AN: I'm going to give you guys a brief look in the mind of Sesshomaru. He's a hard character to portray so remember...I do try.
Disclaimer: Don't we all wish we did? I mean come on! A living breathing Sesshomaru to use as I wished. Alas, someone beat me to it...
I felt my hand tingle, sending strange sensations through out my body. There was a little tear drop on my hand. It was magenta with a blue outlining. It was the opposite from hers. I refused to think the name. She had plagued my thoughts whether awake or asleep. She invaded my dreams even, or nightmares I should say. I now found myself on the receiving end of that human's emotions. She seemed to be doing someting rather distressing as of this particular moment in time.
It was a never ending circle of annoyance. She would feel a strong emotion and my hand would tingle sending the slightest bit of this emotion through me. It was extremely hard not to go and rip her little head off of her dainty little shoulders. I clenched my jaw at the pain. Each time she sent a new emotion, sending the sensations that were more like lightening bolts, I became annoyed and would think of something violent to do to her and the shocks would start all over. I could control my actions, I could control my emotions, and I could control the entirety of the Western lands but damn it I couldn't control my thoughts and each jolt seemed only more painful than the last. She seemed to calm now and for the first time in a long time, I felt relief. My hand was almost numb from the few hours of power jolting through it. In truth, I was surprised she held enough power to give me her own mark. Most were unable to allow enough power to surface in order to create a mark.
I hated the little tear drop. The bloody thing tied me to a human. There was only one other thing that shamed me more and that was when Inuyasha cut my arm off. Every other thing that shamed me stemmed from his wench. Well, she had said she wasn't Inuyasha's but if that was true then why did she travel with him? If they were not mated then why was she willing to die for him?
I knew my enraged mind was trying to find fault with the miko. I knew that she and Inuyasha were not mated, she had no mark. Still how could anyone give their own life for...what...her friend. I could see a member of her family or her mate but a simple friend? Someone that was little more than a traveling companion! I simply could not grasp why she would wish to keep them safe at the cost of her own life.
The crazy girl had all but accepted me with open arms after I had killed her. My sword had pierced her heart and yet she still talked as if nothing had happened at the meeting. It had only been about half a day ago and the mark was already driving me crazy. I would have to keep an eye out on her. If her emotions got out of hand I had to be there to keep her under control. A small part of my mind wondered her friends had reacted to her mark. I wonder if she had hid it. Perhaps that's why she had been so uncomfortable only moments ago. I decided to head out now. I hadn't gone far.
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I found her sneaking around everyone, going somewhere that she wished to remain secret. I had to wonder what she would keep from these humans that she would give her life for. I was confused when she started to walk through the woods. It was still so early that it could be counted as late. Why was she out this late?...err...early? Not that I cared. I didn't care. Why should I?
She continued though, through the woods until she came to a well. I knew that it had long since dried up. Why would she be going to a dry well before dawn? My heart sped up as she slung her feet over the side. She wouldn't...
The girl slipped and fell into the well. That would kill her! Why would she do that! What had possessed her to just jum-I ran over to the well and peered down into it's chilling depths expecting to find a broken priestess but she was...gone. The little miko had disappeared down the well. Apparently she was more than just a strangely clad miko that followed my brother. How interesting...
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I had followed her, masking my aura, several times after that. When she had disappeared down the well I had been bombarded with emotions I hadn't felt in years but the real problem was they weren't my own. I still hadn't figured out why I had been cursed with such a rare thing as knowing a persons, particularly the miko's, every emotion. I had though. I had to juggle all of these emotions that seemed to flow out of the well all while dealing with my own emotions.
Remaining the stoic creature that I was had become an almost impossible task, but I had. She had, had no major emotional break downs since then but I had followed her anyway. Only Kami knows what possessed me to do so. She had chosen to hide her hand under a germent she called a 'glove' that was from this land in the well that she had miraculously reappeared from. I would ask her about it at our next meeting. My curiosity was eating away at me. The humans had built her a hut. It was nice by human standards, large in size for a hut and sturdy. I found myself observing her more often now. She was simply full of surprises. I wondered when she woud be traveling again. I might just have to drop in...or maybe I could find her alone...my palm stung as the violent thoughts began to enter my head. Damn that mark to the seventh circle of hell!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~BACK TO KAGOME~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The air was warm and damp this morning. I wasn't tired because I had gone to bed early just so I could watch the sunrise. I grabbed my bow and scurried out of my new hut. It had been eerily quiet last night and the sounds of approaching morning were welcome. Little birds chirped happily and I took joy in the sound.
