Dear Edward,

The party was a week ago, and it was the worst night of my life. Alice had forced me to stay out and be social with her, and I didn't bother fighting it. Mike came up to us with his guest, and Alice thought that it would do me good to meet someone new, someone that hadn't already formed an opinion of me based on the past six months. We sat on the couch near the kitchen and talked. Mike's guest, James, seemed to inherit Mike's annoying habit of not getting the hint, and was flirting with me the entire time. About two hours later Alice had to show Mike where the bathrooms were, leaving James and me alone on the couch. James said he was thirsty, and I took that as an opportunity to get away for a bit. The kitchen had been blocked off for the party, so I went there to get refreshments. I didn't hear him, but James came in after me. He stuffed as much of his sweatshirt in my mouth as he could, which kept me from screaming. He dragged me into the garage, almost ripping my hair out. And then he raped me.

It was terrible. Alice found me naked in the garage. I don't remember what happened after James left, but Alice told me about it. She made everyone leave after she found me, which was about half an hour after she left the couch. I didn't say anything, but she guessed what happened. After helping me shower and get dressed she tried to get me to talk, but I just cried. I guess I fell asleep after that, because I remember going from the garage to Alice's bed. When I woke up she apologized profusely for leaving me alone with him, and I tried to tell her that it was okay and she didn't know, but I couldn't get the words out.

I sat there not talking for the longest time, and then I took the biggest step since you left. I went into your room, and I laid on the bed, just like the long nights where we would talk about the future, and I talked to you. It was like you were right there. I told you I had been raped, and to not freak out because I didn't want you going to jail for murder. I cried onto your pillow, and then I noticed Alice in the doorway with tears running down her face. I got up and I ran home.

I just don't think I can do this anymore, not without you.

I love you.

Bella