CHAPTER 7- Massive Attack (EMPOV

I know bell liked the room but she was not a good liar; that ain't what they were talking about. They were whispering in the backseat and kept looking at me, thinking I wasn't paying attention but I was. I will find out what they were talking about.

"Ok we're here." Alice announced. We all piled out and went inside. I walked over by Bell.

"So what were you and Jazz talking about in the car?"

"The room. I thought we went through this already?"

"No my darling child, you lied. So mind telling me the truth." I felt a little hurt that she was lying; we always tell each other everything.

She sighed in defeat, "Fine I'll tell you later."

"Why can't you just tell me now?" I asked as we went up to the roof.

She looked up at me, stopping just before we won't to the table. "All I will tell you is it's about Rosalie and I don't know how you will react. So I will tell you later when we are alone ok?" Signaling the end of the conversation she walks to the table, not even waiting for my answer.

All throughout lunch I kept an eye on jasper and Bella. They kept whispering to each other. At one point Bella got really pissed and excused herself to the bathroom. Now I'm waiting for her to get out, she's been in there for a half an hour.

She finally emerges from the bathroom. "What's cookin' good lookin'?"

"AHH what the fuck are you doing?"

We walk over to the ledge and stand next to each other. "What's going on with Rose?"

"Fine, her parents went to check on her and found that she turned her closet into a stalking station with everything there is to know about you. They also think she should get mental help." To say I was shocked would be an understatement of the century. I knew Rose was a little crazy but I never thought it was that serious. I don't know what to say. I'm shocked and a little scared at the moment. I feel a hand slide onto my hand and look over to see Bella with a concerned look grace her precious face. "I left the table because she texted me demanding that you come home and if you didn't she would come find you herself."

"This has to be some sick joke right? All of this can't be happening now why can't I just be happy with my life baby?" I felt like a fucking pussy hold her close and tight as if I'm a baby but I needed Bella more than anything.

She wrapped her arms around me and laid her head on my chest. "Don't worry I will be here by your side with whatever happens. I'm not going to let her ruin your life anymore Bear you deserve to be happy and you will be." Always saying what I need to hear the most.

I kiss the top her head, "See that's why I love you so much Bells."

We just stand there for a few minutes looking over the busy streets below, in our own words. I know I should be thinking about how I'm going to get rid of Rosalie. Yes she is mentally crazy. Yes she could possibly be looking for me. Yes she could be so crazy as to where she can hurt someone but at the moment none of that matters as long as I have My Bella-Boo with me I know I can get through anything that comes in our way. Bella was there when I needed her most and always will be. I can never let her go even when I want nothing more than to just strangle her. She always has the answers. Bella is so much stronger than anyone gives her credit for, always has been…she has to be to have me around. I've caused her so much bullshit but unfortunately I would do it all again because I regret nothing that involves her. She is my life and I would literally die without her. All my pain, worries, and anger can ebb away with her simple touch. Nobody can even do that but she can no matter if it's a comfort embrace or a slap to the face.

"Alright love birds we're ready to leave if you guys are ready?" Always perfect timing Ali.

Bella sighs and tries to walk away; she's mad. "We'll finish talking later." I whisper in her ear.

"Yep let's go party beeetches!" Ahh there's my Shmella.

At 8 we got to the first club; smart bar. We got right in thanks to our beautiful women. Me and jazz went straight to the bar to get refreshments. "You better keep a close eye on Bella." I knew what he meant; don't let her get drunk asshole. The last time she got drunk she stripped off her clothes and started a fight with a broken beer bottle. Yeah I had to bail her out the next morning.

"Yeah I know dipshit don't tell me how to treat my woman."

"She isn't your woman yet my man." He said with a shit eating grin.

I roll my eyes and grab the drinks. "Not technically but she always has been mine." I'll never forget that day in my room when she caught me getting a blowie from some slut that i can't even remember.

When got back to the table I handed Bella her drink and she downed it in a heartbeat. "Come dance with me Bear." Didn't need to tell me twice. She grabbed my hand and led my through the crowed to the dance floor.

There's a place downtown,

Where the freaks all come around.

It's a hole in the wall.

It's a dirty free for all.

Bella turned and pressed her ass against my firm cock and began to grind. I took a sharp intake and let a loud groan. I placed my hand on her hips and started grinding into her ass. She started rotating her hips in time with every beat

When the dark

Of the night comes around.

That's the time,

That the animal comes alive.

Looking for

Something wild.

And now we lookin' like pimps

In my gold Trans-Am.

Got a water bottle full of whiskey

In my handbag.

