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Apartment Layout: Front door leads straight to the living room; the kitchen is at the back of the Living room. Lexa's room is off to the left down a small hallway as is the bathroom. Sasha's room is off to the right down the hallway (It's right at the end of the hall) the guest room is the room before Sasha's.

Chapter Seven-Revelations

Sasha, Lexa and Octavia were sat in the living room eating the Chinese food Lexa had brought back with her, nobody had said a word to the other since Lexa had arrived ten minutes ago, Sasha was sat on the only armchair in the room which was Dark Brown leather purposely making some space between her and Octavia, Lexa was sat on the dark brown couch that was to the right hand side of Sasha, Octavia was sat on the light brown leather couch that was directly across from Sasha. Lexa placed her unfinished food on the wooden table that rested in the middle of the two couches and the armchair she could feel the nerves inside her at the thought of explaining everything to Octavia;

"Where do you want me to start?" Lexa asked looking at Octavia after Sasha gave her a small smile.

"Umm at the beginning I guess" Octavia said slowly picking at the food on her plate.

"I guess it really started after me and Clarke had been together for about a year and a half, just after Kane got promoted from Sergeant to Staff Sergeant, it was like switch went off inside him and he suddenly hated the idea of everyone knowing his daughter was gay and on top of that was dating one of his officers" Lexa paused looking at Octavia who she could see was concentrating on her completely "Just after we returned from our tour I got offered a promotion to become a Specialist for my unit which meant I would effectively have to take charge of the unit and would have to attend meetings regarding the unit with Kane and his superiors, I got called to his office one day and he asked if I was really willing to put in the hours that it would mean less time with Clarke, he played brilliantly made me feel guilty like I'd be abandoning Clarke or something. Don't ask Don't tell was still being implemented at the time so nobody was openly gay in the army not even Sasha, I mean our unit knew but other than nobody apart from Kane knew we were both gay"

"When did the blackmail begin?"

"After Don't ask Don't tell was repealed there was a process you had to go through, you had to go on record as being Gay or lesbian which meant your file would be reviewed and your contract renewed in affect, the deadline was 20th September 2010 we sent off our papers like everyone else did to our Sergeant at the time"

"Kane?" Octavia asked as she placed her plate on the table

"Yeah, we got shipped out just after so as far as we knew the paperwork got processed when we got back we found out that Kane hadn't sent the paperwork through he tried threatening us with disciplinary action but we went over him to our Sergeant First Class we didn't get Kane in any trouble in fact we took the blame, we got a warning for violating the deadline date but nothing else. Kane got worse after that he started working us harder at training making the whole unit do twice as much work and training as we were meant to none of us cared it just made us stronger as a unit."

"So when did the blackmail come in?"

"He called me into his office it was just after you and Clarke was released from hospital after the car accident he said something about he knew I knew his secret, I didn't have a clue what he was talking about but he refused to listen to me he said he knew I'd seen his medical files and that I knew his secret no matter what I said he wouldn't believe a single word I said" Lexa looked at Sasha her eyes asking her to cut in for a while to explain further, Sasha obliged taking over from Lexa

"Lexa told me everything that Kane said and we came to the conclusion that he had a medical condition he was with holding or something, we didn't bait him or ask anymore we backed off, then one day we're at training me and Lexa are talking about Raven's party and he comes charging over asking to speak to us in his office so we do, he pulls out this file from one of our tours says that there's enough to get us discharged, the file was about our early return from duty in 2011, we returned after four months instead of six, our previous Staff Sergeant told us all the paperwork was filed and everything was officially sorted we'd be shipped out early for our next tour and make up the time, well turns out that he didn't file the paperwork correctly or something and Kane threatened to use that against us" Sasha paused seeing the look on Octavia's face she added "This isn't your fault I came back for more reasons than just your birthday so don't even think that ok?" Octavia nodded smiling at Sasha as she continued "We told him to go ahead with whatever he wanted to do he didn't like that"

"What did he do?"

"He threatened you and Clarke said he'd make sure you got evicted from your apartment and made homeless. I told him that if he did anything to hurt you or Clarke then I'd make sure everyone knew what he really was, I thought that was the end of it, he still pushed us to the extremes at training but I was used to it and didn't think anything of it. Until we got put on the yearlong tour"

"The morning after I told you about it Lexa told me that it was Kane's doing he told her that if she didn't want to break up with Clarke then he was gonna make sure she didn't have a choice" Sasha looked to Lexa signalling for her to explain things properly taking over Lexa added;

"He pulled me into his office Clarke had told him that we were thinking about moving in together, he told me I was making the worse mistake in my life and that I was gonna pay with my life if I didn't end it with Clarke. I told him I wouldn't do that so he pulled a few strings and got us placed on a year rotation in Afghanistan, he used some excuse that we were chosen because we were the 1st Squadron which meant we were first choice, I know it's a lie because I asked our sergeant first class why we had been chosen he told me that Kane told him we offered"

"Why didn't you tell your sergeant first class about Kane lying?"

