Golden Globes Aftermath
Chapter 7
A/N: Sorry it took so long! Celebrated Valentines day over the weekend so didn't get any writing done! The next will be up sooner. Promise!
Naya stood at the edge of set watching as they set everything up. She had her black jacket on with her hands buried deep in her pockets as she bit her lip nervously. Today was the day that they were shooting the first Brittana kiss. Well technically it wasn't, they had done it at the beginning of the season, but it was different now. Back then she had feelings for Heather yes, but that was when she still had them tucked away. Now they had been released and no matter how hard she tried to put them back in; they wouldn't.
"Ready for the big scene?" Dianna asks, walking up behind Naya. There were people running around on stage setting up the choir room set, and Naya was still just watching, rocking back and forth on the balls of her feet.
She glances behind her seeing Dianna, and Lea, before pulling her eyes forward once again. The blonde stands next to her and looks over to her. "Ready as I'll ever be." She replies with a small smile. Dianna puts her arm around the Latina's shoulders and Naya rests her head on Dianna's shoulder. "Life is so unfair." Naya says with a sigh, making Dianna chuckle, and nod in agreement. "I mean here I am helplessly in love with someone, and trying to get over them, but I have to be forced kiss her, and act all in love on screen." Naya explains to the blonde next to her, waving her hands in the air.
"I know it's hard, but it's your job. Besides you're the one who has been pushing for the Brittana storyline." Dianna reminds her, pointing a finger at the smaller girl with a smirk.
Naya rolls her eyes, but lets a smile tug on her lips. "Don't remind me." She says dramatically and Dianna just laughs at her.
A few minutes later, they finish setting up and Ryan calls for Naya and Heather to come onto set. The brunette looks around for Heather and spots her coming in with Taylor. She walks onto set and takes a seat in one of the chairs on stage as she watches to two of them. Heather gives him a quick kiss and walks on to the stage leaving him with Dianna and Lea.
"Ready?" Heather asks her, sitting in the seat next to her. Naya looks up at Heather who was smiling brightly at her, and nods her head.
They run through their lines a couple of times, and finally it's time for the kiss. Ryan had instructed them on how to do it, and not to make it too much; being a lesbian kiss on prime time meant they couldn't get into it too much. Naya was slightly offended by that of course, but she understood the world still wasn't completely ready for this kind of thing, and she respected the fact that they had to take it easy. She actually was slightly happy it couldn't be intense, because she didn't know if she could handle that; she wasn't even sure if she could handle a simple kiss with Heather.
"Action!" Naya hears Ryan yell, making her snap out of her thoughts. She looks over at Heather who was smiling at her with her small Brittany smile. She quickly gets into character and leans in closer to the blonde.
"It's always been you San. I don't want him." Heather says, looking deep into the brunette's eyes. Naya couldn't help but wish Heather was saying those words to her, but with her name instead of San. She moves her gaze down to the blonde's lips as she licks her own in anticipation. She looks back up at Heather before leaning in fully pressing her lips against the blonde's in a soft kiss.
Naya puts her hands on the back of Heather's neck and pulls her in closer as she feels the blonde's hands move onto her hips. "Okay, and cut!" Ryan yells, standing up from his chair. He looks over at the girls who still have yet to stop kissing. Heather was on the edge of her seat almost in Naya's lap and the kiss had turned more intense; more intense than it was supposed to get. "Girls!" He yells once again, and this time it must have reached them because they abruptly pull apart. Ryan just rolls his eyes and walks off of set, and over to the next set where they were doing a scene with Amber and Chris.
Naya looks down at her hands immediately after pulling away from the kiss as her cheeks flush deep red. She hadn't meant to get that caught up in the kiss, but it just happened. Whenever her lips touched Heather's she seemed to get lost, and nothing else in the world existed. It was just them. "Sorry." Naya mumbles, keeping her gaze cast down.
"It's okay. Wasn't just you." Heather replies, looking at the brunette who was trying her best to keep her eyes away from her own. She glances up at Taylor who gives her an uneasy smile. She inwardly kicks herself but smiles back at him, trying her best to make it completely real. She moves her gaze over to Dianna and Lea who were standing next to him with their eyebrows rose, staring at the two girls. She quickly averts her gaze away from the two of them.
