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A/N: I'm going to be alternating between Pov's (Points Of View). Sometimes it might be in Esme's Pov and sometimes it might be in Bella's Pov but its easier for me to write that way because I don't write first person Pov's very well. Just thought I'd let you know about the changes from chapter 1 going into chapter 2. Oh and by the way, just another little tid-bit for you guys. I'm more likely to update faster when I get reviews because they motivate me and help to get me through writers block. :) All spelling and grammar mistakes are my own. Oh and characters thoughts will be in italics. :)
Emotionally Broken
Esme's Pov
Oh god, what have I done? I made her faint, telling her I loved her must have been too much too soon. Oh Bella, my angel what have I done to you? I thought to myself as I knelt down next to her.
"Bella, my angel I am so sorry. I should have given you more time to trust us and get used to having us around to care about you but I couldn't take it, I needed you to know how much you are loved and cared about however I see now that you may not have been ready to hear it. I understand now, I've said too much far too soon and I'm so sorry my darling Bella." I whispered more to myself than her so I was suprized when she responded.
Her hand came up to cup my cheek and she swiped her thumb under my eyes as if to wipe away phantom tears, "You have nothing to be sorry for Esme, this is my fault for not trusting you sooner. You and your family have been nothing but nice to me and all I can do is act like a foolish child who's scared of the dark but the truth is that if I keep pushing people away then I'll never have the loving family I've always wanted. I thought that maybe if I kept my heart closed off to people that I wouldn't get hurt again and then maybe I'd find a family who loved me but the funny thing is, while I've been second guessing myself the loving family I wanted and needed has been right here all along so I'm glad you told me because I love you too." Bella explained and I threw my arms around her and held her close.
"Oh honey I love you so much, we all do. You never have to be alone again because you've got us now and we will always be here to protect you no matter what and I promise you we will never leave you, we love you so much Bella. You are our angel, my angel." I told her and she hugged me tighter.
"As you are mine Esme, you are my angel as well but much more than that you are the mother I always dreamed I would have one day and now I do. I love you Mom so much, I'm so happy I finally found you." she cried and I pulled her closer.
"Shh, I know but I'm here now baby and I always will be. Its alright Bella, its alright. I'm not going to abandon you like that ever, I'll never leave you I promise and Alice loves you too. You're her little sister now and Rosalie's too, Bella you belong with us as a part of this family, our family includes you." I whispered soothingly.
"We're going to take you to see how we play baseball, its much more fun and I think you'll find its way better than a regular baseball game but you'll see. You'll love it, I promise." I told her with a smile and she nodded.
"Okay when?" she asked wiping the tears from her eyes, "Well there's a thunderstorm coming tonight and we only play when there's thunder so we'll go tonight. Don't worry sweetie, there's no lightning or rain just thunder so its not dangerous." I replied and she nodded with a smile.
"Alright." she said simply.
It had been a few hours since Bella and I had our conversation in the attic and we were getting ready to go play ball. There had been some nomads in the area and I worried that we might run into them while Bella was with us but I wasn't going to let that stop us from having fun besides if they so much as took a step toward Bella I would protect her as would the rest of the family.
"Are we ready to go?" I asked everyone and they all nodded, "We're just waiting on you and Bella, Mom. Its baseball, not a beauty pagent. Normally Alice is the one who takes so long to get ready." Emmett jibed playfully.
"If it were Rosalie putting on make-up you wouldn't be complaining besides a girl's gotta look good." I retorted as I pretended to pout and Emmett laughed.
"Okay good point Mom, you're forgiven." he told me and I grinned, "Thank you honey, Now let's go. You guys take the jeep, I'm gonna run. Bella, do you want to go in the jeep or would you like to come with me?" I asked her when I was done talking to Emmett.
"I can't keep up with you so how would that work?" she asked and I snickered, "Well I'd carry you of course, like a piggy-back ride."
"Oh okay then I think I'll go with you, see you guys there." she told everyone else and they nodded while Emmett laughed, "You know it Bella."
I crouched down and Bella climbed on my back wrapping her arms around my shoulders and her legs around my waist before I straightened up and went outside,"You ready honey?" I asked and she nodded.
"I trust you Mom, I'm ready." she whispered in my ear, kissed me on the cheek before she tightened her hold around my shoulders and I smiled.
"Okay hold on tight, here we go." I told her and took off through the trees and toward our baseball feild which was just a clearing in the forest.
"This is amazing, I wish I could run this fast." she said and I chuckled,"Careful what you wish for because you just might get it and there's no coming back from immortality my angel." I told her.
"I don't care, I want to be with you guys forever. You've changed my life for the better, I have a family who loves me and I never want to lose you. My family." she explained and I felt like my silent heart might burst from the joy of hearing her say that.
