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The days passed but Kurt still didn't feel any better. He was constantly tired and dizzy, barely able to keep up with his normal activities. He missed his first few classes every single day since he couldn't wake up early anymore and even when he could have left the apartment in time, he usually got sick and ended up in the bathroom, emptying his stomach.
He knew that he should have done something, see a doctor for example. His teachers didn't tolerate his behaviour which was completely understandable in a school like NYADA. There were hundreds of boys and girls who would have taken his place without question, people who wouldn't let small things like morning sickness or tiredness get into their way.
His friends and Blaine started getting worried, too, and the word doctor left their lips way too many times a day. Kurt still didn't want to visit a doctor, though. He hated hospitals and believed that he only needed vitamins and more workout to get back to his normal, energetic self.
One morning, when he left his room after a way too long sleep, swaying on his feet weakly, he only found Santana in the kitchen, eyeing him cautiously.
"Good morning" Kurt said as he walked to the fridge. He couldn't drink coffee for a while, he always felt sick from just the smell of it and he had started drinking orange juice instead.
"You look awful" Santana said, watching a pale Kurt in concern.
"I'm fine. Just..."
"Morning sickness" Santana said.
"Something like that. It must be because of the stress" Kurt said.
"Or something else" Santana replied.
"What do you mean?" Kurt asked as he went through the content of the fridge, deciding to make eggs for breakfast again.
"Have you and Blaine always used protection?" Santana asked.
"Santana!" Kurt gasped, turning scarlet in no time. "That-that's not something I will discuss with you."
"So your answer is no" Santana sighed. "I thought so."
"Maybe we forgot the first time" Kurt shrugged. "It's not a big deal."
"Are you sure?" Santana asked with a raised eyebrow. "You're still sick, it's not just a stomach bug but something more serious!"
"You think I caught something from Blaine?" Kurt asked, gulping nervously.
"You can say that, yes" Santana said as she stood up and walked back into her room. Kurt was about to go after her, not understanding a thing, when Santana walked back into the kitchen and pressed a little packet into his hand.
"What is this?" Kurt asked and he just got more confused when he read the description. "Pregnancy test?"
"Exactly" Santana nodded.
Kurt looked at her with a raised eyebrow. He expected her to start laughing, telling him what an idiot he was that he took her seriously even for a second but it never came.
"You're not serious, right?" he asked hesitantly.
"Morning sickness, dizziness, tiredness... These are all the symptoms of pregnancy" Santana explained.
"Santana, I'm a boy. I can't get pregnant" Kurt said.
"Most of the men can't" Santana agreed. "But I made a research. Some men has a gene that allows them to have kids. It's rare because only a few of them are gay but it's not impossible. Last year, two men gave birth just in New York! I'm sure you're pregnant, too. That's the only explanation for your condition."
"You're crazy" Kurt said and went back to make breakfast.
"Oh, come on, it's just a quick test" Santana said, grabbing his arm. "You only have to pee on the stick and find out if I was right."
Kurt sighed, looking down at the stick. He knew that Santana wouldn't leave him alone until he made the test. He couldn't lose much with it, he knew for sure that he wasn't pregnant but at least the girl would let him live.
"Fine" he said. "I will do it but if it's negative, you will leave me alone. Deal?"
"Sure" Santana smiled.
~ o ~
Two days later, Kurt was standing in front of his wardrobe, getting more and more frustrated with every minute. He was getting ready for his date with Blaine, a real one, something he had been looking forward for a very long time. Blaine could finally have a day off and he thought that it was safe for them to be out in public again, so he decided to take Kurt out for dinner. Kurt was so excited to get out for a few hours and he had planned what to wear days earlier. But there was a tiny little problem: none of his skin tight jeans seemed to fit. He didn't know how it happened. He could barely eat lately, he should have lost weight and not gain any. It must have been because of the large amount of eggs he had eaten lately.
"Tympanites is also a sympton of pregnancy" Santana said from where she was leaning against the doorframe, watching a frustrated Kurt throw clothes onto his bed.
Kurt sighed and shook his head. Since the pregnancy test he had made days earlier and which had been negative of course, Santana still didn't leave him alone with the stupid idea. She had believed that it was a false negative and had bought Kurt two other tests. Kurt had made one of them, getting another negative result. He wasn't pregnant but for some reason, his roommate couldn't accept that.
It had just become worse when Rachel had found the sticks in the trash bin. At first she had thought that they had been Santana's but once she had talked to the girl who had explained everything to her, Rachel had become another fan of the idea of Kurt being pregnant. Now the boy had to deal with two crazy girls what wasn't really good for his mood.