Got my drunk text on

I'll regret it in the mornin'

But tonight

I don't give a

I don't give a

I don't give a

She slowly began to descend toward the floor dragging her ass up against my cock as she came back up. I turned her around to face me sliding my leg in between hers and she slightly bent down so she could straddle my leg and began to grind against me. I grabbed her roughly and she put her arms around my neck and she sang the word in my ear.

There's a place downtown,

Where the freaks all come around.

It's a hole in the wall.

It's a dirty free for all.

And they turn me on.

When they Take It Off.

When they Take It Off.

Everybody Take It Off.

There's a place I know

If you're looking for a show.

Where they go hardcore

And there's glitter on the floor.

And they turn me on.

When they Take It Off.

When they Take It Off.

Everybody Take It Off.

Lose your mind.

Lose it now.

Lose your clothes

In the crowd.

We're delirious.

Tear it down

'Til the sun comes back around.

N-now we're getting so smashed.

Knocking over trash cans.

Eurbody breakin' bottles

It's a filthy hot mess.

Gonna get faded

I'm not the designated

Driver so

I don't give a

I don't give a

I don't give a

There's a place downtown,

Where the freaks all come around.

It's a hole in the wall.

It's a dirty free for all.

Bella was still grinding her hot core against my cock trying to kill me. I slid my hands down to her ass and kissed from her cheek down to her neck, inhaling her wonderful scent. Peaches cream and spice. Heaven in hell.

And they turn me on.

When they Take It Off.

When they Take It Off.

Everybody Take It Off.

There's a place I know

If you're looking for a show.

Where they go hardcore

And there's glitter on the floor.

And they turn me on.

When they Take It Off.

When they Take It Off.

Everybody Take It Off.

Oh, oh, oh!

EVERYBODY TAKE IT OFF!

Oh, Oh, Oh!

EVERYBODY TAKE IT OFF!

Right now! TAKE IT OFF!

Right now! TAKE IT OFF!

Right now! TAKE IT OFF!

Oooh.

Right now! TAKE IT OFF!

Right now! TAKE IT OFF!

EVERYBODY TAKE IT OFF!

There's a place downtown,

Where the freaks all come around.

It's a hole in the wall.

It's a dirty free for all.

I would have to thank her mom for making her go to those pole dancing classes to "give her some self-confidence". The dancing she does could be considered sex, but I am not complaining. I loved the way her whole body would be so in tuned with the music and moved so gracefully as she sways her hips and drops low to the ground; fuck it gets me hard as a rock every time.

And they turn me on.

When they Take It Off.

When they Take It Off.

Everybody Take It Off.

There's a place I know

If you're looking for a show.

Where they go hardcore

And there's glitter on the floor.

And they turn me on.

When they Take It Off.

When they Take It Off.

Everybody Take It Off.

As that song went off the DJ started saying, "Alright we're gonna take a slow for this song. This song goes out to Bellenda from Emmetteler. Yeah…" Our heads shot towards our table of goons when Underneath Your Clothes by Shakira. They all smile, wave sheepishly or look the other way. I look down at Bella and she's blushing with tears in her eyes; most likely remembering the day she sang it. I just smile at her and put my forehead on hers. "It's ok baby, we are so past that."

FLASHBACK- I am so fucking pissed. Bella and I were in the middle of yet another fight. It was about the same shit just different day.

I heard a rumor about Bella fucking that douche bag Eric so I went looking for my release. Tanya has been nothing more than an easy lay whenever I was pissed or need a release, it was boring and annoying as hell but pussy was pussy. I took her back to my place nobody was home and she was in the middle of deep throating when little miss fuck Eric barges in. "What the fuck Emmett! You're gonna get VD and ganeria from that slut. GET THE FUCK OUT YOU TACKY HOE!" The nerves that bitch had.

I didn't feel like dealing with the shit so I just pushed Tanya off my dick, pulled my pants up and gave her, her coat; a signal I hope she got so she would walk away alive. And she did all but sprinting out just from one look at Bella. I sat back on the couch in my room looking up at the red ceiling; waiting for her bullshit. I didn't need to wait long. "Why is she always on your god damn dick Em? Fucking slutty bitch needs to find a new dick." She mumbled the last sentence. She comes to sit next to me like any other time we hang out in here only it isn't the same for obvious reasons.

"What the hell is your problem Isabella? I don't need your god damn permission to fuck any bitch I want. So please tell me, enlighten, humor me about why you always get this way." I stand up and start pacing, I'm so pissed I want to punch her in the face.

