Chapter 7: "Scream My Name!"

I awoke, no surprise, in Deidara's arms. He was already awake, and playing with my short black hair.

'Morning ...' I yawned, and he looked down at me and kissed my forehead.

'Good morning, my love ... hmm ...' Deidara murmured and then smiled. I hugged him around his waist, and kissed his bare chest. We both showered (Yes. At the same time ...) and dressed. Deidara handed me one of his spare trademark Akatsuki cloaks, the fishnet top and trousers, with the white stocking-ish things. We padded down the stairs hand-in-hand, Hidan giving us, or more like Deidara, dirty looks. I had a feeling he was going to be trouble. We sat down on the couch after grabbing some toast, and we nibbled on that whilst talking about tiny insignificant things, and occasionally laughing at something stupid we said and agreed on. Hidan came up behind us, and tapped his scythe on the ground once.

'So.' He growled. 'How was ... Y'know ... Last night ...' Deidara looked away from him, as did I, but I had already noticed the numerous teeth marks from a wolf across his neck and arms.

'I don't know what you're talking about, yeah.' Deidara murmured.

'You know as sure as fuck what I'm talking about.' Hidan hissed.

'Well, whatever it is, it doesn't concern you.' I said, turning to look at him darkly. Hidan smirked.

'See. You do know what I'm fucking talking about.' He laughed sadistically.

'Get a girlfriend.' Deidara hissed.

'I would.' Hidan raised his head, trying to act cool. 'But the chicks in here are either taken or a shemale.' This hit Deidara's annoyance bar, and he leapt over the back of the sofa, successfully kicking Hidan in the face.

'Whoa!' I yelled in pursuit of Deidara, grabbing him around the waist. 'Calm down!' Deidara started to cry, and he seemed extremely upset by Hidan's cruel behaviour.

'Come on.' I murmured. 'Let's go back to our room.' Deidara nodded, wiping his eyes with his cloak sleeve. Well one thing was for sure: He was no longer afraid to cry.

Deidara punched the wall viciously, his other hand curled into a tight ball.

'I FUCKING HATE HIM!' He yelled. 'I WISH HE WASN'T FUCKING IMMORTAL SO I COULD JUST KILL HIM. WHY CAN'T HE JUST GO AND BLOODY DIE?' He collapsed to the floor, crying into his hands. I could no nothing more than watch him, pain panging at my heart and sorrow hitting my emotions. I walked towards him, knelt behind him, and hugged him around his chest.

'Hey ...' I whispered, and I listened to his sobs as his hands clasped around my arms. 'I'm here for you. I love you.' Deidara sniffed.

'But that's just the problem, isn't it?' He cried, bowing his head down. 'To him, I'm not allowed to find love or happiness. I'm just meant to be a toy for his grief and anger ... hmm ...' I looked down at the floor. I couldn't disagree. It was true. Hidan didn't want Deidara to be happy. He thought he didn't deserve it. But unlike other people, I know what Deidara's been through. I know what I need to know about him, and it's sad. Hidan used Deidara to take out his anger on. That's what pisses me off about him so much. He likes to hurt the one I love, and he thinks he can get away with it. But he's wrong. As long as I'm around, if he so much as touches Deidara in a cruel or harmful way, there'll be hell to pay. But that was only the start of our problems ... That promise is hard to keep. I can't always be there for Deidara. I wish I could, but there are certain things in life we have to do alone. I kissed the top of Deidara's head, and breathed out heavily. This was not going to be easy.

Later on, Deidara decided he was to stay cooped up in our room, so I went down to the kitchen to pick up some food. On the way, though, I bumped into Hidan. I shunned myself for it, because I left my Katana and Kunai in my room, and I knew my strength was a pile of crap. Hidan turned to me and raised an eyebrow.

'What are you doing down here, bitch?' He murmured.

'Getting something for Deidara to eat.' I replied truthfully, staring up at the silver haired man. He smirked.

'Why? Is the little shemale too afraid to get it himself?' I ignored the throbbing of annoyance in my head, and looked up at him.

'Yeah. He's afraid.' I growled. 'Afraid he'll hurt you.' Hidan laughed.

'What a shame.' He looked at me darkly. 'Cause this means he's not here to protect you ...' I glared at him. 'And ... It looks like you have no weapons on you, hunh.' Damn. So he did notice ...

'So?' I muttered, and Hidan's tough hand grabbed my neck, pushing me backwards into a wall. That was that. I was choking, flailing my legs about, and tears started running down my face.

'Hidan ...' I managed to cough out. '... Let me ... g- ... go ...' Hidan's smirk darkened.