"Leave me alone" Kurt said, trying to find clothes he could wear. Most of his jeans were too tight and uncomfortable, especially on his stomach.
"You have to see a doctor. If the tests were false negative and I'm sure they were, you're at least 6 weeks pregnant and you don't even know if the baby is fine" Santana said.
"There's no baby!" Kurt growled. "Why can't you accept that? I'm. Not. Pregnant. Now let me think. I have to find something to wear for my date with Blaine."
"Sooner or later, you will have a baby bump and won't be able to deny it any longer" Santana said as she stepped out of his room.
Twenty minutes later, when Kurt finally left his room, he wasn't in a good mood at all. He found some clothes he could wear but he wasn't okay with them at all. His old pants from high school didn't seem right for a date but that was all he had. He had wanted to wear a tight shirt at first but he had to realise that he looked too fat in it, so he chose another old piece from his high school years. He looked awful and Blaine surely wouldn't like him like this. But what could he do? All the fast food he and Blaine had had in the past few weeks and the eggs were to blame for his shape and he had to make a diet and work out more to get back to his normal shape but it wasn't the job of one day.
To his surprise, he found Blaine already there, sitting with Santana and Rachel. Kurt gulped nervously, hoping that they didn't tell Blaine their craziness.
"Oh, look who's ready" Santana smiled. "Found some clothes that still fit?"
"What's wrong with your clothes?" Blaine frowned.
"Nothing" Kurt said, glaring at Santana. "I couldn't decide what to wear, you know."
"You look amazing" Blaine smiled.
"So where are you going?" Rachel asked.
"Uhm... it's a surprise" Blaine said quietly. "I planned something special for us tonight."
"I hope it's not a sushi restaurant" Santana said. "Kurt can't eat raw fish."
"Why not?" Blaine asked.
"Don't listen to her, she's crazy" Kurt said hastily, taking Blaine's hand. The last thing he needed was another person believing that he was pregnant.
"Have a nice night" Rachel said.
"And don't drink. Alcohol isn't good for you" Santana called after them before they could leave the apartment.
"Well, that was strange" Blaine commented as they walked down the stairs.
"They are strange" Kurt sighed. "You will get used to them."
"Is there something wrong?" Blaine asked.
"No, of course not" Kurt said.
"It seems like they're worried about you" Blaine said quietly. "Santana told me that you're still sick. I agree with her, you should visit a doctor. This isn't right, Kurt."
"I don't need a doctor" Kurt sighed. "Look, I'm fine. Really. All I need is a night off. I want to be with you and not worry about anything."
"Okay" Blaine said, not too convinced. "So no sushi tonight. Or alcohol, which was exactly what I planned, so I guess I have to come up with another plan."
"Sushi will be fine" Kurt smiled.
"No, I think they're right. You shouldn't have sushi in your condition" Blaine said.
"What condition?" Kurt asked, fearing that the girls had told Blaine their crazy thought.
"You know, with you having trouble with your stomach lately..."
"Oh" Kurt breathed in relief. "Yeah, you might be right."
"So what should we have?" Blaine asked.
"Something light would be great" Kurt said, thinking about his clothes he couldn't wear anymore. "A salad with chicken for example."
"Alright" Blaine nodded, grabbing Kurt's hand. He knew a place that would be good for them.
~ o ~
The night couldn't have gone better. It was perfect. Blaine had brought him to that little Italian restaurant Kurt loved so much, they had ordered wine and now they were waiting for their food to arrive. Blaine clearly wanted to make this evening unforgettable for them and Kurt tried to enjoy every single moment. The only problem was the dizziness that kept bothering him during the night. He didn't really drink from his wine because it tasted weird and made him feel nauseous, so Kurt mostly just drank his water and tried to smile as he listened to Blaine's stories. He had been waiting for this night for so long, he wouldn't let some sickness ruin it.
"Are you alright?" Blaine asked after a while.
"Yeah, of course" Kurt answered. It wasn't the first time Blaine asked this question and every time, Kurt tried to seem fine, although he felt like he could fall asleep in any second.
"You aren't" Blaine said quietly.
"Hey, don't be so worried. I'm fine, really" Kurt smiled weakly.
"I'm seriously worried about you" Blaine said.
"Blaine, we talked about this several times. I'm getting better every day, it will go away soon, so stop worrying" Kurt said. "We're finally together, I want to enjoy the moment."
"You're right" Blaine smiled. "With my tour coming up, we won't have too much time for ourselves."
"What tour?" Kurt frowned.
"This year's world tour?" Blaine asked slowly and smiled when Kurt shook his head in confusion. "I told you about it."
"I must have forgotten" Kurt muttered.
