A/N: I have big plans for this story. Don't give up on me just yet. Also the reason why I chose sexual assault because Arizona wouldn't just adopt a child or have one on her own since she didn't want a child in the first place. Also a possibility of a child given in her custody didn't seem right either.
I've been getting a lot of requests about flashbacks and there will be some. Not in the usual way but through Arizona's conversations and home made videos and pictures. That's my plan at least. Thank you for being so kind and patient with me.


Callie and Teddy were sitting on the bleachers at the first game of the season for the Little League. The kids were all dressed up and ready to play. "I feel really bad," Callie said, keeping her eyes fixed on Sofia.

"What? Why?" Teddy was just confused. They were both waiting for Arizona to join them as she was talking to the team's coach.

"Because when that plane crashed and the hospital was swamped we kind of talked. I mean Arizona and I talked. And then I mentioned Mark and that I have his place in the board and she asked me why so I said it's because he's Sofia's father. I thought she knew. She's been here for a while now she should know, especially with the hospital gossip." Callie was flustered. "And then she got all weird and walked away."

Teddy couldn't help but roll her eyes. How did she manage to always get in the middle of them and listen to them rant about each other. "Of course Arizona got all weird. Do you not remember when you two dated that he was practically in your relationship? She was always jealous of him. But she trusted you. And when she realized that Mark's Sofia's dad and that Sofia is Josh's classmate it probably hit her that you didn't wait very long. To have a baby I mean. She doesn't know that you were drunk and that you never dated Mark."

"Oh gross," Callie mumbled. "I never loved Mark. Not like that. And I didn't really think about how it sounded like to Arizona. Thank you."

"One of these days one of you will have to pay me back for listening to both of you," Teddy said. "I accept expensive wines and good food."

Callie laughed. "Deal."

Arizona fought with her crutches as she made her way to the bleachers where Teddy and Callie were sitting. She wanted to coach the team and observe them from the bench but Ryan said it would be for the best if she didn't. "God I hate that guy," she grumbled as she sat down next to Teddy.

"He seems alright. Kinda hot if you ask me," Teddy commented.

Arizona cringed. "He keeps hitting on me. But if you think he's hot go for it because I can't stand another day with him trying to "turn me". Gross," Arizona said and shuddered. Not only did she find him unattractive she also felt threatened. Ever since that night she didn't feel comfortable around men, especially the ones that would not take no for an answer.

Callie tensed during the moment when Arizona mentioned a guy hitting on her but she stayed quiet.

"Your loss. My gain," Teddy teased.

Arizona laughed. She put her ankle on the bleacher in front of her to elevate it and clapped. "It's starting, it's starting," she said excitedly. The weather didn't look promising and a strong wind was blowing but that didn't stop her from cheering for her team and especially for her son.

"Sofia's pitching?" Callie asked in amusement. She never thought that Sofia was really into the baseball but she was begging to try it because everyone else was.

"Yeah. She's actually really good," Arizona replied. "After all she's the one that helped Josh with this," she added and pointed towards her leg.

Teddy laughed. "Kids are just great aren't they?"

Callie laughed. "Because you have so many experiences," she teased.

"I babysit!" Teddy argued.

The three women cheered but nothing was spoken until the break after the first half of the game. "I'm going to get something to drunk. You want anything?" Callie stood up and asked Teddy and Arizona. They both shook their heads. "Be right back," she added.

"I hate doing this chaperone thing for you guys," Teddy said. "It's kind of stupid. You are both mature women and I think you should handle being alone for an hour or two."

Arizona huffed. "It's just for a while. I swear after this week I won't be asking you anymore. Beside it's the first game and Josh would have want you here. You're his godmother after all," Arizona said sweetly and fluttered her eyelashes at Teddy.

"Very mature," Teddy teased.

Callie came back a little later than expected, carrying a bottle of water. "Sorry guys, went to the bathroom. Which by the way it's impossible to find. Did I miss anything?"

"Not really," Arizona responded after she realized Teddy wasn't going to say anything. "I heard that usually teams go to restaurant or something to celebrate with a pizza. Is Sofia going?"

Callie shrugged. "I don't know, we haven't talked about that. Will Josh go?" She didn't know anyone else that was on the team and she didn't feel comfortable with Sofia going alone with strangers.