Dianna looks over at Taylor who was watching the two girls on set with uneasy eyes. She smirks and leans over closer to him, "They have really great chemistry together huh?" She asks, glancing over at Lea who had a smirk on her face also. Taylor brings his hand up to his mouth and clears his throat before looking at the two girls.
"Yeah they're great actresses." He says a bit unsure. He glances over at Naya, and Heather and swallows a lump in his throat before looking back over at Lea and Diana. He gives them a small smile and walks away.
Dianna watches him leave and glances over at Lea, "That was so not acting." She comments with a small smirk.
"Nope." Lea agrees, and both girls let out giggles, shaking their heads. Their eyes go back to the two girls that were still seated on set. Both of them were sitting in the seat facing forwards, their eyes cast downward, sitting in silence. Heather then looks back up at them and then looks around the room; they knew she was looking for Taylor. Dianna debates on whether or not she should tell Heather where he had gone to, but before she could even answer Lea points in the direction that he had gone too, and Heather nods before getting up following him.
Dianna grabs Lea's hand and pulls her on set where they sit down next to Naya, knowing her friend would need her now. "Come here baby." Dianna says, pulling her friend into a hug. Naya just crumples against her, burying her head in Dianna's neck as Lea strokes her hair.
NXH
Naya sat on the couch of her trailer, staring up at the ceiling. Lea and Dianna had gone to lunch with the rest of the cast, but with much protest, Naya had managed to stay here. She couldn't get the kiss out of her mind; it was running on replay over and over in her head like a broken record.
This was all getting way to hard for her; she had to do something. She knows she promised Heather that she'd always be there, and that they could have things go back to normal, but she had realized she couldn't do it. She didn't want to hurt Heather, but right now she needed to protect her own heart, and that meant spending time away from the blonde. Heather wasn't going to date her, she was happy with Taylor, and she needed to accept that fact, and move on. If she was going to move on she definitely couldn't do it with Heather breathing down her neck. She just hoped Heather could understand that, and not be pissed at her.
She gets pulled out of her thoughts when she hears the door open. She turns her head and sees Heather and Taylor walking in laughing. The blonde's smile soon fades when she sees the brunette lying on the couch who had tears running down her cheeks.
Naya hadn't even realized she had started crying, but apparently she had. She wipes the tears away with the back of her hand, and sits up on the couch looking at the two of them briefly before dropping her gaze to the floor. "Babe, could you give us a minute?" Heather asks, turning to her boyfriend. He just nods and walks back out the door, closing it behind him. Heather lets out a sigh and sits down next to Naya. "Tell me what to do." Heather says quietly, looking down at the ground. Naya looks over at the blonde confused, and Heather continues, "Tell me how to fix this. I don't want you sad. I don't like seeing you cry. Just please tell me how to fix it." The blonde pleads, looking over to meet Naya's dark eyes.
Naya lets out a sigh, and moves her gaze from Heather's blue eyes over to the wall on the other side of the room. "I don't know." She says honestly, and she can hear Heather let out a sigh in defeat. "I think that I just need to spend some time away from you." She then says, and she can see Heather's head snap up, looking over in her direction, but she doesn't look at her. She couldn't see the hurt in the blonde's eyes. She had to do this, and looking at Heather would make her cave, and take it all back.
"What do you mean?" Heather asks, her voice cracking. She knew what Naya meant, but she needed to hear her say it. She wouldn't believe it unless she heard it out loud. Even then she didn't know if she could believe it.
"It means what I said." Naya says, standing up from the couch. "Heather, I've accepted the fact that you don't want me. I have." she confirms, nodding her head as she begins to pace, her eyes still not looking at Heather. "But I can't just get over you like that, and being around you so much is not helping. It's making things worse." She says, stopping from her movements. "I just need some time away from you." She adds, finally looking back up at the blonde, who now had tears starting to run down her cheeks. At the sight, Naya almost wanted to take back everything she had said and run over and hold her, but she couldn't. She had to do this.
Heather looks into Naya's eyes, trying to rack her brain with a response. Or possibly just waiting for Naya to say something else. Say that it wasn't true, and that she didn't want to be away from her. But she knew that wasn't going to happen. She had been selfish through this whole thing, and hadn't even thought about Naya or how she was feeling. She had just wanted her best friend back; she hadn't thought about how hard this was for her. "If that's what you need then okay." She finally says with a nod. She walks over to Naya who stood frozen in her spot. She looks at the girl in front of her for a moment; tears running down both their faces, before wrapping her arms around her, holding her close to her.