"We still have a few weeks before I leave" Blaine said. "And I would like to spend more time with you as long as I can. I'm not sure when I will be back."
"You won't have concerts every day, right?" Kurt asked.
"Right but I will travel a lot" Blaine said. "I won't be back for a few months."
"Months?" Kurt gasped.
"We talked about it" Blaine said gently.
"Where was I when we had this conversation?" Kurt muttered.
"In my bed, mostly" Blaine said, squeezing his hand. "I promise I will try to come home when I have a few days off. I need you."
"With hundreds of fan girls and boys around you? I don't think so" Kurt said.
"Don't be jealous" Blaine smiled. "I'm all yours."
He moved his chair closer to Kurt's, put his arms around the boy and kissed him gently.
"I trust you" Kurt said when he pulled away.
"I hope you do" Blaine smiled.
Their food arrived soon and Blaine pulled his chair back, so they could eat. Kurt didn't really touch his food, though. It looked delicious but something didn't seem right with it. He felt sick when he saw the vegetables on his plate and when he tried to eat from his meat, it just got worse. He was sure that the food was alright, he had eaten here several times and it had been always great. Blaine seemed to enjoy his own meal, too, and Kurt didn't want him to worry about him unnecessarily, so he forced himself to smile and put some vegetables into his mouth.
He couldn't even swallow before he felt sick again and jumped up, pressing his hand to his mouth.
"What's wrong?" Blaine asked.
Kurt just shook his head and disappeared in the bathroom.
"Kurt?"
Blaine followed him closely, watching as his boyfriend disappeared in the closest stall and from the noises it was obvious that Kurt was sick again.
"Kurt, are you alright?" Blaine asked in concern.
Kurt didn't reply when he came back a few minutes later, he could barely stand on his feet. He was pale and breathing heavily, Blaine jumped to him instantly to put an arm around him.
"You have to see a doctor" Blaine said.
"No, Blaine, I'm..."
"Don't tell me that you're fine" Blaine said. "I'm not stupid. You need a doctor, immediately."
"But what about our date?" Kurt asked weakly. The world was spinning around him and he felt worse with every passed second. A few white and black points appeared in front of his eyes and he closed his eyes before he could get sick again.
"Your health's more important" Blaine replied. "Come on."
Kurt nodded weakly and with Blaine's help, he walked to the basin to wash out his mouth. As he leaned down, things just went worse. He felt like he couldn't breath, he was sweating and he was cold at the same time and he could barely see from the stars in front of his eyes. His body was shaking and he grabbed the edge of the basin for support but his fingers slipped from the cold porcelain and he fell forward.
"Kurt!"
He heard Blaine's desperate voice and felt his strong arms sneak around him from behind but in the next second, everything went black.
~ o ~
Kurt groaned as he tried to move to his side, the bed too uncomfortable under him. It wasn't his own and he didn't remember Blaine's bed being so hard either. He slowly opened his tired eyes, looking around in confusion. Yeah, it was certainly not a place he knew. He was in a small room with white walls and no decoration, the lights too bright and the only furniture beside the bed he was lying in was a small nightstand and two chairs. He smiled when he noticed Blaine sitting in one of the chairs, staring at the wall in front of him.
"Hey" Kurt whispered, reaching out towards Blaine.
The boy was so lost in thoughts that the touch caught him by surprise and almost fell forward as he jumped up.
"You're awake" he said.
"Where are we?" Kurt asked.
"In the hospital" Blaine explained. "You fainted in the restaurant. God, Kurt, I was so scared. Don't do this to me again."
"I'm sorry" Kurt said. "It's just the..."
"The doctor ran a few tests" Blaine said quietly. "I don't know the results, they didn't tell me anything because I'm not family."
"We will ask them" Kurt said weakly.
"I called Rachel and Santana" Blaine continued. "They should be here soon."
"Thank you, Blaine" Kurt smiled.
"I should... call a nurse or something" Blaine said and before Kurt could stop him, he walked to the door.
A few minutes later, he came back with an Asian man who smiled at Kurt as he stepped forward.
"Hello, Kurt" the man greeted him. "I'm Doctor Wu, I examined you when they took you in."
"Do you know what is wrong with me?" Kurt asked.
"I have to ask you a few questions first" Doctor Wu said. "Since when do you feel sick?"
"About two weeks" Kurt said uncertainly, looking at Blaine for confirmation.
"Almost two weeks" Blaine nodded.
"Your friend told me that you often throw up and feel dizzy. Is that all?" Doctor Wu asked.
"No" Kurt answered. "I'm always tired and feel nauseous from almost every smell. All I can eat is egg and yoghurt."
