I felt it, I really felt that click in my head just like before, shit it felt the same, just like June, April fit. Shit she fit, I could feel familiar curves and it was the same. OK so maybe I was dead and and this was my personal hell, to relive over and over again.

I let my left hand slide down off the hand grip and on to Aprils leg and on down to her calf and gave it a squeeze, I felt her muscles flexing in tune with me and the beast my bike was. Oh sure she never rode before, but then again I thought the very same thing about my June. April, she felt the same, fact was they both felt the same, I couldn't tell which one was back there, oh hell maybe they both were. I maybe just be as fucked in the head as that other crazy fucker!

The road opened up before us and was left behind in the rear view, the vibrations told me my first lady was in top shape and as eager for the road as I was. She, my beast never had seemed to be quite in tune since the day I went down and lost June. Now for the first time in seven long ass fuckin years I heard her familiar growl and felt the reserve of power just waiting, just begging me to twist a bit more so she could be free. And so I did...

When a passenger is uncomfortable they squirm and fidget. April just melted into my back and felt like extension of me. This is it I thought, the fuckin trap, the trap that leads to old ladies, houses n dogs n shit. Fuck I like dogs, don't know about the rest, never been there. Had a couple close calls in the past but always just moved on in the night and leaving a stack of cash and never looking back. Well that's what I did before now. Now I want a fucking dog...holy shit!

We came to a stop light and I said over my shoulder, "hey I want a dog!", She leaned in and said, "Well I have Junes dog so I think you already have one, her people call her Maxi, everyone else calls her Maximum'. "What is she I asked?", " A black n white Pitt, what else?" she replied.

I felt the smile growing on my face, it felt foreign but not fake. I don't remember the last time I had more than my standard scowl on my face. A Pitt, nice, always admired the breed, full of life one minute and in full on protect, like protect with my life kinda protect. I get that, I guess I'm a lot like that myself. My family is all I have in this world. Now my world is two stronger. I like that. I like it a lot

We went on to where I first saw the smoke, I pulled off so she could hear what I had to say about all that went on with me n June. I stopped the bike and put my hand out to help her off. She stepped off and undid her helmet, that's right fuckers its hers now! No other bitch will ever be on my back seat again, fuck anyone else who even thinks she can!

I did the same and grabbed the JD and an old army blanket I keep in the saddle bags now days for this spot. I spread it out and motioned for her to join me, but he remained standing and asked me, " Is this the place where you met her?" I stood up and pointed a bit down the road just before the curve and stepped in behind her and just let myself go back to that day and proceeded to tell her about how it all happened. I didn't leave out a thing, I wanted April to know how we felt about each other, to get the feelings we had for each other in such a short, short bittersweet time.

I got my hands in the silk that is her hair. I brought a handful up to my face and took a good long deep breath, she smelled the same, the hair felt the same, her hands were small and so very soft, just like my Junes. I may be loosing my mind, but its a good way to go.

As I told our story, she seemed to sink back into me, I could tell she was workin hard to not cry, I pulled her in to my chest and said, " Cry, cry for all three of us, cause I can't," She let it come, she wasn't messy like other bitches are, it was heartbreaking in the intensity and the power of the sorrow. I never let my emotions get in control of me, I was in control of them. But this time was different, I felt the pain, of another person mostly because it was my own too.

I let her get it out so she was in a better head space. When she stopped it was sudden, just like it started, none of the unfucking ending bullshit I just can't deal with. She was just done. She turned in my arms and laid her head on my shoulder, well kinda I'm a bit taller than she is. But she felt so good, right here where she belongs. No way am I lettin shit happen to this one, " Mine" I said as she melted in my arms...

We stood there for a bit, time seemed to stand still, I could see what looked like smoke off in the distance, and I realized it was nothing more than clouds on the horizon. I pulled her to the blanket and she sat between my legs, and leaned back on me. I pulled the bottle over and we proceeded to share it till it was gone.

I woke up and my back was still against the rock, only at some point during the night I'd fallen over and pulled April with me. We were fuckin spooning and fuck my life I liked it, I liked it a lot! I know, big tough guy gonin down here! Its alright I thought, this bitch is mine, just mine. I'd give my life to save hers.

