Sorry I took so long to update the Noughts & Kisses Series. I'll try my best to update Ravens Confusions: A RHYMEDY a.s.a.p. (as soon as possible) This is my fourth Fan Fiction. Enjoy!

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Don't own Teen Titans, don't own Xiaolin Showdown, don't own fan fiction (duh). Is there anything I do own? (Joking lol)

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Raven's POV (Point Of View)

Name changes for Teen Titans:

Robin – Nightwing

Starfire – Snowice

Cyborg – Victor (or Master Williams to his butlers)

Raven – Empress Roth to her Royal Subjects

Chase – Emperor Young to his Royal Subjects

Beast Boy – Logan (Or Gar Logan)

CHAPTER SEVEN

-*-Revelation and Sorrow-*-

"Raven?", Starfire asked worriedly.

I looked at her, wondering why she'd be scared of me, after all, she was the one with the wonderful boyfriend, the beauty, and the super Tamaranean strength. Why would I of all people be a threat to her? And then I looked at myself, I mean really looked. My clothes were in tatters and my body was tattooed with the sign of Scath. My hair had grown long and ragged down my shoulders and my eyes were bright white. I noticed that my hands were glowing as well, as if I was ready to levitate something or make a shield. No wonder she was frightened, heck, I was frightened! I managed to make my eyes stop glowing but my hands were unable to stop and the more I tried, the brighter they glowed. I sighed and something exploded, and I resisted the urge to sigh again. It was my emotions! For 2 years I'd laughed and cried and it wouldn't matter because I didn't have my power. But now, it was all over, my love, my happiness, my life. I looked down at my stomach and winced at something else I'd have to lose: my child. I closed my eyes, Azarath Metrion Zinthos, Azarath Metrion Zinthos, Azarath Metrion Zinthos, Azarath Metrion Zinthos. When I opened my eyes the signs of Scath were gone, my clothes were back, and my hands weren't glowing. My friends were looking at me expectantly. Should I talk to them? Hug them?

"Raven, it is time", Arella said. Time? Oh Azar, the Gem, she wants me to kill my husband. I nodded obediently though, and levitated a book to me. I opened it to two blank pages, faced Chase Young and said, "Aldruon en Lenthranell Losolaneeris Nor!". A blast of white headed straight to Chase Young from the book and I dropped it on the floor.

"Azarath Metrion Zinthos!", we shouted simultaneously. I levitated the Gem to me and he levitated the book closed before the curse could reach him. I placed the Gem on my head and I could feel it fixing itself to my forehead so that it couldn't be removed again. With my demon powers returned to me, my Gem couldn't be removed as easily as Chase had done it the last time, and there was no way Trigon was going to bet his soul all over again.

I turned to Arella. "Thank you for your help", I said solemnly.

"I live to serve Azar and his followers", she said simply, "You have got the Gem safe?".

I nodded. "No one will steal it again".

"Good, but now, you have another demon to attend to", she said, looking at Chase Young and then looking at my stomach. I had no idea how she knew about the baby but I was too grateful I didn't have to kill Chase Young to think about it; I nodded. I teleported to Titans Towers, cleaning things with my powers as I floated to my room. I picked up a box under my bed that was wrapped up in paper and opened it. A Note said: "I thought you might need this", and underneath the note was a box of pills, the embryo baby killing kind of pills that you bought from the chemist with a 99% success rate. Who could have possibly known that I'd get pregnant? And how could they also know I'd kill my own baby?

Something told me that I really didn't want to know.

I read the back of the packet, it said: "The embryo will pass during excretion and may cause pain depending on the age of the embryo. Contains Misoprostol. Do not take if you: Have an ectopic pregnancy, Take certain steroids, or Take pills that thin the blood". I grabbed a glass of water and swallowed the pill whole. Then I grabbed a book and went to sit in the bathroom, waiting for the sudden urge to excrete a baby or two. I thought I was about one month pregnant so it shouldn't be too big or cause that much pain when it, uh, passed. I wondered if it was a boy or a girl and what I should call them. Chase Jr? I found myself snickering at just the thought of that one, so maybe it wasn't such a good idea to name it something, well, funny. How about a planet? Mercury, Venus, Jupiter? Or maybe Eris? The urge to go toilet came and I, well, excreted. But I had been wrong, oh so wrong. The embryo wasn't small, it was huge, and it was incredibly painful to push it into the toilet, but now that I'd started I couldn't stop. It dropped into the toilet with a loud plop! sound and I flushed immediately, breathing hard. And then for some ridiculous reason, I began to cry. Not because of the pain, not because of losing Chase Young, and not because my life was a complicated wreck.

But because I had to give up my child.

