Author's Disclaimer:
...I do not own any of the characters... They all belong to the super genius Masashi Kishimoto... Dattebayo!... The plot is mine, though...
...All of my published works are UNbeta-ed... Sorry for any grammar/spelling mistakes...English is not my first language...and I don't use a spellchecker... sorry...
...I'm really very fond of punctuations...
...I'm so in love with Sasuke and Itachi Uchiha... ***sigh*** (faints like a fan girl... ^0^)
...I do believe comments/reviews really helps in motivating one's mind to be more productive... uhh, just a thought...
More Disclaimer:
My story's time clock is based from my country's fall of events... Book 1 occured on February... Book 2 was done in March... Book 3... is a tribute to everybody who is enjoying their summer vacation. It's already summer here in our beautiful country.
This fictional series contains fluff, smut, yaoi, kawaii moments, drama, romance... etc... a mixture of everything... This will be the first part of my so called "Uchiha Diaries"... a compilation of Sasu-Ita/Ita-Sasu stories, based on their individual diary entries... It's my project for this year (2010)... hahaha I really hope this project would be a success... if I dont get too lazy or experience a mental block, that is... I mean I still have the on-going Sasu-Hina fic and the various attention-grabbing-out-of-nowhere-oneshot-ideas... hehehe... C'est La Vie!
This compilation of stories serves as a tribute for my favorite anime characters... The hottest anime men that ever graced the anime world (in my point of view, that is)... The gorgeous Uchiha Itachi... and the ever handsome Uchiha Sasuke... ^0^
Everything in this fic (the plot, scenes, food etc...) is a figment of my perverted imagination...bwahahahaha... XD
Multiple pairings aside the Uchihas... Do enjoy... R&R please... It's what keeps me going...
UCHIHA DIARIES
Book 3
From the pages of Itachi's diary
April 21, XXXX
Dear Diary,
I never realized I could be this jealous... but it happened anyway.
The longer our relationship grew, the more I became possessive over Sasuke.
Kami! Help me... I don't want to share Sasuke...
I would kill for him... he is mine... only mine...
The Jealous Heart Syndrome
Chapter 7 : Big Time Jealousy
April 21
Itachi stood unmoving for a couple of minutes... trying to absorb and comprehend the scene he was looking at rignt now. He didn't want to accept the thing his mind was telling him... his system didn't even want to internalize what his heart was yelling. He was confused... and was at the verge of exploding from extreme jealousy. Sasuke was his! Only his... no one will ever have the rights to touch the pale, milky skin of his otouto but him. He was seeing red and his self control was slipping away from his sanity by the second. He dropped his bags and with a quick swipe he pulled the startled Hyuga up by the collar.
"What the hell are you doing to my brother?" he bellowed in a voice that would make anyone in the 5 meter radius cringe with fear. Neji smiled weakly "Uh, Itachi.. well... uh... it's not what you think..." he stammered as the elder Uchiha glared at him. His dark eyes flashed with anger and spelled 'death' as flecks of crimson sparkled through it. Neji didn't try to struggle, though he was almost choking from the way Itachi was pulling his collar... he still tried his best to keep composed. Itachi turned his glare from Neji then to Sasuke "You... Sasuke... Go home... NOW!" he ordered in between his gritted teeth.
Sasuke flinched but held his head up. He knew Itachi was extremely furious and was just trying his best to control his temper. He moved towards Itachi but the elder raven stopped him "Don't come any closer... stay there!" he hissed. Sasuke frowned "Nii-san... it's not what you think..." he said as Itachi cut him off "Not what I think? I am not blind Sasuke! And for kami's sake, I'm not dumb either!" he yelled in frustration. He released Neji from his grasp and the brunette coughed a bit as he adjusted his tie. Itachi threw death glares at Neji and Sasuke alternately "Have you no shame? Why the hell are you making out in my office?" he gritted his teeth harder.
