Chapter 7


Awaking slowly, Inuyasha gripped the hand in his tightly, trying to keep his eyes closed and fall asleep again despite the persistent sunlight that dripped through his annoyingly frilly curtains. He had forgotten how comfortable his bed at home was, with the high end mattress and the old sheets and blankets. It smelt like home, and Sesshomaru, which wasn't surprising since he had slept over so much. Though the fact that it smelt so fresh was curious. The hanyou was unaware that scents could smell like that after so long.

He shifted closer to the being beside him, using his free hand to rest it on a broad and well toned chest. Whoever this was, they smelt damn good, and he smiled and snuggled up more, ignoring the little chuckle he heard faintly in his sleep haze.

"Enjoying yourself, Inuyasha?" He heard the body beneath whisper, making him more than curious to find out who this sexy man beside him was. God, his voice was so rich and deep, he wanted to melt in it.

Shifting closer than before, he hummed against the chest before he slowly pushed himself up and opened his eyes.

And gave himself a god damn heart attack.

"Morning, sunshine. Do you enjoy using your best friend as a pillow?" Sesshomaru smirked below, resulting in a terrified, and not at all manly, shriek to leave the hanyou's mouth as he pushed himself and scrambled backwards, falling off the side of the bed.

"Fuck!" He yelped, hitting his head on the dresser, his legs spread with one up in the air, "Someone call nine one one.."

Laughing, Sesshomaru crawled across the bed to check on his friend, "You're a big boy. You're just fine."

"No, I'm not, asshole. I think I'm having a heart attack...and a brain aneurysm..." He groaned rubbing his head and ears.

"If that was the case, I'm sure you'd be dead, not talking."

"Oh, shut up and let me be embarrassed!" Inuyasha shouted, flying up as if he wasn't hurt at all and tackled Sesshomaru back down onto the bed, straddling his hips and pinning him down, "Could you be more of an asshole!?"

"I could, but you really did look adorable while you slept. I forgot how much of a puppy you are!" Sesshomaru chuckled and dodged a fist, grabbing the hanyou's wrist, "Watch it, pup. You don't want to pummel your pillow, do you?"

"You'd be surprised at what I want to do right now, you stupid-" Inuyasha stopped, looking up to find his father standing in the doorway, staring at the two friends curiously.

The demon quirked an eyebrow, ticking the hanyou off even more as he grabbed a pillow and chucked it at his father.

"GET OUT!" He shrieked again, panting hard with his eyes wide and focused on the closing door. He could hear his father outside, trying to stifle his girlish giggling.

"...Is that morning wood I feel?"

The hanyou snarled and grabbed the last pillow, pushing it down over Sesshomaru's face. The demon's arms flailed and tried to push at the hanyou, his pleas falling on deaf ears.

"You little shit!" Inuyasha seethed, "You are so dead to me!"

This morning was starting to feel like a new day.

A new day where Sesshomaru seemed to be obnoxiously flirty for someone who was beyond oblivious.


Having finally managed to make it through the rest of the morning, which included the horrible tasks of fighting for the bathroom, Sesshomaru picking at his hair every few seconds he had a chance to, the horrible forced 'fashion show' (because the demon apparently was now in charge of what he wore!), and multiple other ridiculous tasks that took far too long for what they actually were supposed to involve, Inuyasha finally left his parent's home in a huff. He had spent the time of walking out of the door (more like Sesshomaru pushing him out) spitting and throwing out whatever insults he could at the demon in front of his poor mother and father, who only seemed to be laughing at his misery.

It was so strange though, he felt far more angrier yet slightly happy compared to his usual despressive tendencies.

Inuyasha passed it off as a manic episode and awaited the usual heart ache and tears that usually took over his day. Maybe it was because Sesshomaru was being far more...loving and teasing than usual? Who fucking knew. The hanyou felt like a fool and he wanted to punch his love in the face for putting him through all the stupid things he did that morning, and every day for the past eighteen years of painful friendship. As he walked to his car, he felt the demon continue to follow him until he was at his door. The hanyou whirled around, narrowing his eyes at the demon.

