Adam wakes up after Randy's confession; they had lain down on the floor and talked until they were no longer able to keep their eyes open. Randy drifted off to sleep first and Adam lay there glad that Randy had told him what he had done but also feeling much pain to know that he did - he cheated. Adam was still feeling miserable knowing the truth and wondered how long he would feel this way though it was only a few hours ago. To Adam it felt much longer than that.
Maybe it was because I thought Randy would never do something like that, not to me, and it's hard to face knowing that I was wrong. I know Randy could have kept this to himself he never had to let me know and I'm grateful that he cared enough to tell me the truth when he could had gotten away with it. But still every once in a while only for a split second or two I wish he had. Then I could go on unaware that he was kissing, touching, making someone else moan his name. It is the worst kind of pain I'd ever have to bare, worse than when I got injured.
I just wish I didn't have to face it, the pain is unbearable, I don't think I would be able to look at Randy, feel for him the way I used to at least not for a while. Now I'll always have one thought in the back of my head - if Randy isn't here yet what has been taking him so long? Is he with someone right now? Is he cheating on me again? I'd never be able to trust Randy again but I pray that one day it'll be like it used to be and that I could trust him again one day. I just hope that day gets here soon, I hate to think as Randy as a cheater. He's so much better than that. He's kind, sweet, charming, he loves kids. I always thought he'd make a great dad but he gave that up for me and true no one actually knows we're together but I do and I know what Randy's giving up, what he's dealt with to be with me and I love him so for it.
Adam sits up and moves Randy's arm from around his waist. He gets up and grabs Randy's present. He still hasn't given it to him. He thinks that he'll set it by Randy so when he wakes it'll be the first thing he sees.
While waiting for Randy to wake Adam fixes himself something to eat. He sits down with a roast beef sandwich and a soda and turns on the TV, the volume low so to not wake Randy.
Adam's thoughts begin to wander on who this girl/woman was who seduced Randy into sleeping with her. What did she look like? How did she act? How old was she? Did she have kids, a husband, a boyfriend perhaps? What things did she do to Randy? What did Randy do to her? All these thoughts are making Adam angry. He has to stop touching himself with thinking these things, he has to think of something else but he doesn't know how to stop thinking of this person who made Randy unfaithful to him.
Adam gets up and opens the door. He steps outside and sits on the top steps much like he did when waiting for Randy to arrive.
He needed some fresh air hoping that doing this would rid those thoughts from his mind.
Randy wakes up and slowly opens his eyes. He looks over to his side expecting to see Adam curled up beside him but instead he sees a box with a green ribbon on top.
Randy sits up and rubs his eyes. He looks at the box and then looks around the room. He sees Adam's empty soda can sitting on top of the counter but no Adam in sight. Randy is beginning to panic.
Has Adam changed his mind? Did he leave me? Has he found out that he can't go on being with me knowing I let someone else lay with me, have sex with me?
He understands… if the roles were reversed he knows that it would have driven him crazy that Adam had been with someone other than him. So he can understand if Adam couldn't stand it and just left but it would still be very painful to go on living without him. He loves him no matter how many stupid mistakes either of them had made or will make. He loves Adam and he knows that Adam loves him.
"You're awake, good," Adam says standing in the doorway.
Randy looks up and without thinking he runs to Adam and brings his arms around his waist. "I thought you left me," Randy whispers uncaring that they are showing their love for one another in the opened doorway where anyone can see.
"No I didn't, I was just outside getting some fresh air," Adam explains.
"Oh good," Randy says as he calms down and lets go of Adam's waist.
"Is this for me?" Randy asks as he walks over to the present picking it up and holding in his hands.
"Yes," Adam says while shutting the door giving them some much needed privacy.
"I hope you like it," Adam says as he takes a seat.
Randy walks over to the couch and takes a seat by Adam.
"I'm sure I will," Randy says while pulling the ribbon off the box.
Adam sits there watching with a sexy smirk on his face knowing what is inside it.
Randy opens the lid and looks inside. He pulls it out with a confused look on his face. "What is it?" Randy asks dumbfounded.
Adam looks at Randy and then throws his head back and laughs.
"It's something to do while in bed," Adam says.
"What do you mean like a sex toy or something?" Randy whispers.
"Well, yeah, I thought it would be nice to try but I don't know if you'd still wanna… you know, after everything," Adam whispers back his happy smile replaced with a sad frown.
"Well I'd love to, but I thought you'd be the one who wouldn't want to, you did nothing wrong that's all my stupidity, my fault, I'm the one that did wrong you did nothing wrong at all," Randy says.
"Um....," Adam says grabbing the gift out of Randy's hands.
He gets up and slowly walks to the bedroom striping off his shirt on the way there throwing it at Randy's face.
"Well, let's give it a try," Adam yells from across the room.
"Really? You don't have to, I know it's gonna be hard for you," Randy whispers.
"Oh, it's gonna be hard, in fact it already is, so come on and get in here or I may just have to start without you," Adam teases.
Randy jumps up and hurries into the room. He walks in and sees Adam already naked and waiting, Adam's cock is already dripping with precum. "Well you weren't lying " Randy laughs.
"Get over here," Adam commands.
"Alright, alright, just hold your horses," Randy says.
"I'd rather hold you" Adam whispers, his tongue roughly and slowly licking his lips.
Randy strips himself of his clothing and slowly makes his way to Adam. "Are you sure you wanna do this?" Randy asks once more.
"Damn! Are you hard of hearing or what? Come here!" Adam says while grabbing Randy by his hips and swinging him on top.
Randy leans down and kisses Adam. "I'm really sorry, I want you to know that," Randy whispers.
"Don't talk about that now and I know you are alright," Adam whispers and kisses Randy back.
TBC
