Edward was showing me something from our past, but as much as I tried I just couldn't remember anything. We laid on our backs silently in the middle of the meadow holding hands.
"You never did answer my question." I said quietly, not looking at his face.
He let go of my hand, sat up and faced an opening in the meadow with his back to me.
"What are you doing?" I questioned him.
He didn't pay any attention to me and just kept walking. He stopped in front of an opening with a small patch of sun. He stepped into the patch of sun and turned to look at me.
His shirt had been unbuttoned and his skin was glowing, almost like a sparkle, like diamonds in light. He looked even more spectacular than I had ever imagined. He didn't look as happy as I had expected…..he looked worried……as if I was going to run away.
I got to my feet and walked over to him. I walked towards him until he was at my arms reach. I touched his chest and it was just as hard and cold as I had expected. He looked in my eyes as if expecting a question from me. As I started running my hand down his chest he caught my hand before it got too far, still staring into my eyes.
"What are you?" I demanded whispering.
"Have you ever heard of "The Cold Ones, Bella?"
All I could do was shake my head responsively.
"As your friend Jacob says, we are known as the blood sucking leeches." He told me.
I knew exactly what he meant, but I wasn't in the least bit scared. I knew he could never harm me. How could anything like this possibly ever exist? I didn't care what he was. I still felt the same for him.
"You're not scared of me?"
"No."
"Do you remember anything about this place do you?" He questioned me.
"No." I said once again.
He turned away from me in an instant. He faced the trees with his back to me hiding whatever emotion he didn't want me to see. I knew he was feeling the worst heartache anyone could ever imagine. The love of his life was lost forever and it was all because of me. She was never coming back. He dropped to his knees and started tearlessly sobbing.
I gently touched his shoulder, "Edward. I'm so sorry I can't remember. I promise, I'll try harder I'll do anything to bring back a piece of-"
"No. She's gone. I'll never get her back, no matter how hard I try. I shouldn't be doing this in front of you, let's get you home."
The ride home was silent and when he got to the lawn, he didn't pause for even a second. He continued until we were in my room. He gently sat me on my bed and turned towards the window again.
I grabbed his icy hand, "Won't you stay with me?"
He didn't even turn to look at me, "I should get home."
"Okay."
Before he sprang out the window a brilliant idea sparked in my mind, "I think I have an idea of how I can remember my past. Since you said your family and I were close, why don't you take me to see your family tomorrow to see if I can remember anything?"
He turned his head slightly to look me in the eyes, "Okay, I'll see you tomorrow."
And then he was gone until tomorrow. I laid there for hours just crying myself to sleep. I couldn't help but cry due to Edward's terrifying situation. It must be the most horrific situation to loose someone that you were going to share everything with, your heart, your soul………everything.
