Day 7 - A letter to an ex boyfriend/girlfriend

Dear Wendy,

Hello. Wow, it's been years since we've talked, hasn't it? You stopped talking to me quickly after you found out how much I liked Kenny. To be fair, I don't blame you. It's alright. I wouldn't've been too happy with myself either.

How've you been? I bet you're doing well; at least better than me. I think everyone I know at this point is better than me, even Eric. I remember seeing you at the funeral. You wore a beautiful purple dress and your hair was sloe black, running down your entire back. You were stunning - but I knew you wouldn't want to talk to me, since you also knew about Kenny and Eric, I later found out. I still can't believe how long they were together for. Did you know for the full two years as well? Or were you one of the ones that didn't find out until near the middle? The end?

I bet you heard about what Kenny did to me, so I don't need to explain. I still have scars, but they're fading out with every passing minute. There's only one main one, and it's shaped like a pentagon. It's slightly xanthic; like a yellow ring around all five sides. It's actually pretty awesome; I'm glad it hasn't faded. It's almost like a tattoo, except it's not made with ink and was made with flame instead.

I'm writing a book. It's about a kid who drowned and is now falling in love with the princess of an underwater world. He has a peasant friend named Joe and a pet zebrinny he recently adopted for his own. His name's Georg. Gerard is the name of the kid who drowned, and he's still dealing with a lot of the pain and stuff from his Earth life. When he was on Earth, he was bullied constantly and he had zero self esteem. He has very low self confidence, and he just wanted to die. Plus his home was a nightmare, so he was trapped with the scary, suicidal thoughts teenagers can get. He didn't plan on dying, though. That was a pure accident. But this world is starting to help him change his mentality. The dark, evil thoughts are slowly dissipating into the water that surrounds him.

I think I'm 99 pages in so far. Only a few more words until 100! I've been working on this for 3 weeks now. It's what the doctors tell me to do with my time, since all we're waiting for is for me to shake the past. Do you know how hard it is? To fall in love with someone and have them turn on you? Wait- I did that to you. Oh gosh, Wendy, is this what it felt like for you? Oh my God...I'm so sorry. I know, I already apologized, but I didn't know what you felt. I only knew what I felt, and that was dedicated to Kenny. If only I had known the pain of heartbreak...there's no way I would've left you the way I did. (I still would have over time, I'm sorry to say, but I wouldn't have done it as harshly as I did)

Maybe this is the karma for doing this to you.

Oh god...

~Stanley