DISCLAIMER: Stephanie Meyer owns Twilight not me. I'm just playing around with the characters we all love. :-)

Authors Notes:

****Anybody who thought Jasper was maybe caving into the wolves to much in the last chapter should feel relieved in this one ;-) COME ON! Would I let Jasper roll over to anyone?

****I almost did a slight flash forward from the wolf encounter but had to many ideas for what would happen next. ;-)

****I play around with my chapter names a lot and there is a good chance some will change in the future. If anyone has a great suggestion (Must be a song title with an emotion in the title; exp: FEAR, CRAZY, PAIN, LOVE. Etc...) whether for a future chapter or to rename one, message me.

EMOTIONS -Jasper is reading

EMOTIONS -Jasper is giving off

**- Marks words that are thought (Targeted to Edward to know alone)

Chapter#7: Undisclosed DESIRE

JPOV

PREVIOUSLY IN CHAPTER #6

"Sam doesn't want 7 vampires with free reign on his lands." Edward was still watching me in shock as he restrained Alice.

"Understandable, though you know perfectly well that the Cullen's mean you no harm. I was not, however referring to them. They are not my coven and I don't wish to disrespect the treaty your two groups have maintained for decades. This is between your tribe and mine, currently just me but any members I may get in the future would be included, especially should I take a mate." I glanced towards the Cullen's and they looked even more shocked.

"Sam will agree to you and a mate,... but he has one stipulation." Edward starred at me wide eyed as he spoke. I looked back in encouragement. My eyes flickered to Alice, who Edward had released. She was starring at me in as much shock as everyone else.

"What is the stipulation?"

"He wants you to renounce human blood." I looked back to Sam, his pack mate, Alice, the Cullens, then Alice again. She smiled softly as I tilted my head slightly to take her in. She was so beautiful when she smiled like that. I smiled back gently before I looked back to Sam determined.

"Agreed."

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AND NOW...

The quiet was almost deafening. With or without a sixth sense whether vampiric, empathic, telepathic, etc... I could read perfectly the mood on the field. Hell if I was blind I could see it. HESITATION, ANGER, CONFUSION, SHOCK, RESPECT. So many silent questions screaming at me but I ignored them all. I held the wolf, Paul, firmly while watching the alpha. I hadn't released him yet as I had yet to finish my demands.

"...provided you obey my terms." There would be no 'agreeing to' only compliance. I had the power here not him. Sam and his pack mate crouched low and snarled viciously.

"Sam refuses any more of your requests." Something tells me that Edward is drastically censoring the actual words but no matter.

"Then you are in luck." I kept my eyes on Sam even though Edward was the one speaking. "This is not a request, it is a statement of what I will receive." Sam had thrown in his last, sizable request to exert power over me in his powerless state. It wasn't a problem for me as I had demands of my own. The shock over my agreement was still radiating off the Cullen's but I didn't anticipate my agreement being an issue... at least for now. The wolves made another snarl and Edward was about to translate but I shot him a glare. I didn't have to speak with him mentally for him to get the point.

"Don't insult me or test my patience, alpha." FEAR. "You threw this demand at me to display power you don't have." I glanced around and saw the Cullen's eyes all flashing between myself and the pack, that had backed up a small step from me.

Alice looked so small as she watched me. I looked back to Sam quickly, not willing to keep my eyes off him for long. "I am humoring you out of respect... and not for you but for the Cullen's." Sam's eyes went to the coven then back to me. CONFUSION. "I would not hunt humans while on these lands as they have earned my respect." My eyes showed my darkness as I stared at his. "You have earned no such thing from me." I looked to Paul, completely passed out at this point. After a moment he began to shift back into a human. I dropped him as he did, keeping my eyes on the pack. They flinched at the movement of him falling upon the boulder but wisely made no move towards him. I crouched over him as I kept eye contact. Since I was still on the rock I kept my height advantage over the giant wolves. I placed my hand over his throat, loosely but they didn't know that. I heard a whimper come from both of them as a result.

