Chapter 7:

It's been running round my head

Running round my head

Try'na find the way

To forget it get it

Baby it's just too close...

Baby you still too close...

Try'na look ahead

Try'na look ahead

Gotta way to go before I can admit it

Too close...

Baby you still too close...

If you ask me how I feel... I'll say

I'm doing good

I'm doing fine

Hoping this smile hides the pain that's inside

I'm doing good

I'm doing fine

Don't ask again I might break down and cry

Am I ever-ever gone forget it

Don't wanna spend my life regretting

I just wanna leave you behind

I'm doing fine fine fine

Got me pinned against the wall

Waiting for your call

Better let it ring

Six times before

I pick it up you too close

Baby you just too close

Don't wanna let you see

What's inside of me

Just incase you see the shape of my heart

It's all twisted and broken

If you ask me how I feel... I'll say

I'm doing good

I'm doing fine

Hoping this smile hides the pain that's inside

I'm doing good

I'm doing fine

Don't ask again I might break down and cry

Am I ever-ever gone forget it

Don't wanna spend my life regretting

I just wanna leave you behind

I'm doing fine fine fine

Ask me I'll say... I'm doin fine

Mandy Capristo finishes the song, letting the loud applause fill the atmosphere which she tops with pride.

So far, it's been a pretty good day. The twelve thousand people who bought the tickets to attend the "Aching hearts" beneficial concert series seemed all to be here. The O2 Stadium is beyond full. People are screaming, dancing, having a good time. Even the CDs are almost all sold out. All in all, it's a pretty successfull event.

I grin as I watch Mandy walking off the stage. Seconds later Justin Timberlake walks on stage, leaving the girls breathless and the guys screaming like the girls should. Yeah, Justin is definitely one of the many highlights I made sure the event would have. Exclusive songs... Exclusive meetings backstage with the stars... All the help heartsick people.

"Hey," I hear Lucas voice, before I feel his hand around my waist. "I bought you something to drink." he says, handing me a glass with water.

"Thanks." I say before taking a sip of the icy cold water. It's beyond hot today, but that didn't keep the people from storming into the stadium as soon as we opened the gates.

Mmmmmm

Hey, yeah yeah yeah I'm in love with you...

you didn't have to run

I knew it was love from a mile away

but I had to catch ya

been running through my mind all day

baby

and they'll say I'm crazy

'cause anybody even when your father say

that I can't be with you

I don't hear a word they say

"He's amazing." Lucas says, listening to Justin's song.

cause I'm in love with that girl

so don't be mad at me

cause I'm in love with that girl

so don't be mad at me

so what you're from the other side of the track

so what the world don't think we match

i put it down like my loves on wax

guess what

im in love with that girl

cause she told me that shes in love with me

"Where's Miley?" I ask him, looking around. She's on stage next.

"In the dressing room with Selena. They've been babbling the whole day..." Lucas says sighing before shaking his head. "Women."

I let out a laugh, "What do you want? They haven't seen each other since nearly three months now. Miley and Selena were inseparable."

"Is Selena part of your family?" he asks me with a raised eyebrow.

now we didnt have to fall

but we fell in love to the bottom babe

no one there to catch us

like when you fell from heaven that day

baby

people always starin

but i dont even care nothing about it

babe

cause since i saw your face

ive been starin just the same

yeah mmmmm

"She's pretty close to us." I answer his question, "But no, she's not part of the family... She didn't go through the shit we all did. She's a... An innocent soul. Kind of like you." I say smirking.

"But I do belong, don't I?"

so dont be mad at me

cause im in love with that girl

so dont be mad at me

so what you're from the other side of the track

so what the world dont think we match

i put it down like my loves on wax

guess what

im in love with that girl

cause she told me that shes in love with me

I pull him into a hugg, "Don't you worry, you will always belong to us. We need at least one innocent soul in our family. For the balance of the universe." I say, showing him the tip of my tongue.

He laughs, before he shakes his head. "I would get Miley, but she just... She missed Selena so much."

I nodd, "I know..."

my pretty lady

youll always be my baby, baby, baby

its so amazing

how you became my baby, baby, baby

my little daisy

come here let me rock you like a baby, baby, baby

pretty lady

dont you know youll always be my baby, baby, baby

"Aren't you jealous?" he asks me suddenly.

"Of who?"

"Selena."

"Jealous? Me and jealous? I don't get jealous easily, Luc. I have trust in those I am with. I have trust in what I am doing. I know that she loves us all... But are... Are you maybe jealous?"

now dont it seem like these days

that everybodys got something to say

but i dont pay attention to the talk baby

and i dont really care

if they stop and stare

cause they see my number one

my number one girl

His answer is filled with a shrugg, "I don't know. I mean, Selena seems to be a wonderfull young woman it's just..."

"You feel like the third wheel." I finish his sentence.

