Cradled in ghastly anecdote revulsion is criminal design. Still as angels suppurate I imbibe innocence's nectar. Walking amid shadows light flees before me. Perhaps it is for the best as I am a nocturnal wanderer in damnation's kingdom.
Children at play with metal obstructions, a black ribbon stretched for miles and blistering orb skyward as speeding rubber beats a steady rhythm attached to flimsy carriages, they scream as human and machine become one.
Blood.
Flesh.
Bone.
On hell's highway all succumb to mortality.
Pretty beads roll from a gushing divide as flesh parts with gliding steels fury. Alone in this steaming body of water I admire the lovely crimson trail that my depression etched. Summer sun melts the daisies as my hands fold. My hair dances in the humid wind. Beads of sweat pop across my forehead. Looking to my left then to my right there is nothing but ash. Free will led to a sweeping wall of inferno as it consumed vast city blocks. People became blazing rag dolls. Buildings shattered like glass. Sky overhead burns bleak as coffee embers streak through it.
Winter will fall early and last for an eternity, but should this be only in my heart I will resume my roam in darkness.
Ample expenditure of ravenousness bathes a destroyed ethics in corrupt affairs that immerse anguish. Drama stirs a spacious cauldron. Erased truths seethe while a resident in hell.
Futures disclose before ancient eyes. Grounds soaked with blood split. Harvested souls writhe amongst flames. Ignite a reliance long deceased. Jump over despair's perimeter. Kissing bandits make fortunes off your confusion. Living for today might ruin your tomorrows. Many shove aside these types of thoughts. No one wants to face the brilliance of judgment. Oppressed warriors live to fight another day. Perhaps the greatest gift in life is denial. Quite often it is entertained. Repentance bares a scared child at heart. Secrets eats hearts whole. Trouble finds you no matter where you go. Under a cloud I stand alone. Vagrants flank my hollow shell. Winter has taken me hostage. Xanadu lives to breathe. You will learn one day. Zinc courses through your blood.
Smoke tendrils curl bruised lips. Behind them chewed pills taint a bitten tongue as bitterness floods taste buds. Calm sweeps in. Though life has left green eyes fire burns ever more brightly. Though it blackens and destroys she keeps it blazing for without it she is just a memory; a forgotten shell of something once beautiful and within promises arrives salvation. As eternal sleep takes hold pleasures unfold one by one. Pain no longer is a friend.
A new breed of fear composes me. Strapped to this chair I stare beyond space. Metal clamps sink their teeth into my eyelids. Pictures stream by like blurred rats. As I twitch from the electrical current their squeaks rip through my ears like razor blades and so crimson tears fall. Locked in this room, death grins in a corner. Its hollow sockets contort as does my pained expression. Cooked flesh rises to my nostrils. I look down to see my skin bubble and burst. My spine is a metal rod driving into my skull and so life eludes me.
Upon the walls I write:
Like a black ribbon of road
Reality weaves around me
What holds me to this world
At times feels as though
It may soon slip through my fingers
And I sink to weak knees
For in my dying hope
Memories splay a scene of chaos
Red and yellow leaves saturate the ground
The shadow stretches from below
I am a prisoner of my own fear
And locked within myself
Nothing matters
Except the face of October
In the frayed ends of my mind
There is nothing sweeter
Than gazing into innocence
And knowing you are loved
For unconditional love is a key
To unlocking closed doors
The hands of time
Move with a callow and surreal speed
As one faces a death
Reality manifests exaggerated horrors
Inward sprawls claws of reluctance
The clock counted down
To blazing lights and sterile blades
Whose army rose from soil?
Under a current of autumn breeze
A vision of death never wholly vanishes
It reflects with bitter decision
It taints dreams
One can only hope
For a better tomorrow
A fleeting nightmare lay on my pillow In a torn reality it seems possible Objects of desire forsake reason And yet it is humankind who regulates pain I have forgotten the agony of it all
Its threads still lace my memories
Pricks of glass pierce this madness
These thoughts stain my frame of mind
Damnation waits for those without man's god
Life plays the less fortunate for fools
Lessons disgraced by words fail to reach ears
So my phobia slaps me in the face
I am but a soldier in a dying army
Now as I stare into its eyes
I am again huddling in a dark place
Affairs of the heart wither and weep
Roaming in dreams my castle crumbles
In the mirror an ashen face stares into midnight
As a pregnant moon looms overhead
Fading stars decay in summer's wake
I wear a veil to cloud the glare of contempt
Nothing hides agony better than denial
Now I drift along its coast
Tears I shed make rosy pools
Though the bite of silver is slow
My essence streams in rapid gushes
Tomorrow will never come
And my eyes close
As darkness gives me one final embrace
Cascading magma rivers crawl over cloven feet
Thick charred muscle flexes and splits in two
Eager are the watchers for their souls call out in agony
Venom drips from jagged fangs inside foaming jaws
Head hung low,
eyes burning malice,
ill intent is not wasted
From its split tongue leaks thick saliva mingled with blood from its last kill
Across the simmering river it walks
Its long metallic nails click on the hardened surface
Its face breaks open to reveal a smile
Before the dawn I linger in dreams
Even here horrors of life invade
My waking thoughts swirl around possibility
A day's mistake issues pain
Windows break upon a striking fist
Crimson rivers twist a bitter man
Where might I discover peace?
