A/N: Thanks for the reviews you guys rock! This chapter is NOT and I repeat NOT Claire's POV, wait for it...It's Carson's!
You might be thinking this Carson fella is just some moody angry guy who sorta looked out for his little sis, you're wrong he's totally different and not in the good different but kinda bad different you know what I'll just let you guys read!
Here is chapter 7 : enjoy my lovelies!
P.S Don't own twilight over here, or smeyers or the characters ( well, except for Carson and Alissa which I completely own and who both are now my personal slaves for all eternity!)
Carson's POV:
The moment Claire called me that day, it was hell on earth for me. My whole life was in crumbles. It's not like I can leave my sisters there and let them get the shit beat out of them and It's not like I wanted them either but I guess the 800 bucks was worth me caring for them, for a few days at least. Then bye-bye Claire and Caitlyn.
The money was not a lot but it was enough to pay those guys I owed.
The fact that I can't get out of it Is really starting to fucking bug me. I mean sure I fucked up bad in those days but that was because of that shitface Larry. It was just one big huge mistake thinking I was ' accepted ' In that gang. Truthfully they were just fucking messing me up, loading me with drugs, nearly getting me kicked outta school, the gang banging. All the heavy stuff I was involved in was just one big damn mistake and NOW I can't get out of it. I drunk through my problems, hell I even do that shit now, all because of Larry.
Big Z opened me with big arms and all I was to him was just a kid who gave him the Crack he needed. I was like a golden retriever to him, I was a stupid lost puppy following his every move only to get even more lost in then end.
The only thing I even heard Big Z say to me was " Yo! Gimme ya' package unless you want me to smash ya' goddamn arm off." He still does, he won't ever get off my back, unless I pay him the money he gave me to get into college, that's the only thing I should be grateful to Big Z about, He actually sorta in a way cared when my family never gave a damn thought about me.
Larry was the one who made me what I am today. He beat the crap outta me like he did to my sisters but that day, that fortunate day was the one time where he actually feared me. I can still remember the day when I came in the door and Larry just shouted at me for not giving a shit about anything, I got so mad when he started talking about dad I was practically seeing red. I snatched the belt from his hands and beat him back leaving him a bloody mess. Mom stood there absolutely horrified and I was kinda glad Claire and Caitlyn weren't there, but know I'm fucking wishing they were there to see me at my worst so they would have stayed the hell outta my life. Back when I was 17 I was damn angry all the time and all those classes I took in high school didn't help either, and frankly I didn't want to change.
It's not like I hate my sisters, It's just as soon as I graduated and thankfully got a scholarship and moved away from them and Big Z's Gang, I wanted to forget everything about my past, Including Claire and Caitlyn.
The last thing I want was family dragging me by the tail. The reason I got away from the shithole was to start a new life, not for the past to come visit me. I didn't need my stupid no good mom, Larry or my sisters. I preferred to be the lone wolf, I don't need all this family shit.
Alissa wasn't technically the love of my life to say. She was a great fucker and filthy stinking rich and Practically throws Benjamin's at me when I need it. I still see my other girl...er Mindy. She's Australian and as soon as she graduates with me she wants to go back to Australia, and so will I.
I plan to just dump Alissa as soon as I get my ticket with her money of course and I definitely know I would have kicked Claire and Caitlyn out WAY before than, so the plan is all set.
Claire and me never really got on when we were little, she was a bitch back then ,always telling me to do stuff her way but after Larry came we never really spoke anymore, so why should I now?. She was never there when I needed her.
Caitlyn, I don't even know who the hell she is. It feels like some sorta little kid you see on the street, you don't really care unless they come to you saying their lost or something.
This was all some big fucking joke I was playing on them, All I needed was the damn money to pay big Z off and now I am officially broke and Alissa would never give me the money if she knew it was for big Z. Just a few more years and I'm finally free of this life and Alissa and hopefully by then Alissa would have handed me her millions.
It's not Like I even gave a damn about Claire and Caitlyn, after what happened tonight, they just ruin everything. Maybe I should send them away somewhere, like a care home or some relative's house, they could take care of them but It can't be me. Never.
