Britney drove home from her meeting with mixed feelings. She's was absolutely ecstatic that Larry decided to give her some time off, but her emotions were still all mixed up from seeing Justin today. It was different from when they had talked in the club. That night she was just angry, and when she came face to face with him she didn't know what to do. But this meeting was different. It was calm and in a relaxed environment, and she saw the Justin she remembered come out in him. Her heart beat faster at the thought of him, and that made her nervous. Almost too nervous to function. She knew she had to talk to somebody about all the feelings she was having. She decided that night she would call Felicia over to her house for a talk and that she would tell her something she had never told anybody.
Once she put her boys to bed she got some wine out for her and Felicia and waited patiently for her. She was a bit nervous, because she was about to reveal some things to Fe that she had never ever told anybody.
"Hey pretty lady! Long time no see!" Felicia said, stepping into the house.
"You saw me this afternoon at the meeting Fe," Britney said laughing at her.
"Oh you got out some wine for me!"
"More like for me," Britney said with a laugh. They both sat down on the big, dark red couch in Britney's living room and took a sip of their wine.
"The boys asleep?"
"Yeah I put them down a couple minutes ago, they have to be up early since Kevin is coming to get them," she said, looking down sadly.
"You hate having to see them go, don't ya?" Felicia said, putting her hand on her shoulder.
"I hate it more than anything. I wish they could just stay with me."
"Is that what's bothering you honey?"
"No," Britney said with a soft laugh, "much more troubling things are bothering me."
"Well do tell," Felicia said, interested.
"It's just….it's about Justin."
"I knew it!"
"I saw him today, at the dance studio. And he looked so good Fe, so good!" She said with lust in her eyes.
"Brit, that boy has always looked good."
"I know I know. He wants to start talking again, and I feel like that's dangerous."
"Why? Britney, Justin always brings good things into your life, he's good for you, even if it's just a friendship."
"I know, it's like he's the only person who knows how to really get to me…"
"You still have feelings, don't ya honey?" She asked looking deep into Britney's eyes.
"Of course I do Fe!" Tears started developing in her eyes. "And I know he says that he just wants to be friends, but I can't be just friends with him, and that's my fault."
"No it's not, it's nobody's fault. It's just the way it is."
"Felicia, it's more complicated than that," she said, looking down.
"There's something you're not telling me…"
The tears from Britney's eyes started to fall faster, and she had to put her hand over her mouth to quiet her sobs trying to get out.
"Britney tell me what it is, you're worrying me!"
"It's Jayden," she said bluntly and abruptly.
"What do you mean?"
"Justin is Jayden's father, Felicia." There. She said it. Now that she said it, she actually felt a little bit better. That is, until she saw the utter shock on Felicia's face.
"WHAT? How? When?" She couldn't even get her thoughts strait.
"He was conceived four years ago. It was the last time we saw each other until now." Britney kept her eyes down cast, she couldn't stand to look Felicia in the eye.
"But you were still married to Kevin then."
"I know I know, I'm terrible," she cried, putting her head in her hands.
"No no, I mean, how do you know he's Justin's. He could be Kevin's."
"No. He's Justin's child. Me and Kevin were using condoms then because I didn't want to go on birth control. In the heat of the moment, Justin and I didn't use one. There's no possible way he's Kevin's. And plus, you can't tell me that when you look at Jayden, when you really watch him, you don't see Justin in him."
"Well of course, I always thought he resembled Justin in many ways, but I never even fathomed it," she said, her eyes still big.
"And…Sean Preston…" she began hesitantly.
"Oh my God Britney, is he Justin's too?" Felicia almost screamed.
"Well that's the thing…I don't know," she said, the tears starting to pour again.
"Why don't you know?" Felicia asked in disbelief.
"Because," she began, "me and Justin saw each other in December of '04…"
"Britney that was only three or so months after you were married to Kevin!"
"I know Fe! I'm such an awful person," she said crying.
"No Britney, you are not awful at all," she said stroking Britney's hair. "When you love somebody as much as you love Justin, it's understandable that you couldn't be away from him."
"It's not that I couldn't be away from him, it's that whenever we're together we can't control ourselves."
"That's understandable too. So were you and Kevin trying to get pregnant when you and Justin saw each other that time?"
"Well no, but we weren't exactly being careful. Sometimes we would use protection, sometimes we wouldn't…"
"And you and Justin didn't?"
"No. We never did when we were together. But when we were together I was on birth control, with Kevin I wasn't."
"Oh my goodness, Britney Jean," she said covering her mouth in disbelief.
"Nobody knows about this Fe. I'm glad I could finally get it out."
"Honey you can trust me, and I'm here for you through everything, I promise. But first you gotta tell me what happened on those nights!"
***A/N: Yes, I know it's been done before, but I'm sucker for stories where Justin is the boy's real father! Hopefully most of you guys are too :). The next two chapters will be flashbacks of both times Britney and Justin secretly saw each other.
