AN: sorry everyone for the super long hiatus. I was going through some personal stuff but I'm back now and I'm going to try to get one or two chapters out every week from now on. Thank you all for holding in here and please read and review and enjoy.
Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It's the wrong time
For somebody New
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse
- 9 crimes - Damien Rice
Magnus POV:
The ringtone on my phone goes off as my alarm and I groan out. My fingers blindly reach for my phone and press on the middle of the screen. The aggravating noise ends and I let out another deep groan. I should not have drunk so much last night.
There's a pounding deep in my brain and I know that I need aspirin, now.
I struggle to sit up and when I do someone shifts beside me. My eyes shut slowly before they open and turn towards the other side of my bed.
Ragnor is laying there. His shirt is off and one of his hands is on his belly and the other arm is over my side of the bed. I must have fallen asleep on his arm. Or... in his arms. Fuck.
I lift up the blanket and see that both of us are wearing boxers, but nothing else. I press my hands against my face and sigh. I don't remember what happened last night! I couldn't have slept with Ragnor, I could never cheat on Alec. I just got drunk, really drunk, and obviously Ragnor did too. He couldn't have driven home last night so he had to stay... yes that's it.
My phone dings and I grab it, hoping to see a text from Alec but there isn't one. It's just an email from one of my favorite fashion sites. I ignore it and go through my texts. I'm surprised to see some from Alec, and even more surprised that even though I was so drunk I was able to reply.
My stomach drops when I see I didn't answer his last few texts. My fingers fly across the screen to my call list and I see that he called me after the last few texts.
It isn't a missed call, I must have answered. I smack my forehead with my palm and immediately regret it as the pain in my head explodes. Why can't I remember?! I've been drunk many times over the last few years and I've never been so drunk I didn't remember it in the morning.
I stand up and gather clean dress clothes. I smell like I drank all night long, I need to shower before I go pick up Alec to go see Allie's parents.
As I pass Ragnor I shake him. "You gotta get up and go home. I'm leaving soon."
He groans and his eyes open. "Mmkay."
"Don't fall back asleep."
He sits up and presses his hand against his forehead, "I know, just let me get dressed."
I nod woodenly and make my way into my bathroom and lock the door behind me. I drop my clothes onto the counter and start the water before pressing Alec's name on my phone screen. Better face the music, who knows what my drunk ass idiot mouth said to him.
The phone rings on and on, and I wait for the voicemail to pick up.
"What do you want Magnus?"
Yeah... he's pissed. I can hear the anger and the pain in his voice.
"Say something or I'm hanging up."
"Don't hang up, please." I clear my throat. "I'll be over there soon and we can talk about last night after we go see Allie's mom and dad."
His voice is quiet, but the emotion has drained from it. "There's nothing to talk about."
Tears prick behind my eyes. "Don't say that. Please just let me explain. I don't even remember what I said to you last night."
Alec's tone has gone completely flat. "You didn't say anything to me. You were to busy."
"I... I don't remember what happened. I was-"
His voice is sharp, "fucking somebody else! That's what you were doing, I heard you. I stayed on the phone for a little while. But I couldn't take it so I hung up. I heard you and whoever that guy is moaning and and..."
His words fall away and we sit together in silence. Even through the phone I can hear him, feel him shaking.
It takes a few minutes but I finally manage to say, "Alexander... baby, please, I didn't sleep with him. I promise, it was nothing, whatever it was. I love you."
When he speaks its nothing more than a soft whisper. "Allie would want you there today, so do her parents. So you can come with us, but do not come to pick me up. And after today, we are done. Meet me at the house by nine."
My phone clicks and I realize he's hung up on me. I slowly get in the shower and turn it to the hottest heat level. It burns and by the time the water starts to get to a reasonable heat level my skin is red. I hurry through my usual routine and by the time I'm done I look like my usual magnificent self, but I don't feel like it. I feel like rot.
When I step back into my room I see Ragnor on my bed, his head in his hands. At least he got dressed.
"Ragnor."
His voice is muffled, "yeah, I know, I'm going."
"No.. do you remember what happened last night?"
His eyes tilt up. They are sad, and full of regret. "We were really drunk Magnus. I'm so sorry."
Not good. "What... all did we do? Please tell me all we did was make out." It's really bad, but maybe Alec would forgive me if it was just that...
Ragnor stands up and goes to pat my shoulder before thinking better of it and putting his hand back down at his side. "We... we had sex, Magnus."