"Can't. We have an appointment with Bailey for insulin pump," Arizona replied. After two weeks of postponing the date because something always came up she was finally able to agree with Miranda on the appointment.

Callie's eyes widened. "Oh. Uhm.. Well good luck."

"Thank you," Arizona replied honestly. She was a little nervous about how this would work out but it would also be a little easier for Josh. He would learn how to care of it and he would be able to measure the sugar level on his own. The game really wasn't that interesting, it was just a bunch of kids squealing, giggling, throwing and mostly missing the ball. But it was still fun to watch and Josh's team won.

Josh came running up the bleachers knowing he would be faster than waiting for Arizona to come down. "Mama! Mama! Did you see that?"

"I did," Arizona replied and laughed. "You were so good."

Josh grinned proudly. "Thank you. Can't I go with the team? They'll get pizza and ice cream. I want ice cream. Chocolate chip ice cream," Josh ranted excitedly and was jumping on his legs.

"We talked about this and you can't go. But just today. The next time you win you can go. I promise," Arizona said and debated whether she should hug Joshua or not. He was covered in dirt and sweaty. "We need to go home and shower and go to the hospital."

Josh frowned. "Will it hurt?"

"Just a pinch. But doctor Bailey is very good and she will explain everything to you," Arizona promised and slowly made her way down with her crutches. She drove them home and instructed Josh to take a shower instead of bath. She made sure he washed his hair with a shampoo and not soap to keep it soft and put his baseball uniform in the washer. She prepared him jeans a t-shirt to wear for the appointment. She took her entire day off to watch Josh's first game and then later to be there when he gets his insulin pump. Arizona hated how slow she has been moving now with her boot but she also realized she didn't need her crutches as much. She prepared Josh a quick lunch that she knew he needed after the match to keep his insulin levels stable. Josh came running downstairs. "Here, eat this before we leave."

Josh cringed. "Even the vegetables?"

"Especially the vegetables," Arizona said and laughed. She watched Josh eat and poured herself some orange juice. "Want anything to drink?"

Josh shook his head. "Is this the last time I'll have to do this?" he asked as he stuck out his finger for Arizona who was already taking out the meter.

"Hopefully," Arizona replied and pinched his tiny finger with the needle before putting the drop of blood on the insulin meter. "The numbers that you have here will be on your insulin pump too. You'll just have to press the button."

"How does it look like?" Josh wondered.

Arizona picked up her hospital pager. "Something like this. It's not too big so you won't have to worry." Josh only nodded. "This is the last time," Arizona promised and picked the insulin pen. Josh lifted his t-shirt and she inserted the pen. When she was finished she kissed the mark. "You're okay."

Josh nodded. "Are we leaving now?"

"Yes. Get your shoes," Arizona ordered and grabbed her purse and keys. She fought with her crutches like usually when she tried carrying something else as well. She waited for Josh and then locked after them. She got in the car, pushing her crutches on the passenger's seat. She did her seat belt and checked in the review mirror if Joshua did too. She drove them to the hospital. "Do you remember what floor doctor Bailey told us?" Arizona asked once they got into an elevator.

Josh looked at all the numbers. "6th," he, proud that he remembered and pressed the button.

Arizona smiled and patiently waited for the elevator to bring them to the sixth floor which would be a lot faster if doctors, nurses and visitors wouldn't enter and exit on each floor.

"Robbins, I thought you were off today," Alex said as he entered the elevator. "Oh, hey little guy."

Josh made a step back towards Arizona. "I am off. I just have an appointment with Bailey for some personal things." Alex just shrugged. "This is my son Joshua. Josh, this is my colleague Alex Karev."

"Hi," Josh said shyly.

Alex smiled. "How old are you?"

"Almost seven," Josh replied, feeling more confident in front of this stranger. The elevator finally brought them to their floor and Arizona gently pushed Josh towards the door and followed him. Josh stopped and waited for his mom to catch up. "Will I have to spend the night?"

Arizona quickly shook her head. "Of course not. It will only take a few minutes to insert the pump and then she will just explain it to you. Because sometimes you will have to do it on your own." She took Josh's hand and lead him to the information desk. "Is Miranda Bailey around?"