"Nii-san, that is not true!" Sasuke defended himself. Itachi glared "I wasn't talking to you! And didn't I tell you to go home?" he asked as he pushed Neji away. Neji was flushed, It was the first time for him to see Itachi's temper. "Itachi, we... well I..." somehow he grew speechless. He can't give out any reason. He was guilty in a sense. But the position they were in that Itachi saw was pure accident. He looked down and bit his lip. He then wondered why Itachi was extremely mad. He acted the way a jealous lover would do if caught in an unwanted circumstance... an act of a very dangerous jealous lover.
Itachi smiled sarcastically, though one can see the hurt in his eyes. "Okay, so now you are answering back? Are you defending this bastard?" he angrily asked as he walked towards Neji. He grabbed the brunette's jacket by the back "Tell me Sasuke, what did he do... for you to cling on to him that bad?" he asked in frustration. Sasuke was trying hard not to cry. Itachi's accusing remarks was hurting him like hell. Sasuke gritted his teeth, his tear stained eyes glistened in frustration. He clenched his fists hard and in a shaky and unsteady voice he said "Itachi this is too much... I... I can't take this anymore!" he said as the tears started to fall off his dark orbs.
"Can't take what? The truth? I just left you for a couple of days and you're already hitting on someone else? I never imagined for you to be like this Sasuke... am I not enough for you?" Itachi said with disgust. Sasuke wanted so hard to scream. His own brother was accusing him of being a slut. But he kept silent. He needed to let Itachi rant over his frustration before he will hear him out. His heart was broken... all the words stung like poisoned knives that pierced right through him. Itachi felt Neji flinch and squirm as if he tried to free himself from his grasp, he glared at the brunette. He turned his gaze back to his brother.
Itachi looked at Sasuke, he looked so broken. But he would't let his heart dictate his mind. He have trusted Sasuke... loved him to bits... gave him his all and this is what he will repay him with. He released the brunette and faced Sasuke. "What? Tell me?" he forced the young raven. Sasuke glared at his brother. "Itachi... I can't go on like this... How can we continue this if you don't trust me?" he said in between sobs. Neji was listening intently. His heart was pounding like crazy. He wasnt sure if he wanted to make his hunch a reality. He was actually guessing form the way the two ravens were conversing that something deep was going on between the two.
"Nii-san... for years I have loved no one but you... I worshipped you... literally kissed the ground you walked upon... I was even willing to give up my dreams... my identity just to be with you..." Sasuke confessed, not minding the shocked expression of Neji Hyuga with the words spillng out of his lips. "I was a jealous type before... but I outgrew all that... knowing that deep inside I have to trust the person I hold so dear in my heart. I never misjudged you... for in my heart and in my mind I wanted to trust in you... in us... in this relationship..." he continued in between sobs.
"I never looked romantically at anyone... not like the way I look at you... yes, Neji kept giving me indecent proposals... and if I was as sex-starved as you think I am, I would have grabbed the opportunity to get laid when the person offering was so willing..." he screamed. Geniune tears stained his pale, handsome face. Itachi absorbed every word. How he wanted to go to his borther and hug him and ask for forgiveness for everything he said. But pride is really the culprit and Itachi remained stoic and emotionless as he stared at Sasuke as if he didn't hear a thing from all his confessions.
"Itachi... I don't want to go on with this one-sided relationaship. I don't want to be an obedient puppy that will continue to follow you around with loving eyes." Sasuke continued as he wiped his eyes. He needed to get all of this out in his system or he'll go crazy. "I have been asking for you, like almost forever... to stop working and spend more time with me... with yourself..." he gritted his teeth "But no... it's always the business... work... travels..." he bitterly enumerated. "You don't know what it feels like to be rejected..." he added. "You know nothing about my feelings Itachi..." he screamed. "All I am to you and will ever be... is just someone to fuck with!" he spat aloud.
Itachi's heart and ego was hit, by ten folds. He always thought that Sasuke already accepted the fact that he was a workaholic, and he didn't see Sasuke complain. The only time his koibito complained was when they were starting their relationship. He felt ashamed. Saying those awful words to his beloved. Sasuke was right, he took him for granted. He always was so sure that Sasuke would be there to understand... He was wrong... terribly wrong... with all his genius he could not even tell that he already hurt his loved one. He failed to see things the other way... he was a selfish bastard and he didn't deserve Sasuke at all.