I Turned around on the bed to see Alissa clutching my arm and snoring lightly in her sleep, the smell of vodka still present. I roughly pinched her nipple with my nails causing her to squeal in pain,Chuckling I turned around and stared at the opposite wall.
women like Alissa are born to be sluts, She knows she's beautiful sexy even but I don't care, I really shouldn't, all I care is If I get my way they could have theirs and all that means is hard long fucking for them and getting to please myself a little extra on the way. I'm only with her for the money Alissa gives me,and she's an animal in bed.
Alissa would always look at me in this way where she knew what I was doing behind her back but the fact is she thinks she's too much in love with me to care, that's what she keeps telling me and that's what I tell her back and she falls for it every time.
As soon as those three sickening words fly out of my mouth she gets all mushy and starts weeping ' happy tears ' she calls it. Woman get so emotional with the word ' love' these days it's just to disturbing.
Frankly Alissa's hot, perfect round breasts, the just the right amount of wideness of hips and sexy toned body but Mindy Is just hotter and her daddy owns one of the biggest Hotels in Melbourne Victoria, much better than Alissa's sugar daddy I'm working for.
Alissa can be a bitch too and you know what they say Once a biatch, always a biatch. All she ever cares' about is helping people and so does her goddamned father. who gave half a million to some shit charity that will probably take the money for themselves.
I didn't focus on Alissa any longer as I looked at the time, It was six 'o clock in the morning and the apartment was eerily quiet apart from Alissa's annoying snores. God She sounded like a pig giving birth.
I slowly rose up, My Cock twitched as I noticed I got a morning wood. I pulled the Covers off Alissa's naked body and shook her awake.
" What? " Alissa mumbled drowsily, She sounded like a village idiot. Why am I even with her? Oh right the money and sex.
" Wake up bitch, We need to get rid of them " I growled in her ear.
She snapped up and covered her breasts with her hand but I pulled her arm away causing her to hiss in pain.
" Alissa I just can't stand this anymore, this family shit...Fuck " I groaned tugging at my hair.
" Car Just calm down, they're kids and look how much trouble they went through longer than you at least care for them a little longer they're practically the same blood as you "
" I can't take care of they're shit anymore Alise, Who gives a fuck If they got the same baggage as me, Sure as hell I don't so why the fuck do you!? " I screamed into her face causing the bitch to flinch away.
" But you have to at least try Carson, they came looking for trust, they came looking for family and love and sure enough you're the closest one there is " Alissa's hands gripped my jaw tightly and searched my face looking for hope.
I swatted her hands a way and then it hit me. Alissa said they needed family and love are trust and it's sure as hell that I will never give them any of that. But I know someone who might. I haven't seen her in years but I remember her at that little reservation with her fiancé or something, she wasn't my mom's sister she was my dad's so I guess If there was anyone who would take care of me or even my sisters it would come from my dad's side not my mom's because my mom is just and ass just like her damn family.
I Still have Aunt Emily's number, she always calls when it's my birthday or Christmas or some shit like that. She's always asking how mom and the girls are doing, I get so mad when she says that but of course she won't know what actually happened the rest of the family just go with the lies that Larry and mom make up.
" What if someone else can take care of those little brats instead " I smiled at her and her brows furrowed in confusion. She got up from the bed and shrugged on my shirt while she pranced around the room unsuccessfully trying to make it seem as if she had a butt.
" What are you saying Carson? " She seemed confused as she wrapped her bony arms around her chest, It's pretty obvious that she's trying so damn hard to lose ALL that weight but failing miserably because she just looks anorexic to me.
" All I'm saying is that I don't care the fuck for my sisters but my aunt Emily loves children so we could send them over there, it's just in Washington so it's pretty close " I shrugged, pulling on my cotton shirt and Armani jeans.
" Alright but are you sure about this Carson? " She asked worry wrinkling up her eyes.
" YES! Didn't I just say that bitch! " I screamed at her and she mouthed sorry and looked away frightened. Serves her right.
After my anger calmed down I walked towards her and thrust her to my chest, I rubbed her back soothingly and kissed her bare shoulder before letting go.