How might I escape his grasp?
Always without certainty, the cosmos tremble
Love embraces a broken heart
Am I not entitled to happiness?
My life is mine to lead
I should be able to live
I should be able to love...
Without question
Without his anger
Permit me freedom
I am devoid of conviction
I cannot bury my head in the sand
I will never crawl under a rock
In this largely pressing theme
I am a skeleton with no key
My ache disintegrates bones
My torture divides veins
And anguish sets my blood on fire
The clock on the wall is not a clock at all
It slithers up and across the ceiling
The windows squint like colossal glass eyes
And the door turns upward to shape a wooden smile
While I am to wonder
What nightmare has my apprehension manifested?
Am I a fool without an abode?
Moon beams cast highlights across a slippery slope
While diamonds twinkle in the sky
And a eternal rose sways in the wind
Up on a hill bodies swing from the arms of trees
They are held by rope
Blue velvet saturates those who mourn
Hatred had seen these men to their deaths
The color of their skin their only crime
Reflecting fields take on every deal
Chocolate eyes search for meaning
Loves sets a damaged bird free
Wings of a white dove stretch wide
Crowned angels embrace me
Dance to a beat of a different drum
In twilight's embrace, heaven's gates yawn
And I cradle dear hearts in a forgiveness nest
Into foreign bodies eagles soar
God in the machine Mortal dungeons harvest naive sensations God from the machine The appearance of truth shoots without aim Ashen lace cascades over my face
a escarlata dream in Ares' grasp
as azulado hearts drown within fall's breath
and words ignite dying stars
in a romantic desperation
as forever melts over madness
in lavender shades
malice feeds greed with a twisted spoon
under a umbrella of assumption
while raven tears dress maimed ivory
In pace of father time, amber treasures gleam
Mountain springs purify a fantasy entity
While freedom wanders on a rainbow
As sunshine daises pick ancient fiction
The light of day illuminates a wise will
And through love faith survives
Through its lattice I appreciate cerulean sky
I listen to birds sing
Giant trees rest on all sides of me
Their stare switches with the wind
Grass caresses my exposed limbs
Lighter and lighter their blades sweep
Now I feel naught
The sun glistens
But my ability to see weakens
Sounds sashay into deafness
I am cold
Obscurity bathes me
Across a dry sea To where hearts sing Your face emerges like a dream I have seen your dance I have heard your voice It is a miracle seizing my soul Upon the purple mountain majesty Gazing toward the blazing heavens We live under the same sky We walk in the same moonlight And together we are gold Parted dreams rest in a weary head Tousled hair curtains a angelic face Time holds you dear to me A caress of midnight leaves destiny to hope In your arms I am a star I shine with a might beautiful and long A unit we share in bliss and harmony Forever more we become a diamond
In the absence of time truth drowns in cherry waves
Smashing against rocks both wide and small it no longer resembles fact
Pressed into tiny shapes humanity dries up like a prune
On stiff legs soldiers march onward
Their damp cobblestone path lay gutted
In Earth's gaping wound festers darkness
As it climbs out slow and stealthy summer's pain flares
Bliss is a magic often lost in the answer to hate
Somewhere love will swallow the wicked
Though life wears many shades those within it often blur them
To the point of obscurity effort is wasted
For one sweet nectar sours
Jealousy raped a good heart of hope
And still these words will fail to stir realization
Perhaps compassion's time will forever remain absent
Stained riddles isolate a blind man's plagues Empty shells at my feet Brass tongues thrash at my heels Your ardor was cynical Beneath the facade your lesion will never mend Knotted thorns envelop my compassion Thrown away I sit unaccompanied June cascades rubbish
He withers in damnation
From denial's seed grows a awful root
Deception chimes the midnight hour
In wake of tyranny absurdity marches on
Enslaved by greed, human error soils dreams
Sacred subjects forsake their souls
As madness leads a mindless flock
A spent shotgun in my hands
On the scruffy carpet a crumbled body lies;
a yawning hole in its chest
while eyes stare eternity in the face
Coiling around my ankles, snakes hiss my name
Dark shadows twist my awareness
Frosty fingers fortify a dishonorable affection
Like a spider you interweave a network
In a corner you suspend and scrutinize
Frames of lunacy tease a bruised psyche
Ecstasy withers under grave burden
Days broaden into years
Some scars rankle for all to see
Your vessel has ultimately glided south
Now you are isolated
Sleep in the foundation you finished
When gloom fades distress remains
My radiance burns weak
Though a core clouds conclusion antagonism snarls
Tolerance is not your asset
Emaciated gems lay forgotten
I scramble through sorrow's barbs
Love is an uncomplicated instrument to influence
Rummaged debris bares trickery
