Chapter6- Emotional Past

The memory is fading, I dream the distant dreams, I remember the love and hating, I remember at last, The youth and my upbringing, Of my emotional past.

Faye decided to tell Spike about her dream, or memory that she had last night. She thought it was a bit ridiculous telling Spike everything but she felt comfortable with it. He was being so sincere, sensible and sensitive.

Faye's Dream

It was dark and pitch black. Her mind flashed back to when she was young, about her mother. It was Friday 13th November and it was dark. Her mother was pregnant with her soon to be baby brother. Faye was about 16 years old. They were in the house and her father was at work. "Faye, can you go and prepare dinner while I do the laundry?" "Sure mom!" she answered.

The doors of the house swung open and a man, about 30 threatened Faye's mother. He had a sharp knife in one hand and a bag in the other. He had a black mask on and black gloves. "Where is the safe? Show me NOW!!" he threatened. "No, leave us alone!" "Mom what's going on?" Faye called out from the kitchen. "Nothing dear go back to the cooking." "Who was that!" the man panicked and dashed for the kitchen where Faye was. "NO!" her mother screamed. She tried to stop him from going into the kitchen. The man stabbed her with the knife. She screamed. Faye ran out with a spoon in one hand. She also screamed. Seeing her mother's bloody body on the ground she dropped the spoon and clasped her hands to her mouth. The man looked up at Faye and made his way towards her. Faye ran out of the house shouting, "HELP! Help! SOMEBODY PLEASE! Please!"

The man ran after her... A chase began.........

Faye ran into the nearby woods, she ran......... She tripped... She heard the man's footsteps behind her close by. She was terrified and clumsily heaved herself up. She continued to run...........................she was surrounded in darkness...

Faye jerked awake. She wept into her hands. Shocked at what she just witnessed.

"Faye I- I didn't know" Spike stuttered, "I-I.....I'm sorry." "No, it wasn't your fault it was mine." "What?!!" Spike was shocked at this remark. Faye ignored his sudden outburst and continued blaming herself. "If I had come out of the kitchen and not gone back to the cooking I would have been able to save her." She said while still soaking Spike's yellow shirt with tears. "That's not true, if you did, you would have also been killed." He tried to comfort her but it was no use. "Yes but I knew how to defend myself, my mother didn't!" she argued, "It's all my fault." "No, no it wasn't Faye, if you had come out then your mother would have died in vain. She died to save you Faye. It was a mistake that can't be changed." Faye looked up at Spike and smiled. "Thanks." "Fer what?" "For being here with me." "No problem..... But Faye, don't blame yourself for what happened. Your mother's death was that bastard's fault, not yours. You hear me?" "Yeah. Thanks." "I'm gonna go now but if you ever need me, my room's just next to yours ok?" "Ok" Faye sat up and Spike stood up ready to leave, but he couldn't resist giving her a peck on the cheek before hesitantly left. Faye blushed and when he left, smiled to herself. Maybe at last she can have sweet dreams.

Faye's Dream.

She was still running, through that dark wood, tears streaming from her eyes. Branches and twigs brushed against and scratched her legs. She bumped into someone and let out an ear piercing scream. But it wasn't the murderer; it was a wandering police officer. "Excuse me ma'am is something wrong?" "Please, you have to help me." "You can run but you can't hiiiiide." said a mocking voice. It was the murderer. "Don't worry ma'am." The policeman assured her. He took out his AC pistol. The man lashed out with his knife at the policeman and cut him in the arm. He gave a yell. The policeman shot the man in the leg. They were fighting. Faye just stood there helplessly watching the spot where the policeman had left. The man was arrested......

Faye shot up in bed and let out a short and quick scream. Spike was just dozing off when he heard a small quick scream through the wall next door. I must be dreaming. He put his ear to the wall between his and Faye's room and heard a small distant crying. 'Faye.' he thought. Faye didn't know why she screamed, she put her head in her hands. She felt alone and scared. She was frightened, she didn't dare go back to sleep, involuntary tears started to fall from her eyes but she made no noise. That was what she thought. Suddenly Spike burst into the room with a look of concern on his face. This made Faye jump. "Are you trying to give me a heart attack?!" she exclaimed. Quickly wiping off the tears. This made a shade of red on her face because she rubbed so violently. "Sorry. I just got worried 'cause I heard you scream." He lied. "No I'm sorry for shouting at you. I had another nightmare." She sighed. "Oh yeah?" "Yeah. It's like a continuation of the dream I had last night and it's s- sorta scaring me." Faye still didn't stop crying so Spike decided to be a little nicer. He sat on the bed next to her where there was a space and tried to talk to her. It paid off a little but she still didn't tell him what happened. "What happened?" "What d'ya mean?" "In the nightmare." When he saw the look on her face he almost wanted to say 'Never mind, forget it.' But his curiosity was getting the better of him.

