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Part of me was secretly glad that Edward came after me. I felt ashamed and embarrassed having him see me fall apart like that. But I couldn't help it. Now my brothers were bringing me back to La Push. Edward's face was heartbreaking. It looked as if I had slapped him. I'd broken my promise already. I had just hurt him.

The hateful words I had said to him kept piercing through my mind. I'd wished I had never said anything. How was I was supposed to even begin to apologize?

Sam and Paul tugged me across the border to La Push. They kept glancing at me with curious eyes.

"We have a lot to catch up on, Jacob." Sam told me quietly.

"Why the sudden change in heart huh? Now we're back to being brothers again?" I was furious.

We came into the yard and I realized that we were on the way to my house. Why were we going there?

We found the rest of the wolves and elders sitting around the grand bonfire. The fire gave everything a bright glow and I could see each of their faces. It was obviously a meeting.

"Jacob" Quil, Embry, and Seth jumped up. "You're back!" They sprinted over to me and gave me hugs and light punches on the shoulder. God I missed them so much. I saw Jared smile and wave. Leah looked away from me. The elders smiled appreciatively.

" Everyone sit down; we have much to discuss." Sam ordered. Everyone settled around the circle. I stood there like an idiot.

"Come over here Jake" Seth called and moved over so I could sit next to him.

"Jake is back in the pack then?" Jared asked with hope in his voice.

"He has always been in the pack." Sam corrected him.

"Then what was me being gone? A time out?" I nearly yelled. "You turned your back on me when I needed you the most." I was shaking with anger, and I was trying not to turn into a wolf.

"I know. I'm sorry." Sam said soflty. He looked so vulnerable then. "I thought that what I was doing was the right thing to do. But, in the end, I only hurt you more." I was shocked. Sam was the alpha and he hardly ever admitted that he was wrong. "I was hoping that you could forgive me and that you could come back to La Push to stay."

"Oh." I said stupidly. "Uh, yeah sure." Duh, where else did I have to go?

Then we're glad to have you back." Sam said. He got up and walked over to me. Then he gave me a short, brotherly, hug and everyone cheered and clapped. I couldn't help laughing with them. With that out of the way we started on the food. It was almost like a party really. I walked over to my dad. I had missed him too.

"Hi dad." I said.

"I've missed you son. Are you okay?"

"Yes." I lied and I knew he could see through it. My dad was good at getting to the bottom of people and knowing what they were really feeling. It was such a shame that the wolf gene skipped him. He would have been a great leader.

"Everything will work out eventually, Jacob. It will." He told me. I disagreed with him. "Now go enjoy yourself with your friends."

I smiled. I really did try to have fun though. I talked and laughed with my friends. It was just like old times. Hanging out with them was like having a gigantic family. It was great. They were glad to have me back. It was hard to believe that it had only been a matter of a couple days since I had been with them last. If felt good to be with them. But, there other more pressing issues to deal with than hanging out. Everyone was relaxed and full when we began talking about the important stuff.

"So tell us what happened Jacob." Sam prompted from the other side of the fire.

"Alice had a vision that Victoria was going after Bella in Jacksonville. So, Edward went and got her." My voice was detached. I had left out the part about freaking out and all of the other problems I was dealing with at that moment.

"I'm sorry man." Seth told me. Quite a few of them knew how it was in an imprint. They could empathize about my situation and being away from Edward.

"So she's coming back?" Paul grinned. "Can't wait. She hasn't seen anything yet." I let out a chuckle. He was so much like Emmett it was unbelievable.

"Paul." Sam said grinning at him and shaking his head. "we're going to start doing more patrols. We can't leave any area unprotected."
"Are the Cullens going to protect their land?" Quil asked.

"Most likely." I knew for sure that they would be on all alert until Victoria was completely taken care of.

"And Bella?" Jared questioned.

"With him." I didn't say Edward's name. It would be like a slap to say it out loud that Edward had chosen Bella instead of me. It was something I had to get over eventually, but especially not tonight. Not when I was hurting over it so intensely. The others got the picture right away. The truth was I was actually excited about seeing Bella. She looked pretty, as always, and it reminded of me of why I loved her. This was all twisted. I knew in my heart that I wanted the best for Bella and Edward. I needed to back off.

"Oh." Was all everyone said.

