A/N
Okay! So, here's your warning: SEXUAL CONTENT. Quite a bit of it too. You've had your warning! And I apologize that I haven't been able to post where to see the art Scare and I have done for this story. I promise we will get it up eventually! Any ways, I figured I would post two chapters today since chapter six kinda leaves you hanging. Enjoy! -Saerenae
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*Levi*
"You understand now. Either push me away or accept what happens next. I'm done controlling myself." I was already impatient to begin, but I had to give her a choice. I refused to force myself on her, now matter how badly my body wanted me to just ravage her on the spot. To further add to my impatience, she let out small sounds of distress, causing the organ that had captured my brain to tighten even more. "Fine." No longer able to wait on her to form a coherent sentence, I moved slowly and methodically, allowing her plenty of opportunities to push me away.
I rested my head against hers as my fingers teased her already moist folds, realizing she too must have been either denying her feelings or just ignorant to them. I watched as her hands clamped down on the piano keys, a discordant array of noise filling the room along with her pants and quiet noises of pleasure. The sight was laughable, bringing forth an odd noise of amusement from my throat as my scowl softened to an almost smile.
I changed the angle of my hand just slightly and was rewarded with a moan and a pleasurable jerk of her body. I closed my eyes, deriving pleasure from the sound of my name cascading over her tongue and out her lips. I slightly increased the force and speed I used in pleasuring her, listening as words fell out of her mouth between her heavy breathing and her moans.
"I can't…stop…" She managed.
I inserted two fingers, still teasing her with my thumb as I thrusted my fingers in and out. I wanted it to be so much more than just my fingers inside her when she let my name fall from her lips yet again, but I knew her body wasn't properly prepared. The arousal basically poking through my pants was borderline painful, and, when she placed her hands on the bench, she had managed to rub it with that glorious ass of hers. "Kelis."
More than anything, I wanted to run my lips across the beautiful plains of her scarred shoulders and neck. I closed my eyes, maintaining a steady rhythm with my hand as my mind wandered to a place where I didn't have to restrain myself, a place where I could do exactly as I pleased to her when I pleased. I could feel her tightening around me, close to her release.
"Levi!" It wasn't quite a yell that escaped her lips as she arched her back, but I fully intended to hearing my name spill from her lips many more times. She slumped back against me and it was all I could do not to just throw her over my shoulder and haul her to my bedroom.
"Kelis," I murmured to gain her attention once again, wrapping my arms around her waist. "Whatever happens next…" I paused for a moment, trying not to think of the horrid possibilities that could follow. "You're prepared to accept it, right?"
Each of her labored breaths were like small eternities as she collected her thoughts. While I knew without a doubt I regretted none of what had happened, I didn't know how she felt about the situation. Her voice was a welcomed relief. "Y-yes." She stammered.
I pressed my lips to her shoulder, making my way up her neck as one of my hands wandered up her side under her shirt. I pushed her hair out of the way, my fingers momentarily lingering over the scars that adorned her neck and shoulder. I breathed in her scent before using both hands to push her shirt up her sides. "Kelis." I kissed just under her ear, my urgency starting to leak through my calm façade. "Lift your arms."
She complied sluggishly and I pulled her shirt over her head before completely relinquishing her of her shorts and underwear, leaving her in only her bra.
"Face me."
She was still for a long while before finally crossing her arms over her chest and standing to face me.
I looked up at her and her amusing attempt to cover herself, taking each of her wrists in my hands and gently pulling them away from her body to gaze upon her. "There's no point in being bashful now, dumbass." I muttered, taking in the expanse of her fair skin. I leaned forward and kissed her stomach, making my way up until I, too, was standing and again kissing her neck.
She moaned and closed her eyes, biting her lip as if trying to keep herself quiet.
