Silent Howls

By darks00

Summary: Father/son relationship of Sasuke/Kakashi. Sasuke becomes self-abusive. Kakashi wants to save him, but Sasuke doesn't want to be saved...

Warnings: NO yaoi, descriptive self-abuse...That's it.


Dude I'm slow with updating, lol sorry guys. Thanks for all the reviews, guys, you're the best.

- darks


Chapter 7: A Father

Kakashi and me? Yeah, we get along alright.

Kakashi is like the father I wished I had. My real father, before he was murdered, never paid attention to me, only Itachi. I remember when I was young, I would try so hard to impress him, just to know my existence. That's why it sucks so much to be the youngest - you're always in the older ones shadows.

Anyways, Kakashi was the opposite of my real father. I mean, he knew I was alive, taught me important lessons in life, taught me chidori. But I'm a Uchia - that gaurentees you will live a lonely life. I'm scared that if I get close with him like father and son, I would only sooner or later lose him. Everything has a beginning, everything has an end. That's how it goes.

So, yeah, I did like Kakashi as a father. But, him coming to my house, taking my poetry book and coming to my house telling me he's now my guardian? No way.

A part of me wanted to say yes, knowing I couldn't win against Kakashi. Maybe then I wouldn't embarrass myself.

But most of me didn't want to go with him. Mostly because of my Uchia pride. That and he took my poetry book. What if someone saw that? Sasuke, writing poetry? No way.

Kakashi you bastard.


Thursday, March 19, 11:03 PM

SASUKE'S POINT OF VIEW

"How could you invade my privacy?" I raised my voice at him.

"And how could you do that?" He raised his voice back at me.

"You don't understand!"

"You didn't give me a chance!"

"You're all the same!"

"If we're all the same, are you comparing me to your real father?"

Silence. He knew he hit a sensitive spot.

"Out!" I cried out, pointing to the door.

"Look, I'm sorry, but I had to prove you wrong. You can't compare everyone in one category just because a person or two ruined it for the others."

Sighing, I let myself fall onto my old brown couch. Kakashi sit across from me on another chair that was also brown. Even though it's old furniture, I never did replace it for it use to be my mother and father's.

Kakashi in twined his fingers together into one giant fist, begging his mind to tell him what to say. I could tell by the look on his face.

"You need help." Kakashi said in a serious low tone.

"Doesn't everyone in this world need help?"

"Good point," he acknowledged, "but yours is life threatening. Why don't you want to live with me for a while? Do you hate me or aren't you tired of being alone?"

I put my hand to my forehead, feeling a headache coming on.

Kakashi went up beside me and put a comforting hand on my shoulder.

"Sasuke, I'd love to have you as a roommate. It gets lonely being alone all the time. Naruto, Sakura and you are all I have. I want to be your friend, isn't that what a sensei really is? I promise I won't tell anyone about your poetry book besides Tsunade, that's what your thinking of, right? If you live with me, I'll get your poetry book back from Tsunade, okay?"

My heart began to slow down, I could feel it. The world started to get so cold, colder then my own soul. I was shaking, I could feel it in my hands and feet. My vison was beginning to fail me. I stood up, I needed a glass of water.

Kakashi must have noticed I was acting funny.

"Sasuke, you okay?" His voice dripped with worry.

Kakashi put one hand on my back, one on my shoulder for support.

My head was going so fast like a carnival ride. My eyes began to roll back.

"Sasuke? Sasuke?" Kakashi cried out desperately, "talk to me!"

I let out a moan of pain before I collapsed into sweet darkness, holding me so lovingly.


KAKASHI'S POINT OF VIEW:

"Sasuke? Sasuke?" I cried out desperately, "talk to me!"

I heard Sasuke let out a moan, then he fell. I quickily put my hands under his armpits to catch Sasuke so he didn't fall. I picked him up in my arms and laid them on the couch. I couldn't believe how light he was, when was the last time he ate? I put a hand on his forhead. He had a fever, he was burning. When I took my hand off his forehead, I had some cold sweat of his on my hand. He was breathing heavily, his chest going up and down with so much trouble. This is the second time he fainted. I better tell Tsunade about this.

I then called Tsunade.

"Sasuke has a fever," I told her.

"Your point? A fever is common." She explained.

"I know, but is it normal to faint twice in one day?" I asked her.

"No, that's not." Tsunade said, "sorry I'm busy today but bring him around noon tomorrow and I'll have a look at him."

"Okay, thanks Tsunade. Bye."

"Bye."

I found a wash clothe in Sasuke's bathroom. I wet it with cold water and put it on Sasuke's forehead. He was paler then usual. When I took his temperature, he was non-responsive. That's bad. He had a fever of 103.1, when the average temperature if 98.6. This isn't good. I decided now was the best time to take Sasuke to my house - unconscious so he couldn't fight. I picked up his back pack in his room and stuffed it with what he needed. I then took a blanket off Sasuke's bed and went to the unconscious Sasuke on the couch. I picked him up and wrapped him in the black blanket. I threw the wash clothe in the laundry hamper in his room then I picked Sasuke up as carefully as I could. Still non-responsive.

I found Sasuke's house key in his short pocket, I saw him put them in there when he came home, went outside and locked the door behind me.

I was then off to my house with an unexpecting Sasuke.

TO BE CONTINUED...

xxdarkness' kidxx