo
"Yeah, it really is." Miley jumps in. "You should know by now, that you are above everyone else. Above Ryan and Kelsi. Even above you, Gabs. I'm sorry."
I shrugg as a response. I know how she feels like. I felt the same way. Somehow, I still feel that way.
"And you certainly are above Selena Gomez." she says, hugging him softly before kissing him quick. "Okay?"
"Okay..." he whispers back. I didn't think Lucas would have such a sensible side...
I smile at the both of them. They seem so happy. So in love. "Miley, I'm sorry to interrupt you guys, but-"
"I know." she says, holding up her hand. "I'll see you two after I've rocked that stage!" she says, before walking off.
im in love
yes im in love with that girl
i dont care what people say
people say
see
im in love with that girl
Justin leaves the stage, letting Miley taking over. The screaming fans nearly explode as they see the 21-year old blonde walking on stage. After greeting them really quick she starts playing at the piano.
Well it's good to hear your voice
I hope you're doing fine,
And if you ever wonder
I'm lonely here tonight
I'm lost here in this moment
And time keeps slippin' by
And if I could have just one wish, I'd have you by my side.
Ohhou, I miss you, Ohhou, I need you.
I look over my shoulder, seeing pride and love sparkling in Lucas' emerald colored orbs. God, he madly deeply in love with her. Head over heels.
And I love you more than I did before,
And if today I don't see you're face
Nothin's changed no one can take you're place,
It gets harder every day.
Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry it's this way.
But I'm comin' home, I'll be comin' home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay.
Well I try to live without you,
The tears drop from my eyes.
I'm alone and I feel empty,
God I'm torn apart inside.
I look up at the stars,
Hopin' you're doin the same.
And somehow I feel closer,
And I can hear you say...
Ohhou, I miss you, Ohhou, I need you.
I love you more than I did before,
And if today I don't see you're face
Nothin's changed no one can take you're place,
It gets harder every day.
Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry it's this way.
But I'm comin' home, I'll be comin' home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay, always stay.
Miley finishes the song, letting every one of us breathless for a second or two. The complete silence in the stadium makes the goosebumps on my skin grow, before they vanish due to the applause which fills the huge stadium. The blonde grins, before she introduces her friend, Selena Gomez.
The brunette storms the stage, making the many fans go even crazier than they already were. Without a word, Selena starts singing.
Nows all we got and time can't be bought.
I know it inside my heart forever will forever be ours.
Even if we try to forget, love will remember.
You said you love me, I said I loved you back
What happened to that, what happened to that
All your promises, and all them plans we had,
What happened to that, what happened to that
Boom gone, yeah we move on, even if we try to forget,
Love will remember you, love will remember me
I know it inside of my heart,
Forever will forever be ours, even if we try to forget,
Love will remember, love will remember
Love will remember, love will remember, love will remember
The trips we dreamed of taking the tacks left on the map,
What happened to that, what happened to that
When all you had was nothing, and all we did was laugh
What happened to that, what happened, what happened to that
Boom gone, yeah we move on, even if we try to forget
Love will remember you, love will remember me
I know it inside of my heart,
Forever will forever be ours, even if we try to forget,
Love will remember, love will remember
Love will remember, love will remember, love will remember
Break down the walls let heaven in, somewhere and forever we'll dance again,
We used to be inseparable, I used to think that I was irreplaceable
We lit the whole world up, before we blew it up,
I still just don't know, how we screwed it up
Forever, forever, forever
Love will remember you, love will remember me
I know it inside of my heart,
Forever will forever be ours, even if we try to forget,
Love will remember, love will remember
Love will remember, love will remember, love will remember
Selena leaves us breathless as well. We all could feel the pain she had felt when she recorded and written it with me. It was not an easy time. But we made it through... We all did. Some better than others.
I frown as Selena winks towards me. Is she winking me on the stage? Oh no, not with me, brunette singer!
I shake my head, feeling safe and sound right where I am.
Miley frowns before she runs towards me. "Come on, it's the finale song of the concert. All the singers will sing it together. Including you, since you have an amazing voice and you wrote the song with OneRepublic."
My mouth drops open. Me on the stage? I haven't been on a stage since years. The last time I actually performed on a stage was in Julliard... That seems like in another life.
"Miley, I-"
"No. You will come on stage. We all want you on stage." Ryan Tedder, the singer says to me smiling like crazy. He holds out his hand. "Come on." he says, leaning his head towards the right.
I sigh, "Fine! Fine, I'll do it!"
"Yay!" Miley screams.