"Well we'll talk about that later but for now, we have a game to play." I told her as we arrived at the clearing and I slowed down before setting her on her feet.
She looked around at everything and gasped,"Its so beautiful up here, this place is amazing. Wait a minute, how am I going to play? I can't keep up with any of you."
"That's why you'll be the umpire and I'll be right beside you the whole time, I usually don't play anyway. Someone's gotta keep these cheaters in line." I told her and Carlisle gave me a look.
Bella and I both laughed,"Don't look at me like that Carlisle, you are just as bad as Emmett if not worse. You cheat too." I teased and he quirked an eyebrow.
"Oh really? We'll see about that." he teased back and charged towards me playfully,"Ah! No Carlisle don't you dare." I screamed and tried to dodge him but I wasn't fast enough.
The next thing I knew Carlisle had me sitting on his shoulders and he was laughing, I leaned down to his ear,"I'm gonna get you for that later, my love." I whispered and hopped off his shoulders.
I turned back to join Bella so we could start the game but he caught my wrist and spun me back to him, I looked up at him and kissed him quickly before I ran back over to Bella.
"Its time." Alice said as Rosalie got ready to bat.
Rosalie hit the ball and a loud crack of thunder amplified by the sound of hitting the ball echoed around the clearing before Edward took off after the ball while Rose ran from base to base.
"What do you think Bella?" I asked and she snickered,"Well I see why you need the thunder. That's gotta be a home run right?"
"I don't know, Edward's very fast." I replied just as Edward came back and Rosalie slid into home base right after,"You're out." Bella told her and she glared playfully at her sister.
"We'll see about that, won't we?" Rosalie teased and Bella laughed,"Yeah I guess so." I snickered at their playful argument.
Carlisle was up next,"Come on, home run Carlisle." I cheered and he snickered at me before he did just that. He got a home run and came over to me with a smile,"I knew you could do it, I love you so much." I told him and gave him a small kiss.
The game went on and on before Alice screamed,"Stop! They were leaving but then they heard us."
Then three unknown nomadic vampires appeared in the clearing and I instantly pulled Bella behind me protectively, they noticed and smirked before they crouched to attack.
"You brought a snack." one of the males hissed before he charged at me. Carlisle got in his path and held him off before Emmett charged and tackled him to the ground.
"I think its best if you leave, we do not wish to fight." Carlisle told them when Emmett got the one to his feet and shoved him towards his own group.
He stood there glaring at us before the other male called to him,"James, we're too outnumbered and its not worth it. Let's go."
The one called James hissed at us before he turned around to face the other one,"If you want to go then go but I and Victoria are going to have some fun." he told him and the one with dreadlocks turned and left.
"Laraunt?" the woman called but he was gone so she turned to us and crouched next to James ready to attack. I knew I had to get Bella out of here right now but how?
I looked at Bella and I could see she was scared,"Listen to me Bella, I need you to run. Its not safe here for you and I'm going to protect you but I need you to run as fast as you can and I'll come find you as soon as its safe I promise. Now go Bella, run!" I told her and she did but not fast enough.
They saw her make a run for it and the one named Victoria grabbed her before any of us had a chance to react.
I crouched to attack but stopped when I saw how scared Bella was of her,"Don't worry Bella, I won't let her hurt you." I called to her and Victoria snickered.
"You take one step and I'll drain her like a bottle of wine, what are you keeping this human around for anyway I mean she's food. You can't possibly see this sweet little human as a pet so why else would you keep her? She's not you're mate because you've already got one so I don't get it, what's so damn important about one measly human?" Victoria hissed and I snarled at her.
"She's my daughter, you arrogant little twitt! Now let her go before I rip you to shreds and turn you into a firework like on the fourth of july!" I growled viciously at her and she gasped.
"You can't be serious, you see this... this human as your daughter? You're crazy if you think that she'll ever see you as anything but a monster, Humans will always see us that way. They will never understand what its like to be immortal." she told me and I scoffed.
Bella spoke up before I could though,"You're wrong, she's not a monster. She's my mother and they are my family, If you can't understand that then its because you've never had a family who loved you and if you kill any of us then you're a monster but they're not!" Bella hissed at her and Victoria laughed manically.
"Is that what they told you? You're a stupid little human, they'll never love you. They're using you, you're nothing but a glorified chew toy for them to play with and you're falling for it. Foolish child!" Victoria told her and I shook my head.
"Don't listen to her Bella, I love you, we all do. We won't let her hurt you, I promise I'll keep you safe my angel." I told her and Bella nodded.
"Let her go, you flame haired bitch!" Rosalie screamed and I glared at her,"Rose! There's no need for that." Rose glared back at me.