Faye hesitated before telling him of what she saw in her dream. Her voice was a tad shaky. "Kore wa yume ne Faye. This is just a dream. It'll go away." "No it's a memory and I don't like what I see." She turned to look at him, her emerald eyes looking into his mismatched ones. In that same shaky voice she said, "I'm sick and tired of these dreams. Sometimes they're just nothing to do with me, sometimes it's about you...." "Me?" Spike interrupted. "Yes, you, Jet, Ed, Ein, the Bebop. They're never good ones, you know?" "Do you want me to stay with you tonight?" Spike felt stupid after saying that because it sounded like he was trying something on. He hadn't meant to sound so blunt even though he did. "If you don't mind. I'm just afraid, you don't mind do you, just for the night?" He was a little taken aback by her answer but at least she didn't think he was trying anything. "I was the one who asked wasn't I?" "Sooo, you mind sleeping on the floor?" she asked, disbelievingly. "Oh....I er, I was hoping I could sleep on the bed." At this Faye flipped. "WHAT?!" "Don't get me wrong, I didn't mean anything by it!" He added as quickly as possible. When Faye came back to her senses she thought about it. [Strange] {He's probably just being nice} [Too nice] Spike interrupted her thoughts. "I promise I won't try anything. I just, I'm just um worried about you," he said this hurriedly. The truth was always hard to say. "You worried about me? Whatever," she sighed, "Jump in." "Thanks."

Spike literally jumped in making the whole bed shake. It was lucky he didn't break it. Faye was extremely nervous and tensed as he jumped into the bed. She shuffled a little more away from him. Towards the edge of the bed just discreet enough so that Spike wouldn't notice. Unfortunately Spike noticed his comrade to be uncomfortable with this situation. He tried to relax her by sliding his hand onto her waist and clutching her to his body. This proved to be a very bad idea. "What the hell are you doing?!" 'Whoops, I guess I wasn't thinking. That was soooo dodgy. I'm so stupid!' Spike kicked himself mentally before answering. "What?.... oh, I just thought you were a little tense, so I tried to relax you a bit." "By touching me?! "Awww come on, can't you handle it?" he teased. "Shut up asshole." He laughed. "Don't worry, I promised I wouldn't try anything funny. I'm not about to break that promise considering what you might do to me. Just calm down." At this comment from Spike a hint of red came on Faye's cheeks. She hid her automatic reaction of blushing afraid that he might have seen her. 'Maybe I was overreacting a bit.' When she felt him nuzzle on her neck she quickly changed her opinion. 'This is ridiculous! Why did I agree to it?' She was about to protest when he heard his quiet snores. Oh forget it. I don't wanna wake the idiot. She took a small peek at him. 'He looks so cute, just like an angel. I just wanna hug him. What the hell am I thinking?!' After embarrassing herself further she fell back to sleep. No more nightmares bothered her from then on. She knew who she was and what had happened in the half of her life before cryogenic sleep. Nothing about her past was ever going to bother her again.

Nothing to worry about anymore, No more cryin' on the bedroom floor. No more dreams to give me pain, You are here with me again. No more cryin' on the bedroom floor.

Spike: *Snore* *Snore**Snore**Snore* Faye: Wake up idiot, we gotta introduce the next chapter. Spike: Huh wha? Faye: Where's Foxy? Fox: Right here. Well? Spike: Well what? Fox: Introduce the chapter! Faye: Do we have to? * starts whining like a baby * I don't want toooooo! Fox: YES!!!! (Completely outraged) Spike: And if we don't? Fox: (Cheeky grin) I'll give you a hoooooooooooooorible death *says in an eerie voice* Faye: * Stops whining immediately.* We're gonna die?! Fox: Maybe, if you introduce the next chapter maybe you'll all live to see your wedding. Spike: We're getting married?! Lord help me * starts praying* Faye: HEY! *slaps him across the head* Spike: Just a joke honey Fox: Why do I bother? *sighs* Next chapter is about Ed and Ein comin' back to da bebop. Also Ein makes a 'valuable' discovery. It's called – Hikaru mono no subete ga. (All that glitters is not gold)