I swiftly scooped her up in my arms, earning a yelp of surprise as I began making my way out of the piano room and towards my bed room. I unceremoniously dropped her on my bed, hearing another surprised yelp, before shedding my shirt and dropping it on the floor in a messy heap. I put one knee on the bed and stared at the young woman in front of me. The logical side of me was screaming some nonsense about her being half my age, but the brain in my pants was telling me it didn't matter.
She must have sensed my split moment of hesitation, boldly sitting up and running a hand across my stomach with a smile. Biting her lip, she looked up at me with a blush, finally taking note of my rock hard member. She ran her fingers over the clasp of my belt before agonizingly slowly undoing it.
"Damn it, Kelis." I growled, pushing my pants down and kicking them off. "It doesn't take a fucking eternity to get undressed." I pushed her back on the bed, hovering over her as her legs dangled over the side. I ran a finger over her collarbone before tracing it through the valley of her still covered breasts. That needed to change.
Kelis was gazing up at me with a dazed expression as I wedged on hand between her and the bed, unclamping the contraption that hid a part of her from me. Her face reddened even more when I stripped her of her last covering. A gasp escaped her lips when I lowered my mouth to one of her breasts, kneading the other with my hand while placing my hips between her legs. "Levi!" She cried out again.
I removed my hand from her breast, trailing it down her stomach and to the warm wetness between her thighs as my tongue continued to tease the other rosy bud. I teased her most sensitive spot once more with my fingers, kissing between her breasts before moving my tongue to the other so as not to neglect it.
Her body jerked under me, her hips rising and falling in attempt to ride my hand as she bit down on her knuckle.
It took everything in me not to forego preparation and just shove myself inside her, but I didn't want to cause her any pain due to my well endowment. I could feel her tightening once more and I knew I wouldn't have to wait much longer.
She arched her back and fisted the sheets in her hands, trying to lift her hips to mine. "Levi…!"
With the sound of my name accompanying her orgasm, I removed my mouth from her breast and grabbed her hips, quickly thrusting myself inside her. "Dear god, Levi…" I heard her cry in ecstasy, but I didn't continue thrusting. I let her body adjust around mine as I leaned over her again.
She surprised me by wrapping her arms around me and pulling me down to her.
I ran a hand through her hair and began moving my hips, eliciting more arousing noises from Kelis as she ran her fingers across my back. "Fuck…" I murmured when she wrapped her legs around my waist, making it easier to thrust and hit her special spot. "Gah!" I heard her gasp, feeling myself drawing closer and closer to the release I'd been in need of.
Again, the logical part of my brain chimed in, and, just as I was about to finish, I pulled out and dropped to the edge of the bed, my tongue lapping up the wetness of her folds as I stroked myself. I didn't look up to Kelis, knowing it would make her shy; instead, I focused my efforts on giving her the most pleasure I could with my tongue. I felt myself on the edge, but wouldn't let myself release before her, knowing the blinding pleasure would render me a bit clumsy.
"Levi!" It was the scream I'd been waiting for. I allowed myself the dizzying pleasure of completion a moment after her, sitting back on the floor as I listened to the sound of our heavy breathing and took in the smell I'd associate with sex from then on.
"Levi…?" Kelis sleepily called after our breathing had finally calmed to a sensible rhythm.
"Hmm." I didn't give her an actual answer as I sat up and began gathering our clothes, deciding that tomorrow would be another day for thorough cleaning, including washing the sheets, our clothes, and ourselves. An image of bathing with her flashed in my mind and I was forced to shoo it away before my body decided to go a second round.
I looked back to her after not receiving a reply only to find she had dozed off. Shaking my head, I ran a hand through my hair and went to gather the clothes we had discarded in the piano room before taking them downstairs. The chill of the evening nipped at my bare skin as I made my way to Kelis's room, entering without hesitation and setting out to find one of those baggy shirts I knew she always wore to bed. Finding one, I took it up stairs and maneuvered her into it, covering her with my blankets before leaving the room to retrieve a rag so I could clean up at least a bit of the mess we had made. I cleaned myself and Kelis as well as I could before placing the rag with the rest of our dirty laundry and returning to my room.