"I could kill him, your brother, right now." Edward again went to speak but stopped himself, shaking his head in response to Sam's thoughts. "It would be so easy and so fast. Then there would be 2 of you." I tilted my head as I starred at him. "You couldn't defeat me as three, you have no hope as two." I gave an evil smile that I perfected training the army. "Who would protect your people then?" FEAR, SADNESS, RESOLVE. My curiosity peaked on the last emotion but it wasn't important enough to dwell on. They were interpreting my words as I intended them too, as a threat. Truthfully they were a warning. I was not the only monster out there, and if they fought me they would die, meaning a real threat was free to come along and kill their tribe. Their senseless feud with the Cullen's showed their short-shortsightedness. Together the clans could help each-other if the need arose. Separated on separate lands they were crippling themselves and the Cullen's.

"He wants to hear your terms?" CURIOSITY. Edward sounded eager.

"For one my WHOLE coven would be allowed on these lands, provided of course they abstain from human blood and are out of the newborn stage if newly created." Edward went to speak but I held up my free hand. "Non-negotiable about my coven making vampires. If I wish to I will. I will take responsibility for them and if they cross any lines I will end them myself." I couldn't picture myself creating anymore vampires as I have nothing but bad memories as a creator but I've learned never say never.

"Lastly you and your wolves will only be permitted in Forks, which shall be my territory, in your human form." Sam snarled and I smiled waiting for his mental screaming to end. CALM, POWERFUL, DETERMINED. I threw the emotions at him as potently as I dared to. They would feel my own alpha mentality as I spoke.

"I do not trust you, Alpha, nor your pack. But for actual reasons rather than your prejudice towards us." I was including vampires in general but mostly the Cullen's. "Your race has no control over your impulses. You are fueled by an overwhelming sense of rage." I watched them intently as I spoke, wanting them to feel my words. "You have an inflated sense of duty, self-righteousness, pride, and power. You feel I am a monster, that my kind are monsters..." I glanced in the direction of the Cullen's. "That they are monsters." I stood up straight as I spoke, still keeping eye-contact. "There are monsters among us all. Vampires kill not because we particularly want to but because we must. Much as how a hunter shoots a deer to eat, we hunt to sustain ourselves." ANGER, PRIDE, RESENTMENT. The wolves weren't liking what I had to say but they needed to know the reason behind my request.

"Your race kills for a predisposed ingrained prejudice that breeds hatred, all while disguised as a noble purpose. Then take humans... They steal, beat, abuse, hunt, molest, rape, and pillage for no reason at all." I clasped my hands behind my back as I watched them. I could tell they were intently listening. Good. "So what is more monstrous? The need to feed, the need to hate, or simply the need to take?"

"Do you hunt the monsters among humans with the fervor you hunt my race for merely existing? Do you hunt the monsters among man at all, or do you walk past those monsters without a glance?" I fought a smile as their fur bristled. "This is the problem with playing God, no one has the right to that kind of power. The power to decide who has the right to live or die simply for what they are... or aren't."

"If I had half the ego you do I could see you as the biggest monsters of all in this clearing. Your species is ruled by one feeling alone, rage. In my experience any who use this emotion as their guiding light inevitably end up hurting anybody around them." I had everyone's full attention now. "Allow me to explain." I hopped down from the rock and the wolves backed up, still feeling my fear influence. "When a vampire is in their bloodiest most monstrous state, the newborn year, they are fueled by instinct first, reason second... and yet newborns cannot surpass one thing. One simple thing can calm them down in their darkest state... loyalty/love. If a vampire bonds to another and form a connection it is permanent." I was speaking of the mating bond particularly but some other bonds are strong as well even if no where near as much. Vampires are passionate, more so than wolves but with more then just one emotion steering them unlike the wolves. Vampires feel everything deeply. "A vampire is incapable of harming a loved one in a blind rage. The sense to protect is to strong, to essential to us." I looked to Carlisle and the rest of the coven. RESPECT, GRATITUDE, AMAZEMENT. My eyes met the wolves. "Can your race say the same?"

