Edward's POV

When I got to school I decided to try out a different strategy. I remembered that every time someone asked Bella a question she would always answer it. I could keep asking her questions and she will have to look at me some times when she answered. I tried it out during English.

"So Bella who is your favourite character in pride and prejudice?"

She answered all at once. "Elizabeth Bennet."

From there onwards I kept asking her why she liked her and so on. I continued asking about different characters from the book and got her to talk to me throughout the day. She didn't seem to notice that we talked about the same book the whole day. The next day I started on Romeo and Juliet. Then on the day following I talked to her about Wuthering Heights. I wasn't sure whether I was making any progress or not but I was happy to simply hear her voice.

It was finally on Thursday when I started on Merchant of Venice that a groan from Alice broke my concentration.

"Please Edward don't spoil the classics for me. I love those books but at the rate you are going I'm going to end up hating them. Find another topic of conversation. I heard Jacob Black mentioning something about motor bikes yesterday. I think Bella likes them. I don't particularly like bikes so it doesn't matter if you continue with the topic for some time."

I didn't realize that I had been talking to Bella continuously about books. I was only concerned about thinking up the next question I was going to ask. I decided that Alice was right. It was getting monotonous with her answers always being very precise and mostly in monosyllables. I wasn't succeeding at drawing Bella out in a normal conversation.

I changed the topic abruptly. Bella didn't seem to notice.

"So do you like riding bikes?"

"Yes it's exhilarating, just like when you used to run"

She remembered it. She remembered me running with her on my back. But she used to close her eyes when I ran saying it made her dizzy.

"Did you like running?"

"I'm not sure."

She looked very confused by my question. I remembered she didn't like the speed at which I ran or drove the Volvo for that matter. But now she seemed to like it. This was new.

"But you like the speed of motor bikes?"

"Yes. I love it. When I ride my bike it's like I'm in a different world so free from everything."

There was a blissful look on her face. I was so engrossed with the emotion on her face that I almost didn't catch her words.

"Excuse me; did you just say you own a motor bike?"

"Yes. Oh, please don't tell Charlie. He doesn't know. I salvaged two bikes and Jake repaired them. It's hidden in Jake's garage in La Push. I ride it whenever I go visiting. I hear your voice when I ride. It's such an adrenaline rush."

I didn't have time to form an answer before the bell rang signaling the end of the period and Bella abruptly got up and went. She didn't seem to even notice that she had left in the middle of a conversation.

I was so shocked at her revelation that I didn't notice how long I sat there until Alice poked me in the ribs.

"Brother dearest it's time to go to the next class."

"Alice… Bella owns a motor bike.. I mean Bella drives a motor bike."

This was a nightmare. My clumsy Bella on a motor bike; I couldn't even imagine it. The horror of her falling at any minute and hurting herself, I was sure it must have happened so many times with her coordination. I remembered all the hospital records. They didn't at first seem that unusual but when I thought about it, all the wounds had been sustained by falling. At least the newest records showed she hadn't shown up at the emergency room for awhile, that means she must have got better at riding her bike. Wait…..what did she mean by 'I hear your voice when I ride?'

I was totally confused now. She sounded like some adrenaline junkie. I promised myself I would explore this further. For once when she spoke to me she had some kind of an emotion in her voice. I was grateful for that if not terrified about her next ride on the bike.

I rushed to the next class. This was one of the classes I didn't have with Bella. I waited impatiently till the end of the period. Then I walked as fast as my human charade would allow me to the next class I shared with her and sat down and waited for her.

She walked in and sat next to me in her usual seat.

"What do you mean you hear my voice when you ride?"

"Oh, it's just you warning me that I might fall. It's fun to provoke you. It was when I started hearing your voice that I decided to do things that made you warn me. You didn't keep your promise to me so I decided not to keep mine to you. It was such a rush; it's out of this world when I did those things like riding the bike."