I had never hoped for children and I hadn't wanted any, I was more than content with my perfect life with Chase Young and the Algerian Animals. But now that I had lost him, now that I had experienced terrible emotional pain, and my whole life was a wreck, I wanted it, I wanted to keep the last treasure of our life together. Sure when I'd first gotten pregnant I wasn't planning to get rid of it, I would never do anything crazy like that, but I wasn't too stressed about it, I just wanted to go with the flow, let anything that happened happen.

I opened the toilet and cried, " I'm sorry! I'm so so sorry!". Then I leaned on the edge of the bath and sobbed for all the things I had lost and all the things I'd had to give up. A couple miserable moments later I was stepping out of the shower, clean and soapy, my eyes still a little red and my nose slightly snuffly. Wrapped in my towel, I gracefully crossed the hall to my bedroom and walked inside, surprised not to hear anyone else intruding the tower. I sat on my bed and sighed, stroking the silver version of my leotard I had worn when I was with Chase Young, holding it tightly to my chest. I felt like crying again, how could something that had been so perfect go so terribly wrong? And for that moment, so close to my old memories, I had several flashbacks at once: The moment when Chase and I had first met, that amazing moment when he'd said I do and the wonderful honeymoon just moments afterwards, the day when we'd had a bet to see who could stay up the longest while watching the most boring channel on Television, the morning when he'd proposed to me with a ring that had jewels the exact colour of my eyes... It had been a fairytale. How could I ever love again after all that?

"Oh Chase!", I cried, and began to sob softly into the silver leotard. Chase Young decided at that exact moment to burst into my bedroom, armed with Golden Tiger Claws. I hastily wiped my eyes and looked up at him. He looked as wonderful as ever with his yellow eyes and black green-streaked hair, his armour as neat and tidy as ever.

He looked at the box on the bed and silver leotard in my hands, and then he looked at me properly. My hair was wet, making it look quite neat for once, and I was still wrapped in my towel. He sat next to me, resting the Golden Tiger Claws on the bed for a moment so he could properly study the box. "You got rid of it?".

I nodded, fixing my towel. He fixed it for me and then wrapped his arms softly around me. "Thank you", he whispered, burying his head in my neck, sighing gently. "And... I'm sorry".

"For...".

"Everything. All of this", he sighed, stroking my face, "I never meant to hurt you.. but me and you, it just can't happen Raven, not like this".

I looked at him and I could plainly see that he was truly sorry. But I could also see that he wanted me and that if I tried just the slightest, he wouldn't resist. "You said the darkness helps you think", I said, turning off the lights. I pulled him against me and whispered, "So, now that you can think clearly, what do you think?". I threw my towel away. I removed his clothes and armour with one swoop of my magic.

"Raven we can't...", he sighed, but he was already kissing me all over.

I couldn't help snorting. "You ALWAYS say that but you do it anyway. And besides, isn't evil about breaking the rules?". He smiled at me softly, "Are you evil now?".

I grinned, "You wish". " I really do, it would make this a lot less complicated", he sighed.

I ran a finger lovingly down his chest. "Relax", I said softly, "We live for complications".

He stared into my eyes and then looked away. "Raven...", he sighed, looking unsure.

I looked at him sadly, "You don't want this do you?". I could feel tears filling my eyes. I tried to pull away from him as they fell down my face, but he held onto me. He looked pained when he saw my tears, "Raven, I'm sorry, I really am". I closed my eyes and levitated my towel to me and sat up on the bed. Soon Chase and I were both dressed, and I couldn't help sighing softly, how much more rejection could I bare before I cracked? Beast Boy burst into my room and stopped in surprise when he saw Chase and I facing each other, a few feet of space between us.

"Dude! What are you doing here?", Beast Boy exploded.

Chase Young snarled. "That is none of your concern!", he hissed in reply.

Beast Boy looked at me and I saw almost instantly why I had fallen in love with him. His beautiful green eyes, his spiky hair, and his goofy grin. Maybe, if I tried to move on, I could love him again. I smiled shyly at him and he returned it with a loving smile of his own. Chase Young looked at me strangely, and I focused back on him to read his emotions. Jealousy, Sadness, Loss. These emotions played across his face in numerous orders but they seemed to be stuck on replay. I felt a little sad, I hadn't meant to hurt him although he'd hurt me more times than I could count since the love antidote had cured him. But what I still couldn't understand was how, how could we have gotten enchan.. I gasped:

Friend Robin was not there when we were attacked

..we saw a hint of Robin on all the surveillance cameras in the shops that were broken into

Robin asked for something from me earlier today

He looked as though he was in a rush

And YOU must of misheard ME. Heal him, or do it yourself

..who knew what he'd resort to just to get what he wanted. And he wanted Raven...

"Robin", she gasped, "Oh God, it was Robin...".

"What's up with Robin?", Beast Boy asked, sounding concerned.

"He asked Chase Young for a love spell but for some reason it went wrong and Chase and I fell in love instead of Robin and I...", I blurted out. Then I blinked. Robin did it. "ROBIN!".