After about ten minutes I saw pink on the tree tops and knew I was very close. I was soon surrounded by the dancing blossoms again. The place comforted me for some reason. The suns rays were not just yet on the horizon.
Suddenly my spine tingled in a warning. I was being watched. I once again knew who it was. He had never come out of his hiding spot but I had sensed him several times. I couldn't detect him with my miko powers but instead I relied on good old fashioned instinct to tell me if he was watching and right now my instincts were just screaming that he was there. I sighed in frustration.
" I know you're out there. Why do you hide?" I could picture him stiffen and then smirk. I knew it was something he would do.
" So you've finally sensed me." I looked in the general direction of his voice.
" No, I've sensed you several times but I just hadn't called you out with so many people around. It was less trouble for both of us." I saw a shadow of his form appear and I shivered. Only he could make standing in the shade surrounded by falling blossoms look creepy.
" Is there something you wanted Lord Sesshomaru?" Why was he here?
" I require nothing from a human and I never will." He said with a sneer. I shrugged and settled in to watch the sunrise. I had planned to do this alone but if he wanted to stalk me then I wouldn't stop him.
" I bet you think the sunrise is just another day don't you?" There was no answer but I continued. The sky started to dance in beautiful shades of orange and pink." I love watching the world come to life as it rises. Maybe that's what I live for, just to live. Maybe you need no more purpose than that. Maybe the sun rises just because it does. No, I can't believe that. The sun is more than that, don't you think?" Again there was no answer.
" The sunrise cleanses us of darkness. It tells us it's ok to mess up because each day we will rise and shine like new, just like the sun. Don't you ever wish you could start a day over?" I didn't expect an answer this time so I was surprised to get one.
" Of course not. I don't wish to start over because I make no mistakes." I wanted to laugh. He was so arrogant. It was amazing, really!
" Yes, well, I , in all my human glory, make several mistakes and wish to correct them all the time. I watch the sunrise when I'm feeling like I need to start over." He seemed to remember something.
" Where does the well take you?" I frowned and sighed.
" Well I guess that secrets out. It's not 'where' but 'when'. I am from the future...well...was. I used to travel between this era and the future 500 from now." Questions buzzed in his head.
" So you know what will become of my kingdom?" He was looking at me with a glint in his eye that said I looked like a shiny new tool to him.
" Well...yes and no. I can't detect demons in the future so either the demons got stronger and were all able to hide their aura's or humans overthrew them." I saw his eyes flash a dangerous red.
" Foolish human! Demons will never go extinct!" I calmly shrugged.
" You asked and I answered." I saw him calm at my simple answer. It wasn't my fault that his race might go extinct. I had also said they might have grown stronger but he refused to notice that part.
The sun flashed brilliantly and lit his own two twin suns. He only blinked. I had come here to relax but I had found myself enjoying the company of the Western Lord. This was quite strange.
" I have to wonder what has made you want to follow me. Then again I suppose you have just as many questions as I do." He didn't answer but I recognized the look in his eye as curiosity. I decided to tell him a few things.
" Hm, while I can't tell you your races fate I can tell you about the place I come from." I must have spent an hour simply telling him of the technologies of my old time. He actually asked a few questions.
" How do these...ve-hi-cl-es...move without any magical aid." I smiled. Inside him was a curious little boy. His claws tapped against a tree impatiently and I noticed a little pink tear drop the same color as mine but the colors were backwards.
" I honestly can't tell you. I'm not a mechanic and I would always ride on my bike so I don't know. What is that on your hand?" He glared at his hand and I wondered what it had done to him.
" That,miko, is the mark that you placed upon this Sesshomaru's person." I blinked. I had done that.
" Wow. I would have thought that your powers would instantly counter act my own. I didn't know I could do that." He glared at me and I wished he would turn his anger back on his hand.
" Neither did I, miko. It seems that we both under estimated your ability." I couldn't help it, I laughed.
" What amuses you?" It seems he didn't find anything funny about the situation.
" I just seem to be the only exception to everything. I think the fates either really like me or hate me because they play a dangerous game with the things that they allow me to do. I am an ex time traveling miko that adopted a demon son, made friends with a hanyou, travels with my reincarnate that hates me, and to beat that I actually had enough power to place a mark on you,the most powerful demon in what must be the whole of Japan! That, Lord Sesshomaru is what amuses me." If I didn't know better I would say that his eyes widened a fraction.