"Okay" Doctor Wu nodded.
"Is it something bad?" Kurt asked, fearing the worst. Suddenly, the memories of his mother's cancer ran through his mind and he closed his eyes, preparing himself for the diagnose.
"I have to make an ultrasound to be sure" the doctor said. "Pull up your shirt, please."
It was the first time Kurt noticed the machine beside his bed. He pulled up his shirt and took a deep breath, clinging into Blaine's hand as the doctor moved the probe up and down his stomach.
"Interesting" Doctor Wu said.
"Is it?" Kurt asked desperately. "Please, tell me I'm not dying."
"On the contrary actually" Doctor Wu smiled. "You're perfectly fine. The cause of your symptoms is this little one."
Kurt lifted his head to look at the screen. He didn't really understand a thing from what he was looking at. There was a black patch with something white in it but he had no idea what it was.
"What is that?" he asked, pointing at the screen.
"That is an embryo" Doctor Wu said simply. "From its size, I would say that you're at the end of your 7th week."
"7th week of what?" Kurt asked. Maybe it was because he still didn't feel well but he had no idea what the doctor was talking about.
"You're pregnant" Blaine muttered, his eyes glued at the screen.
Kurt looked at him at first, opening and closing his mouth without knowing what to say. Then he turned back to the doctor and said the first thing that came into his mind.
"That's impossible."
"Have you been sexually active?" Doctor Wu asked.
"Well, yeah..."
"Then it's possible" the doctor said.
"No, it's not" Blaine said, looking at Kurt in confusion. "We didn't do anything seven weeks ago, so unless there was somebody else..."
"There was nobody else" Kurt said, somewhat hurt. How could Blaine think that he was with somebody else?
"See?" Blaine asked, relieved. "Kurt can't be pregnant."
"For starters, we don't count pregnancy weeks like this" Doctor Wu said slowly. "Normally, a woman gets pregnant two weeks after the beginning of her last period..."
"I don't want to hear it" Kurt grimanced.
"You should" Doctor Wu said. "So, women usually get pregnant two weeks after that, when they have ovulation. So when the act happens, they're already two weeks pregnant. It isn't much different with carriers, which means you two must have been together about five weeks ago."
"Five weeks?" Blaine gulped nervously.
"Four weeks and five days if I'm correct" Doctor Wu nodded.
Kurt kept his eyes on the screen, unable to look into Blaine's eyes. This whole thing felt like a nightmare and he was afraid of what would happen if he looked at Blaine.
"Wait a minute" he said after a while. "You have to be wrong. I made pregnancy tests and they were both negative."
"Although those tests are mostly correct..."
"You made pregnancy tests? Why didn't you tell me?" Blaine asked.
"...sometimes the result's false..."
"It was Santana's idea and I thought it was stupid, okay?" Kurt said. "I didn't know that I could get pregnant."
"You should have told me" Blaine said.
"I'm sorry!" Kurt shouted in frustration. He knew that it was hard for Blaine but it wasn't easier for him either.
"I will leave you two alone" Doctor Wu said hastily and left the room.
Blaine jumped up and kicked the leg of the chair, sending it flying back to the wall. Kurt winced and looked away, afraid that Blaine would turn his anger on him.
"I'm sorry" Blaine said, taking deep breaths. "It's just... Kurt, what are we gonna do now?"
"I don't know" Kurt answered brokenly. He just started to realise that it was true. He was carrying a baby, Blaine's baby. About seven months later, they would become parents of a real human being. It couldn't be happening.
"I'm pregnant" Kurt said, trying to get used to the fact.
"I know" Blaine said.
"I'm pregnant" Kurt said again.
"I get it, okay?" Blaine said, trying to stay calm for both of their sake. "How could we be so stupid?"
"We were careless" Kurt agreed. "But... it will be fine, right? We can do it."
"I don't know" Blaine said hesitantly. "It's a baby, Kurt! A huge responsibility."
"Do you think I should get an abortion?" Kurt asked quietly.
"Is that what you want?" Blaine asked, the thought making him sad for some reason.
"I don't know what I want" Kurt replied.
Blaine sighed sadly as he looked at the pale boy on the bed. Even if he felt bad right now, Kurt must have felt a lot worse. He was the one who had to go through the hardest part, no matter what their decision would be in the end. Blaine took a deep breath and sat down beside Kurt, taking his hand.
"I know it's hard" he started. "But we will go through it, okay? Together."
Kurt looked up, blinking back his tears.
"I will always be here for you" Blaine promised, although he had no idea what he had gotten into.
"I love you" Kurt said, unable to hold back his tears any longer.
"I love you too" Blaine said gently. "I will always be here for you."
