A/N- Srry this chapter came a little late. I usually post almost everyday, and I hate it when people don't update often so sry and BTW Patsy is alive in this fanfic, anyways enough of my rambling, here's the chapter! D
Disclaimer: I do not own Instant Star. I do own the character Lucy.
It was 9:00 and Speiderman was in his room, about to laundry, when he found Jude's note to him in his pants pocket.
"What's this?" he mumbled to himself. He stared at the perfectly folded paper and on the outside in Jude's sloppy handwriting, it said his name. He opened it up in wonder. Reading the first sentence alone, made him frown and worry. The letter clearly said:
Dear Speed,
I wrote you this note to tell you goodbye. I guess by the time you read this, I will already be gone. I am no longer in Toronto. No one knows where I am, and I'm sorry, but no one can know, not even you. I don't want anyone to find me. I don't think I'm ever coming back. Before you start blaming yourself, it's not your fault. I may have left for selfish reasons, but you are not part of why I left. You are the best, bestfriend, that anyone could ever have. And please beleive me when I say, I am so guilty for leaving you behind. But I know that it doesn't matter where I am, you will always be my bestfriend, and in my heart. It doesn't matter if I'm in Toronto, because my love for you and our friendship will not die, no matter where we are. You have always been there for me, in all our good times and bad. So none of this is your fault in anyway. I know it might be the cowardly thing to do, by running. But maybe it has to be this way. Everything that has happened, is too much for me, and I couldn't breathe anymore. It may be very selfish of me, but if anyone would understand me, it would be you. And I know you knew about how I felt, because I know Speed, if I stayed in Toronto, I would break. My family is torn apart, all I have is Sadie, and I feel terrible about leaving her. Maybe you and Kwest could look out for her, for me? Then the whole Tommy thing, watching someone you love, engaged with a kid, is like suffocating. Every second, you can breath less and less, until your finally gone. And I feel that way. Other than that, there are things that you don't know, things I wish I could tell you, but I can't, and please trust me, it's because I want to keep you safe. But Speed, I know it may be too much to ask, but please don't hate me. If you do I understand. The sad truth is I probally wont talk to you ever again. But you needed to know all of this, because even when we said goodbye last night, you didn't know that it could be the last time we ever saw eachother. And I wanted you to know that if I'm gone, you can have this letter, and remember me. And every memory we had, because each memory is engraved in my brain. Every joke, every prank, I still hear your voice saying Dude. Please give everyone the love that I cant give. I sent Sadie an email, so she will probally know the same time as you. I even sent Tommy a letter. Tell Jamie that I'll miss him, and make sure that he keeps Patsy in line. By the way, under my bed, there are things like photo albums and stuff there that I want you to have. Tell Wally and Kyle, that I'll miss them and that they rock. Maybe you guys can go solo, you can touch people with your voice. And you may be a goof, but I can see the real you, and I know your deep and music means something to you. And I know you will take the music world by storm. I'll always be your biggest fan. I will never forget you, I hope you dont forget me. You are my bestfriend. Love ya Speed.
Always for forever,
Love always,
Jude
A single tear strolled down his cheek. He didn't know what to feel. He felt overwhelmed, sad, even a little angry. But he tried to not be angry, because it would be the last thing she would want. He just wanted to pretend that she was on a vacation, that she was coming back in a few weeks. But a part of him knew she was serious, and wouldn't come back. He couldn't help but be angry, he went up to the mirror, and punched it. The reality, and the blood in his fist, made him realize, he didn't lose his bestfriend, because she would always be his best friend. He got his jacket, and car keys and went to G-Major.
Sadie was at the receptionist desk like usual, she thought Jude was already at G-Major, about to check her email when Speid came in and walked up to her desk.
Speiderman looked upset, hurt, even a little angry. Sadie wondered what was up with him.
Speid: "Sadie, did you read your email yet?" he said impatiently, she stared at him stangely.
Sadie: "No, I was just about to, why?" She clicked open her inbox.
Speid: "Read Jude's email." He said sadly. She clicked open, wondering why Jude would send her email when they live together.
The email said:
Dear Sades,
I left Toronto, and I'm not coming back.
Sadie looked up at Speiderman, who gave her a look that said he didn't know either.
I'm sorry that I'm leaving you but I have to. Everything is just so messed up, and I need to start over. Our family has been torn apart Sadie, and you are all I have. With the divorce, Dad is always gone and mom is somewhere in Europe, it's just you and me. You have been awesome, Sades. You were always there for me, even though when we fought, I could always depend on you. I didn't just leave because of our family, or even Tommy, there are other things going on in my life right now. And I feel so guilty for leaving you, I really am, but Sadie, you don't need to take care of me anymore. I'm no longer a burden. I'm so thankful for everything you have given me. Sadie you are a beautiful person, and you deserve to live for yourself. You should go away to college, or do whatever you want, because you deserve happiness. I don't want to take the easy way out, but Sadie things are out of my control. Sadie, do you remember when we were little kids, and I used to scared of the thunder when it rained, and instead of going to mom and dad I always went to you. It's because you make me feel safe, and I love you.