It's like an explosion when she shoots up off the couch and gets in my face, livid, stopping me mid-stride. "ME! WHATS MY PROBLEM? Well let me tell you what my problem is Mr. Suck-my-dick, I am just trying to look out for you sorry that I don't want you getting an STD or disease from those god awful sluts. Alright so don't you fucking dare make me seem like the bad guy when I am JUST HELPING YOU ASSHAT." She screamed in my face and balled her small fists it was almost comical how I thought I could see steam from her ears. But I couldn't laugh or even smile; I was so pissed she always spouted that same shit about my well-being and health.

So now I saw getting nose to nose with her looking right into her eyes I said, "That is bullshit and you know it Isabella so you mid telling the goddamn truth because we both get high as a fucking kite, drink until we can't walk straight and a whole lot of other shit. So tell me why you get like this same frigid jealous bitch when we aren't even together." This was a common argument that was always ended the same way but never really resolved. I always want to tell her my true feelings but I start acting like a pussy and chicken out. I do love her very much but I hate her with such a passion some times that I would kill her myself. That's just the way we are those.

All of a sudden she screams in my face a pulls my hair, "You fucking cunt nugget! YOU ARE MINE! THAT'S WHY DIPSHIT, NOBODY SHOULD FUCKING TOUCH YOU BUT ME! I SHOULD OWN YOU; MIND BODY AND GODDAMN SOUL. YOU ARE MINE! I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH IT HURTS MY BODY AND MAKES ME CRY BUT I WOULDN'T TRADE IT FOR THIS WHOLE STUPID WORLD. SO DON'T YOU DARE FUCK ANYBODY ELSE OR I WILL CHOP YOU COCK OFF MYSELF BITCH." She was pulling my hair so hard I fell down on my knees but I could get her hands out; she was surprisingly strong for her small size.

I couldn't move even if I wanted to, I was so shocked by what she just said I almost didn't even notice she had let go of my hair and walked out. "You are mine….I love you…" was all that was going through my head. Was it even possible for her to love me? No probably not. There is no way my angel could love me the way I loved her; so much it hurts and makes you cry just to think about. And my Shmella just went fucking ape shit! I mean completely crazy ballistic. I was sitting on the floor going through what just happened for 20 minutes before I went to follow her.

I got into my car not really knowing where she would go, it's only 5 in the evening. I called her phone but she didn't answer so I just tried her house even though she rarely was ever there.

As I pulled up behind her Scion xb and saw she was still in it. I got out, walked over to her window and couldn't believe what saw. I banged on the window, "Get the hell out now." My voice was dripping with venom.

She jumped and pulled her sleeve down over her wrist where she just cut and slowly got out. "W..What do you want Emmett?" she said t so shaky and quiet I almost didn't hear her.

I grabbed her by the shoulders still pissed from earlier and even more now. "Goddammit I thought I told you to stop this shit Bella. Why do you still do it?"

"I don't know damn. I cannot stop and whenever I get upset I just….." She sobbed, trailing off.

"And what was that back there at my place?" I asked calming down only a little but still holding her tight by the shoulders. "I don't even know how to respond to something like that."

"Well if you didn't hear me I could say it a lot louder for you."

I just stood there waiting for her to answer me.

Sighing and going limp, she answered "God Emmett I love you ok. I hate seeing you fuck all those girls and feel noting but happy after it. It literally kills me every time but I say nothing. Zip, zilch, cero, because I don't wanna fuck this up, whatever this is between us. I have always loved you but never this way or this much that I can feel my heart ready to fucking burst out my chest. My life would be over if you EVER walked away from me forever Bear. I couldn't deal with anything without you." She was sobbing and grabbing my shirt trying to get close to me. I understood everything she was saying. It was the same way I felt about her. I had tears forming in my eyes and when another sob ripped through her chest they started falling. "Fuck Emmett you're like a damn drug and I'm so addicted I have no hope of stopping or living without you. Please please please please PLEASE never leave me. You have to promise me Emmy Bear please."

I was crying with her now and wrapped my arms around her and hers around my neck squeezing me to her. "Never baby I will never leave you. You're my everything; you're it for me, my future. I promise to never leave you and forever stay with you even if you chase me away with a torch." That got a small giggle out of her. I wasn't mad at her anymore, as if I could ever stay mad at her. I leaned her against her car and pulled back so I could look at her. She had a small smile on her face, streaks of tears and puffy eyes but she was still beautiful. I started wiping her eyes "And for the record I love you the same way. It hurts your heart so much it feels like someone's squeezing it and ripping it out from your chest. I cry every time I think about how I can't have you or I am not good enough for you."