Was she hallucinating? My medical training kicked it. Then it struck me she had started to do dangerous things that I had warned her not to do. I had broken that cruel promise I made to her 'It will be as if I never existed' which I had of course been unable to keep. So she had decided to break her promise to me as well and put herself in danger. Oh my poor Bella. She didn't even sound mentally coherent anymore. She sounded so nonchalant about it all while speaking to me. Didn't she realize she was admitting to hallucinating about me to me? It was as if she was talking of someone else.

The teacher walked in and once again Bella was lost in her own world. I decided then and there that I should try to some how get to the bottom of this. May be I could persuade her to take me with her on her next ride. Will she say yes? Well Alice was able to make her go shopping. That gave me hope.

As soon as the bell rang before she got up I managed to talk to her.

"Bella I would love to see your motor bike and ride with you. Will you take me on a ride?"

"Sure sure. Tomorrow I'm planning to go for a spin on my bike. You can come. Meet me at the border to the reservation at 10am."

Just like that I got invited to go on a motor bike ride with Bella. To say I was excited was an understatement. I will get to spend at least part of Saturday with her. I had come to hate the weekends since I was not able to see Bella on those days.

I was smiling from ear to ear when I left school. Alice smiled at me.

"You look like the cat that ate the cream."

"Yes you could say that. Bella is taking me on a ride on her bike tomorrow."

I could see Alice had already seen it. She smiled and muttered.

"The ride of your life."

And then began singing the national anthem in Arabic. I wondered what she was hiding but I was too excited to be concerned.

Finally it was Saturday. Alice had left me my clothes for the day. I was a bit surprised by her choice. She had left me three pairs of underwear a very tight fitting pair of jeans and a black t-shirt. This was a bit different from the baggy clothes I had been wearing the past couple of weeks. Oh! Well if she wanted me to wear these clothes I will just follow her advice. After all I was not going to bet against Alice on anything at this point. Besides I was too happy to be spending time with Bella in some place other than the class room.

I got to the boarder 10 minutes before and Bella pulled up shortly afterwards. She was smiling. This was the first time she smiled at me since I got back and I looked back at her in a daze. I don't know whether I smiled or not but I guess I did because her smile actually grew wider.

"Hop on."

She screamed over the noise of the motor bike and I gladly got on to the back and looked for something to hold on. But it was an old bike and didn't seem to have the handhold that should have been there. I debated on what to do.

"Hold on to me, I'm going to accelerate now."

Without a second thought I grabbed hold of Bella.

This was the first time I held Bella after getting back from Volterra. The wind was blowing Bella's hair in my face and I could smell her scent very strongly wrapping me up in ecstasy. The desire I had tried so desperately to control over took me. Edward junior stood at attention all at once. I didn't have space to pull back since the bike was small and I was pressed closely to Bella. Oh dear. I held on for dear life. I couldn't move I couldn't do anything. I just hoped Bella didn't notice it. Hopefully she would be too excited with her adrenaline rush and speed. I decided to talk to her to keep her mind focused on the bike ride.

"Be… Bella this is s..so great. I love r..riding with you like this." My voice shook and I was finding it increasingly difficult to talk. I was so aroused.

"Yes. It's fun isn't it?"

"Y…eees…..." and I moaned. God…that was an understatement.

"We'll go on a side road so that no one sees me on the bike."

Bella said this and suddenly turned into a bumpy dirt road off the main road.

Oh for the love of…..I didn't even bother to think the rest. The bumping made me rub against her back. Edward junior was having the time of his life. I felt the fiery warmth of her body rush up through every point of contact I had with her. I heard myself whimpering. I couldn't speak. I could feel myself throbbing against her and the tension in me was unbearable. I was impossibly hard. I was building up to something. I held onto Bella's hips tightly. A huge bump on the road sent me over the edge. I lost all reason and all coherent thought. The pleasure was unbearable I lost track of time and place and screamed with my release and felt myself flying through the air and finally landing on the forest floor. It took me a few moments to come back to reality. I felt moisture in my underwear and an incredible sense of peace and tranquility. Then realization struck. I had had my first orgasm and…..and….fallen off Bella's bike in my ecstasy. I was so embarrassed. I was sure Bella would have noticed. I covered my face with my hands.

