Lyrics featured are Wherever You Will Go by the Calling
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A now marginally more composed Sam sat in a chair downstairs as the youngest twins crawled near their siblings, the elder twins playing with Cassie as Francis lay in his cot. Vala knelt by Sam's chair, holding the Astrophysicist's hand as she said, her eyes exuding emotion,
"Why would he go? From what you've said, he ascended… but he hated the way they did things… that's why he came back before. What's so different now?"
Sam closed her eyes, looking very fragile as she replied quietly, "It isn't his choice this time."
Teal'c stood her up and pulled her into his arms, surrounding herself with comfort as she cried into his chest. Carolyn asked, standing next to Cam and a now standing Vala,
"How are you feeling, Sam?"
Sam retorted heatedly, "How do you think I feel?! I've lost my husband."
"Do you need help sleeping? I've brought a sedative with me if you need some rest."
Sam shook her head and replied, still in Teal'c's embrace, "I can't… I don't want to. I just need to think things over."
Jonas said, sad, "He's not going to stay away permanently, Sam. You know that. I just wish there was someway to get him to come back home."
Just then the front door opened and everyone turned to see Jack, looking older than he had before. The General said, looking around at his friends,
"The bastard's really gone again."
Sam nodded, biting her lip and he, noticing how fragile she looked, pulled her into a hug, holding her close as he said, looking up at the ceiling, "Come on out Daniel, I know you're here… there is no way in hell that I'm falling for that again."
When everyone looked at him sadly, he continued, "He keeps expecting us to say something nice and clear out his things. I didn't fall for it the last time and I sure as hell am not this time."
Sam whispered, still holding onto him, "He's gone Sir. The Ancients want him for something. They made him go."
Frowning, he asked, holding her at arm's length, "What are you talking about?"
Sam's gaze fell as she began to cry again, and he held her tightly, looking around at their friends. Teal'c said,
"It would appear that the Ancients wish to retain DanielJackson."
"You know, we need someone to kick his ass… Carter? Are you up for a Mindy calling Orson?"
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Sam, forcing herself into a state of composure, sat on their bed upstairs, clearing her mind and then focussing on Daniel. She closed her eyes, concentrating on the image of his face and felt something happen.
She opened her eyes and found herself in surroundings of pure white, a whirling ring of white and yellow light spinning around her. She turned and saw Daniel, dressed in Earth-toned robes, gazing at her sadly, immaterial tears in his eyes. She immediately hugged him, whispering,
"You bastard. You ascended."
They parted, gazing at each other and he caressed her cheek, whispering, "I don't have a choice in the matter. I don't want to be here."
Determined, she held out her hand and said, tears running down her cheeks, "Come home with me then."
"I wish I could."
"So
lately, been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When
I'm gone you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If
a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then between the sand
and stone
Could you make it on your own…"
He continued, memorising every detail of her face, "I have to be here, Sam. They want me to show them how to be human. They knew I would never go on purpose so they forced me. I am so sorry."
Her voice breaking with emotion, she asked, "Will I ever see you again?"
He remarked with a fleeting smile, "I don't know… I'm not sure they're going to let you ascend like that again. You know, it took me so long to learn to ascend the first time but you just did it within minutes."
"If
I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high
or down low
I'll go wherever you will go…"
"I knew what… or rather who I wanted."
She continued, her heart breaking, and continuing to break, "All I know now is that I can't go on without you…"
"No Sam, you'll be fine."
"No I won't. Atlantis was bad enough but this… this is so much different. I don't know whether I'll see you again or whether you'll be alright. I need you, Daniel and so do our children."
Sniffing back more tears, he said, "I can take your pain… I can make you forget."
She shook her head and replied, "I don't want to forget."
He held her jaw in his hand as he said, his eyes swirling with so much pain and angst, "I'll always be there, watching over you…"
"And
maybe, I'll find out
A way to make it back someday
To watch
you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great
wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then I hope there's someone
out there
Who can bring me back to you
…"
"It won't be the same… you won't be there."
"If
I could, then I would I'll go wherever you will go
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high
or down low
"… and our children, but they need you to give them the love that only a human can give. This is all because of you Sam. I could never have come this far without you. You have a capacity to love unconditionally and fully – you have so much love within you, so much love to give and to share. Your love made me believe that I could be more than I could possibly be, and now look where I am. I don't agree with how the Ancients have pulled this off, but no other Daniel has come this far in the other Universes."
"Run
away with my heart I know now, just quite how If I could, then I would
Run away with my hope
Run away with my
love
My life and love might
still go on
In your heart, in your mind
I'll stay with you for
all of time
I'll go wherever you
will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go
"Damn those other Universes! I want you to come back with me."
She held out her hand again and he said, crying, "I would love to go back. I miss you… but I can't. The Ancients won't let me."
"I think I can persuade them."
He smiled briefly at yet another example of her fiery spirit, and he gently kissed her, whispering as they gazed into each other's eyes, "I love you so much, fy Gwenhwyfar. No-one has ever loved me like you do. I want you to know how proud I am, how in awe I am of you. You are amazing."
She hugged him, sobbing into his shoulder as he ran his fingers through her hair, whispering, "I love you, Daniel. I love you and I'm losing you again. Please don't go."
He kissed her hair, his tears falling onto it, "I'm sorry."
"If
I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could
make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go
I'll go wherever you
will go…"
She looked up at him and he kissed her, caressing her cheek as he whispered, "I love you."
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Sam opened her eyes to find herself back on her bed, stark naked, and she muttered under her breath as she put her clothes back on, "Damn Ancients."
She sighed, strangely feeling more at peace with everything, and she sat, holding her St Christopher and scarab, kissing them, "I love you, Daniel."
Closing her eyes, she opened them to find herself sitting in the lounge in amongst her shocked friends, Jack remarking with a slow raise of his eyebrows, "You can… beam in."
Cam asked, sitting next to her on the couch, "Are you ok?"
Sam nodded and replied truthfully, gazing across at her children, "Yeah, I'm fine."
Jack asked, "You sure? Space Monkey's gone."
"I'm ok, really. Daniel's gone to hang out with the Ancients/"
She got up and wandered off into the kitchen, no-one seeing the tears running down her face, and Cam looked up at Vala and then Jack, Teal'c and Jonas, saying, "That didn't seem like Sam, did it?"
Jack remarked, worry in his eyes, "I think Space Monkey's been messing with her head... damn that man. When I find him, I'll break his legs… then he'll have to stay – when have we seen a legless Ancient?"