"That's stupid of course you're good enough for me maybe too good but I don't care I just need you in my life or this" she raised up her scar covered wrists "or worse will happen if you ever leave me." And I fucking believed her but wait…

"You do this because of me?"

.silence….

"Isabella is this because of me?" I grabbed her arms and looked at the scars on them.

Bella looked down at her shoes suddenly very interested in them. "Yeah I mean no ….I mean... I do this because I hate when you sleep with all those girls and I figured it's better than suicide and I just need to do this it feels good." She whispered.

"Isabella please you need to stop this and I won't sleep with anyone else." She looked up at me and nodded. "Ok good so you can stop going psycho and I won't get an STD or a disease." I said smiling at her to know we were ok again for now.

Smiling she reached up and kissed my check. "Yeah that would be nice." I knew neither of us were ready for a relationship with each other but we were still in our fucked up relationship.

She let go of me and reached inside her car. She turned up the radio and came back out with something. Razor blades.

"I don't need them anymore so I will get rid of them." She said look up at me with the baggie in her hands.

Taking them I said, "I will get rid of them for you baby and this better be all of them." I threw them in my pocket so I could burn them later.

She nodded and put her arms around my neck and started singing with Shakira. - END FLASHBACK.

I came back to reality when I heard Bella's sweet and sultry voice singing in my ear. I tightened my arms around her waist and her around my neck as we started to dance slowly.

You're a song

Written by the hands of God

Don't get me wrong cause

This might sound to you a bit odd

But you own the place

Where all my thoughts go hiding

And right under your clothes

Is where I find them

Underneath Your Clothes

There's an endless story

There's the man I chose

There's my territory

And all the things I deserve

For being such a good girl honey

Because of you

I forgot the smart ways to lie

Because of you

I'm running out of reasons to cry

When the friends are gone

When the party's over

We will still belong to each other

Underneath Your Clothes

There's an endless story

There's the man I chose

There's my territory

And all the things I deserve

For being such a good girl honey [x2]

I love you more than all that's on the planet

Movin' talkin' walkin' breathing

You know it's true

Oh baby it's so funny

You almost don't believe it

As every voice is hanging from the silence

Lamps are hanging from the ceiling

Like a lady tied to her manners

I'm tied up to this feeling

Underneath Your Clothes

There's an endless story

There's the man I chose

There's my territory

And all the things I deserve

For being such a good girl honey [x2]

When it stopped it seemed like the whole club erupted in applause. As we looked around we noticed we were the only ones dancing or even on the dance floor for that matter. I looked at Bella and we cracked up in hysterics.

As we got to hopefully our last club I gave Bella my jacket. We have already been to fiesta cantina and heated nightclub now we are going to Berlin. Never heard of it but whatever. We're all fuckin' wasted!

We walked in and they went to get a table and me and Bells went to the bar. She leaned over the bar trying to get someone's attention and I stood right behind her. I may be drunk as fuck but not that drunk not to notice these guys checking her out.

She finally got some girls attention and I could have sworn she was checking out Bella's tits. I mean they are fucking nice tits but what the hell. "Whooooe I am so fucked up Emmy!" Shit I was supposed to be watching how much she's drinking but who cares, I got this under control.

"Me too baby. Are you having fun?" I asked pulling her to me, always wanting her close to me.

"Hell yeah! Bear I'm having the time of my life and I owe it all to you!" She yelled/sang hugging me. Turning around she grabbed her drink and shot back all 3 of her shots of whiskey. We walked around looking for our peps when some dude grabbed my ass.

"What the fuck man."

"Ooooooooo, feisty too." Was this fruity dude… flirting with me? WOW dude just winked.

I turned back to Bella who was laughing. "What kind of club is this?"

"Oh Emmy this is a gay club! Look at all these beautiful lesbians and gay men. YUMMY!" My god she is so fucked up if she thinks I'm staying.

"We are going back to the hotel now" I started dragging her out and much to my pleasure she didn't fight.

We're both too fucking drunk to drive back to I call a cab. I try to control "my crazy dinosaur" from walking down an ally. The cab came a few minutes later and we drove back to the hotel. Bella fell asleep with her head in my lap as I ran my hand through her hair because she felt a little nauseous. When we pulled up to the hotel I paid the tab and carried Bella over to the elevator. It probably looked weird; me carrying an unconscious woman back to my room. They most likely think I drugged her but oh well. We got up to our room and to the room. Laid her down and stripped her down to only her bra and panties and I stripped down into my boxers and went to sleep snuggled up to my Shmella.