A.N: Sorry for the super late update! I just started college and it was killer. And I broke my arm which further delayed the update. I will try to continue updating, because I really enjoy writing this story. I'm also trying a different format, tell me if you like it or not. I hope y'all enjoy this chapter! Please, Review if you like this chapter. And to those who have and are following the story, thank you a bunch!
Chapter 7
Sam, Dean , and I left to the college to ask Kevin's girlfriend about him. I was over the moon, for a while, until they made me wait at a bench for them.
"Come on guys!" I cried out in outrage.
"Emma, I told ya I would take you with us, but this is as far as you go," Dean said.
"Sam?" I asked, he shook his head.
"Dean's right, you should just stay here. We'll be right back."
I sat on the bench with a huff, "I never get to do anything," I muttered as they left. Hell, Dean wouldn't even show me a picture of Kevin, because he was afraid I would try to do something stupid. It's so unfair, in Purgatory I was treated more like an equal than I was out in the real world. Out here I was just another kid who needed to be protected.
And the worst part of it is I don't remember anything. I mean I remember what life is, religion, some things like the Kardashians faces, as silly as it sounds, would seep into my memory, and would know which one is which by looking at their faces, the same thing happened with music. I remembered holidays, and some quotes. I just don't remember if I had a family, friends, or where I came from.
I didn't remember if I liked any T.V. shows or if I liked boys. I didn't even remember what a period was until I got it, a few days after Purgatory. I felt intense pain in my lower abdomen and when I went to the bathroom and saw the blood I started to cry. Then screamed for Dean, who assured me, awkwardly, that it was a natural human thing. Then proceeded to buy pads and pain medicine for me.
I bet that's what made Dean think I couldn't protect myself or anyone else, I was just another teenage dirt bag, and I hated it. I let out a sigh and look around the campus, there were students' scrambling around trying to get to their classes. I fought off the urge to get up and explore, knowing if they came back and I wasn't here I would probably never hear the end of it.
So I just sat and waited for almost an hour until they got back. While waiting a tall guy walks up to the bench and sits down next to me.
"Hey, haven't I seen you around before? " he asked, sliding closer to me. I looked at him with a raised brow.
"No…?" I said with a frown, "I just came to look at the campus."
He was undoubtedly handsome at first glance. But the more he talked the less handsome he became. I soon stopped listening to what he was saying.
"…Maybe we could head back to my dorm-"
"Or you could get the hell away from her."
Dean glared at the guy with Sam standing awkwardly behind him.
"Sorry, you are?" the guy said standing up.
"Her father, now get outta here," Dean growled out, the poor guy whisper a goodbye and ran away. I looked at Dean who was glaring at the guys retreating figure.
"So why would Kevin come sniffing around here if not to see her?" Dean said as he grabbed my arm and head the opposite way.
"No idea. Maybe we should split up, ask around, see if anybody's seen him?" Sam suggested.
Dean rolls his eyes, "Yeah, Asian kid, yea high, at a university. That should be easy."
"Let's get some food first, I'm starved," I pipe in, Dean raised an eyebrow, I looked at him.
"What?" I asked.
"It's just a surprise that you're not complaining about how long we took," he said and lead us to a food joint.
"I can't complain on an empty stomach," I said shrugging my shoulders.
We walked to a little food place, I sat in front of Sam. Sam immediately pulled out his laptop.
"We'll meet back here," Dean said and left me some money for food. I nodded and tried to grab the money, which Sam got to first.
"I'll get us some food," Sam said as Dean left, I groaned and leaned back in my chair.
"Fine," I said with a pout, it wasn't that I didn't want to eat healthy, I just liked eating popsicles. That was just my favorite thing to eat, I've only had hamburgers as every meal since I got out of Purgatory. Sam was really determined to stop my bad eating habits, maybe because he couldn't control Dean's.
Sam came back with a two chicken salads and waters. "Thank you," I said with a smile and practically devour the food. Sam sat and stared at his laptop, not moving, so I just have to converse with myself.
So I thought about how I could find that man with the black eyes. I didn't have much information, just what he looked like. Which probably wouldn't help, and with everything going on, I didn't need more stress. We would find Kevin first, then I would start to do more research.
I sighed and looked at Sam who was just starring off into space.
"So, do you like doing research?" I asked Sam, he look up confused.
"Um, yah, I guess."
He answered and went back to researching. I wanted to continue the conversation but I knew that finding Kevin was top priority. Not keeping me entertained.
"I think I'll go ask around some more," I said and got up before Sam could answer.
I went around asking practically everyone that walks pass me. Most of them ignore me, others try to hit on me. I began to get frustrated, this was getting me nowhere. So I walked back to the food place with my feet dragging.