'No.' He growled, the smirk fixed in place. 'Not until I'm finished with you.' I winced. Well, crap. Hidan threw me over his shoulder, and marched down the hallway. I was pathetic. I couldn't control my Genjutsu, I had no Ninjutsu, and I was about to get raped by a guy who seemed nice at first, but now it appears he was just trying to get me into his bed, which was all Just by force.

Hidan threw me onto the bed in his room, and locked the door three times. (There were three locks.) He walked over to me, and stared at me dauntingly.

'Why did you choose the shemale over me?' He growled, but he sounded slightly hurt.

'Because ... Because he's not a flirt, he doesn't choke me, he's nice, and ... oh yeah. He's not you.' I think I said too much there. Apparently so, because Hidan pinned my hands over my head and bent over me, glaring at me inches from my face.

'Right ...' He threw his scythe aside, and it clattered to the floor. He sat on my stomach, so I was restricted in movement, and pulled a rope out from his pocket. He tied my hands together, and then to the wooden, barred, headboard. I grimaced. Definitely not good. He pulled a kunai knife out of its pouch and tore my top open, slicing through my bra and my skin in the process. My chest bled, but it's not like he cared. He just threw my clothes aside and started to undo his trousers. I didn't say anything. I was in enough shit as it was. He threw his cloak to the floor with his trousers and boxers, and started to undo mine, too. I felt highly violated. Well. Who wouldn't? When I was as naked at he was, he leant over me and smirked at me centimetres from my face.

'Yeah. I have the upper rank, here.' He murmured, nodding to the rope which tied me to the bed. 'So don't you start trying to free yourself.' I growled, and he chuckled, his cold hands exploring my body. This was nothing like being with Deidara. Deidara's touch was warm, but Hidan's felt like he was inserting poison into you everywhere he touched. Speaking of inserting and touching, Hidan pushed one of his long fingers into my warm opening, and I pushed my lips together to hold back the moan that nearly fell out. He smirked again as he noticed I was reluctant to his touch.

'You wanna play this the hard way, hunh?' He murmured, and leant over my body. I sucked in a load of air as his lips came down onto one of my breasts. I started to growl at him again, but then he started to suck on it, and a slight moan escaped through my lips. His eyes looked up at me through his eyelashes, and I saw the hidden smirk. I gritted my teeth, and his free hand decided it should play with the other unoccupied breast, twisting it around his fingers. Soon enough, he pulled away, and I relaxed a little. But the only thing was, was that he inserted another finger into my opening. This did, actually make me groan. I felt guilty of it, though. Hidan was winning, and he knew it. That's what made my guilt even harder on me. Hidan pulled his fingers out of me, and licked his digits, tasting my insides. He smirked at me.

'For Deidara's bitch, you sure taste good.' He murmured, grinning.

'I'm not ... Deidara's bitch ...' I grunted.

'Oh really?' Hidan said, cocking his head to the side. 'Then what were those noises I heard last night ...?' I growled.

'I'm not his bitch ...' I repeated. 'I'm his ... lover ...' Hidan shrugged.

'Bitch, lover, same thing.' He smirked again. 'They both come under your name in the dictionary.' I grumbled to myself, and Hidan decided he had had enough of the temptation that was teasing him.

'Kay.' He muttered, positioning himself at my entrance. 'Don't scream because mine's bigger than his.' He grinned darkly, and then pressed his tip against my opening. I tensed. It felt bigger than Deidara's ... But Hidan was a big man. And yet, something told me that one round of sex wouldn't be enough for him. I sighed.

Hidan pushed his tip into my wet opening more, and I groaned. All of a sudden, the thought of having him inside me was a lot more pleasing. It was wrong, but I couldn't help it. Hidan raised an eyebrow in my change of attitude, and then pushed himself in so the tip was half in. My body quivered. What was taking him so long? Hidan pulled out, then, with no warning; slammed into me, hitting my "g spot" and I yelled out in pain, but it faded into a moan. He pulled out again, and I whined. He chuckled, and shoved into me again, tearing through my depths and navigating towards my core.

'H- Hidan ...' I groaned knowing it was wrong. If Deidara could hear us, hopefully he couldn't recognise my voice. 'Hidan ... A- Ah! ... H- harder, H- Hidan ...!' Hidan complied, changing his angle a little bit, and then he found my sensitive spot. I made a high pitched squeal, something someone was bound to hear. Hidan pushed into me with a grunt of mingled vehement and huskiness. Something was happening: Something that had nothing to do with sex. I was scared. What if Deidara could hear us? He'd never forgive me for having sex with another guy ... Would he even believe me it was rape? I didn't like what Hidan was doing to me. The only thing I liked was the feeling, and Deidara could quite easily give that to me. He could give that to me without sex. Hidan had slowed up in his thrusts, and pulled out of me, flipping me onto my back and forcing me to stand on my hands and knees. He pushed himself into my anus, not giving me any time to adjust to his sudden invasion in my sensitive rectum. I felt blood run down my thighs, and I'm sure Hidan noticed this. I kept yelping out in pain every now and then, and then Hidan leant forwards to press his lips to my ear when he was near to coming.

