Jay got Natalie out of the crib again, putting the crying baby down in the sling across his chest and he laid the baby down in the sling so he could move again and these for the moments he wished he could walk even more. He moved to the bedroom, Erin already sitting up in the pillows and he handed Natalie to her and she started to feed Natalie.

''Do I need to get out of bed to get things done?'' She asked but Jay shook his head. He insisted again on doing everything on his own today. He would care for Natalie and do the work in the house. A little later, Erin fell asleep again and Jay wanted to change Natalie and get her back to bed when she started to cry and Jay looked hopeless at the crying baby.

''Daddy is here, it is okay.'' Jay said as he took her on one arm, hugging her and took his phone out. Pushing the phone between his shoulder and ear he called Antonio and waited for him to take off the phone as he tried to comfort and silent Natalie, but she kept crying and he didn't know what to do.

''Jay, something wrong?'' Antonio asked worried as Jay called so early in the morning.

''Natalie is crying and I can't get her quiet. She keeps crying and I don't know what to do.'' Jay said softly as he didn't want Erin to hear.

''Did Erin feed her yet.''

''Yeah.''

''Did you burp her?'' Antonio asked and Jay hung up the phone, laying Natalie against his shoulder and after a minute, the baby burped and she stopped crying.

''That was what was bothering you, huh?'' Jay said as the baby smiled again now and he brought her back to her crib. Natalie was asleep again, with a small on her face and Jay leaned against the rail, his arm hanging over as he caressed her cheek. She was adorable with the pink cheeks, just like Erin had from time to time and he realized she looked a little like the both of them, although that wouldn't be clear until she was older, probably.

As Erin and Natalie were both asleep he cleaned the kitchen and made lunch for Erin and woke her up and Erin told him it was time for feeding again and he was a little surprised, but got Natalie, didn't know she needed to get fed again. He walked a few steps through the room, making sure he did what the therapist had told him as he wanted to be walking when Natalie learned how to walk. He wanted to hold her hand and assist her with the first steps. Erin looked exhausted again and Jay took Natalie from her. Natalie was crying and Jay tried to shoo her, cradling her in his arms and he tried to comfort her but she only started to cry louder and her face because even more red.

''You should change her nappy.'' Erin said then as she figured it was the problem and Jay looked a little scared but Erin was sure he would do great and Jay nodded, went to the changing table of the nursery with her and got Natalie undressed and got the nappy open and before he could even do something Natalie realized everything that was not in the diaper yet and Jay cleaned his hand with a wet wipe while Natalie just smiled on him.

''I had not expected this to happen on the third day...but you had to pee on your daddy sooner or later.'' Jay smirked and he realized he should wash Natalie, as she had her last bath in the hospital two days ago. Slowly he brought her to the bathroom and got a baby bath in the sink.

Natalie was laying on the towel, almost as if she was excited for her first bath and gave her daddy a smile again as if she signed she was ready for her bath and Jay smiled.

Jay wheeled to the sink, checking the water as he let the little baby bath tub stream full and he checked the water again, making sure the temperature was okay and carefully he lowered Natalie in the water, holding her tightly so she couldn't slip or he face could be in the water and she cried for a second when her hand touched the water but seemed to be okay with the water then. Carefully he grabbed the shampoo bottle but started to doubt then if he should use the baby soap or shampoo first and he looked at the bottles, Natalie slipping out of his hands for a second and her head was under water for less than an second and he lifted her up again, the baby girl crying and he wrapped the towel around her, crying hair and holding her in his arms.

''I am so so sorry. I am so sorry girl.'' He whispered and she stopped crying. When he finally calmed down himself she was smiling at him again and he tried not cry, knowing he messed up as he expected he would. Why did he mess up? It could have ended really bad! She could have gotten water in his lungs. Why was he stupid? Why did he mess up like expected!

Natalie was asleep again in his arms and he realized she was okay and finally he got her diaper on again and her clothes back on, realized she was okay and he shouldn't be so hard on himself. Sure, he messed up now, but he knew it wouldn't happen again, He would never get hurt again and he would never mess up again. He was going to be the best father he could. Slowly he brought her back to her room and laid her down in the crib with the rail down, kissing her on her forehead and caressed her cheek as his daughter remained asleep and he rolled her in the sheets with little ducks and she was still sleeping with the smile and her pink cheeks.

She seemed so peaceful, like everything in the world was right and he leaned closer to her.

''I know I really messed up back there but I love you, Natalie and I will try to be the best dad I can. I will look after you and protect you.'' He said softly and he left the room so the girl could sleep. Slowly he wheeled back to his bedroom and smiled as Erin was also asleep. His girls were both fine and asleep and he laid back on bed as well, tired from the day already and he dozed off for a second, woke up surprised as Erin was feeding Natalie again and it was a lot later.

''I am sorry, I should have gotten her for you.''

''It's okay.'' Erin said with a smile and he looked at his girls.

''I love you more than anything else in the world.'' He said and he was going to do his best to be the best father and boyfriend he could possibly be.


Note: Jay is trying to be the best father he can and hopefully he trust himself now, although he messed up, but Natalie is okay. Do you think he should tell Erin? What would happen if he told Erin?

On a side note, in my story everything that happened with Jin in the last few episodes did not happen in this story as the storyline was made before that. So he is not dead and still a proud member of the intelligence unit, working with Jay. As did Antonio not get shot and Laura didn't leave him etc.

I hope you liked this chapter and please leave a review with what you thought about it and what you still want to see in the story! In the next chapter Natalie will visit the station for the first time!

Thank you!