"So patrols start tonight." Sam spoke. "I want Paul, Embry, and Leah to take the first shift. Then Quil, Jared, Seth, and I will take the next one."

"What about me? I can help." I interjected. I felt bad about them taking all the riskes out there and me not being there with them. I was supposed to be fighting alongside with them.

"I want you to rest Jacob. You've been through a lot already."

"Thank you, Sam." There was really no point in arguing. Sam rarely let anyone have a full time of sleeping. It was considered a privilege. But I really needed it obviously. The closest thing I had to sleep in the last few days was unconsciousness.

We all got up and gathered our stuff. Everyone murmured goodbyes to me and told me that they were glad I was back. Sam was the last person there.

"If you need anything Jacob, I'm here." Sam offered. I nodded to him and he left. I walked over to my dad and wheeled him into the house. We were silent the entire way.

We were inside the house and he wheeled around to face me.

"Don't be angry with your friends, Jacob. They were only trying to do what was right." He told me.

"I know."

"That's good then, I suppose. But, there are others you should forgive as well." Did he mean what I thought he did? Did he know about Edward?
"Yes I know about your imprint."

"Oh." I was surprised. He was so accepting about it.

"Take your time figuring out. There really is enough time." This is what I liked about my dad. He always saw the good in things. He was also there for me no matter what I chose.

"I've missed you Dad."

"I've missed you too, son. But you can tell everything tomorrow after you've slept."

"Okay." I must've really looked like crap.

"Goodnight, Jacob."

"G' night dad." I walked into my room and stood there for a minute. It looked exactly like it did when I left. The covers were thrown back on my bed. There were many clothes strewn around all over the floor. I was back at home. I quickly changed out of my clothes and put on my comforting sweats. I hopped into bed.

I couldn't sleep even though I tried. I didn't feel like lying down. My mind was resrtless as was my body. I walked quietly through the house and sprinted to the beach. Phasing would have meant questions that I couldn't answer and many probing minds. What I needed was peace and quiet.

I decided on the beach because it was my favorite place. I could think and the waves brushing up against the shore calmed me. It was a place that I could call mine. I went over and sat on a piece of driftwood that had washed up on the beach.

God my life was a complete wreck right now. I felt so bad about hurting Edward, but part of me felt like I was sending some of the pain back that he had caused me. I didn't want revenge though. I knew that what I wanted ultimately above everything else was his happiness. But, seeing his face crumple like that was like a knife being jabbed straight through my heart. Just remembering his face brought tears to my eyes.

I sat there crying silently. I cried for Edward. I cried for Bella. I thought about Sam and my brothers and my dad. There was so much to cry for but not enough tears.

I heard someone come up beside me and sit down. I tried to hastily wipe the tears from my cheeks. It was one thing to fall apart in front of a bunch of vampires, falling apart in front of the pack was just plain humiliating. I looked over to see who it was. Leah.

"Aren't you supposed to be running patrols?" I asked my voice harsher than I meant it to be.

"Aren't you supposed t be sleeping?" She countered. "And I came to see if you were okay." Her voice was soft. Usually she just acting like a pain in everyone else's butts.

"I'm fine." I snapped. "No I'm not okay." I finally gave up pretending that everything was good.

"You can tell me what's wrong, you know." Should I tell her? Would she even care? " I kind of know what you're going through.

"Really? How is that?" I asked sarcastically. What did she know about my problem?

"Sam is imprinted to Emily. But, I still love him and I know that he will never choose me. Their love is way stronger than ours was. And now he pretends that there was never anything between us." She was right. It was very similar to my situation. "I know how much it hurts you, but you are able to love someone else. It just takes time."

Tears were streaming down my face. I started blurting out everything to her. "He left me for her! And I think I'm in love with him even though I don't want to be. And now all we do is hurt each other. I want the best for him, but I want to be with him too. He doesn't want me that way; he wants Bella. I have no idea what to do, and everything hurts so bad.

"Jacob…." She began, but I cut her off.

"And then there is Sam and everyone else. It feels so good being back here, but I want to be where Edward is. And it's killing me not being around him and not being able to apologize for all of those horrible things I said. I don't know where I belong." I took a moment to breathe. "And then there is Bella too. I still love her, but now im torn between Edward and her both." I put my head down on my knees I felt like I had taken a major weight off of my chest. It was like I had kept all of my problems bottled up inside and all I needed to do was tell someone.