Dean was scarfing down a hamburger while Sam talked to him.
"So what's up" I said as I sat down and took a fry from his plate.
"We're going to Iowa" Dean said and asked for the check.
We ended up at a church in Fairfield, Iowa after talking to a barista at a coffee shop. We walked up to the church, it was old and broken down and left a unsettling feeling in me. Dean puts an arm in front of me.
"Wait here," he told me. I huffed at him and I went back to the car and gave him the dirtiest look I could.
"Fine Dad," I said and went into the impala with a sour look. Even though they feeling didn't leave , I just closed my eyes, it was the first time I realized how exhausted I was. I just saw flashes of Purgatory that were so vivid I thought I was actually there, things that I don't even remember happening. I saw flashes of fire, dead bodies, and blood; so much blood. Then I saw myself being choked, it all too real, and I couldn't wake up. It was like I was looking at all of this from someone else's eyes.
Then something changed. Purgatory was gone and all that was left was light and pain.
It's all going to be all right, a voice whispered, the voice was so soft I almost didn't hear it. And all I could see was the light and it was so bright it burned, but I could bring myself to scream or look away. There was a figure amongst the light and I was afraid if I turned away I would never see it again.
I can see that there are cracks in the walls of your memory, soon you'll be able to look and feel no pain, the voice continued. But as soon as that happens, you'll have to go back to the place where it all started.
You are chaos, and the world is not ready for it yet.
I woke up sweating and with a pain , behind my eyes that just had to be real. I sat up with the heels of my palms pressed hard against my eyes. I looked at my reflection and my eyes were bloodshot red, the skin around it was also red and splotchy. Like something, or someone was scratching at them. Like I was trying to scratch them out.
I rubbed my eyes hard and got out of the car, my body felt weightless and walked slowly to the church , I stood next to Dean in the door way.
"Morin sleeping beauty," Dean whispered, I grunt at him and look into the church. Dean turns toward me.
"What happened Em?" he said pulling my face closer to his so he could get a closer look. A little voice in my head whispered, you have to tell him, and I knew I had too. I didn't want him to worry. There was already so much going on ,and he didn't need it, but if I lied he still would worry and never trust me.
"I had a nightmare," I whispered looking away, he let out a hard sigh and let go of my chin. He rubbed his face with his hands.
"How long."
"Just today, I swear Dean I'm fine," I said and looked into the church. He continued to look at me, then nodded. I turned away and looked into the church. Sam was sitting behind to a much shorter person, talking.
"Is that him?" I asked looking at them.
"Yah."
I tried to put on a smile and stride in, they both turned and face me. I walk up to the Kevin's pew and pull him into a hug.
"We have been looking everywhere for you," I said and pull away, he looks at me with pure confusion.
"T-thanks?"
"Oh, I'm Emma, I was in Purgatory with Dean," I said and put out a hand to shake. He takes it and smile.
"Kevin." He says as he looks at my face, obviously looking at my red eyes. He walks off and I sit on the pew , watching him walk off. He was nt handsome like Sam or Castiel nor was he dangerous looking like Dean or Benny, he was cute. He looked young, not like someone who would be a college student. Not like someone who can deal with all of this demon crap. He was a child, like me.
I pull my legs to my chest and look at Sam, who is staring off into the distance. Dean walks up and sits next to me.
"I know you want me to let it go, but are you okay Em?" he asks. I didn't know what to say to just get him to drop it. And I could feel panic raising, I didn't want him to worry, but I also didn't want to lie. And all I could think of was that voice and it calling me chaos, but I wasn't, I was just a regular human. I really needed to get him to leave me alone. Then I remember I'm a teenage girl.
"You know, I think I need more pads and some pain killers." I hear Sam clears his throat and Dean looks awkwardly at me.
"Yah, uh, sure." Dean said and looked at Sam, who was looking a little wide eyed at Dean. Dean got up and went to the car, muttering that he would be back in a few. I let out a sigh and stand up.
"I need a restroom, to deal with this." I say to Sam while pointing at my face. He nodded and went back to blank staring.
The restroom was disgusting and the mirror was dirty and cracked. The redness in my eyes was slowly fading. I felt so guilty. I was lying to Dean and that was the last thing I wanted to do. If Dean found out I was lying, would he do research and find out who I was. And what if who I was, truly is a monster. The uneasiness grew.
That's what scared me the most, if I was a monster, would Dean treat me like the monsters in Purgatory. Would he remember that I'm Emma or was Benny his only exception? Would he just kick me to the curb for some other hunter to deal with?