" Now I think I got her contacts in that box with all my old stuff, her number should be under 'Emily Uley' That was the number she gave after her wedding " I nodded at her motioning to go.
She hesitated a few seconds as I just pulled up my zipper. What is it now?!
" Should I tell them what...what...what happened about the..." She trailed off looking fearfully into my eyes. I knew what she was saying and truthfully I didn't care if the secret got out, If It was me I would be over joyed that Larry finally get's it but this is Claire and Caitlyn we're talking about so I'm not sure.
" Don't care, not my problem anymore. It's there's " I shrugged flopping on the bed and staring blankly at the ceiling wondering If Alissa would just go jump of a cliff one day.
" Maybe I shouldn't it's their problem and I think Claire and caitlyn should tell your aunt when she's ready " She nodded to herself. I rolled my eyes, Why the hell is she still here I've got to get to Mindy's in ten.
" Whatevs Does it look like I care? " I asked giving her my famous death glare she shivered and marched out of the room. Finally some quiet, away from Alissa pitchy little voice.
I must have dozed off because when I woke up, I had four miscalls from Mindy and one from MOM!
I texted Mindy saying " I'll cum by 6, wait for me "
With a deep sigh, I opened up the text from mom and it read:
" Carson I'm coming up there, Claire and caitlyn weren't home yesterday so we're coming by to your place at six " I sighed in relief, thankfully they'll be coming at six, the same time I'll be meeting up Mindy where I'll be fucking the shit outta her, I don't know about Alissa and I don't care maybe Larry might rip out her vocal chords if I'm lucky.
Wait a minute did mom just say yesterday. Claire and Caitlyn have been living in my house for almost three days now! Wow mom So deserves mom of the year award.
And does she actually even care, I mean she never called to check up on me after I moved out or should I say ' kicked out ' She never cared, She didn't even call when it was my birthday.
I rushed to Alissa who was sitting on the dead beat couch flipping through an old address book whilst Claire and Caitlyn were eating they're bowls of cereals at the table.
" Alissa " I hissed.
" Yes honey " She smiled at me. I glared at her instead, why the fuck is she being so nice.
" My fucking mother is coming for a visit so I want those brats out now "
" OMG, Okay I'm on it just give me five minutes. Carson sweety could you tell them " She smiled sweetly at me again, I felt as If I was about to gag.
" Fine " I huffed.
I trudged over to the measly table and planted my self down beside caitlyn and opposite Claire.
Claire reminded me so much of dad, not that I'm saying she's manly looking. It's just her eyes every time I look at them they remind me of my dad looking at me like that every time I beat him at a game of soccer or basketball, when he lifts me up and then says ' I'm proud of you son' Those words get me every time, those words are the only reason I live now. I would have myself ages ago if it weren't for those five little world that meant so much to me.
" Hey car " Claire smiled at me from across and her eyes twinkled just like dads. I looked away and faced the TV far in the living room.
" Hi " I mumbled.
" What's going on bro? " She asked, as If she knew whats going. She doesn't know every fucking thing I've been through.
" Claire you need to go " I hissed at her staring at her forehead instead.
" What " She whispered barely audible. I looked down to see Caitlyn now In Claire's lap and hugging her sister tight.
" I'm saying is that mom and that fucking ass hole tarry are both paying a visit, so If you don't get outta here then you both be in big trouble " I demanded.
She nodded and looked down and Caitlyn just sucked her thumb looking entirely lost at this situation.
" I love you carton, you do know that right " Claire spoke with such clarity that for a second there felt like dad was talking to me behind those words.
" I know Eclair, I know " I smiled, fuck I actually smiled! I grabbed hold of Claire's hand and squeezed it tightly.
" So Do I just leave or..." Claire asked with tears in her eyes.
" No uh you're gonna stay at Aunt Emily's from now on Eclair, It's just that I can't take care of you properly. You both need love and care and education and You know mom will never go down there after what happened to dad. So It's fucking settled! " I boomed, leaning back in my chair.
" Aunt Emily wow, it's been er quite a long time " She whispered.