Naya lets out a sob as she holds Heather close to her. She inhales deeply, taking in the blonde's scent, closing her eyes; savoring the moment. She feels Heather pull away and she does the same, looking into the blonde's eyes. Heather smiles softly at her and squeezes her hand, before walking out of the trailer.
NXH
A few days later, Naya walks into her own trailer where she sees Dianna sitting on her couch. She smiles and sits down next to the blonde. Dianna had basically been living in her trailer ever since the whole thing with Heather had happened. Naya didn't like being alone, and she even more so didn't like being alone when Heather would come inside. She had been hanging out in Dianna and Lea's trailer a lot lately, but every now and then Dianna would come and keep her company in her own trailer.
She of course still had to see Heather on set during filming; there was no way of avoiding that. She even had to do a couple more kissing scenes, but they all so far had just been quick pecks and some hand holding. With plenty of mental preparation she had gotten through it so far with out any trouble. It also helped that as soon as the director yelled cut, she fled the scene.
She had actually been doing okay, and felt as if she was really moving on. She of course still had feelings for the blonde; they weren't going to go away that quickly, but things were getting easier for her. She was getting back to her normal goofy self around all the cast except of course Heather. She was unusually quiet whenever she was around, but thankfully, Heather didn't spend much time with the cast outside of work; besides her.
Naya pulls herself from her thoughts and looks over at Dianna who was sitting on the other end of the couch reading a book. The blonde had pulled Naya's feet into her lap, and was playing with her shoestrings as she read. Naya was so thankful for Dianna; she had been by her side constantly over the past couple of weeks. She felt slightly bad for hanging around with her so much lately, she figured it had to be annoying, but Dianna hadn't complained once.
Feeling eyes on her Dianna looks up from her book and over at Naya, and smiles at her, "What?" She asks, shaking her head, giggling at her friend.
Naya once again pulls herself out of her thoughts, and realizes she had been staring. "Nothing sorry." She says, sheepishly, looking down at her lap. She looks back up at Dianna for a moment, still sensing her gaze, and sees Dianna looking at her with an eyebrow raised, "It's just I was thinking how grateful I am for you." Naya says with a shrug. "I'm sure I've been annoying over the past couple of weeks."
Dianna closes her book and sits it down on the coffee table, before turning on the couch to face Naya, "You haven't been annoying. I just want to help, and I've actually really enjoyed your company." She says with a shrug. Naya smiles widely at the blonde, and it was now her turn to look down as a blush crept up on her face.
Naya smirks and pulls her legs out of Dianna's lap and crosses her legs, scooting over closer to the other girl. "I've enjoyed your company also." Naya says softly, dipping her head down to try and gain back the eye contact. "You've made me almost completely forget about Heather. I have an amazing time with you." Naya says, smiling sincerely at her friend.
Naya had subconsciously moved her face closer to Dianna's now only inches away from her face. She hadn't even realized when she got that close, but she had and now she was here, staring deep into hazel eyes. She watches as Dianna's eyes flicker down to her lips and then back up to her eyes, and Naya can't help but do the same. She licks her lips, and moves in closer and sees Dianna move in closer also as her eyes revert back down to Naya's lips.
Just before their lips could touch they hear the trailer door open, and they both jerk away; Naya almost falling off the couch. They both look over at the door and see Heather staring at them with her mouth hung open and Taylor right behind her. "Heather." Naya says, standing up from the couch. "I thought you guys were going to lunch." She asks, nervously fixing herself; although nothing had been messed up. She felt guilty, and she wasn't sure why. She had every right to kiss Dianna if she wanted to, and Heather couldn't say a thing about it. She didn't want to be with her, she was with Taylor, and Naya shouldn't feel back about kissing someone else; but she did.
Heather just stands there for another moment, looking between the two girls who were now glancing at the room nervously. She quickly clears her throat, and shakes her head, breaking her from the trance she had been in. "Yeah we are. I just had to get my purse." She says walking over to the table. She grabs the item and throws it over her shoulder, before looking back at them. She opens her mouth but closes it, not knowing what to say. She was still trying to comprehend what she had just walked in on.
"Naya, are we still going to get sushi?" Dianna asks, walking up behind the brunette.
Naya blinks a few times, and breaks her trance she had on Heather and looks at the blonde behind her. "Umm, yeah." Naya says slowly, nodding her head. They hadn't had any plans of going anywhere, but Naya figured Dianna was just trying to break the tension, and get them out of the room as quickly as possible.