Itachi lowered his head a bit. He then looked up "Koibito... don't say that... you know you mean more to me than that..." he said softly as he released Neji and moved towards Sasuke. He reached for Sasuke's hand but the young raven slapped his hand back. "No Itachi, you can't win me over your sweet talks anymore..." he said as his eyes started to moisten up. "Itachi, I love you... you know that I do... but if you still can't trust me... even after everything..." he said, his body shaking from the silent sobs he tried to supress "...then I'm letting you go..." he said as he looked right into Itachi's surprised eyes. Itachi opened his mouth but nothing came out. He was too shocked. Sasuke was breaking up with him!
"I'm leaving Itachi... love cannot live without trust..." Sasuke said as his eyes started to pour his emotions out in the form of tears. Itachi was palpitating. Sasuke couldn't leave him... He can't break up with him. But his eyes showed him the truth, it was finished... Sasuke got his laptop, his glasses and a stash of papers that he was working on. He dumped everything in his bag carelessly. He then walked towards the door. Before he was able to leave the room, Itachi ran after Sasuke and locked the young raven in his arms "Koibito... no... don't leave me..." Sasuke removed Itachi's hands "Im sorry aniki... I have to go..." endearment gone, Sasuke walked out of Itachi's office... and out of Itachi's life.
Neji silently watched as Itachi tried to woo Sasuke back. He wouldn't believe it if he haven't witnessed it first hand. So Itachi was Sasuke's lover. The men he so wanted to get a hold off have only eyes for each other. He felt ashamed... they broke up because of his persistence with the latter. He watched as Sasuke stormed out of the office, leaving a helpless and frustrated Itachi behind. Silence filled the room. Itachi took a deep breath and and walked towards Neji. With surprising speed he hit Neji, square on the jaw. Blood oozed out from Neji's busted lip. It was actually a very small price to pay. He looked up and met Itachi's hard gaze.
"You deserve more than that, you bastard..." he growled. Neji wiped the blood with the back of his hand. "I'm sorry Itachi... I didn't mean for this to happen..." he said. Itachi sighed deeply. It was done, Sasuke left... and he was stuck with the reason for the break up. He would love to kill Neji... give everything up to feel Hyuga's bones crush under his hands. He would torture him to death! Itachi slumped on the floor and rested his chin on his knees. He then covered his eyes with his arms and began crying.. for the first time in his life he felt empty and lost... "Sasuke..." he murmured weakly in between sobs.
Neji wanted to comfort Itachi, but he knew it was futile. He left the room... then the office... He was a player but it was the first time for him to witness a break up because of him. He needed to change his ways. He needed to make up for Itachi and Sasuke's loss. He needed to bring those two back together.. if it was still possible. But then, maybe they'd be better off if he wouldn't interfere. He sighed and glumly drove off.
Itachi was left in his office. After crying for like eternity, he realized that he was already alone. He got up and went to his table. He opened a secret drawer and pulled out his confession box... his diary. In between sob-like breathing he began to write... his unshed tears blurring his vision...
April 21, XXXX
Dear Diary,
I never realized I could be this jealous... but it happened anyway.
The longer our relationship grew, the more I became possessive over Sasuke.
Kami! Help me... I don't want to share Sasuke...
I would kill for him... he is mine... only mine...
I'm really not good with relationships...
We are both struggling with this... that's what I always thought off...
BUt he struggled more than I did... he tried to disregard my flaws.
I thought everything was fine... that everything will work out okay...
Wrong...
I took things for granted...
Now Sasuke left... because of my stupidity and selfishness.
I don't know what to do...
I said the most painful words to him...
How can I tell him that I'm sorry?
I want him back...
*Gasp!* Choke! I don't know what to think...
I really wanted to kill Neji... but yet, I still need him...
Sorry for the late update... I disliked what I typed previously, so I had to redo it...
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aeoneclipse - don't cry viv... I'll feel bad if you do, I always want you to be happy :(
alwayswatchingu - sorry hun, I was a experiencing brain damage that time so I didn't update right away...
to all thanks for the support
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love you all
love you koibito...
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