"Why are you following me exactly?" He asked, putting his hands on his hips.

"Because you're cute when you're angry with me," Sesshomaru shrugged and smiled, shaking his head after he watched the hanyou's reaction, "I'm kidding. You said we could hang out with Kagome, and I came with my parents. Which means you're my designated driver."

"You aren't drunk, so I ain't your driver. Take a bus."

"Don't be so mean, I was goofing off, like old times," The demon frowned, causing the hanyou to roll his eyes and look away.

"Ugh...fine...I just..." Oh, there was that feeling. That horrible pain in his chest, and a new urge to vomit last night's wine and dinner all over the ground, "You're right...but you weren't being funny! Get in before I knee you in the balls."

"I wouldn't do that, we need those, you and me." Sesshomaru chuckled and opened the passenger side.

"What!?"

"Nothing! Get in, Inuyasha. I have no time to wait for your artist brain to compute the morning's shenanigans." The demon winked and shut the door, leaving a confused hanyou looking around as if he didn't know where he was.

"I don't get it...I don't...get...it..." He walked around the car to the driver's side and got in, starting up his piece of shit car and cranking the radio.

One moment you say I'm your best friend, the next you're flirting with me and making sexual jokes. What do you want from me?! Do you know already? Is that it? You know so you're trying to make me feel worse than I already do? The hanyou thought as he drove away from his parents home, hoping that they didn't phone all their other friends and relatives about what state he was found in that morning. Passing through the neighborhood, Inuyasha couldn't help but have those thoughts as Sesshomaru rolled down the window and rested his arm slightly outside, his hair whipping back and around his face. He loved that look on him, wind blowing back his hair, his face clear for the world to see, the hanyou couldn't help but smile and paint that face into his memory.

"You're smiling." The demon said over the music and the wind, looking over at his friend with a large grin.

"It's a nice day. Don't read too far into it." The hanyou laughed.

"I'll try not to, just that smile looks so much better on you than tears, Inuyasha."

Heart swelling, Inuyasha could have swerved off the road if he paid any more attention to it than he was. He blushed and turned his attention back to the road, trying not to look back at the demon as they made their way quickly to Kagome's street. The sun was high in the sky at this point, making the air around them hotter as they pulled up in front of her house. Stepping out, the two friends walked up to her door and Inuyasha knocked loudly, awkwardly standing next to Sesshomaru who only seemed to move closer.

Seconds ticked by and soon they heard the thumping of feet down the stairs and the door opened, revealing Kagome in pajamas and hair up, "What are you guys doing here?"

"We thought you'd want to hang out..." Inuyasha said, trying to step inside but was instantly pushed back by her.

"Can't, I'm sick."

"You don't smell sick..."

"Cramps, headache, back pain, the whole works. Looks like it's just you two today!" She smiled and tried to shut the door, though Sesshomaru stopped her just in time.

"We'd like to hang out all together, Kagome.." He smiled, "It would be nice to have you around since you always know what we should do. If it's just me and Inuyasha-"

"Well what if it's just you and Inuyasha? You guys are best friends, right? You guys will be fine without me!" She waved them off with a bigger smile.

Sesshomaru seemed to blush as he backed off, leaving it up to Inuyasha to get her to join him and his own living emotional rollercoaster, "Please, Kagome, we can get you Advil and you'll be just fine!" He leaned in closer and growled low, narrowing his eyes, "Don't leave me with him alone for another second, you bitch, I need you with us!"

"Sorry! I feel awful! Oh...oh man! I think my uterus is falling out!" She grabbed her stomach and groaned dramatically, "Looks...looks like you'll have to go to the fair without me! Ohhhh! My insides! They're falling out of my vagi-"

Sesshomaru pulled the door shut and dragged Inuyasha back to the car, "We'll just go to this fair on our own."

"But I don't know where it is!?"

"Neither do I, but I do not, need to hear about her god damn uterus!"

They climbed back into the car, Sesshomaru shaking his head to dispel the image of Kagome's uterus literally falling out of her vagina. Inuyasha started to feel a little sick at the thought too.

