Chapter 7
To Whom It May Concern,
She said yes. She walked with me. She listened as I explained… Everything! I'm still in shock. She didn't say much but I didn't expect her to. I'm amazed by the fact that she actually gave me the time of day and didn't just turn me down in fear or hatred.
I respect that she's with someone else. I told her that; however it doesn't mean I have to like it or accept it when he flaunts it in my face like earlier today. What was that? You need to hold onto her to get a pop? Thankfully I have great friends who love to distract me with comic book drama so all that anger is able to diminish and only a smile is left… for her.
Adam is the greatest friend a guy could ask for. He sees through all of my crazy emotions and understands the turmoil that I feel at times… maybe it's because he's transgendered or maybe it's because he's just that cool but I would never tell him that. His head would swell so big, there would be no talking to him after that! But I'm really happy he's there… and I'm happy he found someone who finally accepts him and likes him for him. It shows that anything can happen if you use your heart and believe. Maybe I should try that… not with Clare though. She has someone and she's happy and I don't want to disrupt that. I don't want her to go back to hating me.
Things are better at home. Bullfrog decided that I could finally have the door to my room back. It only took me begging and pleading but he gave me back a door… even if it doesn't have a knob. There's a start and it allows me to drown out my thoughts in music once again without bothering anyone. Like the doc says… one day at a time. I just have to keep pushing and moving forward. I still haven't pushed myself to talk to Imogen yet… maybe that's my next step. We'll see…
"Life throws you curves, but you learned to swerve. Me? I swung and I missed. And the next thing you know I'm reminiscing… dreaming on dreams… wishing on wishes… like you would be back again."
Raining Tear Drops,
Eli Goldsworthy