I pulled on a pair of pants and sat on the small couch, knowing that, no matter how exhausted I was, sleep wouldn't take me captive with Kelis in my bed. Seeing the two books we had taken from the library on the small coffee table, I lit a candle and decided to browse them.
I finished reading both books just as the flame of the candle giving me light began to wane, the wick almost gone. I blew it out and made sure not to spill any wax as I stood with it in my hand. I walked towards the door, sparing a glance at Kelis, who was sleeping soundly, before walking out and back downstairs. I knew it was probably closer to morning than it was midnight, so I boiled some water and made tea, deciding to venture down the hall to stand in front of what had been my former study.
I had no doubt everything was just as it was last time I had been in there, which was before I had so ruthlessly taken the lives of Eren and Ymir. I sipped my tea, slowly running my hand over the wooden door before finally opening it and stepping inside. Closing the door behind me, I noted the thin layer of dust that coated everything in the room. There was no sense in cleaning it right now. That hadn't been the purpose of my venture.
I set my tea on my old desk, not daring to sit in the chair that had been witness to so many difficultly made decisions. Walking around the desk, I slowly reached to open the top drawer to be greeted by a pair of glasses, an emerald bolo tie, and countless patches with the wings of freedom on them. "It's been a while." I whispered to no one in particular as I gently picked up the glasses and bolo tie, walking over to the small bookshelf that was near the corner of the room. There was a a map with the final formation written on it tacked to the wall caddie cornered to the bookshelf, as well as a flag with the scouts emblem on it
I dropped both items that were in my hands and shoved all the books from one shelf to the floor before ripping at the map with a roar of emotion. Loose papers and dust flying everywhere, I kicked one of the books before I leaned into the corner and slid to the ground. Pixis's words from when Kelis and I had visited the castle still rang in my ears and I had been trying to deny them, distract myself from them—distract myself from everything—to no avail.
Pixis stared at me, waiting for Kelis to finally make her exit. He placed his hands behind his back and stood with his feet shoulder width apart, a military habit that didn't die easily. "You are quite a puzzle, Levi." He stated after a while, not necessarily accusing me, just stating a fact.
I didn't say anything as I waited for him to continue, but my scowl did grow darker as I was plagued with the uneasy feeling that I knew where his conversation was about to lead.
"You know," he turned and started slowly walking to the other wall, gazing nonchalantly at the art that was so elegantly placed. "If you had truly wanted to kill yourself, you would've slit your wrists properly."
I felt as though he had ripped open my armored exterior and was gazing into my very soul, the weight of it all pushing me to sit.
"Don't worry that girl into thinking you want to die when you yourself are too afraid to leave this world." With that, he walked off and let me stew in my misery.
I brought my knees to my chest, capturing one of my arms between my chest and legs in a desperate attempt to hold myself together as I hit the wall I was leaning on with my other hand. I silently cursed those who had left before me, I cursed myself for not having the will to join them, and I cursed myself for having the audacity to distract myself rather than face my problems head on. "Damn it…" I choked out, my chest tightening as I saw Zoë's glasses and Erwin's bolo tie amongst the wreckage.
I squeezed my eyes shut and further curled in on myself, trying to hold in the emotions that had been ravaging my soul for years. I could almost feel Zoë sit beside me and rest her head on my shoulder as she ran her hand across my back…I could almost sense Erwin kneeling in front of me and whispering words of encouragement, words I so desperately needed to hear. "Damn it!" I shouted as I hit the wall once more, all reservation lost as the emotions I had so carefully locked away surfaced for the first time in years, running down my cheeks like rogues escaping their maximum security prison.
I remained there in that miserable state, the image of Zoë and Erwin never once leaving my me, making me believe they were truly there in my time of desperate need. They were there for me like I hadn't been for them, and it was a truly painful fact.