He shruggs again before I pull him into another hugg. "Lucas, you are no third wheel. You belong to us. To all of us. I mean, even Kelsi accepted you - and she's a real big barrier." I say and laugh a little.

He nodds, "Is it weird for me to have those thoughts?"

i told you im in love with that girl

so dont be mad at me

im in love with that girl

oh no no

so dont be mad at me

i dont care

so what your from the other side of the track

so what the world dont think we match

i put it down like my loves on wax

guess what

im in love with that girl

cause she already told me that shes in love with me

haaahhhhhhh ooooooooooo

"Yeah, it really is." Miley jumps in. "You should know by now, that you are above everyone else. Above Ryan and Kelsi. Even above you, Gabs. I'm sorry."

I shrugg as a response. I know how she feels like. I felt the same way. Somehow, I still feel that way.

"And you certainly are above Selena Gomez." she says, hugging him softly before kissing him quick. "Okay?"

"Okay..." he whispers back. I didn't think Lucas would have such a sensible side...

I smile at the both of them. They seem so happy. So in love. "Miley, I'm sorry to interrupt you guys, but-"
"I know." she says, holding up her hand. "I'll see you two after I've rocked that stage!" she says, before walking off.

im in love

yes im in love with that girl

i dont care what people say

people say

see

im in love with that girl

Justin leaves the stage, letting Miley taking over. The screaming fans nearly explode as they see the 21-year old blonde walking on stage. After greeting them really quick she starts playing at the piano.

Well it's good to hear your voice
I hope you're doing fine,
And if you ever wonder
I'm lonely here tonight
I'm lost here in this moment
And time keeps slippin' by
And if I could have just one wish, I'd have you by my side.

Ohhou, I miss you, Ohhou, I need you.

I look over my shoulder, seeing pride and love sparkling in Lucas' emerald colored orbs. God, he madly deeply in love with her. Head over heels.

And I love you more than I did before,
And if today I don't see you're face
Nothin's changed no one can take you're place,
It gets harder every day.
Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry it's this way.
But I'm comin' home, I'll be comin' home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay.

Well I try to live without you,
The tears drop from my eyes.
I'm alone and I feel empty,
God I'm torn apart inside.
I look up at the stars,
Hopin' you're doin the same.
And somehow I feel closer,
And I can hear you say...

Ohhou, I miss you, Ohhou, I need you.

I love you more than I did before,
And if today I don't see you're face
Nothin's changed no one can take you're place,
It gets harder every day.
Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry it's this way.
But I'm comin' home, I'll be comin' home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay, always stay.

Miley finishes the song, letting every one of us breathless for a second or two. The complete silence in the stadium makes the goosebumps on my skin grow, before they vanish due to the applause which fills the huge stadium. The blonde grins, before she introduces her friend, Selena Gomez.

The brunette storms the stage, making the many fans go even crazier than they already were. Without a word, Selena starts singing.

Nows all we got and time can't be bought.

I know it inside my heart forever will forever be ours.

Even if we try to forget, love will remember.

You said you love me, I said I loved you back

What happened to that, what happened to that

All your promises, and all them plans we had,

What happened to that, what happened to that

Boom gone, yeah we move on, even if we try to forget,

Love will remember you, love will remember me

I know it inside of my heart,

Forever will forever be ours, even if we try to forget,

Love will remember, love will remember

Love will remember, love will remember, love will remember

The trips we dreamed of taking the tacks left on the map,

What happened to that, what happened to that

When all you had was nothing, and all we did was laugh

What happened to that, what happened, what happened to that

Boom gone, yeah we move on, even if we try to forget

Love will remember you, love will remember me

I know it inside of my heart,

Forever will forever be ours, even if we try to forget,

Love will remember, love will remember

Love will remember, love will remember, love will remember

Break down the walls let heaven in, somewhere and forever we'll dance again,

We used to be inseparable, I used to think that I was irreplaceable

We lit the whole world up, before we blew it up,

I still just don't know, how we screwed it up

Forever, forever, forever

Love will remember you, love will remember me

I know it inside of my heart,

Forever will forever be ours, even if we try to forget,

Love will remember, love will remember

Love will remember, love will remember, love will remember

Selena leaves us breathless as well. We all could feel the pain she had felt when she recorded and written it with me. It was not an easy time. But we made it through... We all did. Some better than others.

I frown as Selena winks towards me. Is she winking me on the stage? Oh no, not with me, brunette singer!

I shake my head, feeling safe and sound right where I am.

Miley frowns before she runs towards me. "Come on, it's the finale song of the concert. All the singers will sing it together. Including you, since you have an amazing voice and you wrote the song with OneRepublic."

My mouth drops open. Me on the stage? I haven't been on a stage since years. The last time I actually performed on a stage was in Julliard... That seems like in another life.