The leader flinched and took noticeable steps back shaking his head rapidly. The other wolf looked like he was trying to comfort the leader. I glanced at Edward and his eyes were wide as he watched the wolves. I took that as confirmation that the Alpha had hurt someone close to him in one of his fits of rage. I dropped the subject. I wouldn't make him feel worse then he already did for whatever he did. My only goal was to give the wolves the same sense of restriction that they gave the Cullen's. Perhaps in time they would choose to adjust the treaty with them more fairly. Perhaps then they would earn my respect, and I would lift my own restrictions.

"He agrees." Edward spoke softly and I bowed my head in respect to the alpha who lowered his as well. I stepped away from Paul towards the Cullen's and heard the wolves run to their brother. Carlisle immediately offered to look him over for the pack and after some resistance Sam agreed. I saw the SHOCK on Edward's face at the small gesture of trust and the sheer JOY radiating off Carlisle in the face of their trust and it brought a smile to my face.

I stood alone, a small distance away from the coven as we all watched Carlisle care for the boy in front of him. I felt two approach me as I watched Carlisle work calmly. I turned to see Esme and Alice both smiling at me. I gave Esme a nod as she mouthed a silent thank-you. I wasn't completely clear about what she was thanking me for but I appreciated it anyway. She walked to the rest of her family, all watching Carlisle, slightly on edge due to the two wolves hovering over him as he worked.

I felt Alice shift next to me and hesitantly lean into my side, resting her head on my arm. ADORATION. I gave her hand a small squeeze then walked into the forest. She followed me as I knew she would. We walked at an unhurried pace until we were out of eyesight. I ran full speed then, in no direction particularly and she continued to follow. After a couple minutes we stopped and looked around the small patch of forest with a small creek, where we'd found ourselves.

I turned to her as she smiled softly at me. She was standing in front of me, not saying a word just watching me with her bright warm eyes. I used to love the cold and hate the heat, because of what warmth reminded me of but now it would always remind me of her eyes, warm, bright, and beautiful. I stroked her cheek with my finger and she lowered her head. SHY, NERVOUS. I tilted her head up and focused on calming her while I watched her eyes.

JOY, PEACE, PATIENCE. Did she understand that this was my own way of telling her that she didn't need to be shy? That she should always be that bright innocent girl I'd met just yesterday, who crashed down on me like a tidal wave. She reached up and hugged me around my neck and I grasped her around her waist, pulling her up off the ground into my chest so that neither of us had to lean to embrace. After a few minutes we sat down and watched the stars. We didn't speak, at least not with words. We just felt each-other, and it was amazing. I didn't know why we were doing this but it was right somehow, us. A couple hours passed and she crawled into my lap and we continued to watch the sky as she traced my arms that I had wrapped around her middle.

I glanced at her and saw her looking at my arms and tracing all the scars. I stiffened internally but my posture stayed the same. I didn't want her to notice my discomfort. I didn't understand why I had the feeling myself. I'd been branded with marks from almost the beginning, as I lived a hard existence. I watched her as she continued to trace the marks all over my arms, as though she were connecting the dots. CONTENTMENT, CURIOSITY, AWE. The innocence, compassion, and beauty of the creature in my arms was enough to leave me breathless. She was in awe of me? Of what? My appearance? That wasn't possible, my skin was forever damaged. Our differences couldn't be better symbolized then by our appearances

Skin: I was flawed and she was flawless. I was beaten she was new.

Eyes: I was a monster, she was an angel. I came from darkness, she knew only light.

She pivoted in my lap so that she was now straddling me. I kept my arms around her as she watched my eyes for a moment before her eyes went to my face. Her hand reached up and began to trace some of the scars on my face, her fingers then went down to my neck, the worst place on my body after my arms. When her fingers got to Maria's mark I reached up and grabbed her hand gently but firmly. I didn't know why I did this but her eyes locked on mine as I held her hand which was still touching the mark that made me what I am.

