Hey everyone, here's the next part...it's a bit shorter than the others but I hope you still enjoy it! Oh, and like the forgetful nerd I am, I totally forgot to give cookies to two people...I'm so sorry but I have them now if you still want them And I changed the title of this one from Break You to Forget You...anyways that's all.
Cookies due to,
Midnite Angel & -sO-aSiAn-
Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts and/or any of the characters, they belong to Square Enix and Disney.
As you probably know, Axel's thoughts are in italics...
Enjoy!
Tempt Me, Tease Me Until I...
.::Forget You::.
So many things ran through his head…too many to truly grasp and understand.
It really was too bad because one of things he wanted to know, more than anything else, was why it had to be so hard. So much harder than he had thought.
Their whole relationship.
If you could even call it that…looking where they were right now, it didn't sound right to his ears. It had been reduced to nothing more but empty pieces; shattered upon impact with the ground. Then again it's a lot easier to fall apart when you have a sledgehammer to finish the job.
He could only ever wish that theirs was more like her and Roxas' relationship…can't say he had ever heard them fight, let alone yell.
He didn't jump to stupid conclusions that were biased from the beginning, nope, Roxas definitely didn't do that. He was beginning to think he had twisted things into problems, maybe just so he could start a fight. Throughout his life it had really been the only thing that made him feel something…anything.
If only for a second…but it's all he really had, it's all he had ever needed.
Maybe his impatience was to blame…he couldn't say that he didn't, or hadn't, wanted more. More than their relationship had given; well at that time, maybe it could've grown into something more but, he'd definitely stepped all over that probability.
Well there was one thing he couldn't deny…she was not in his arms.
He had made damn sure of that.
.::.x.::.
The mattress sank beneath his familiar form, body carelessly collapsing onto weary springs. Gloved fingers ran slowly through crimson spikes, he just wanted to disappear.
What am I supposed to do now…don't suppose there's much point even asking.
He let out a groan as he sat up with difficulty, mattress lifting as his body rose from the bed, moving across the room's expanse.
"I think it's about time I reunited with my old friend…" he muttered slowly, making his way towards the small cabinet beside his bedside table.
Adopting a kneeling position, he opened the small door and scanned the several bottles in search of his 'friend'. Grasping one of dusty bottles in his grip; he shut the little door once again, headed back towards his bed and blew off the clinging grime, sneezing as the dust swathed the surrounding air with tiny particles.
It's just a bit sad that the only relationship I can maintain is with alcohol…this must be what it feels like to hit your own all time low.
"Oh well, at least I'm getting somewhere…suppose I'll drink to that."
He fingered the cap and twisted it off easily before bringing the bottle's brim to his lips and taking a deep drink from the strong liquor. He sat back onto his bed, feeling the familiar lift in his system but, still fully aware that it would take more than that to get his mind to forget.
Even if that lapse in memory only lasted until he would wake from passing out…it's the best he could do.
He raised the bottle to his lips once again, letting the heady alcohol slowly draw her memory from his mind; drinking his pain away a little at a time, put her out like the burning end of a midnight cigarette.
He just hoped he could get drunk enough to forget her…if only for the time being.
Feeling the spirits begin to consume his body; he quickly grabbed another bottle from his cabinet, aware of the considerably lighter one currently in his grip. However, with his still flawless vision, he spotted something out of the corner of his eye.
A slightly crumpled piece of paper.
He carefully wobbled over to the table, gently picking the paper from it's surface. He could feel his eyes start to blur; with what he couldn't say, but if he had too…he'd just say it was the alcohol working it's charm.
But…he didn't have to say it was the alcohol, no one was there to deny.
He couldn't lie to himself; well he could, but he'd know. The alcohol couldn't take all the credit for his blurry eyes.
He let his washed out emerald eyes take in the picture once more before heading back towards his bed, drawing still clutched in his gloved hand as he made his unsteady journey.
He felt his whole body sink along with the mattress as he sat back down; it hurt so much to hold a piece of something that you know you could've had.
So, he wasn't surprised when he felt anger rise in his veins, boiling his lukewarm blood to that of molten degree. Not at her, not at Roxas…only rage at the person that was, with utmost certainty, guilty.
Himself.
His fingers enclosed around the picture, drawn into a rage clenched fist. Only he lost control; fire he usually could tame, keep at bay, broke free of it's chains and reduced the picture to ashes in little than a second.
Too bad that second was how long it took for him to regain control.
Dim green eyes watched with growing sadness as the somber ashes slipped through his fingers, falling gently to the floor.
Sensing sobriety creeping up with the on-coming misery, he wasted no time in taking a extensive swig from the rich amber liquid that swirled softly in it's glass chamber.
Now, if more than before, he wanted to forget. He needed to lose himself in the enrapturing lure of alcohol.
So many things ran through his head…he just wanted to stop them.
As always, if only for a while.
Time was not his friend; he couldn't plead, he couldn't beg. He could only take what he could get, even if he had to do this every day, every night. He'd spend his whole life doing this…
Just trying to forget.
Well, that's that...hope you liked despite it being shorter...next one will be longer for sure. It will be called Forgive You, and it doesn't take a genius to figure out what the chapter will entail...Yay, happiness all around! Well, hope you enjoyed it and remember to read and review!
Cheers, and until next time
-Michelle