"I'm here," Miranda replied from behind her.

Josh froze. The otherwise short woman looked very intimidating. "Don't worry bud. She's very nice. And a great doctor," Arizona assured him quietly, knowing that he probably thought she was scary and rough. They followed Miranda in an exam room.

Miranda smiled at the boy. She had a sweet spot for children. "I'm doctor Miranda Bailey. And you are?"

"Joshua Timothy Robbins," Josh quietly replied.

"Nice to meet you," Miranda said and shook the boy's hand. "Now why don't you step on the scale first?" Josh kicked off his shoes and stepped on the scale. "Good," Miranda said. "Do you know how tall are you?" Josh shrugged and Miranda took his height too. "47 inches. You're almost a grown up," Miranda said in a friendly voice.

Josh giggled.

Miranda picked up the insulin pump kit and opened it. "Now this is the insulin pump. See this little box? When you press a button it displays the level of your sugar. You can also change how much of insulin it goes in." She slowly explained the insulin monitor. "Now comes the hard part."

"What is the hard part?"

Miranda picked up three infusion sets. "Picking up the color."

Josh smiled. "Blue, blue, blue."

"I like your choice. Come on, hop on the bed," she ordered. Josh jumped and laid down. "Now this infusion set needs to go inside you. Usually where your mom used the insulin pen." She raised his t-shirt and just for safety disinfected the are on his stomach,

Arizona took Josh's hand knowing that the next part might hurt.

"You can use this insertion device to put the blue thing or you can ask your mom to do it. It usually needs to be around 5 inches away from the belly button," Miranda said and then used the insertion device. It was blue like the rest of the kit. She nodded at Arizona to let her know that she was about to do it and then inserted the infusion set. Josh had his eyes shut and didn't even flinch. "All done."

Josh looked down and giggled. The other end wasn't attached yet so there was basically a wire attached to his tummy. "Where does the other end go?"

Miranda picked up the pump. "To this box, also called pump." She removed the insertion device and inserted the other end in the pump. "You can put this wherever you want. Pocket, attach it to the belt, tuck it under your shirt. And through this wire an insulin travels to your body. The wire is called a tube and if it comes to a blockage in the tube or a cannula, the blue thing attached to your tummy, the alarm will go off."

"Really? Why?" Josh asked excitedly. He loved the idea of an alarm.

"Because that way insulin can't get to your body. But you have to be careful that you don't pull out the cannula. And during gym class or other sports it's best if you attach the wire with adhesive so it doesn't get stuck anywhere or pulled out."

Josh nodded, understanding all. "Do I get to take this home?"

"You do," Miranda confirmed. "And sometimes if you feel sick and you see the numbers are high you should talk to your mom or a teacher and maybe change the site of the cannula."

"Okay," Josh said. "Can I turn it on?" Miranda nodded and he grinned, pressing the button.

"You still need to enter your current glucose level and the amount of carbohydrate you are going to eat before every meal and the pump will know how much insulin your body needs. You know how to do that right?"

Josh nodded. "Mama taught me," he replied.

"And when you run out of insulin, it's best if you change your site. Which means you remove the cannula and you can get your mom or you can do it yourself with the insertion device. That way it won't infect," Miranda said and handed Josh some papers. "Here are the instructions on everything I just told but just in case you forget anything. And you can take it off during showering or when you go to a water park. But always make sure you have your insulin pen."

Arizona smiled. "We'll remember won't we bud?"

Joshua eagerly agreed. He was feeling all grown up. "But do I still have to do the diet?"

"Sorry, but the diet has to stay the same," Miranda said. "I'm sure your mom lets you have ice cream every once in a while though."

Josh grinned. "Not often enough," came his reply.

"Thank you for doing this Bailey," Arizona spoke.

Miranda shrugged. "I get paid," she said. "Don't forget the instructions and your bag where you can keep everything." She handed Josh the bag. "If you have any questions or concerns don't hesitate to call," she reminded Arizona.

"I won't," Arizona promised. "Come on bud. You have to cook dinner. I'm supposed to be resting."

"Me cooking?" Josh asked concerned. "I can make cereal."