She pulled her hand away, lowering both of our hands in the process as I hadn't let hers go. Our eyes stayed on each-other as the mood shifted. UNDERSTANDING, SADNESS. I brought her hand back up to my lips and kissed her wrist. She tilted her head and began to lean into me. Before I knew what she was doing she was kissing my mark softly. I froze at the sensation. DESIRE, LUST, CARE, DEVOTION. I couldn't keep the feelings in and I knew she felt it, and knew that it was my feelings not what I was manipulating. She wrapped her arms around me softly and nestled her face into my neck where she'd kissed me.

I could feel her breath on my marks and it gave me chills that weren't caused by any temperature change. I gazed far away as I held her. On the surface I knew I looked as calm as always but inside I was panicked. I could feel myself bonding to this creature irreversibly. Part of me wanted to step back but that part, normally the part that controls my actions, was a whisper compared to the rest of me. It screamed at me to hold her close and absolutely never let go. I could feel possession overriding reason. Want surpassing right. Need overwhelming thought. All I could do was hold her tighter as my mind thundered.

After a little while she relaxed in my arms, shifting slightly so that her head was rested against my left shoulder, her legs over my lap so that she could look up at me though for the most part we watched the sky. I rubbed her back with my left hand while I stroked her with my right. I rubbed her legs, her arms, cheek, anything I could reach. She grabbed my hand after awhile and tilted it, noticing the particularly bad mark on my wrist. I watched her, waiting for a reaction. She looked up at me as she continued to hold my hand.

"Do you have them anywhere else?" Her words were a whisper, like she didn't want to break the enchantment of our silence.

"They are everywhere." I had scars on my chest, back, legs, truly all over.

"What's your worst one?" She seemed hesitant. I knew she meant physically and visually when she meant the worst, otherwise I would have pointed to Maria's marks. She had bitten me many times, her own way of striking a claim on me. Her 'marks' hurt more then any ripping newborns had done to me, but I wouldn't burden Alice with that. I leaned over and hunched so that the back of my neck was exposed to Alice. I moved my hair and I heard her breath catch at the particularly gory mess there. I readjusted myself and watched her face. Her eyes looked like they wanted to cry.

I felt vulnerable seeing her like that. I couldn't even manipulate her as I normally would, because she was both tragic and unimaginably beautiful in the moment. I just starred into her sad pitying eyes, at a loss of what to say. As it turned out I didn't need to worry about making her happy again because after just a brief moment a soft smile came to her face.

"You're so beautiful." AWE. I was shocked by her words. SHOCK, DOUBT, CONFUSION. She reached her hand forward and stroked some of my scars while watching me. "You've seen so much, most of which has probably been ugly and awful." My eyes watched her closely as she spoke. "You lived through it all and came out this wise, wonderful man who sees so much, who feels deeper than any of us could imagine." She sniffed and glanced down before looking back at me. "It would have been so easy for you to give up but you didn't." She shifted herself back into a straddling position but kept her posture hunched and relaxed as she watched me, and I watched her. "You value the simplest things that many would take for granted. I just..." She trailed off for a moment as she looked away, at what I didn't know as I couldn't take my eyes off her to glance in the direction. "I think you're beautiful."

I grabbed her chin and pulled her eyes to me. "You're the beautiful one. So innocent, pure, kind, and incredible." She smiled and I smiled back softly. "You're my ray of sunshine, darlin." Our eyes were locked as I spoke softly to her. "You're my light." I stopped thinking and leaned in, kissing her without hesitation and without doubt. I was a century old empath, and this was the first truest thing I'd ever felt.

END NOTES:

Short but sweet. I couldn't shake these ideas today at work and wrote most of it while I was working. Shhhh. ;-)

Chapter (SONG) Title: "Undisclosed DESIRE" by Muse- My personal favorite Muse song. It's about knowing the deeper parts that someone hides (Beauty, goodness, etc...) behind a mask of violence and coldness. It's about wanting to save someone from their past and show the world what they are capable of. Alice is shining a light on how good Jasper truly is under his century of ugliness.

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