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Bittersweet
both pleasant and painful, or regretful
Chapter 7: Not Alone
Bella's Point of View:
While Edward was driving us to his home I felt numb. I wasn't feeling anything. No pain, just extreme tiredness. All I wanted to do was sleep, and sleep some more. Maybe when I woke up all of this would be gone, and Charlie would still be alive. But I knew that wouldn't happen. I didn't feel like dealing with things, I just wanted to sleep, and not wake up.
"We're here." Edward announced, and I jumped.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to startle you." He apologized. I shook my head.
"No, don't worry, I just didn't realize we'd been driving long enough to be back. I was lost in my thoughts." I explained quickly.
"I understand." Slowly he got out of the car, and glanced at me. I just stayed where I was. I don't even know why I didn't move. I wasn't waiting for anything, was I? I was waiting for someone to tell me this was all just a big joke, some sick sick joke, but still just a joke. However no one told me it was a joke. It was all real, far too real. Edward came around to my door and opened it for me. When I still didn't get out he stuck his hand out to me.
I thought for a moment before I grabbed his hand and stood up. I really like Edward, but the timing is so wrong. I feel like I shouldn't be happy to be close with Edward, because the only reason we have been so close is because Charlie died. Plus, was Edward just being nice? Or did he like me as much as I liked him? Life is so confusing. But as I grabbed his hand, relief flooded my body. There was something about him that dulled my pain. I just hoped he wouldn't let go of my hand once I was out of the car.
I stood slowly, and once I was out I straightened out my shirt.
"Does everyone know?" I asked, while I played with the hem of my shirt.
"Yes." Edward replied quietly.
"Good." I said, and then we walked hand in hand up to the door. Edward put his hand on the doorknob to open the door.
"Wait." I said. He stopped turning the knob and looked at me. "Can I ask you a favor?" I questioned quietly.
"Of course." He replied sweetly. I noticed that he always used a kind tone with me.
"When we go inside, can I just go lay down?" I asked.
"Sure, but how is that a favor from me?" He asked, looking slightly confused.
"I was hoping…well I was hoping that maybe you could keep your family from talking to me…I just…I just don't feel like talking about things right now."
"Sure Bella. I'll keep them from talking to you."
"Thank you." I said quietly. He nodded.
"Are you ready to go in?" This time I nodded. He opened the door, and I was slightly surprised that none of his family was standing around.
"Do you need anything to eat or drink? Or would you just like to go lay down?"
"I just want to lie down." Edward nodded, and led me upstairs, and into the guest bedroom.
I walked all the way in and Edward lingered at the door. I sat down on the bed, so that my back was facing Edward. All of a sudden I was hit with a wave of sadness, and I started to cry. Edward was by my side in seconds holding me in his strong arms.
"Shh baby." He whispered in my ear, trying to comfort me, and it was working.
Edward's Point of View:
Had I really just called her baby? I wonder what the family is going to think. I couldn't help it though, it just came out, and it fit. The only thing I could think to ask was "What's wrong?" But I didn't, because that seemed like a really stupid question.
"I feel…so alone." Bella cried into my shoulder.
"Awe…" I almost said sweetie, but I figured I should cool it a bit right now. "You aren't alone. There are so many people who love you, and I'm not going to leave you." She looked up at me.
"Do you promise?" She asked, tears still falling from her eyes.
"Yes. I promise." She smiled slightly at me, it wasn't a bright smile, but it was the best she could pull off at the moment.
"You look tired. You've had a long day. You should try to get some sleep." I told her. She nodded her head, and I stood up to leave her, but she looked like she had something to say, yet she wasn't sure if she should.
"Edward…" She started, she looked nervous.
"Yeah?" I asked softly.
"Will you lay with me?" I didn't reply right away. I wanted to lay with her, but I wasn't sure if it was a good idea. "You don't have to." She added quickly when I didn't respond, which made me feel awful.
"No, I'll lay with you." I told her, I wasn't sure if it was the right choice, but it seemed like the only choice to me.
Bella lied down, and got comfortable, then I placed myself on the other side of the bed, keeping some distance between us.
"Thanks…I just didn't want to be alone."
"It's not a problem." I told her, and she flipped over so that her back was facing me. I watched intently, hoping that she was asleep. She deserved some peace. I don't think her day could have been any worse.
I don't know how long we had been laying there when my phone started vibrating. I looked at the caller id, and realized it was a call coming from Charlie's house. Who would be calling from Charlie's? And how would they have my number?
I slowly got off the bed, trying not to disturb Bella, and walked out the door, then answered my phone.
"Hello?"
"Edward, its Alice. I left my cell somewhere…hopefully at home, but I really don't know." She spit out quickly.
"Well hello to you too." I replied. "Why are you at Charlie's?"
"I came to pick up some stuff for Bella. But I didn't know if there were certain things she needed…"
"She's asleep right now, and I'm not going to wake her up just to find out what she needs from home."
"Good, I wouldn't want you to. I'll just grab lots of stuff. How long do you think she'll be staying with us?" Alice asked me.
"I don't really know."
"I think Carlisle and Esme will ask her to move in with us." Alice said.
"You think, or you know?" I joked with her.
"Well they haven't made a final decision yet. I mean with us being…well us, it could be hard to have a human living with us."
"Yeah." I said.
"Edward…can I ask you something?" Alice asked carefully.
"Don't you already know the answer?" I mocked.
"Actually I don't, you haven't been very open with your plans. It's like you aren't making a choice on purpose…to hide it from me."
"Alice, what do you want to know?" I was worried about what she was going to ask, and I had a feeling it had to do with Bella.
"Do you want to be with Bella?"
"Alice…"
"Edward answer the question."
"It wouldn't work." I stated simply.
"That wasn't what I asked you Edward. I asked you if you wanted to be with her." Alice pointed out. I didn't respond.
"Edward? Edward? Did you hang up on me? EDWARD!"
"I want to be with her." I said quietly.
"I knew it!" Alice cheered. "You two are so cute together!"
"Alice there's so many problems with us though."
"So, those things will all work out." She assured me.
"Alice, the timing is all wrong." I pointed out.
"No it's not! It's perfect. Edward she needs someone to be there for her. Someone strong that she can depend on, and she could depend on you."
"Yeah, but then it's like we got together because I was being nice and comforting her in her time of need."
"So what, the two of you would have ended up together eventually. I just know it." All of a sudden I heard a noise.
"Alice, I have to go, I think I Bella just woke up."
"Why don't you find…" But I hung up and didn't hear the end of the conversation. I didn't want Bella to wake up and not see me, I told her I would stay with her, and I was determined to stick to that.
A/N: I almost went further with this chapter, but I simply don't have the time, and I'm not sure when I would be able to work on it again, so I just left it here. Hope you enjoyed.
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Shelby
