Chapter 6 : Divorce Like No Other
"Didn't I make myself clear last time? Sasuke, we've talked about this. You said you'll respect my decision. What is this again."
"Can you? Can you really just forget about everything?"
"Do I have to explain all over again?"
"You explained. I haven't. Yes, I fucked it all up. And yes, I don't deserve you, but you deserve me. You love me." With that, Sakura snorted.
"How can you be so confident? After everything you did? Look, Sasuke, I don't want to fight."
"I am trying to set things right for the first time."
"It's too late."
"All I'm asking you is this one last time. After this, I promise, you'll be free."
"You've already taken a lot of chances without even asking for it."
"So? I take it that we should just take the easy way." He has no idea what came over him, but he suddenly feel angry.
"Easy?! Do you think that this is easy for me?"
"Seems like it."
"God, Sasuke, can you hear yourself?! I asked you to just please consider my feelings for the last week we're together, and here you go again, saying things that are unnecessary. It's easy?! Really? Then I should've done this a long time ago. But no! I suck this all up. For you! And this is why we should have not been together in the first place." Sakura tried to open the door. She kept on hitting it until Sasuke stopped her.
"LET ME OUT! WE'RE FILING A DIVORCE! NOW!"
"Tch, stop it. Calm down."
"Calm down?! I am so sick of you bitching me around! Guess what, Sasuke, you may have thought that I'll never leave you. Well, I am done. I am so done with you." She tried hitting on him as well, but every time, Sasuke catches her hand before it landed on his face.
"YOU! You really frustrate me, you asshole! Why do I even love you?! Ugh!" She tried to slap him once more, but he pulled her hand and kissed her. She pushed him away without a second thought.
"No! You have no right to kiss me!"
"SHUT UP!"
"Do you think that if you kiss me, all of a sudden I'll just change my mind? It doesn't work that way! It's over!" She's been exhausted. She doesn't even know if her decision is the right one, and here he is again, trying to crumble out her resolve.
"I love you, you idiot. How can that be so easy?" She cried out for the nth time this week. She lowered her head and buried her face into his chest.
Sasuke planned to convince her, however, it ended to another fight. It may have been the end for them. As he listened to the sound of her soft whimpers, he can't help but to get mad at himself. For doing this to her. All he does is to make her suffer. He realized that she deserves someone better. Someone who will appreciate her more, someone who will never make her cry.
He put his arms around her waist. "I'm a failure as a husband." He said right into her left ear.
"Just promise me this. You will find someone who will never make you cry like I did. That you'll be happy. I was selfish and I was ignorant to you and your feelings. I never meant for this to happen, I never wanted to push you away." Sakura looked up to him.
"Stay beautiful."
They were in Father Olivarez's office again. For three days, neither of them talked that much. They simply held hands, did things together, ignoring the fact that soon, they won't be able to do anything together again.
"This is the first time this ever happens."
A deep sigh escaped Sasuke's lips. "On a brighter side, you guys made a history." Father Olivarez said after Sakura explained the unfortunate circumstances.
"Sit down. Wait for me, I have to prepare your documents." Once he was out of the room, Sakura couldn't take it and poured her heart out.
"I am sorry. You told me that you were a failure as a husband. However, I guess I am a failure as a wife too. You were always hard to deal with, stubborn most of the time, but I learned to love that about you. What I so badly wanted you to see is that I am the girl who will be there for you when you need reminding how amazing you are, because life has you convinced otherwise. Know that when I remember you, it will be paired with a smile on my face. I deserve to be happy… but so do you. Though the end of us is for the best, you will always be the love of my life." A tear escaped her right eye.
"Sasuke, I love you. I will always do." Sasuke stood up and cupped her cheeks. He kissed her forehead.
"I- I love you. I think you deserve to hear it from me." Sasuke's been trying to tell her that for two weeks. He never said it to her even once. Only now he got the courage to say it when it's over.
"Don't make this any harder."
"Sakura, you may have not realized that I love you, but I do. I chose you after all. Be a doctor. Be happy."
"Please don't- don't say anything. You broke my heart, but I am forever thankful. And I want you to know that I forgive you. Love may have hurt you, but it can also heal. To be honest, I still have no idea what I am doing, however, I know that you'll do good. You'll be great. I wish that people will see that in you. What I see right now is the most amazing person I ever met. You are, Sasuke. You also make me happy." She stood up as well and kissed his cheek.
"You are an amazing friend, a caring boyfriend, and a loving husband. I don't think I can find someone better." She tried to laugh but failed. Sasuke, on the other hand, still doesn't know how can she still say such good things about him. Loving? Him?