Even though he was far more angry at her for deliberately faking sick to leave him with Sesshomaru. She said she would set something up, not disturb the two dogs for the rest of their lives!


"I can't believe she lied about the fair..." Inuyasha sighed, his ears flattening as they walked along one of their favourite beach piers.

They used to come to the beach all the time, just because Sesshomaru thought that the ocean would inspire the hanyou to create something amazing. Instead it started his obsession with drawing him as he looked out at the ocean as the sun set, just as it was now. They had been there all day, getting ice cream, watching people pass on bikes around the beach, and acting as if nothing had happened the night before and that morning.

It was almost like old times, if it wasn't for out of control feelings he had for Sesshomaru. The demon though seemed just as off too, growing far more silent than usual as they watched the sun set over the ocean, leaning against the railing as families and couples stood around them and then walked off back to their cars for the day. Normally he filled the silence that Inuyasha couldn't, knowing just what to say and talk about to keep them going until it got too dark to see the water. But not they were both silent, incapable of carrying on any logical conversation.

Even though Inuyasha even tried to speak, though on the subject that had occurred hours ago, Sesshomaru only nodded and hummed his acknowledgement. The hanyou felt his heart break slightly. His love was never this silent, never this...deep in thought. At least not around him. It made him wonder what he was thinking about, though he knew it wasn't about him. It never was. It probably never would be.

All those games the demon had played in the morning, they meant nothing obviously. How could he go from teasing him and smiling at him like that to ignoring him and being so cold? Was this what he was really like? This cold creature next to him was nothing like the Sesshomaru he knew. It terrified him, but intrigued him at the same time. The hanyou looked away and tried his hardest not to whine. The wind from the water blew, lifting his hair out towards the demon, who felt it against his arm and turned to look down at his friend.

The artist was lost in his mind, more lost than he ever was, his bottom lip almost trembling, though he was controlling that by chewing on it as he watched the waves roll in. Inuyasha felt the demon touch his hair, taking a strange between his fingers and bring it up to his lips before dropping it.

"Inuyasha?" Sesshomaru whispered, stepping just a little closer.

"Hmm?" The hanyou looked up and stopped breathing. This. This was a new face before him, one of not his friend, but the man he wanted to desperately. His brow was furrowed and his mouth was a straight line, but in his eyes, those god damned gorgeous eyes were looking down at him as if he actually had noticed that he was there and what his feelings were for him. In fact, if the hanyou wasn't so positive that Sesshomaru wasn't in love with him as well, he would have known right then that he could possibly be right.

The demon reached out, gently cupping Inuyasha's jaw and cheek, his thumb ghosting over his bottom lip. He tilted his head, watching the artist watch him as he continued to hold his face. He opened his mouth to speak, and the hanyou's eyes widened as his heart thud loudly in his chest. He was already shaking, wondering what he was going to say, wondering what he was going to do. The demon closed his eyes for a moment, the wind blowing again.

"I..." He began and then sighed, dropping his hand, "We should go...I need to go back to my apartment..."

The hanyou's heart burst, and not in a good way, his shaking only getting worse, "O-oh...right..."

"You don't have to drive me back, I can take a bus. You don't need to waste your gas."

"N-no...no it's fine. I can drive you." Inuyasha insisted, the desperation noticeable in his voice. The demon's eyes fell on him, almost swelling with pain as well before he turned away.

"It will just be longer for you, I don't want to make you drive all around the city for me." Sesshomaru sighed, beginning to walk away.

"Wait!" The hanyou reached out and snatched the demon's hand, "Please...Let me drive you home."

Looking down at him again, Sesshomaru smiled sadly and whispered, "Okay."


Arriving in the city centre just as the sun disappeared behind the large, towering buildings that Sesshomaru called home, Inuyasha drove slowly in the traffic to the demon's block, pulling into the empty stall in front of the door. The building was old, build with aging stone and grime covered glass, but it was beautiful to him nonetheless. It was where he wanted to be, with Sesshomaru, up in that apartment near the top so he could open the curtains and watch the city below as they fell asleep together. But it was just a dream, a dream that he knew now for sure would never happen.

