Disclaimer: The world of Harry Potter belongs to JK Rowling...I'm just borrowing some characters to give them a story and something to do. They told me they were bored! Don't sue...I'm not doing this for profit...just for fun!
Author's Note: I'd just like to send out a thank you to all of you that reviewed, put my story on alert, or made it a favorite of yours. The rest of you that haven't done anything yet shame on you! I spite thee! Not really...I would just like more reviews please. Alright this chapter is by far my FAVORITE because it's about my boy Sirius. I hope you all enjoy it as much as I did while I was writing it.
Confessions
To whom it may concern:, September 1st
This is by far the dumbest thing that I've ever done. What guy in his right mind keeps a journal? Well I guess Remus does but he doesn't count cause he's had a pretty messed up life. On second thought, so have I...I think I just called myself crazy. It's a good thing no one will see this. I don't need my reputation destroyed. So Remus gave me this book and told me to write in it so here I go...this could get interesting.
Let's see...what interesting thing happened first? I was sorted into Gryffindor, which will piss my parents off, so I'm pretty happy about that. They wanted me to be in Slytherin but I've always done the complete opposite of what they tell me to and I didn't think I should start listening to them now. I was one of the first kids sorted and I was the first one sorted into Gryffindor. It was a little bit of a shock for everyone else when I was placed there. They all just assumed I would be in Slytherin like the rest of the Black clan. What these people don't know is that I'm nothing like THEM. I may be related to them by blood, but they are not my family. I don't have a family...or so I believed up until today.
Alright, so after I was sorted into Gryffindor I noticed everyone watching me so I sat by myself at the table to save people from moving to get away from me. What I should've done was sit right in the middle of a big group and watched them squirm. That would've been funny! I didn't think of that until after I sat down so that plan was a waste...almost. If I would've done that then I wouldn't have met James Potter.
Lets see...what's the best way to describe James Potter...ahha! He is the equivalent to the prodigal son. Almost everyone likes James...unless they are pureblood maniacs that don't like blood traitors (aka the Black clan). I'd heard of the Potters before meeting James. My parents used to talk about them, of course it wasn't in the nicest of terms mind you. You see, all pureblood wizards are related somehow...so James is a relative of some sort. Of course, he isn't one that's invited to any family get-togethers so I really don't know him. Although I have heard some ice things about that family from my dear cousin Andromeda. She met the Potters at a wizarding convention or something along those lines. She's always spoken highly of the Potters. So I wasn't as surprised as everyone else was when James sat down next to me after he got sorted into Gryffindor. Turns out we're a lot alike...my family hates him, my family hates me; he's a blood traitor, I'm a blood traitor; he's full of himself, I'm full of myself. We're two peas in a pod! It turns out that James has a thirst for breaking rules and I'm a pro at doing that so I believe it's safe to say I've made a friend. And it's one that my parents will hate so I got a two-for-one!
Next, after James and I discovered our love for pranks, he introduced me to an old friend of his named Peter Pettigrew. Just by looking at him I don't like him. He looks kind of shifty and I don't trust people who look like they'll turn on you if they think something better comes along. But he is a friend of James' so he'll be a friend of mine. I don't know that much about him. His name doesn't sound familiar so my parents must not think anything about him. For now I'll trust James' opinion and be friends with Peter.
Ok, so what happened next? Oh yeah! We were all sitting at the table enjoying ourselves when James spots his "future wife". She's a girl in our year named Lily Evans. I'd heard a little about her on the train ride here to Hogwarts. She's a muggle-born witch, which ensnares my curiosity. I've always wondered how powerful a witch/wizard with muggle parents can be. Guess I'll get to find out! Alright, so Peter pipes up and agrees with James about Lily being hot and perfect for James. Ok...I confess...she's hot (James has good taste), but I just can't see them together. To me she looks like the rule following kind and that just isn't who James is. I told him she was out of his league but he just laughed. Oh well! He wants her and if there is one thing I love in this world, it's a challenge. I'll make sure James gets his perfect wife, big house, and his 2.5 kids. HA! That always cracks me up! Of course there's going to be one thing that stands in the way of James and his future and that one thing is the slimeball named Severus Snape.
I know Snape. My parents spoke of him, but never loud enough to where one could hear exactly what they were saying. They seemed to think highly of him even though he has a muggle for a father. So since my parent apporve of him...I hate him! I could tell that Snape didn't approve of James' notice of Lily but he really doesn't have a say in it. I know they know each other because I saw them talking before the sorting and I'm pretty sure they shared a compartment on the train. Even if they are friends, which baffles me, he doesn't have the right to decide her life for her. James noticed Snape too and we came up with the genius plan that we'd pull all of our pranks on Snape. The idea is golden!
Well, since we decided that Snape would be our guinea pig, we had to try it out. We rigged a stink bomb to drop on him when he headed for his house room. Well, our plan didn't work quite as we planned. Snape saw us setting it up and got around it before it fell. It did fall close to him so he got some of the smell and it also hit a few other Slytherins in the process, so I guess it wasn't a complete waste. Plus it really got us noticed. By the time we got up to the common room the entire Gryffindor and Slytherin houses knew that James and myself were the masterminds behind the prank. Since the prank was done for James, I let him take the spotlight while I watched. Lily didn't seem to approve of James' showing off, but she'll get over that. I'll make sure of it!
Alright, so while James was soaking up the spotlight I noticed a person sitting by themselves next to the fireplace (this is where Remus from the beginning comes in). All he was doing was reading a book. I remembered seeing this guy. I'm pretty sure he sat by himself on the train, when he was sorted into Gryffindor he sat far away from everyone else like I did, I'm pretty sure that by the time i was introduced to Peter, we were next to him at the table and he was still reading. Then I was him again before we pulled our prank. Lily Evans was talking to him, but he really wasn't talking back. He seems like a oner or an outcast, which is a lot like how I felt coming here to Hogwarts. Then I remembered how good it felt to have James and even Peter that I decided that this little trio needed a fourth member. I ran it by James a little later, after he was done showing off, and he was all up for the idea. I think James felt sorry for him because the guy looks like he'd had a hard life. So we agreed to go talk to him. Peter tried first and failed miserably so I gave it a shot. Turns out I'm pretty good at making friends. All I said to him was that I knew how it felt to have no one. And something clicked. He looked at me and I looked at him, and we came to the understanding that we were friends. I don't think he was thrilled about the idea at first, honestly I still don't think he is, but he really doesn't have a choice. He's stuck with us now. I will admit that there is something different about Remus Lupin (which is his last name in case I forgot to mention that, and, if you recall, he is the one that gave me this book), but I just don't know what it is. Maybe once he starts trusting me he'll tell. I guess I'll have to wait until then.
As you can see, this evening has been very exciting. I went from zero friends and family and a pretty much despised person to a guy with friends who feel more like family and everyone pretty much worshipping me. I've discovered I'm the heartthrob of the school, so it will be a fun time here. There's just one thing I'm worried about...I'm afraid that Hogwarts just isn't big enough to handle me, especially now that there is a guy who can keep me on my toes. Watch out Hogwarts! Black and Potter are on the loose! No one is safe!
Sirius Black
Ok review again please! I'm not quite sure where this is going to go now because I haven't gotten that far yet in my head. Let me know what you guys/girls think so I'll know whether or not to continue it. I think I'll make the first book into a six parter (Confessions part one being what you just finished reading) and it will deal with the first year then write other books that focus on the next six years. Thanks in advance for any help going to be given! And watch out for my next story titled "You Can't Help Who You Love". It should be posted around the time that I go on break for Thanksgiving. Much love to all of you that have reviewed...you guys are my heroes!!!