'Scream my name ...' He grunted. I didn't want to ... I was too afraid ... 'Scream it!' He demanded.

'H ... Hidan ...' I whispered. He bit into my neck, drawing blood.

'Scream my name, bitch!' He yelled, coming ever closer to his release.

'H ... HIDAN!' I screamed, and he came into me, holding himself in fully until he decided he was done, and then pulled out. He untied my hands, and slid his clothes back on. He tied his scythe around his back, and smirked.

'See you around, screamer.' He growled, his voice still husky. And so, he left me crippled and in excruciating pain on his bed. I tried to sit up, but it hurt too much. On the bright side, which there wasn't much of, at least he didn't go the way as to get me pregnant. Then a thought hit me. Myself and Deidara ... Last night, we didn't use any kind of protection. Shit. So ... there was a 60% chance or so that I would get pregnant. Ah, the joy. I was only seventeen! I looked to the side, and noticed my cloak. I forced myself to move and clutch the black and red material. I threw it over my body, and hoped that someone would come and find me.

It felt like an eternity later, but the door creaked open, and a light shone across my face. I was suddenly afraid it was Hidan, and he decided he hadn't had enough.

'D- Danna?' Deidara. It was Deidara.

'D ... Dei-kun ...' I managed to force out. He rushed over to my side, and held my face.

'Danna, What happened to you?' Deidara cried.

'It ... Hidan ...' I looked at him sadly, tears started to fall down my face. 'It ... It hurts ... Dei-kun ...'

'Hey, hey ...' Deidara murmured. He sat onto the bed cross-legged; pulling me into his lap and cradling me. 'What did Hidan do to you, honey, hmm?'

'He ... He forced me to have sex with him ...' I started to bawl my eyes out, and Deidara's face turned sad.

'I- I'm sorry, Deidara!' I cried, clutching his top. 'I didn't want to! He started choking me, then he tied me up ... I couldn't do anything I didn't have a choice!' Deidara stayed silent. 'Deidara ...' I cried into his stomach. 'Please don't hate me. I didn't ask for this.' Deidara shook his head.

'I just ...' He murmured, his voice shaky. 'I ... I don't know ... what to say ...' The tears fell down my face rapidly, and I closed my eyes.

'I ...' Was all I was able to force out my mouth.

'R- Renai ...' He murmured. 'I ... I don't think I ... I want to be with you anymore ... I'm sorry ...' With those words, the room around me turned black. Everything dissolved. My world: my love. When the room returned to me, I forced myself to sit up, squinting my eyes closed and gritting my teeth with the pain. I slid the cloak on, and stood up, wincing at every movement I made. I turned, but Deidara had gone. He must have made a break for it. I waddled into our room, finding him sat in the corner his head in his hands. Nothing was said between us as I pulled fresh clothes on, and walked out of the room and down the hall. Half way down, the pain overcame me, and I fell to my knees, eventually lying with my face pressed against the wooden floor. Kisame came up to me, and rolled me over, discovering I was crying all of the water out of my body. Kisame looked at me gravely.

'We need to talk.' Is all he said, before scooping me up and taking me to the front room, where he settled me onto the couch and looked me straight in the eyes.

'What's going on?' He asked. 'Why did I hear you scream Hidan's name?' I bowed my head into my hands, and He touched my shoulder.

'K- Kisame ...' I sobbed. 'H- Hidan raped me ...' Kisame's reaction was different to Deidara's. He pulled me into his lap and hugged me like I was a small child.

'Seriously?' He murmured. I nodded. 'Aww, man. That sucks ...'

'Deidara hates me ...' I cried, turning my head into Kisame's chest. 'He won't forgive me.'

'You need to talk to Pain about this.' Kisame murmured.

'Pain would be ideal to talk to about it.' I looked up at the new voice, and Konan was knelt beside us. 'I'm so sorry, Renai.' I looked up at Kisame, and he gave me a nervous smile.

'Pain is leader.' He murmured, knowing I already knew this. 'He can get Hidan kicked out of here.'

'I ... I hate Jashinist's ...' I growled, but started crying again. Konan smiled, and Kisame chuckled.