" I do not find that amusing, only strange." I shrugged.
" It wouldn't be the first time someone has called me strange." It suddenly hit me that I had, had a civil conversation with Sesshomaru for the last hour and a half. To beat that I didn't want to leave.
" If you have anymore questions I'm afraid they will have to wait. I'm sorry but I have to get back to my friends. I look forward to our next meeting." I bowed deeply and turned to walk away expecting him to do the same but he had another question.
" Why would you protect your friends with your life?" The question seemed to slip out of it's own accord. Well that had surprised me. I smiled.
" Why does the sun rise and set? Sometimes things just happen because they do. Sometimes things are meant to happen. I am not the one to judge Sesshomaru." She had forgotten his title but he ignored it. He watched her retreating form until it disappeared.
" Indeed." He whispered to the dancing blossoms. Sometimes things were just meant to happen...
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I left him there, standing in the clearing. He hadn't commented on the drop of his title and that was surprising. He had been genuinely curious and I, being the foolishly friendly person that I am, had answered every one of his questions.
We had just talked for an hour and a half. There had been no arguments,he had just listened as I told him about cars, microwaves, televisions, and music that comes out of a tiny object that can fit into my hand. He had called it magic and I had smiled. I told him to stick around for another five hundred years and he would see.
As we had talked his eyes had changed several times. When he was curious his eyes were speckled with flecks of brown. When he was fascinated they simply glowed a brilliant gold, and when I mentioned something he didn't like is eyes would turn so hard that it reminded me of looking at the sun through ice. I would try to bring back the glow when they did that. His eyes were beautiful when they glowed. I had to wonder what they would look like when he was happy. Truly happy, not his isolated state from the world. I remembered the little girl that traveled with him.
She was such a sweet little girl, I wondered how she could travel with Sesshomaru. It was this thought that brought out the certainty that there was more to the seemingly cold western lord. I knew he had a troubled past even though nothing more had been spoken of it. No being was born into the world emotionless and unfeeling. Under his shell was a mushy core. I thoroughly planned to find that core.
I would figure out the puzzle also known as Sesshomaru. I had to get closer to him though. How could I meet him once a month and become his friend? I couldn't! So how would I see him more often. If he would still follow our group then it would be easy but now that his curiosity was quenched I had to wonder if he would. Now that I lived on my own I would have more privacy but I didn't know if he would follow us.
I sighed and decided that the only thing I could do was wait to see if he would. I thought about the sunrise this morning. It had been so beautiful. I could still see the shine with the same excitement but I could not see what held me here now, what kept me going. I had my family, I had my hut, but there was something that I needed and I didn't know what that thing was. It was like finding a whole I never knew I had.
It was like an unquenchable thirst, an itch you can't scratch. I felt that I needed someone else to scratch that unscratchable itch. I ran my hand through my bangs in frustration.
Then again perhaps I was crazy. Maybe I had imagined ever meeting the Lord. My hand tingled under the glove and I knew that I wasn't crazy. It was there for undeniable proof. The memories were there too, banging on the inside of my brain telling me to find a way into his heart. I would have to be like fire, like the sun, to his icy heart. I would have to have an unfailing loyalty but...Inuyasha. I couldn't possibly. Then again he had Kikyo. He didn't need me now, no matter how good of a friend he was, he had tossed my love aside like yesterday's trash. A slight pain stung me but it was the simple pang of rejection. It was no longer the longing ache of unrequited love. I saw my hut in the distance. It looked lonely and sad. I turned away and started off towards Kaede's hut. I wanted to see my friends.
Once I made it I heard excited murmurs inside. Kikyo's voice rung off the walls.
" I told you she was a traitor. She went off to see that demon and she's going to tell him to kill us all!" I heard her hiss. I heard a shuffle of clothing and then Inuyasha spoke.
" I don't think she would do that." What did he mean think. I had stuck by his side for...almost four years now. How could he think I wouldn't turn into a traitor! Why that insufferable-
" Shut-up! Okaa-san would never do that! I'm sure she has a reason!" My dear Shippo.
" Yes, I'm sure Kagome has a perfectly acceptable reason for meeting Sesshomaru." Miroku spoke calmly.
" I"m telling you! I sensed the mark on her hand. She probably made a deal with that evil demon for her own selfish purposes. She may have traded our lives!" I felt a strange urge to protect Sesshomaru's name. He wasn't evil!