I felt someone shake me and opened my eyes to see Bella's face staring at me in concern. I felt so vulnerable looking up into her eyes. I had just had the most mind blowing experience of my life and I had shared it with my Bella… I just wished I could tell her what happened to me and how much she meant to me. I loved her so much. In that one moment I saw something in her eyes and I think she saw through me too. It was as if we shared some deep understanding.

"Edward are you hurt? You fell off the bike. I know vampires are not that breakable but you look sort of weird."

She started running her hands all over me to check whether I was hurt. Oh no…..not again. Edward junior quickly picked up on what was happening and was ready for the second round. I tried to get up but I felt dizzy. I realized that I wasn't that steady to get up on my feet. I guess it was the after effects of the… ..the release. I was too ashamed to even admit it a second time. By now Bella was stroking my hair and hugged me to her. My face was nestled on her soft chest. Her warm breasts were pressed against my face and I could inhale her scent. I had lain countless amounts of times against Bella but not this closely to her soft breasts. So I never had the reaction that I had at that moment. Once again I was very aroused. I took a deep breath to try to calm myself but it had the opposite effect I felt the tension building up again and I lost complete control. I shook with my second release right in Bella's arms. I was moaning out aloud this time.

As I came down from my high I heard Bella's worried voice.

"Edward are you crying?"

Only if I could; I would cry with happiness and also shame. Bella didn't seem to notice the wetness in my underwear and I was glad for it. I quickly looked down to check whether a stain was visible. There was nothing visible except for the half aroused bulge caused by Edward junior. He didn't seem to be satisfied even after two mind blowing releases. I felt glad that no wet patch was visible and was about to heave a sigh of relief when it struck me. The moisture wasn't seeping out because I was wearing extra underwear; three pairs to be exact, which had been provided by my kind sister.

I froze in my mortification. Alice had seen me go over the edge. I'm sure she would have seen exactly how it happened too. I was never going to go back to that house again. I just couldn't face the little pixie. This was beyond embarrassing. I know she didn't do anything on purpose but only tried to protect my modesty by providing extra underwear but I couldn't even wrap my mind around the whole thing. My Victorian upbringing meant that we didn't talk about anything sexual openly specially with females. Definitely not sisters, I had always managed to skirt around the topic whenever it came up in our household.

Bella touched my face, which broke my concentration on my utter humiliation in the hands of my own sister. I stared at my Bella. If I could have blushed I would have blushed all over. I don't know what I looked like. I was embarrassed, filled with lust and also ecstatic all at the same time.

"Are you alright Edward? You look… hungry? Your eyes are black. Didn't you go hunting?"

If only you knew what I was hungry for right now. I thought to myself as I cuddled recklessly against my Bella. If I was going to hell I might as well do it in style I thought to myself.

"No Bella I'm not hungry. I'm just excited to have ridden with you."

I was as truthful as I could be in consideration of the promise I made to myself that I would try not to lie to Bella again.

"It was great wasn't it? Such a rush."

Well it's not my fault that she thought it was the motor bike ride… mmm and not the ride I meant….

"Yes sure it was the ride of my life."

It was then that I realized that the exact same words were spoken by a very scheming little pixie not so long ago. No wonder she sang in Arabic.

"I'm glad you enjoyed it that much, come on let's go again."

Let's go again….oh the magical words. I would my Bella… I would… if I could possibly get away with it and keep your innocence on the subject intact. Three pairs of underwear two mmm….. releases….. one more would surely mean disaster. Unless of course I got her to ride behind me… that was a good idea. I didn't want to abandon her when she looked so excited about riding with me again; if she only knew.

"Bella will you let me drive? I have not driven a motor bike in ages."

Well not since 1976 to be exact that is.