Leah crawled over to me.

"You're going to be okay. And you belong here with us."

"Really?" I looked at her. Her dark brown eyes were filled with tears and she was staring straight at me. What was with this sudden change in her?

"Yes." She said firmly. Then she leaned over and hugged me. I was utterly shocked. This was so unlike her. Was this even the same Leah that I knew before? Then I began to notice that she smelt good. Her russet skin also felt so soft. I guess I had always though of her as one of us wonder why she got so mad at that. Then she pulled away and I felt suddenly cold and empty.

"You wouldn't believe what things were like here when you were gone."

"What happened?" I was completely grateful for the change in topic.

"There were a ton of fighting, first of all. Then half of us were against Sam in his decision to ban you." Most of us…..Did that mean she was with or against Sam?
"Did you guys patrol? Did you think the Cullens were going to attack?"

"Yeah we did our regular patrols. No, we didn't think the Cullens would attack. We knew that you were with them and by hurting us they would be hurting you." They were right on that account. And I could never fight against my brothers. It was unmoral.

"Right. That makes sense." We were silent for a moment; both of us not knowing what to say. We were absorbed in our own thoughts.

"I'm really glad you're back though. We've all been insanely worried about you. It didn't feel the same with you gone. It was like the pack was incomplete."

"Why are you being so nice to me?" I asked.

"Because I'm probably the only one who knows what you are going through. And I can be nice sometimes too. I wasn't always a compassionless shrew, you know."

My memory doesn't go back that far." We both laughed. She looked so pretty when she smiled. It was like she was glowing. Then she reached over and held my hand. It felt so small and warm in mine.

"I promise that things will get better." She said her brown eyes meeting mine. What was with everyone telling me this? I had heard it so many times and things were definitely not okay.

"Thank you."

"What's going on here?" Sam's voice called loudly from behind us. We jumped apart as if we had been electrocuted.

"Nothing." Leah and I said simultaneously. I cracked a smile.

"You're supposed to be running the perimeter, Leah." Sam spoke. It was a little to harsh. It was no wonder why Leah was mean. Sam treated her more harshly because he knew that he still loved her and it hurt her to see him with Emily.

"Right. Sorry. I'll see you around Jake." She sprinted into the forest. Sam walked over and sat in the exact place Leah had just been.

"We weren't doing anything, Sam." I said a bit exasperated.

"I know you weren't. Don't worry about it."

"So why are you out here?" I asked. He wasn't supposed to patrol until later.

"Well Edward has been pretty much circling the border trying to find you."

"Oh. Really?" why would he do that? Part of me became excited.

"Yes. But I think it's a bad idea for you to go."

"Why?"

"I have a bad feeling about it."

"He won't hurt me. I know."

"I know that too, but I don't think you should go."

"Why?" I demanded. "Are you going to force me to stay here?"

"No."

"Then I'm going. Where is he?" I started getting up.

"Northern Border. And please be careful, Jacob."

"Ok." Then I ran through the forest towards the north. What was he doing here? I traced his scent. I was almost to the border when I heard many wolves howling loudly. I immediately morphed into a wolf knowing something was wrong.

'She's coming along the western border. Paul thought.

'Who?' I mentally asked them.

'Victoria' many of them snarled.

Edward must've left already because I felt a whooshing speed behind me. I hope they would protect themselves and Bella. Some of the vampires might be coming to help too.

A deafening howl split through the air. Seth was hurt I ran faster. I easily caught up to where they were. The red-headed bloodsucker was charging Seth. I ran up behind her. She hissed and I snarled. Then out of my vision I saw Leah come up to take her from the front. Victoria launched herself as fast as she could towards her. I ran in front of her. I roared loudly.

Suddenly my whole body was surrounded in pain. I couldn't feel anything. My vision was dark. I couldn't hear anything. I saw myself falling into darkness.

Was I dead? What would the rest of them think. I had saved Leah at least. She was way to small to take on that skilled a vampire. What about Edward? What did my death mean to him? Would anyone care? I didn't even get to apologize to Edward. I hadn't even said anything to Bella. My life was gone. What was going to happen to me?

Then I heard whispering. They were saying "Follow your heart Jacob . You know deep down what is right. The one you love has always been there. Don't let impossibility change you. Ties cannot be broken but ties can be made. Follow your heart."

I wasn't dead. I opened my eyes.


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