" Listen you little clay bitch! My friend would never do that. Maybe your just trying to cover your own treachery!" Sango defended me fiercely.
" Well you should know, Slayer. Did your brother not turn against your entire village." I heard a crash and I instantly knew what had happened. I rushed in to find just what I expected. Sango was above Kikyo who was on the floor with her fist raised. Kikyo was holding her nose.
" My brother did not have a choice. You are just a shameless excuse for a living being. I should just pound your clay body into the dust it's made of but...Oh, hey Kagome." I looked over at her and smiled. Perhaps I was meant to have her as an older sister and the fates corrected their mistake by sending me to this time.
" Thank you Sango, for defending me. Thank all of you really but...I did meet with Sesshomaru. I can't tell you why but-" Inuyasha absolutley exploded.
" Are you crazy! Why would you put us in that kind of danger! Do you realize what you could have done. You need to-"
" SIT!" A satisfying crash was heard as the hanyou made a whole in the ground. It had been far too long since I had indulged in such privledges. The deeper than usual whole proved that.
" He is now our ally. I refuse to tell you why but...well he just is. I will NOTtell you anything else. If you choose not to trust me then so be it." Kikyo stood and stuck her nose up in the air. Kikyo trusting me was as likely as Naraku skipping up in a too too, tossing around rose petals and handing us the rest of the jewel wrapped up in a gift basket containing things made of gold. Yeah, not gonna happen.
" I will not trust a demon's whore." I felt the ancient magic swell up inside of me. How dare she accuse me of such acts!
" Think what you will Kikyo. If you were any kind of priestess you would be able to sense my purity, both mentally and physically. I wouldn't talk considering you are soon to be a hanyou's mate. No offense Inuyasha, I'm only making a point to her." He nodded at the semi-apology and I turned toward the rest of my family.
" Do you need to ask?" Sango walked up beside me, clearly trusting me and on my side. Miroku soon followed and Shippo had been on my shoulder since I entered the hut.
" Ok then, I know you guys trust me. Inuyasha?" I felt a slap to the face when he simply looked away. I forced myself to understand what he must be feeling. The love for the dead priestess Kikyo, the hate for his brother, and our friendship that was bordering the fence of friend or foe right now. He glanced up at me and I at least knew he was sorry. At least I knew the friendly love he felt for me was stronger than the hatred he felt toward his half-brother. I would be happy with that. I would be happy with that or I would simply be sad and I refused to be sad. I nodded and turned to my family, the real one.
" Sango, Miroku, Shippo, if you truly trust me then know that I love you all and what I say next will in no way harm you. I am going to search for the shards on my own for a while. I will visit often but...I need to do this." Their grim faces nodded in understanding. I could not be here when Kikyo was. This village was not big enough for the both of us...It was like a crappy western. Ha.
" I love all of you. Don't worry Inuyasha. I know your miko won't let you say it but I forgive you. I will be leaving now. I'll visit soon, promise." With that, I was gone. I had found my way to get closer to Sesshomaru. There was a problem though...how would I convince him to let me into his group. I had gotten this far. I had done more amazing things than convince Sesshomaru to let me travel at his side. Oh wait...no I hadn't. I headed toward my hut so I could pack. There was so much to do...and too much time.
AN: WOW! I did this really fast. I hope it's ok because I literally just typed it up and posted it. Things might seem to be happening fast but something will throw everything out of whack. Don't worry, drama is not far . Thank you all SO much. I love reviews! It's like a healthy drug. So very addictive and hard to get...but some of you are so very good with reviews. You know who you are. I love those that always review. Those are better than random reviews because I know you like it if you keep reading. Tell me what you guys think. Did you like Sesshomaru's point of view? Did you miss Kagome's? Do you want me to add another character? Koga perhaps...Tell me!...pweeze...
-Dreamer-
Sesshy: I'm glad you didn't keep me in that box you call an imagination for 13 more days. It's scary in there.
Kagome: How do you do that dreamer? You're the only one that can make him behave.
Dreamer: Don't worry, you will later in the story.
Kagome: But I wanna do it now. SIT! Aww, see it didn't work. Not even in here
Dreamer: Sigh. Be patient! Get back in the box! You're scaring the readers! Isn't she?
Readers: ( crickets chirp)
Dreamer: Groan. I give up!
Kagome: Yay! Sit boy!
Sesshy:(Boom!) groan...
Kagome: oops
I know, I'm stupid. XP
