Author's Note:
Hi everyone!
Wow it's been a long time since I updated and I'm so sorry you have no idea... but I just couldn't update earlier my life was chaos anyway no more excuses. This is a short chapter and I'm already working on the rest of the story which will end soon, so I honestly hope you enjoy this one.
xoxo, Lizzie M.
Chapter 7: Emmett, I'm Sorry
"Sorry Miss Hale, I thought no one was home" Anne said and I sighed in relief. My nerves were going to kill me sooner or later, I couldn't take it anymore. "If you were resting I could come back later."
"No, Anne I need you to do something" I don't know what possessed my body and mind in that moment but in one second I was up and looking for a pen and a piece of paper. The words in my mind came out faster than I could write. I was in a rush, my heart was beating furiously and the words that I was writing were barely legible.
"Miss you should calm down" Anne said as she saw my hands shaking. I folded the piece of paper carefully and looked for a book. I found 'An Old Fashioned Girl' and laughed at the title of the book as it used to be one of my favorite books. I placed the folded paper inside and as I undid the ribbon I was wearing to hold my hair and wrapped it around the cover.
"Anne, take this to the Cullen residence, ask for Alice Cullen and just give this to her no one else. Did you understand?" I felt terrible as I pronounced each word harshly but this couldn't be taken lightly. "Tell her I send it for her brother Emmett"
"Yes, ma'am" Anne was shocked as she took the book from my hands, I took hold of her wrist and sighed
"Sorry, I know this is dangerous for you but it's important that no one knows what I send you for to that house" I let her go and smiled gently. I walked toward my window and looked out, I pressed my forehead against the cold glass and sighed as I watches Anne's small frame running down the street holding the book close to her chest.
I knew that I was wrong, that I was going against everything I had been taught all this years. But I was going to risk it, I would risk myself as he had done for me, I couldn't step out of this… not now, not ever. I stood there for what seemed minutes, looking out the window absent minded and my forehead pressed against the glass, the words I had written a while ago starting to make sense now.
"Emmett,
I don't know how to explain this. First of all I apologize again for all of the things that happened I don't know how can I ever pay you for saving me, I owe you. You risked your life to save mine and I can hardly express how thankful I am. Mr Cullen, I must acknowledge a feeling that is torturing me as I write this letter and I must thank Mr Withlock to make me aware of his position as your close friend. Emmett feelings that were hidden deep in my soul had awaked toward you, making me sigh every time I think of you and smile when I hear your name. I know this is daring and improper of a lady but I can't hide this anymore. I shall visit you tomorrow, thus far.
Truly yours,
Rosalie H."
Oh, god! What I've done? It's outrageous and unintelligent but I couldn't stop myself as I wrote every line that was now on Emmett's hand, tears started rolling down my cheeks as I cried quietly for the way I had humiliated myself. He would never want to see me again, it didn't matter what Jasper told me, it wouldn't change the way Emmett would look at me now, as an impertinent girl who wasn't properly educated. I had made a jester out of myself, he would never wish for someone like me. I wish I would die in that moment, I felt weak... maybe my wish would come true. My gave myself into the darkness as I fell to the cold marble floor thinking only one thing "Emmett, I'm sorry..."
So this is it :) I know a lot of people think that Rose has gone crazy (I think that too but when I wrote the chapter I was going through a crazy time so...) and as always any question you have you can write me a private message or just post a review. I hope you liked it and I really wanna know your opinion so review ;)