The demon may not have said a word, but he felt rejected anyway. If he was going to say something, he should have said it, but instead his best friend broke his heart again and again, as per usual, with his roundabout way of life. He was oblivious, or maybe more aware than he thought, but if he knew how Inuyasha felt, if he felt the same way or not, he should have said something instead of trying to ditch him in the one place they mutually loved!

"Here we are...no trouble...like I said..." Inuyasha whispered, gripping the wheel tightly as Sesshomaru stepped out of the vehicle.

"Thank you..." He whispered back, shutting the door before he stopped, "You think you could come out here for a second?"

"I...I guess?"

The hanyou stepped out and walked around to his friend. He was surprised as Sesshomaru pulled him to his chest and wrapped his arms around him, making his heart hurt more as he rested his cheek on the top of his head.

"Promise me that you won't die on me tonight...that you aren't going to get into that car and start crying all the way home until you fall asleep..."

"W..what?"

"I know that you...sometimes...get in one of those moods...I can see it now...I can fucking hear it, Inuyasha, and whatever the cause may be, I don't want to come by again and see that you look like you're about to fall apart. Please, as your friend..." He paused and pulled Inuyasha closer, "For me...don't do anything stupid tonight...paint...paint whatever it is you're feeling and get it out of you so I don't have to see that face again..."

"Sesshomaru..." The hanyou reached up and gripped the front of Sesshomaru's jacket.

The demon pulled his head back and pressed his lips to his forehead, "You're too important and amazing to be like this...too important to me...Just be safe...and drive carefully, Inuyasha..." He pulled away completely, leaving the hanyou standing there as he headed up the steps to his building's door, using his key to let himself in and then disappeared inside.

No, no, Inuyasha could not believe that this was what Sesshomaru was going to do to him. To be oblivious was one thing but to purposely...at least he thought it was purposely...treat him like this, to say words like that to him! The hanyou trembled and got back into his car, starting it up and blinding driving back home on the nearest highway out of the city. He needed out of that place, he needed to go back to the suburbs where his piece of shit home was, with his piece of shit car, so he could paint pieces of shit. His will was fading, he could tell, it was evident with how hard and fast his heart was beating and he willed his tears away as best as he could so he wouldn't break his promise, but he could feel it coming up and he immediately pulled off the road the moment the opportunity came.

Shutting off the engine, he unbuckled and threw open the door, letting out everything he and Sesshomaru had eaten together that day. Half digested slop hit the ground, only making him let out more and more until he was sure he was empty. Yanking himself back inside, Inuyasha wiped his mouth on his sleeve and panted, feeling tears spill down his face.

"You're so cruel...so...so cruel..." He whispered into the dark, cars speeding past him, men and women going home to their loved ones.

"How could you do this to me? Why do you have to do this every single god damn time!" He shouted, banging his fist on the steering wheel, "You were so perfect...so fucking perfect, and you...you fucking played around with me! Who fucking knows if you love me!" He hit the steering wheel again, "If I'm so fucking important than why don't you fucking be with me, huh!? Keh! Bet you're too fucking scared! Too scared to be with some prodigy! You're stuck living your father's dream while I suffer at your fucking hands while I try and live up to the name they put on me! You think I want to be some prodigy!? You think telling me I'm so great and important is going to make me love what little talent I have!?"

He snarled and put his hands to his face, tilting his head back against the headrest, "Oh Sesshomaru...I don't want to paint my feelings...I want to paint you...I want...I want to sleep next to you and draw you while you doze off...I want to draw circles on you with my claws...I want...I...I..."

Trailing off, the hanyou let himself cry, hoping that if he waited a couple hours on the side of the road the traffic would die down and he would feel so much better. He hoped that he could make it, so he could shower and sleep, and that he'd be able to tell Sesshomaru Suzuki soon, that this Inuyasha Tanaka was madly, and hopelessly, in love with him despite all the pain it caused.


A/N: I am a cruel person. did I say this would have fluff in it? I meant fluff with pain. don't worry, sesshomaru feels like a pile of crap. *pets her babies* im so mean...