"Let's go." Dianna says, grabbing Naya's hand in her own. "Bye, guys," She smiles at Heather, before dragging Naya out of the trailer.
"Bye." Heather says, softly, her eyes immediately going to their interlaced hands, as they walk out the trailer.
"I love you." Naya says, letting out a relieved sigh as they walk around the lot.
"I know." Dianna says with a smirk. Naya looks over at Dianna and rolls her eyes, but can't help the smile from forming on her lips. Dianna then notices they were still holding hands, and Naya was leading her to the parking lot, "Where are we going?" She asks confused.
"Um, you promised me some sushi." Naya says like it was obvious. "You don't just suggest sushi to me, and not expect to get me some." She says, making Dianna laugh out loud. The blonde doesn't protest though, and lets Naya drag her over to her car, and they head out for some sushi.
NXH
An hour later, Dianna and Naya sat at the table of the restaurant, talking and laughing about random things. Naya looks across the table at the blonde who had her head tilted back, laughing at something Naya had previously said, and Naya couldn't help the corners of her lips from curving upward as she watched her. They tended to have the most random or silly conversations, and were always laughing. They were a lot alike, both being extremely carefree and silly, and always had an amazing time together. "Di." Naya says seriously, making the blonde stop laughing and look over at her.
"Yeah?" Dianna replies, her tone more serious than playful now. She knew Naya wanted to have a serious conversation now, and she was pretty sure what it was about. She watches the Latina open her mouth to speak, but sees nothing come out. The brunette then looks down at her hands as she tries to figure out what to say. "Is this about our almost kiss?" She asks, making Naya quickly look up her with wide eyes.
That was what she had wanted to talk about, but she hadn't intended on being so blunt about it. Which was odd because Naya wasn't usually one to be shy or nervous. There was nothing that Naya couldn't talk about. "Yeah…" She finally says, glancing around the room nervously. "I'm sorry about that. I just got kind of caught up in the moment." She says with a nervous laugh.
Dianna shakes her head, and reaches over the table, taking one of Naya's hands in her own. "Don't be sorry." She says, making Naya look up at her. She smiles softly at the girl in front of her before continuing, "I wanted it too. It wasn't just you."
"I don't know what I want honestly." Naya says, shaking her head back and forth. She feels Dianna's thumb caressing the back of her hand, and she looks at her interlaced hands for a moment before moving her gaze back up to Dianna's smiling face.
"You do." Dianna answers for her with a firm nod. "You want to be with Heather, but since you can't have that, you want someone to be there for you, and to make you feel better." She adds, not moving her gaze from Naya, who was shifting uncomfortably in her seat.
"I'm guessing you want the same." Naya finally says, bringing her chocolate eyes up to meet hazel. The blonde's gaze had turned from confident to confused which made Naya smirk. "You want Lea, and you can't have that I'm assuming so you want someone there for you." She adds, this time making Dianna shift uncomfortably. "You aren't the only one who notices these things." Naya finally says with a smirk. She couldn't help but be amused at how much the tables had turned in the past few minutes.
"Fine. You know what? You're right. I'm in love with Lea, but she isn't interested." Dianna says with a shrug, trying to brush it off as it was nothing. Naya knew different though.
"Well, maybe we can be there for each other." Naya suggest, moving her chair over, scooting closer to Dianna. "I could definitely use some cheering up, and I feel like you could also." She says, and Dianna just nods her head in agreement.
"So we're just going to use each other?" Dianna asks, raising one of her perfectly manicured eyebrows.
Naya tilts her head to the side, contemplating this thought for a moment. She tightens the grip on Dianna's hand and smiles softly at her. "Well, I won't lie and say that I don't like you, and that I'm not attracted to you…"
"But you love Heather." Dianna says with a nod.
"Right, and you love Lea. But who knows, maybe in the process something could happen. I don't like planning, I just like doing." Naya adds in a husky voice, leaning closer into the blonde. Dianna subconsciously licks her lips as she moves her eyes down to Naya's plump lips. Dianna can only nod her head in agreement to the statement, not being able to speak, making Naya smirk. She leans in closer and presses her lips against Dianna's for a soft kiss.
A/N So let me know what you guys think! This was more of a filler chapter but next chapter will have a lot more heya and more drama! :) Thanks for reading!