"Sure, sure." That was the second time she used the word twice. What was with her and the funny accent when she said 'sure, sure.'

So I got in front with Bella pressing against me. I didn't count on the sensation of her breasts against my back or her arms around my chest. Someone else took very pleasurable notice of it. Oh not again. Edward junior had me again. This is going to be a disaster. I drove very slowly. I didn't want to make any jerky movements. But all was in vain. I felt the pressure build up again and quickly braked and stopped when the pleasure hit me again. When I came back to earth I glanced down and noticed that just as my calculations had told me I was out of luck this time. There was a huge patch on the front of my jeans. I tried to hide it by leaning toward the front of the motor bike handles.

"Edward what's wrong? You stopped so abruptly. Hey, you are shaking again. I think something is seriously wrong with you."

She put her hands around my shoulders and pressed into me leaning into see my face. The movement made her hands slip down and brush against my nipples through my T-shirt at the same time her scent overwhelmed me with her nearness. That was my undoing I felt the pressure coiling yet again and I was off to heaven and hell again. Both of us shook with the force of my release this time.

"Edward… Edward…. I … I think you are sick… shall I call Alice?"

That made me finally find my voice.

"No..n.. no. Pl…Please don't please. J.. Just give me a minute I'm fine. Just wait."

I was still leaning on the handles, hiding my embarrassment with Bella holding on to my waist. How on earth was I going to get out of this mess? I should have listened to my senses and got out of here after the second round hit while I was still safe. I could wait till the whole thing dried to get off the bike. That could take until tomorrow. God! What am I going to do? Well I could always hope that Bella doesn't notice and get down and walk away. But she was very observant at times and I couldn't risk it. She even noticed the difference in my eyes. I hoped she didn't notice my eyes had turned golden again. I closed my eyes and decided to not look at her directly and conduct my conversations while looking at the ground.

"Edward…. Something is wrong…I can feel it. Is there anything I can do?"

"No… no… just hold on"

I needed more time to come up with a plan. Just then I noticed my savior; the lid of the petrol tank in the bike. That's it. I can pretend it got loose and I got some of the petrol on me. I had to distract Bella while I got the lid open and put some petrol on me so that it looked authentic.

"Bella could you get that stick over there for me please? I think something is stuck in the tank."

Bella got down and walked towards the stick I pointed. I quickly opened the tank and rubbed the lid against me. When she turned with the stick I pretended to curse to myself about spilling petrol and took the stick from her and jabbed it into the tank to show I did indeed need the stick to dislodge something. I only hoped that Bella was as ignorant about engines as before and that the dog hadn't taught her.

"Is it ok now Edward?"

"Yes I think so. But I think we should stop for today. We can go riding again some other day." This was happy news to someone I know resting below my belt. Well now 'awake' I might add.

"Ok. Thanks. I'll have Jake look at it"

I seriously hoped that the dog did not know the difference between the smell of normal vampire and the smell of ahem…. certain vampire secretions. I had rubbed the lid against me and it would surely hold the scent.

"Bella you drive, I'll run along side you until you get to the boarder. I think it's best not to put too much strain on the engine right now."

Bella nodded as she got on to the motor bike and started the engine.

There was no way in hell I was getting on that pleasure machine disguised as an innocent motor bike again. It was more potent than any of the toys they sell in so called shops to bring people pleasure. I was never going to take motor bikes lightly, ever again. May be I should get myself one. That's an idea, with an engine that roared and gave out vibration. What am I thinking? I'm turning into a sex crazed maniac. Was there a possibility that a vampire could go mad? I was thinking all this while I ran with Bella.

When I got to the boarder I waved and took off in the direction of our house. It was only then that I realized that everyone at home was going to smell me. I decided the only thing I can do at the moment was to try to wash it off. I first decided to bury my underwear. They were going to stink the most. I quickly took them off and jumped into the river. I washed my jeans and then buried the offending under garments. I then sniffed myself, I could still smell it on me but more faintly than before. Well this is the best I could do. I got out of the river and started walking towards the house following our usual path when I came across a backpack with a note on top that read.