Arizona laughed and lead him out, thanking Miranda once again and even contemplating on hugging her but then remembered that Miranda Bailey was not a fan of hugs. She passed Cristina who was carrying a box.

"What do you have there?" Josh asked, his curiosity getting the best of him.

Cristina smiled. "A kitten, actually." She lowered the box so that Josh could see in it. "I found this little guy in my garage this morning and I was just finding a place for him to stay. Are you interested in pets?"

"Can we mama?" Josh nothing but screamed. "You did promise me a pet when we came here."

Arizona cringed. "I meant like a hamster. Or a fish. This is a very tiny kitten. It needs a lot of care and time." And she barely had enough time to make appropriate dinner for Josh sometimes. And this kitten definitely needed to be bottle fed.

Josh pouted. "Just for one day. Please, mama. We can try and find a home. It's so little."

Arizona finally looked down in the box. It was fluffy and had beige color with brown and orange spots. And the kitten had big blue eyes and it was meowing. "He's probably afraid right now. And hungry."

"I actually fed him before with a tube but I only used warm milk mixed with water," Cristina said. "So you want him or not? I can make Mer take him but she has even less time. I can carry him to your car because you look like a klutz with those crutches."

Arizona sighed. She couldn't say no now that Cristina has already offered to take the kitten to her car and now that Josh was nothing but bouncing on his feet. "Fine. But if I don't get a home for him soon you'll come over and catsit him."

Cristina smiled. "You'll find a home." They entered the elevator together and she followed them to the parking lot. "Uhm also, he probably needs some cat stuff. Like bed and bottle. Probably kitten food."

"Great, going home with a kitten and broke," Arizona commented. Not that she was broke but she couldn't say she was wealthy either. She bought the house with her parents' help and lived on her salary which was better now that she actually did surgeries instead of just basic procedures.

Cristina grabbed her wallet. "You need money? How much? Probably like fifty bucks right?"

"Oh my god, no. I don't need money," Arizona replied and laughed. "I was joking. But it's shocking that you're willing to offer me fifty dollars to take care of a kitten you found."

Josh sat down in the car and did his seat belt. "Hurry, mama." He held his hands out and accepted the box Cristina handed him as he grinned down at the kitten and gently petted it.

Arizona threw her crutches next to her and closed the door. She started the car and then realized she should probably visit a pet store before heading home. She sighed and turned around the corner.

"Where are we going?" Josh wondered.

"To the pet store," Arizona replied. "We should leave the kitten here. We'll be back quickly." She got out of the car and slowly followed Josh to the store. As she entered it she noticed the wide eyes and the smile on her son's face. She couldn't be mad at Cristina. And technically she did promise Josh a pet. Maybe this kitten could be it. "Hello, I was just wondering if you have any milk formula for kittens. And little bottles of course."

"Your cat has kittens and can't feed them all?" the cashier asked curiously.

Arizona shook her head. "No, actually it's a stray kitten."

He nodded and turned around. "This is the formula. And the bottle. The bottle also comes with a little brush so you can clean it. Do you need anything else?"

"Probably a litter box. And a bed too," Arizona added. She wasn't sure what she actually had to buy. "This is my first time raising a pet. I mean I raised a child but that's different. The kitten's just so tiny. Do you think I need anything else?" Arizona rambled.

"Right now probably not," he replied. "If the kitten will want to play you can always use something you have at home. Like a little ball. Or empty toilet paper roll. Or a candy wrapper. They'll play with everything." He prepared the bag with the bottle, formula and a small bag of clay litter but the litter box and the kitten bed were bigger. "Do you need any help carrying this?" he offered since Arizona was holding her crutches.

Arizona shook her head. "No, thank you. Josh, honey, grab that." She took the bag and managed to hold onto that and her crutches. Josh picked up the litter box and the soft rounded pillow that would serve as a bed. She struggled a little with the bag but got to the car just fine. "Are you happy about the kitten?"

"Uh-uh."

"Do you want to name it? But it has to be something that will work for both girl and a boy because it's too soon to tell now."

Josh thought about it. "Can we wait? Until it's bigger? I want to give it a cool name."

Arizona smiled. "Okay, we'll wait." And that's how a kitten joined her family.