Chapter 7
Comfort
Lance fought away tears as he sped toward home. Keith was being an ass but he was right. Lance had kickstarted his curse, he was the one that caused Keith to be upset. Yet why did Lance feel as if he had done nothing wrong?
The brunette brushed past Pidge, who watched him curiously. "Lance are you oka-" She started to ask. Lance waved his hand and sped away. Pidge tilted her head to the side and watched as he swam off towards the garden. She stopped fiddling with the plants in front of her. "Hey Hunk?" She called out. Hunk popped his head out from the nearby doorway and gave a soft smile.
"Yeah, Pidge?" He asked.
"I think Lance needs some help. He seemed to be upset about something." Hunk nodded and swam to her side.
"Let's go then. Tell Matt before you come with though. We don't want him freaking out again." Hunk chuckled and ruffled Pidge's hair. She nodded and darted inside to find her brother.
Shiro and Matt were curled up on the sofa together, Matt's fingers were running through his boyfriend's hair softly as they talked quietly. Pidge cleared her throat, startling the men. "What's up Pidge?" Matt asked. Pidge explained the situation and motioned towards the garden. Her brother nodded and gave a small smile while Shiro winced. "I shouldn't have been so harsh on the boys…" He whispered. Matt's eyes carried the pain that Shiro wouldn't show as he went back to running his fingers through his hair. Pidge waved to them and went back out to Hunk.
Hunk and Pidge made their way to the garden, passing Coran on their way. They waved and continued on their journey.
Lance had found a spot in the far corner of the garden. After making sure no one could find him easily, the repressed sobs came out. He pounded on the planters and sobbed until his throat was raw. It wasn't fair, Keith had his reasons to get mad but he should've realized that it wasn't Lance's fault!
Alerted by the sound of crying, Hunk and Pidge followed it until they found Lance. He had curled up on the ground, clutching his tail to his chest. Hunk quickly helped his friend up to a sitting position as Pidge found something for Lance to blow his nose with.
"H-He blamed everything on m-me a-a-and he was right! It's all my fault!" Lance wailed. He buried his face against Hunk's shoulder as Pidge rubbed his back. Hunk pulled Lance and Pidge into a bear hug, in hopes of calming Lance.
The trio sat together as it grew dark, Lance's cries stopped after a while. As he fought the numb feeling that ran rampant, Hunk left to go get them something to eat. Pidge furrowed her brows and sighed. "Lance… where did Keith go?" She asked. His shoulders slumped and he ran his fingers through his hair.
"He went to the drop off. I'm not sure where he is now, I left before he could see me cry."
Pidge's amber eyes widened when she heard this. The drop off was forbidden to go to, due to some horrible creatures that lived down there.
"He went to the drop off?! Lance do you remember how dangerous that is? He could get hurt!" She exclaimed. Lance had a sour look as he shrugged.
"Why should I care Pidge? He doesn't want me around." Pidge rolled her eyes and punched Lance's shoulder. "Don't talk that way, asshole. You know how upset he was. Remember that people say things they don't mean when they are pissed off."
Lance was silent before nodding, he was slowly understanding the situation….
I'm going to stop this here. You'd think that I would be heroic and go find my "soulmate" right? That would be the right thing to do. I didn't go and get him, not yet at least.
The pain I felt in those moments was too much to deal with immediately. I let it burn, I let the fires of hurt consume my heart and break me down from the inside out.
I was weak. I was vulnerable to everything. I was so, so weak. I did the worst thing possible, and now I live with the scars of my mistakes forever.
What did I do?
I won't explicitly state it.
Though, if you can cut away the past… shouldn't you be able to do the same thing to the present?