"Miley, I-"

"No. You will come on stage. We all want you on stage." Ryan Tedder, the singer says to me smiling like crazy. He holds out his hand. "Come on." he says, leaning his head towards the right.

I sigh, "Fine! Fine, I'll do it!"

"Yay!" Miley screams.

"Good, because your part is the bridge - with me." Ryan mumbles as we walk on stage, on which Justin Timberlake, Nicole Scherzinger, Selena Gomez, Rihanna, Leslie Clio, Mandy Capristo and the band from OneRepublic is already performing.

A weird feeling overcomes me. Is it my nervousness? I doubt it. Nervousness feels different. But what is it then?

I guess this is what it's supposed to feel like

When we don't talk, no we don't talk, we don't talk anymore.

I guess this is what it's supposed to sound like

The universe, the universe, universe is torn.

I know I can live without you

I can live without you half the day, heeeay hey

I know I can live without you

And put life off for another day

hey-hey yeah hey-hey yeeeah

But I can't stop

Thinking about.. thinking about us

Anymore oooh oh

I said I can't stop

Thinking about.. thinking about us

Anymore ooh oh

I said I can't stop.. no

Thinking about.. thinking about this

Anymore ooh oh

And all I've got.. uuuh

Is nothing I want

Anymore ooh oh

No I never get used to silence

But I don't hear, no I don't hear

I don't hear you anymore.

I know I had to look hard to find it

Everything, everything,

Everything is gone.

I don't want to live without you

And put life off for another day

hey-hey yeah hey-hey yeeeah

But I can't stop

Thinking about.. thinking about us

Anymore oooh oh

I said I can't stop

Thinking about.. thinking about us

Anymore ooh oh

I said I can't stop.. no

Thinking about.. thinking about this

Anymore ooh oh

And all I've got.. uuuh

Is nothing I want

Anymore ooh oh

I can see stars, I can see our lights

and I swear that they're shining here

I can see stars, I can see lights... shining here.

But I can't stop

Thinking about.. thinking about us

Anymore oooh oh

I said I can't stop

Thinking about.. thinking about us

Anymore ooh oh

I said I can't stop.. no

Thinking about.. thinking about this

Anymore ooh oh

And all I've got.. uuuh

Is nothing I want

Anymore ooh oh

uuuh uuuh uuuh uuuh

As we all finish the song, I feel a tear rolling down my cheek. Partly, because this is all over and I am so proud and partly because I fucking miss him. Now more than ever.

I hate him.

And I love him.

Forever.

We all walk off the stage and I hand the microphone to grinning Kelsi, who says the last words to the fans before we let them out.


Hours later, I am still helping to clean everything up at the O2 Studio. All the singers left an hour ago, but not before signing every single of the twelve thousand CDs. It was an amazing night. An amazing day. A day to remember.

"I'm heading home. Do you want me to drive you?" Lucas asks me.

I turn around, "I thought you were already home. With Miley."

He shakes his head, "She's staying overnight at Selena's hotel. A girl's night out."

"Mhm..." I say, already knowing what that means. Clubbing for the whole night.

"I know." he says, agreeing with me. "I just hope, she won't overdo it."

I shake my head, "Don't you worry about Mils, Luc. Sel is going to have a really good eye on her. We all know what effect alcohol has on her... She's going to be fine. Trust me."

"I do." he says, quicker than I could say any more.

I smile. "Of course you do."

"So, shall I drive you home or not?"

I frown. Suddenly I know why I had this feeling earlier on stage. Suddenly I know what this feeling was. To which emotion it belongs to. Or rather to whom it belongs to.

"He was here, wasn't he?" I ask him carefully. Perhaps my insticts foul me. It's not like it would be the first time after all.

His smile vanishes. His bright green eyes widen. But he remains silent.

"Am I right?" I ask him slowly.

His lips are still closed. Is he keeping a secret from me?

"Am I right, Lucas?"

"Yes." he says with clenched teeth. "I asked him not to, but he-"

"He was here anyways." I say as he nodds. "The whole night?"

He shakes his head in response, "No. Just the last... performance. I spotted him behind all these fans. He just stood there. Watching the concert. Listening to the songs. To the lyrics... to you." he says with a shrugg.

"You said he would come on monday."

He shruggs again, "Guess he took a plane ealier..."

I shake my head, "I can't believe he was here." Why didn't he talk to me? Why didn't he... I shake my head again. No, this is... "Where is he now?"

Lucas answer is filled with another shrugg. "I have no idea. He didn't call me when he landed. It surprised me just as much as you."

"So, you has no idea as well?"

"No idea..." he mumbles. I wonder if he's lieing to me again.

"Really?"

"Would I lie to you?"

"I don't know. Would you?"

He frowns at me. "For Troy, I would. Even for Miley..."

"See?" I say.

"But I'm not lieing." he ensures me.

I nodd, although my instincts tell me otherwise.


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Xoxo Nic