I felt April begin to stir, to change how her breathin was changing. She gave a long sigh, and wiggled her butt against me. "I whispered, you need to not be doin that right now, little girl. She gave a small chuckle and another one of those sighs...fuck me she was gonna kill me off here!

And the little bitch knew it too! All I was able to was to bury me nose in her neck and taste that sweet skin, it had a bit of the road on it and this wonderful feeling in the back of my mouth. That made me shiver in the memory of the last time I had that feeling in my the back of my mouth. The memory came back to me unbidden, it was just there. So very real, as real as the woman in my arms. I just relaxed and let it come on in and pass through me. April stiffened in my arms and then relaxed, the very same thing I had just done. I couldn't help but wonder if she was getting the very same message I was, just from a different view point, Junes. So I asked.

April never turned, never seemed surprised, just stated, " I think we just got June's blessing," I told her I felt like I had turned back time and got the same feeling."

Alright I don't do the bull shit of the dead contacting the livin, if this shit was real then I'd just take it like I got it and go with it. I felt like my old self, like the me I had been seven years before. Centered and content, only now it was more than that. Fuck I'm so fucked here! But I was right where I belonged here with my girl, hell my girls, and a fuckin dog...perfect, I thought as I drifted off again.

Not long after that last bit of weird shit I woke up and realized I was still on the ground, but I was alone. I sat up with a start, my heart thumpin in my chest, felt like a drum in my fuckin ears! I looked around, and there she was! I got up quickly and strode over to her, pulling April around and into my chest so I could feel for sure she was there.

I roughly took her tiny chin in my large hand and made her look me in the eyes. " Don't you ever do that again!", I almost yelled in her sweet face. I watched as the confusion rolled across her face, she had no idea of what she had done to piss me off.

" Little girl, you didn't piss me off, you just gave me a hella scare and I don't ever do that shit!" I said. She blinked a couple times and asked me in a small voice, " What did I do, I only went to find a friendly rock and rid myself of the pain in my bladder, how was that wrong?" She asked. I had to pull her in tighter and chuckle, "Don't ever go nowheres I can't see you, I need to have you in my sight all the time." I said.

She looked up at me with those fuckin eyes and said, " I think there may be times when I need to be all alone," She said with a bit of a chuckle. I stopped and thought a minute and nothing come to mind, other than the need to know where she was and who was around her at all times!

She grinned up at me and said, " Hap I'm female, in case you never notice, and there are some lady things I need to do with out you peering over my shoulder, that is unless you really, really want to learn how to change a tampon!"

I looked down at her and said, "well you might break your arm or some shit, then whatcha gonna do then?" "Hap, I have two arm's you know!" I grinned and said " alright but I need to always know what your doin and don't you dare forget to tell me or I'll have to learn you a thing." She just grinned back me and said"OK" and that was that in my mind. Shit was linin up right for once! An old lady that knew how to act and oh fuck me did I just say that in my head? Ya, fuck if I didn't! April was my old lady, guess I should tell her soon.

I stepped back and shook out the old ratty blanket and tossed the bottle over the edge to join it's brothers that had grown in numbers over the years. I heard her make a sound in her throat, I looked up to see what the threat was. April was glaring at me, her eyes were all narrow and she looked like a viscous puppy!

"Happy what the hell are you doing?" I just said, "What?, What is wrong?"

"Whats wrong is you are a litter bug!" I took a minute, scratched my head, noticed it needed a session with my razor and there was nothing there. I couldn't see what I'd done. "You threw that bottle over the side, your littering!" " And your point is I asked," with a feeling of playfulness I got I had. She grinned back at me and said, "you really need to do that anymore, its just awful to look at you know." "OK I said, I'll get a prospect out here to clean up the whole fucking road, that make you happy?". "Well you don't have to go that far Hap!.

I walked over to her and put my hands on her shoulders, look deep in those eyes and said, " little girl, you just don't get this shit right here, your mine, my old lady and if you want shit it gets done, you got that!"

She just stood there and a big smile spread over her face, her eyes lit up like Christmas. Then she stopped and asked, " Just exactly what is an old lady, Hap?"

Right then I knew I had to take her to the head bitch in charge and let her explain this, no way would this end well if I was the one to lay down the rules of this life. She'd cut n run if I said that shit