1/20/12 Chapter 7
Author's Note
I was super distracted by the Pats game tonight, but I wanted to update tonight…who lost and I was devastated…. So I had to get drunk and go to bed …lol….so here it is short, but emotional…hope that makes up for it.
Loose editing as always !
Disclaimer:
I don't own Glee, or any of the music I use. Because things would be different if I did .
Santana made it to school on Tuesday with one mission in hand, to figure out what was going on with Rachel, and to figure out what her plans where. A girl that special, had to have plans. Santana wasn't willing to get to much further involved until she figured out if and where she fit in these plans.
She spotted Rachel right away at her locker with Puck, they were speaking softly to one another, ignoring the crowd around them. Santana stood back for a few minutes not wanting to appear to be listening in or worse interrupt their private conversation.
"Princesa." Rachel smiled at her and placed a kiss on her cheek. Santana frowned, looking around. She wondered if Rachel was reigning it in because someone was watching. Nope.
"Morning Rachel, Puckerman." She flicked glance at Puck which spoke volumes, but he was too male to understand it. "Rachel I need to talk to you,"
"Of course." Rachel smiled. Then shot a look at Puckerman, who nodded and took off to his first period class. "If it's an involved conversation I think that it would be best if we waited until after school though."
Santana though about that as she worried her lips, it was involved, but she wanted answers now. To settle the unease, that was making her entire body tense. "Yes, you're right after school would be best."
Rachel stopped loading items into her locker, and looked at her. Rachel was able to tell that something was wrong. She took Santana's hand shut her locker and led her down the hall and out to the parking lot.
"What are you doing? Where are we going?" Santana asked her books still clutched to her chest.
"You need answers, we're going somewhere we can talk." Rachel took Santana's books and concealed them into her 'trunk' on Marley and handed Santana a helmet, placed her own on, they hopped on the bike and headed off school grounds.
They ended back up at what now Santana realized must be Rachel's home. It was the same building from their first date, and where she had woken up from over the weekend. But Rachel had said she stayed with a relative, one that she had never seen. Rachel pulled out her cell phone and spoke to someone with a thick Spanish accent.
"Hola, mi hija…oh excuse me, I'm sorry Hello, my daughter Santana Lopez is ill today she will not be in school today. Si, oh excuse me yes, thank you." she hung up the phone and looked at Santana with a grin.
"Wow that was amazing." she looked at Rachel with a look of pure adoration.
"So have a seat, I'm making coffee, have you eaten breakfast today?" Rachel went about making quick work of the coffee.
"I've eaten." she lied looking at toes of her cheer shoes.
Rachel looked over at her, shaking her head and pulling out things from the fridge and started to make breakfast. "Well I'm hungry, I'm going to have something to eat. How are your parents?"
"Good, no longer overly angry about the electric." Santana shrugged her shoulder.
"Right, how did that happen again?"
"So…" Santana flushed and looked around this place.
"So still not coming clean on that huh?" Rachel laughed. "Ok you're off the hook, I'll figure it our eventually." Rachel shrugged her shoulders.
Santana groaned and rolled her eyes. "So where is your relative?"
"Who?" Rachel asked distracted.
"You said you live with a relative, where is she?"
"Oh that." Rachel blushed. "Yeah that was a lie." she bit her lip and looked over at her. "I mean I do have a relative, and she does live here, in Lima. I just don't live with her."
"Do you're fathers know that?" Santana demanded.
"No, and I don't want them too." she shrugged. "My birth mother lives here, she is currently out of town working, I've every intention of reuniting with her." she said with a grimace. "But when I got here she was gone, and well by then my dad's where gone."
"Where are they?"
"They're really are on the open sea. My dads are doctors they have stressful jobs. We use to travel all over the world with a doctors with borders group." she smiled. "Hence the multiple languages."
"Makes sense." Santana nodded.
"Well about 3 years ago we moved to New York." Rachel stopped and took a deep breath. "I wanted to be on Broadway, it's been a dream since I was very young." she stopped and turned to look at Santana as she placed an omelet in front of the girl. Then turned off the stove and plated her own omelet, setting it on the counter. "So we moved to New York, because I had to be a star. I was going to be the next Barbara Streisand." she pushed away from the counter in frustration and wrapped her arms around herself.
Santana watched Rachel, lost my the dismay that was overwhelming the girl. She watched as if the girl before her filed through all her. She looked up and said softly. "My dad got sick," she let out a deep breath. "We caught it early, he went through the treatment, and he's in recovery mode now."