Sadie started to cry a little bit.
I've depended on you long enough, and no one could ever be a better sister. And who knows? Maybe Kwest is the one for you, maybe you guys will get married someday, but I just want you to be happy. I love you so much Sades, please forgive me.
From your very grateful sister,
Love always,
Jude
Sadie started to cry harder, and Speiderman tried to comfort her in a hug, but it was hard to help someone else, when you feel horrible yourself. He was even a little misty eyed. Everyone in G-Major stopped and watched them, but they could care less. Tommy and Kwest were in the studio, when they came out and saw Sadie sobbing into Speidermans chest, Speid not looking good either.
Tommy: "What the heck is going on?" He didn't get Jude's letter yet.
Kwest: "I don't know, but lets find out." He ran up to Sadie as she pulled away from Speid, and held on to Kwest for dear life, sobbing. Kwest and Tommy stared at Speid for answers, but instead he just shook his head and stared at the floor. Darius then came out, and got everyone's attention.
Darius: "Sadie, Speiderman, Kwest & Tommy in my office now!" he screamed while they went in D's office and sat down.
Darius: "Now, will someone tell me what's going on?" Kwest and Tommy shrugged.
Speid: "Jude's gone." Everyone stared at him and then Sadie in disbeleif.
Sadie: "She ran away, she's not coming back." she said softly. No one could beleive it.
Tommy: "What? How do you know this?" he asked, he didn't want to beleive it. No, they must be mistaken, Jude doesn't run. He took out his phone, and called her but it went to automatic voicemail. She had left her cell phone behind with her credit cards.
Speiderman: "She left me a note, and Sadie an email. We don't know where she is, but she said she wont see us again." Kwest was silent and Darius and Tommy turned angry.
Darius: "Well what did she say in them? I want to see them!" But Speiderman shook his head no.
Speid: "She wouldn't want anyone to see the note. It was a goodbye letter. It was something I could have to remember her by. There's no clue's, but I'm guessing she's somewhere in the States." Tom felt hurt he didn't get some kind of note. He was so mad & upset, he couldn't take it anymore.
Tommy: "Well then tell us why she left then! Jude suddenly leaves for no reason, come on! That's not like her at all! What are you hiding?"
Kwest: "Tom! Listen to yourself! Why the heck do you think she left? She's been broken for a long time." he yelled at his bestfriend.
Tommy: "But Jude doesn't run! That's so unlike her!"
That's when Speid lost it. He knew her decision had a lot to do with Tommy. And he's accusing him of lying?
Speiderman: "Listen Quincy! She probally would be here if it wasn't for you! You leave for 2 months and come back with a kid and a fiance! You don't think that got to her?!? I have no clue where my bestfriend is, and I'm if I'm ever going to see her again, and I know you are the main reason for her running away!" Tom no longer felt mad, just guilty. But he didn't expect this. Sadie tried to calm Speid down.
Darius: "That's enough. Jude is still 17, so we can get the police involved. I don't just care about money, I also care about Jude."
Sadie: "She doesn't want to be found. I want my baby sis, but she could no longer stay here. It was too hard." Speid nodded.
Speid: "She did mention that something else is going on with her, and she wanted to keep me safe."
Kwest: "What do you think it is?" Sadie gave him a look saying she didn't know.
Darius: "I think I might know."
Meanwhile, in NewYork, Jude sat in a hotel, wondering what to do with herself.
She decided she needed a new job, to go with her new life. She decided to call the only person she knew in New York. Her friend Lucy. Jude met Lucy through her cousin. She wouldn't tell anyone where Jude was.
Lucy: "Hello?" She didn't reconize the number.
Jude: "Hey Lucy, it's Jude."
Lucy: "Oh my gosh, Jude it's so nice to hear from you, so what are you up to?"
Jude: "Well actually, I'm in NewYork..." she heard a gasp on the other line.
Lucy: "Jude what are you doing in NewYork?"
Jude: "I sorta.. ran away."
Lucy: "Jude!"
Jude: "I know, I know, but I had to leave. I was wondering if you had a place where I could stay?"
Lucy: "Well of course Jude, your welcome to to stay with me for as long as you want."
Jude: "Thanks so much."
Lucy: "It's no problem really." She gave her the adress, Jude was about to hang up.
Lucy: "By the way Jude, when you get here your telling me everything." Jude sighed.
Jude: "Okay Luce, see ya in a bit, bye."
Lucy: "Bye Jude." They hanged up and Jude got all of her stuff and went to meet up with her new roomate.
What does Tommy's letter say? Will Darius tell the truth? Review and I'll tell you! D