'Hey. Come on, I'll come with you.' I nodded, and the shark-man held one arm around my waist to escort me to Pain's room. When we knocked on the door, He called to us to wait outside. We did so, and then the door creaked open five minutes later. Deidara walked out. I avoided his gaze and stared at the floor, but I noticed him cover up his wrist, and when he walked past, a drop of blood fell from underneath his sleeve. Pain took one look at us, and then sighed.

'I think I know what this is about ...' He murmured.

'You can't kick Hidan out?' Kisame questioned the leader. 'How come?' Pain folded his hands, and leant forwards in his seat.

'Hidan is necessary to Akatsuki.' Pain sighed. 'He's the only person we can give to Kakuzu and won't get killed in the space of five seconds. I looked up at the leader hopefully.

'I won't get killed by Kakuzu ...' I murmured. 'I get along with him ...' Pain shook his head.

'I'm afraid I can't do that.' He grimaced. 'You belong with Deidara and Tobi. If something between you has happened, you're going to have to get over it.' I looked at the leader pleadingly.

'But Leader-Sama, it hurts to just look at him.' I said sadly.

'I know, Renai. I know.' He breathed out heavily through his nostrils. 'But something's in life hurt. You'll have to learn to adjust.'

'I won't do it ...' I murmured. 'I'll leave Akatsuki. It's for everyone's good.' Pain's eyes widened at this, as did Kisame's.

'R- Rennie, you can't ...' Kisame said, shocked. 'I mean, don't leave us!' Pain closed his eyes briefly.

'Renai, You can leave, but ...' He looked at me sadly. 'But it's a tough world out there.'

'I know.' I murmured. 'Maybe I'll go and find Sasuke, bring him back to Konohagakure and save the world. Who knows.' I paused. 'Or ... Or maybe I'll go and kill Orochimaru!' Kisame sighed, and I looked at him.

'I'm sorry, Kisa-kun.' I whispered. 'I don't belong here. Not anymore.'

'It's just a shame ...' He admitted. 'Cause I have really grown to like you. You're, like, the only person who doesn't mock me because I'm part shark.' I sighed.

'I should stop being so friendly and also stop attracting people of the other sex.' I rubbed my face with my hands. Kisame chuckled.

'Well, if you ever want to come back, you're quite welcome.' Pain murmured. I smiled at him.

'Thank you.' I stood up, and turned to walk out the room.

'Ah, Rennie?'

'Yes, Kisa-kun?' I turned to look at the shark-man who approached me steadily. He stood in front of me, and then kissed my forehead.

'Go get 'em, Tiger.' He grinned, but the blush on his face made him look adorable, even for a human shark. I smiled at him, then patted his spiky blue hair, and walked out the room.

I padded down the hallway, feeling much lighter than I had done when I walked into Pain's room. I slid into our room, pulled a suitcase out that I had gotten from Konohagakure, and packed my things into it.

'Um ... What are you doing ...?' I turned, and looked at Deidara, who daren't meet my eye contact, and then looked back at my bag.

'Packing.' I replied.

'W- Why ...?' I sighed.

'Because I'm leaving Akatsuki.'

'Oh ...' He stayed silent after that. I slid into the bathroom and put my toiletries into the suitcase, then clipped it shut. I made sure I had enough money, and then turned out the door. Deidara's eyes on my back, and I felt that he was thinking I had missed something. I walked out the front door, and met Tobi there. He had taken his mask off and was rubbing his eyes.

'R- Renai-Sempai ...' He sobbed, even in his normal, deep voice. 'D- Don't go ...!' I smiled at him, then hugged him.

'It's not your fault, Madara.' I said in a low voice, as no one was to hear. He clutched me to him, and cried into my shoulder.

'C- Can I come with you?' He asked.

'What?' I stared at him. 'It's way too dangerous! You know they'd kill you!'

'No, they won't kill Tobi.' He smiled, and slid the Tobi mask back on. His voice perked up again. 'Because Tobi's a good boy.'

'Pain would kill you.' I murmured.

'Who cares?' He said, grabbing my hand. 'Come on!' At least I had Tobi/Madara, and I knew I had somewhere to come back to. Madara, despite being a complete retard, is a really great guy; and he'll be there for you when you need him.

Half way through the forest between The Akatsuki Lair and Konoha, I looked over at him, and he was plucking the flowers: Generally red, black and white roses.

'Hey, Madara?' I murmured, and he looked at me.

'Yes?'

'Thanks for coming with me ...' I smiled nervously. 'You're a great friend.' He smiled at me from behind his mask.

'Hey, it's not a problem!' He stared at the flowers in his gloved hand. 'I just hope everything sorts out.'

'Yeah ...' I agreed with him. 'Me too ...'