"She's not taking my sister anywhere! She'll have to kill me first and that'll be the freakin' day." Rosalie hissed but I ignored her and looked at Victoria.
"Why are you doing this, what have we ever done to you?" I asked and she snickered,"Oh honey, you haven't done anything to me but its just so fun to be bad not that you would know little miss goody two shoes. You've never done anything you weren't supposed to by the looks of it and you never will because the Cullen's are oh so perfect, yeah that's right I know who you are Esme and if you want her you'll have to catch me first. Good luck with that, you're going to need it!" Victoria said before she disappeared into the trees and Rosalie took off after her.
"I'm going after them, who's coming?" I asked knowing that I didn't need to because they were all coming.
James tried to stop Rosalie but Emmett charged over to them and held him down as Rosalie ripped him apart before they started a fire and tossed his limbs in the flames.
Carlisle, Alice, Edward, Jasper and I darted after Victoria with Rosalie and Emmett close behind us. "Her scent is gone but Bella's is still close, we'll find her." Edward told us and I let out a sigh of relief before that relief changed to tragic sorrow as I saw what Victoria had done.
There, high up in a tree I saw what she'd done and I screamed,"NO BELLA! I'm coming honey."
Victoria had hung her in a tree attempting to kill her and leave her there to torture us but Bella was still alive because I could hear her heart beat. I climbed up and cut her loose before I gently put her over my shoulder and climbed down again.
"Bella don't you dare leave us, you said you wanted to be with us forever so you come back to me. You come back to me Bella, don't do this to me. When I said you were my angel I didn't mean quite so literally Bella now you come back to me." I dry-sobbed hysterically and Carlisle tried to comfort me but I pushed him away.
"Not now Carlisle, I need her. She can't leave us, we need her." I told him and I rested my head on Bella's chest. I could still hear her heart beating so I just stayed there and listened to the sound until I felt her arms wrap around to hug me.
I looked up and saw her looking down at me with a smile,"Oh Bella! I thought I'd lost you, oh honey don't you ever scare me like that again. Thank the stars you're alright because losing one child is hard enough, I will not lose another one, I don't think I'd survive losing two children." I cried and she hugged me tighter.
"You never have to lose me, I'm not going anywhere. I'll be with you forever, see?" she showed us her hand and I gasped,"She bit you?" I asked and she nodded.
"I don't care who does it, I just want to be with you guys forever. I would have prefered it if one of you did it but what's done is done." Bella told us and Carlisle shook his head.
"No, it dosen't have to be if we can suck the venom out then we could change you ourselves if that's what you really want." he explained and Bella nodded.
"Okay so who's going to suck it out?" She asked and looked at me pleadingly but I wasn't so sure I had enough control for that.
"I don't know if I can honey, what if I can't stop?" I asked and she looked up at me,"I trust you Mom, you can do this. I know you can save me as you have since the day we met and they will be there to remind you to stop, you have to find the will to stop." she told me and I nodded hesitantly.
I looked at Carlisle and he nodded,"You can do this, I have faith in you my love but it needs to be now or the venom will take over." he told me and I nodded.
I took her hand and looked into her eyes as I sucked the poison out of her veins,"Stop my love or you'll kill her and you don't want to do that." Carlisle told me and I was trying but it was harder than I'd expected.
I finally managed to pull away from her and Carlisle wrapped his arms around me from behind,"I'm so proud of you, you did it my love. You saved our daughter once again and I know how hard it is to pull away from human blood believe me but I've done it four times and the first time is always the hardest but you did it. I love you Esme." he told me and then kissed me softly.
"I love you too Carlisle and I'm glad I stopped, I didn't think I would be able to. What if I had killed her though? I would never be able to forgive myself, oh god I almost killed her didn't I? Maybe she was right, I am a monster." I replied suddenly feeling very guilty and then someone poked at my arm.
"Don't you ever say that and don't listen to Victoria, she may know your name but she dosen't know you. I told her and now I'm telling you Esme, you are not a monster you are my mother and I love you." Bella said firmly and I smiled.
Bella looked around at the rest of them,"As for the rest of you, I think of all of you as my family. Carlisle and Esme are our parents and all of you are my brothers and sisters which makes me really happy because I always wanted siblings, I love you all as my family. Mom, Dad can we go home now?" she asked after telling us how much we meant to her and Carlisle and I looked at each other with smiles before we looked back at her and nodded.
"Sure honey, hop on and I'll carry you." I told her and she climbed up on Carlisle's shoulders instead with a smirk,"I want to go with dad this time but I want you to come too." she told me and I laughed.
"Alright sweetheart, you win. I'll come too." I told her and Alice looped her arm through mine,"Me too." she said and so the four of us went home together while Rose,Jazz and Emmett took the jeep.