"I'm so sorry Rachel." Santana reached out taking the other girls hand. "Shouldn't you be with them?"
Rachel shook her head and blinked back the tears. "No, he wouldn't have… no. I needed to get away." she shrugged her shoulders. "We should eat while its warm." they continued to eat in silence. Santana because what can you say after that, and Rachel because talking about it makes it real.
Santana finished cleaning the dishes, then took Rachel by the hand and led her to the sofa. "I'm sorry that you're alone." she whispered.
"it's ok." Rachel smiled sadly. "What did you want to talk about?"
Santana blinked slowly, looked out the window. "It doesn't matter, it isn't important."
"That isn't the truth." Rachel whispered, with a smile. "Don't make me regret telling you the truth."
"No I'm thankful that you trust me with the truth." Santana said quickly. "I just don't think this is the time to bombard you with questions."
Rachel slid closer cupping Santana's face she kissed her softy on the lips. "You aren't bombarding me, Santana. In this moment there is nothing more important then what is going on this room, and you." she promised.
"Don't." Santana whispered.
"Don't what?" Rachel said softly watching her closely.
"Don't make me feel like I'm the only person in the world." Santana said. "Don't make me feel all these things, and emotions."
"Why?"
"Because you're not a Lima Loser, your not going to stay. You're going somewhere. You're not like to the rest of us. I ca.." Santana pulled away, shaking her head. "Rachel I don't think this is a good idea."
"What? The way that you feel? The way I feel about you. What we'd mean to one another if you'd let it happen?"
"Rachel I don't even know how you feel about me, what you're doing here in Lima. How long you're going to be here, where you're going after you graduate." she pushed herself further into the sofa. "I just don't want to get involved only to be hurt."
"Santana I would never intentionally hurt you."
"I know that, but that doesn't mean I won't be either." Santana said sadly
"There are no guarantees in life Santana, I've learned that lesson. I like you, very much. I want to have a chance to see where this can go." Rachel looked away for a moment to compose herself. "But I can't promise not to make mistakes, not to ever hurt you, or even what I'm going to be doing in the next year."
"I don't know where I'm going to be in a year either." Santana admitted with a frown, she let out a breath. "I just don't want to be hurt."
"No one does, Princesa. But you live you learn." Rachel promised with a shrug. "I'm game if you are."
Santana sat there watching the wind lifting and carrying the leaves. The way that they floated and carried on carelessly. What she wouldn't do to be able to live life without worry without judgment, to be so carefree. She snuck a glance at Rachel to see how she sat there looking at her with an honest gentle smile. "Ok, lets see how this goes."
"Good, I'm glad you see things my way." Rachel pulled her close and kissed her with a gentleness that Santana had never know before. "I would have fought for you, you're worth fighting for."
They snuggled, with the TV playing the background as they talked. Talked about their past, and what they wished for of their future. It wasn't a rushed day, it wasn't filled with check lists, or classes they had to rush off to or suffer through. It was the two of them, cuddle together laughing and smiling.
It was one of Santana's top 15 favorite days in her life. Rachel seemed to taking over her top list. Santana was just finished fighting the inevitable. She was falling in love with Rachel Berry, and for once in her life she wasn't go to fight what life threw at her. She was going to lay back and enjoy it.
Hours later they laid in one another's arms sleeping. Rachel woke up when she heard a buzzing noise, she looked around for the noise seeing that it was Santana's cell phone. She rolled her eyes and snuggled further into Santana nothing was more important that the girl in her arms at the moment and she wasn't going to move to disturb her. When her phone vibrated at her hip she pursed her lip and reached for it.
You skipped school w/out me. Im wounded. ~Puckerman
Needed to talk to Santana. Come over after school we can hang out ~Berry
Is she ok? ~Puckerman
Yeah she's great ~ Berry
Don't get hurt Rae, but don't hurt her either. ~Puckerman
Not planning on it ~ Berry
Britt did a number on her, I don't know the details, but she broke her pretty good ~Puckerman
Rachel frowned looking out the window thinking about Santana's forlorn look the day they had first met, the things that the girl tried to hide from the world the pain that she had bottled up. She needed to teach the girl to let go, and to learn how to live again.
Ok…. Ill see you later, I'll bring the pizza. ~ Puck
K thanks ~ Berry.
She snuggled further into the girl in her arms. "I'll protect you from everything, and everyone Princesa, even if that means from me too." she promised kissing the girl, she kissed the top of the girls head and then she fell asleep to.
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