"Edward, unforeseen circumstances have lead me to ….ah.. alter your wardrobe for the second time today, hence the new clothing. Put everything else into the sealable plastic bag I have provided so that you can wash them later. Make sure you get everything in the sealed bag…Emmett loves digging if he smells anything funny. Love, Alice."

I held the parcel to my chest. I was speechless. This was not happening. Oh dear…lord as if the first humiliation was not enough.

But I had no choice she was offering me a less embarrassing way out of this. At least hopefully it would only be between the two of us. The others I hoped would remain ignorant. I quickly dipped into the river again and washed myself. She had even included scented body wash in her care package. Great! I dried myself and put the new clothes on. I dug up the unmentionables, washed everything in the river water and sealed it along with the rest of my clothing. I put it in the back pack Alice provided and slowly made my way to the house. I quickly scanned everyone's minds and felt reassured when everything seemed normal. Alice was missing. I was glad. I quickly ran up to my room and hid my clothes. I would wash them later. Bella was supposed to spend the rest of the day at the reservation so I was officially off guard duty. I had just lain down on my bed to think through everything that happened to me when the little pixie barged into the room. She was giggling.

I did the only thing I could think of, I covered my face with my hands and hid under the covers. I had not done that since the day I was caught with my hand in the cookie jar when I was a little boy. I simply could not face her.

She didn't go away and she pulled at the covers laughing. Asking me questions in her mind.

How was it? Did you enjoy it? I loved the part where you fell of the bike.

She clapped her hands in her excitement. I'm never going to live this down.

I'm so happy. Finally you know what you have been missing all this time. Jasper will be relieved. He had a very difficult time coping with all the pent up lust inside you. Don't get me wrong it's not that I didn't enjoy it but I wanted it to be born out of his need for me and not your need for Bella. Her thoughts went to the fun time she had relieving Jaspers need. Information I did not need.

"Ah.. Alice stop. I don't want to know the details of you ah.. helping out Jasper."

But this is so special you should tell the family. They will be so happy for you.

If I have my way the family was never going to know about this incident ever. I decided then and there that I should try to persuade Alice to keep this a secret. I remembered that she loved the yellow Porsche she had stolen in Italy. I had already decided to get it for her for Christmas. I thought it best to give it to her now if she promised to never tell anyone about this. I knew she would see it when I made the decision and that I didn't need to say it out loud since everyone would hear me if I spoke.

She jumped up in joy and hugged me hard to her through the covers.

Oh Edward thank you so much. Please get one in Canary Yellow like the one I stole. I loved the colour. I promise I will never ever tell anyone.

I heaved a sigh of relief. But I still refused to come out of the covers. And after awhile Alice left the room when she found that I was not going to budge from my place for some time. She didn't want to anger me and she wanted to make sure I got her the present. But I knew I hadn't heard the last of it. Her curiosity about how I felt would not let her give this a rest until I told her. She wasn't a pervert she was just a very curious little pixie who wanted my happiness above everything. Well she also wanted to know the details on how I got to be so happy too. Oh god… This is a conversation that I will not have….no.. no way.

Hey I will get it out of you. You wait and see…I heard the little pixie's laughter all the way from the living room. I was doomed.

I thought about everything that happened to me today. How Edward junior had taken control as I lost all coherent thought. Wait… what did I just call my …oh no….. I've named it. I have named a body part. This is getting too embarrassing for words. I tried to analyse my feelings and rationalize my behaviour trying to make sense of the crazy person I was becoming. I thought back to the psychology course I had taken. I remembered reading some where that some people did this type of thing to distance themselves from things they did that they knew was wrong which they blamed on their own body parts. It was done by children in particular for example; it was my hand that hit Robert not me. I had got to the point of blaming Edward junior for everything, when in fact all of it was my doing. A hundred something old vampire and his junior buddy both partners in crime. I started laughing hysterically. This was not happening to me….

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