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As I lay against the door frame I thought about sneaking out of the room to take a walk, but decided against it. Instead I started staring at Reid, I had to talk to him to clear things up between us. I found myself wanting to kiss him again, or I guess for the first time since it had been Chase before. I shivered at the thought of kissing Chase. I hadn't noticed that Reid had started staring at me too.
I stood up straight, than blushed and looked away, acting like a little kid who had gotten caught doing something they shouldn't have been doing. I looked back up to realize Reid was still staring at me, I also noticed he had scooted over so there was room for me on the bed next to him. Reid than went back to looking at the movie, it wasn't loud so I wasn't sure how he could even hear it. I walked to my bed and laid down careful to not touch Reid.
After a couple minuets I wasn't comfortable so I snuggled closer to Reid and leaned my head on his shoulder. As soon as I touched him he tensed up. I had no idea why I had chosen to get closer to him, I didn't usually do that kind of stuff. But I was confused as to why he tensed, than I realized that the only thing he cared about was that I ran away from him last night.
I was about to move when he relaxed than wrapped his arm around me, bringing me closer to him. It felt nice to lay there with Reid, it was like I belonged there. I was about to fall asleep when I felt Reid move, the next thing I knew he was whispering in my ear. "You want to go far a walk?"
I shivered in pleasure and I knew Reid would have that stupid smirk on his face. But, I nodded my head and we both got off the bed and went out the door making sure not to wake Caleb and Pogue.
Neither one of us said anything for the longest time. As soon as we walked outside I realized it was getting chilly. We walked around the school grounds for a while taking in the night air. As we were passed a bench Reid sat down, I could tell he was thinking about something. He was leaned over with his arms resting on his legs, his hands holding his head. I sat down beside him.
"Sam, why did you feel you couldn't trust yourself last night?" Reid asked looking over at me.
I knew this question was going to come, I was just hoping it wasn't going to be the first one he asked. "It's complicated."
"Sam I'm a smart boy, when I want to be, I can keep up."
I sighed trying to figure out how to put it. "It's not exactly me." I hurried to continue when I saw the look that crossed Reid's face. "No, it's not that I don't trust you, I do, it's more like I don't trust myself around you." I looked down at my hands tracing the lines in my palms.
"What's that supposed to mean?" He sat up on the bench and turned his body so he was sort of facing me.
"When I'm around you, I find myself thinking about things."
When I didn't continue Reid sighed. He knew he was going to have to prompt me to talk. "What kind of things?"
"About, doing things, with you." I could feel myself start to blush. I was glad that it was dark and that he couldn't see me. I couldn't believe I just told him that. But I guess it was good to tell him I wanted him before I had to say this next part.
"What kind of things?"
I looked at Reid and smacked him on the arm. "Don't even go there."
He had that stupid smirk on his face. He loved hearing me say what I did. "Man, I didn't know our little innocent Sam had suck a dirty mind."
I smacked him again, than rolled my eyes, looking back down at my hands.
"But, than what's the problem? You should know I'd be more than willing to comply to those fantasies of yours."
I couldn't really tell if he was joking or not. I had a feeling it was a little of both. "That is the problem though. Reid, you of all people should get that. I'm not that kind of girl."
"Oh, I think I could change that."
I smacked him again than stood up. "Reid, I'm being serious here!"
"Sorry, I'm sorry" he got up and hugged me. "But I still don't see the problem." He whispered it in my ear sending shivers down my spine.
"You're not the kind of guy I need." I whispered as well because I didn't want to have to say it but I knew I had to.
He backed away from me. "What?" I could tell it wasn't going to be long before he was mad.
"Reid, come on. You know I'm right. Your not the type to settle with one girl. Today proved that to me. You went off to Kayla when I ran away. So what would happen if we were together and we didn't do anything, because I'm not ready?" Reid didn't answer and I knew what the answer was.
Reid sat back on the bench, he put his head in his hands. "Sam…."
I sat down beside him and put my hand on his back. "Reid it's ok. Things are probably better off this way."
"How's that?"
"Well, in ten years when you decide to grow up, we might have a chance than." I winked at him and smiled.
"Yeah, I'm going to hold you to that." Than just to prove it he leaned towards me, he was hesitant, his lips hovering over mine. But when I didn't protest he closed the space between us. As soon as we touched my heart stopped for a second than my body exploded in fire. It was pleasant, and I had goose bumps all over my body. I felt his hand caress my face and the other one entwined in my hair. I put my hands on his chest and I could feel his mussels underneath my hands. I loved the feelings that were going through me, this was better than when it had been Chase. I felt Reid's tongue on my lower lip, at the same time we both realized what we were doing. We pulled a part, looked at each other than we moved apart on the bench so there was space between us.
I found myself wondering if it had been just as enjoyable for him. Reid started to say something, but than stopped to clear his throat. Apparently it had been.
"Can I ask you something?"
"Um.. Yeah." I was hesitant, it could ask but that doesn't mean I have to answer.
"What happened last night?" I could hear the strain in his voice, like he didn't know if he wanted to know the answer.
"Didn't we already have this conversation?"
"Sam, I meant between Chase and you."
I didn't know what to say. I didn't want to lie, but telling him the truth would hurt him. As of last night I had wanted to be with him. But because of what I found out today I had changed my mind.
"Sam, tell me, please."
"Nothing happened." I decided denying it was the best idea.
"Sam, don't lie to spare my feelings. I want to know."
"Why?"
"Because it's important to me. So please tell me."
"Reid" I said shaking my head and stood up.