"I am afraid that if you tell me to stay by your side, I might do." He knows this is one of the hardest decisions she'll ever make.
"Sakura."
"I-I'm sorry. It's just that- It's harder than I thought. Don't say anything. Just let me tell you how I feel. Okay? I-I have to find the strength to go on living without you. And I don't think I can. I asked you for this divorce, and yet, here I am, having second thoughts." A knock on the door caught both of them off guard.
"Am I interrupting something?" Father Olivarez came after a few minutes with a stack of papers on his hands.
"Father, can we postpone the divorce?"
"Sakura! What-"
"I- I just- I know that I was the one who decided that this is the best for us, but I- I need time. I have to think. So please, Father, I'm so confused right now."
"Well then." Father Olivarez put a hand on Sakura's shoulder.
"Mrs. Uchiha, I understand what you are going through. Let me tell you this. Do not think. Feel. What is inside your heart? What will make you happy?"
"Tha- Thank you, Father." She turned to face her husband. "Sasuke, I-I'll- I'm really sorry. I'm going to spend some nights with Ino. I need someone to talk to." Sakura proceeded to take her bag and left.
After Sakura left the office, Sasuke had no idea where to go. Father took it as a sign and talked to enlighten him.
"She must love you so much for thinking it all over again. I'm a little sad when you guys told me you are still going to file a divorce. I thought that the 2 weeks might have help you to understand one another."
"I lied to her. Taken her for granted. It will be best to let her go."
"The question is, Mr. Uchiha, will she really be happy without you? I think that she might said things about being tired of you, or that she hates you, but try to look into her eyes. All she wants is your attention. She's begging you to stop her. To tell her that she's wrong. When you told her you love her, that's it. She's back in square one. She knows what she wants. She wants you to be by her side."
"I might hurt her again."
"We cannot avoid that perhaps. You know what to do. It seems that you also need time to reflect. A time alone can be good too. Two weeks isn't enough, huh?"
"I have to leave for Japan on Saturday."
"You have 3 days then."
Sakura knocked on the door three times before Ino opened up.
"Sakura! You didn't tell me you're coming. Eh? Look at your face, Forehead! What's gotten into you? So, how's Sasuke?" With the mention of Sasuke, Sakura run into Ino's arms and pulled her into tight hug.
"I was already decided, Ino. How cruel he is for saying he loves me! He never told me that not until we're a second away from signing the papers. Can you believe that?!"
"Hey Forehead! Baby, remember?" Sakura released her best friend and put her right ear near Ino's tummy.
"Oh, sorry, Baby Boy, can you hear me? Auntie Sakura has this awful husband of hers and she is so stupid still thinking maybe it can still work out for them."
"I'm sure my baby would like to hear everything. Seriously, Sakura Uchiha, didn't you listen to me at all?"
"Are you not going to empathize to me at all? How could you?"
"Fine. Let's go inside, it's freezing out here."
"That Sasuke-bastard! He better made up with Sakura-chan! All of his work passed down to me. Oh! It's been two weeks!" Naruto is busy doing some paper works using Sasuke's computer. With Sasuke gone, Kakashi assigned to him what Sasuke left. As a revenge, Naruto used his best friend's office for two weeks.
"Should I call that bastard? Well, whatever." He put out his phone and start dialing Sasuke's number. After a few rings, Sasuke picked up.
"HEY BASTARD! DID YOU KNOW HOW MUCH WORK YOU LEFT ME?"
"I didn't tell you to do it."
"You could have just thank me. Well, never mind. How's Sakura-chan?"
"No idea."
"No idea? What's with that? Did you- DID YOU FILE A DIVORCE?! I told you to not to mess this up!"
"Tch, shut up. Is it break time yet? Focus on those paper works. It looks like you'll be doing that from now on." With that, Sasuke ended the call.
"Huh? What do you mean by that? Hey Sasuke! Jeez, he needs to work on his communication skills." As he think out loud, he can't help but to worry about Sasuke. He may not show his true feelings, but he knows this is hard for him. He may not tell him what happened, but Naruto knows he needs his best friend right now.
"Itachi? Hello?"
"Sasuke? How's Sakura?" Okay, what's up with everyone asking him about Sakura.
As to avoid the question, he diverted the conversation to the Uchiha corp. "I'll come home. My flight is on Saturday. Tell Father that. How's the company?"
"Stupid little brother."
"Tch, what."
"Looking forward to see you and Sakura." Itachi ended the phone call before Sasuke can reply.
Sasuke is currently lying on their bed. With the windows open, he can't help but to stare into the sky. Sakura is confused, he is too. He's going to make it easy for her. She suffered enough.
He knows what to do.
Notes: Tell me your thoughts?