"Good, because your part is the bridge - with me." Ryan mumbles as we walk on stage, on which Justin Timberlake, Nicole Scherzinger, Selena Gomez, Rihanna, Leslie Clio, Mandy Capristo and the band from OneRepublic is already performing.
A weird feeling overcomes me. Is it my nervousness? I doubt it. Nervousness feels different. But what is it then?
I guess this is what it's supposed to feel like
When we don't talk, no we don't talk, we don't talk anymore.
I guess this is what it's supposed to sound like
The universe, the universe, universe is torn.
I know I can live without you
I can live without you half the day, heeeay hey
I know I can live without you
And put life off for another day
hey-hey yeah hey-hey yeeeah
But I can't stop
Thinking about.. thinking about us
Anymore oooh oh
I said I can't stop
Thinking about.. thinking about us
Anymore ooh oh
I said I can't stop.. no
Thinking about.. thinking about this
Anymore ooh oh
And all I've got.. uuuh
Is nothing I want
Anymore ooh oh
No I never get used to silence
But I don't hear, no I don't hear
I don't hear you anymore.
I know I had to look hard to find it
Everything, everything,
Everything is gone.
I don't want to live without you
And put life off for another day
hey-hey yeah hey-hey yeeeah
But I can't stop
Thinking about.. thinking about us
Anymore oooh oh
I said I can't stop
Thinking about.. thinking about us
Anymore ooh oh
I said I can't stop.. no
Thinking about.. thinking about this
Anymore ooh oh
And all I've got.. uuuh
Is nothing I want
Anymore ooh oh
I can see stars, I can see our lights
and I swear that they're shining here
I can see stars, I can see lights... shining here.
But I can't stop
Thinking about.. thinking about us
Anymore oooh oh
I said I can't stop
Thinking about.. thinking about us
Anymore ooh oh
I said I can't stop.. no
Thinking about.. thinking about this
Anymore ooh oh
And all I've got.. uuuh
Is nothing I want
Anymore ooh oh
uuuh uuuh uuuh uuuh
As we all finish the song, I feel a tear rolling down my cheek. Partly, because this is all over and I am so proud and partly because I fucking miss him. Now more than ever.
I hate him.
And I love him.
Forever.
We all walk off the stage and I hand the microphone to grinning Kelsi, who says the last words to the fans before we let them out.
Hours later, I am still helping to clean everything up at the O2 Studio. All the singers left an hour ago, but not before signing every single of the twelve thousand CDs. It was an amazing night. An amazing day. A day to remember.
"I'm heading home. Do you want me to drive you?" Lucas asks me.
I turn around, "I thought you were already home. With Miley."
He shakes his head, "She's staying overnight at Selena's hotel. A girl's night out."
"Mhm..." I say, already knowing what that means. Clubbing for the whole night.
"I know." he says, agreeing with me. "I just hope, she won't overdo it."
I shake my head, "Don't you worry about Mils, Luc. Sel is going to have a really good eye on her. We all know what effect alcohol has on her... She's going to be fine. Trust me."
"I do." he says, quicker than I could say any more.
I smile. "Of course you do."
"So, shall I drive you home or not?"
I frown. Suddenly I know why I had this feeling earlier on stage. Suddenly I know what this feeling was. To which emotion it belongs to. Or rather to whom it belongs to.
"He was here, wasn't he?" I ask him carefully. Perhaps my insticts foul me. It's not like it would be the first time after all.
His smile vanishes. His bright green eyes widen. But he remains silent.
"Am I right?" I ask him slowly.
His lips are still closed. Is he keeping a secret from me?
"Am I right, Lucas?"
"Yes." he says with clenched teeth. "I asked him not to, but he-"
"He was here anyways." I say as he nodds. "The whole night?"
He shakes his head in response, "No. Just the last... performance. I spotted him behind all these fans. He just stood there. Watching the concert. Listening to the songs. To the lyrics... to you." he says with a shrugg.
"You said he would come on monday."
He shruggs again, "Guess he took a plane ealier..."
I shake my head, "I can't believe he was here." Why didn't he talk to me? Why didn't he... I shake my head again. No, this is... "Where is he now?"
Lucas answer is filled with another shrugg. "I have no idea. He didn't call me when he landed. It surprised me just as much as you."
"So, you has no idea as well?"
"No idea..." he mumbles. I wonder if he's lieing to me again.
"Really?"
"Would I lie to you?"
"I don't know. Would you?"
He frowns at me. "For Troy, I would. Even for Miley..."
"See?" I say.
"But I'm not lieing." he ensures me.
I nodd, although my instincts tell me otherwise.
A new chapter! Please review! :)
Xoxo Nic