" Yeah "
" So do we go now or do we wait until..."
" Mom's coming at six so it's what twelve so you could go in a few hours maybe at two or something and then you could get there before dark. "
" Cool " We sat there in awkward silence, me still rubbing her hand, Caitlyn sucking her thumb and Claire heavily breathing and staring at the floor for some reason.
Alissa bounced over to the table and gave a high shrill shriek ugh I hate it when she does that.
" Guess what you guys!? Aunt Emily said yes! eek!" She grabbed a hold of caitlyn and spun her around, Caitlyn was laughing and drooling all over Alissa.
" Wait a minute does Aunt Emily know what happened to me and uh..." Claire trailed off peeking a look at Caitlyn and me.
" Nope I didn't want to tell her without you're permission first, in case you don't want to open up or anything but you can tell her when your ready too " Alissa smiled down at Claire and gave her small hug, Claire immediately stiffened and Alissa let go.
" Come on girls let's get packing " She took a hold of Caitlyn hand and Claire was just about to follow her when I stopped her.
" Eclair I just want to say that I hope you'll have a happy life and future and uh...well yeah that's it, have a happy life and all that shit " I murmured looking down.
" Car do you want a hug " She smiled up at me.
" Yes please " I whispered shyly, while glancing a look at her.
She pulled me into a tight hug, she can squeeze pretty hard for a fourteen year old. We just stood there for a while, her head on my chest and my head resting on hers. She can probably smell the heavy scent of alcohol and cigarettes coming of me but that didn't matter at the moment, this would probably be the last time I would see them.
She pulled back and looked me straight in the eye, her eye glistening with love? " I love you Carson, Caitlyn does too please remember that " She begged and all I could do was nod.
" sure Whatevs " I rolled my eye's pushing her to the door.
She stopped dead in her tracks and turned around glaring at me. " Your supposed to say it back Carson "
" Oh...uh...I love ya too sis " I smiled at her and ruffled her hair.
With a huge sigh I headed to the fridge and pulled out a beer, I drank one can in one whole gulp.
Claire has never really been that close to me in my life, and sure she's a cool sister but did I ever love her as I sister?, would I cry if she died? nope probably but that's me, I'm programmed that way, it's how the great spirits or the force created me like.
Sure I hold Claire closer to my heart than I do with caitlyn but that's because Claire reminds me of dad while Caitlyn looks nothing like him she looks like mom or grandma or something. I still want them to have a better life and hopefully push all that Larry shit aside and move the fuck on like I did.
Claire came out again but with Caitlyn right behind her. Claire grabbed Caitlyn's hand and gently pushed her towards me.
" someone wanted to say bye " Claire shrugged.
" see ya caitlyn " I nodded at her but Caitlyn instead jumped on my lap and pulled me into a hug, I patted her back once and pulled her off me.
" Bye Bye Carson " She laughed at me.
" see ya kid, take care of Claire and yourself yeah? and uh...never talk to strangers kid " I nodded at her giving her a threatening look, Caitlyn nodded back and hid behind Claire while both of them retreated back to the room.
The silence was closing in like walls. My vision got all blurry and I heard these voices, I think It's from the time when aunt Emily and mom were fighting about something, after dad died.
" please listen, he won't harm her " Emily begged.
" Emily this is bullshit and I won't let him harm my daughter like that "
" please by hurting him your hurting her. "
" I don't care, my husbands gone, I have no one here emily, no one, Mom doesn't even fucking care " Mom screamed.
" Please listen to me, listen to your daughter "
" No why the fuck should I listen to my fucking daughter, why would I "
" please Quil won't harm her please you have to - "
Grabbing my leather coat I made my way to the front door, I couldn't take it anymore. I needed to get away and find some distraction and the best way to get it is from Mindy. Running a hand through my hair I cursed through my breath as I got into the safety of my car. What the fuck did that mean? Whatever was going on right now must be from the alcohol or drugs.
With a huge sigh and shaking my head like a dog, I started the engine and headed of to Mindy's penthouse.
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Don't worry Quil will come in at least about 2 or 3 chapters! but another wolf will show up much sooner than Quil!