"Because it wouldn't have got us anywhere" Lexa looked at Octavia she could understand the younger girls comment, and she hated the words that would have to come out of her mouth now but Octavia wanted the whole truth and she wasn't going to hold back looking over to Sasha her eyes asking permission to continue with the next part which involved Sasha heavily, as Sasha gave her a nod she continued "Kane got worse when we were deployed he made things ten times worse for us made us train on days off even after patrols, we couldn't say anything because we'd just be seen as going against a senior officer and we'd be punished. Then eight months into the tour we got informed of our patrol duties, we went out on patrol and everything was fine we followed the co-ordinates Kane gave us…." Lexa paused not sure how to continue with the words she was almost 100% sure Octavia would get upset at reliving what happened to Sasha

"Tell me the rest please" Octavia pleaded seeing the conflict in Lexa's eyes

"The co-ordinates led us to this little town there was nothing around it looked completely derelict, when we got there something felt wrong like we were being watched or something. As we continued through the Sasha noticed something in the distance, we called it into Kane asking if he was sure he gave us the right co-ordinates so we continued searching the next thing we knew we were being shoot at from north before we could react Sasha got shot…Once we got to safety and back up arrived Kane changed the paperwork he gave me when I looked at it the co-ordinates we completely different to the ones he gave me, he tried blaming it on me saying I misread them but the whole squadron backed me up plus everyone in the communications tent had heard him reconfirm the co-ordinates to me on the radio"

"He deliberately sent you into a hostile area?" Octavia asked she couldn't quite believe what she was hearing

"Kind of, we found out he sent us into an area that was under protection of the Afghanistan Army when they say unauthorised US army personnel approaching the tried to radio through but we have a jamming signal protecting our frequency so we didn't hear the message so they opened fire." Lexa paused as Sasha sent her another comforting look "From what I can work out he thought I was gonna be the one to get shot not Sasha"

"What makes you think that?"

Before Lexa could answer Sasha spoke knowing Lexa blamed herself for what happened to her "We switched positions, I was the first to advance, I knew what I was looking for so I lead the squadron, Lexa was supposed to be at the front of the squad I was meant to be second"

"You nearly died" Octavia said tears quickly flowing down her cheeks as she remembered hearing what had happened to Sasha and seeing her in that hospital bed so defenceless "Are you sure he meant for you to get hurt?"

"He told me that I wouldn't have got hurt if my big cousin had done what he asked her and left Clarke alone" Sasha calmly explained subconsciously placing her hand on the clothing that covered the scar on her upper thigh

"I was gonna end it with Clarke as soon as I realised that he set us up, I didn't care about me but Sasha nearly dying was enough but in true her fashion she wouldn't let me. Kane got moved on to another unit when his superiors thought that my personal connection to him meant his judgement was clouded, I didn't hear anything until about a year after when Clarke decided to train to become a paramedic that's when he started hassling me this time he threatened not to fund her training I couldn't be the reason she didn't get to become a medic I wouldn't be the reason her life was messed up so after months of him pressuring me I agreed to break up with her"

"Why didn't you just tell Clarke what Kane was doing?" Octavia asked through the tears her voice cracking slightly due to the emotions flowing through her body.

"I know what it's like to have a rubbish father I didn't want to be the reason she had to go through so I decided that ending it would be better for us both" Lexa paused for a second "I had no idea it'd be as hard as it's been" Seeing the tears still falling from Octavia's cheeks she softy asked "Are you ok?"

"I don't know it's a lot to take in, I know you wanna know what I'm gonna say I ju-"

"Take as much time as you need whatever you decide I'll be ok with it. I promise" Lexa softly said moving over to sit next to Octavia softly hugging the younger woman who hugged her back hearing a small 'Thank You' Lexa looked up at Sasha smiling at her seeing the caution and concern on Sasha's face she decided that giving them some privacy would be the best thing "I'm gonna go to bed give you two some privacy" As she stood up she saw Sasha mouth 'Thank Lex' at her winking at her cousin she left the two women to talk walking to her bedroom and closing the door.

Sasha didn't move for the first few minutes after they'd been left alone when she did finally move she slowly stepped until she was in front of Octavia kneeling down on the floor her eyes made contact with Octavia's, she softly smiled when Octavia gently placed one of her hands on Sasha's cheek the action caused Sasha to softly say "I'm sorry, I should have warned about the me getting shot part, I know you hate thinking about it" Sasha was half expecting to be shouted at or told off for not warning her but instead Octavia leaned in gently capturing her lips softly pulling back she looked at Sasha;

"You did the right thing not telling Clarke" Pausing before she continued "And me" She again went silent after another minute or two she took hold of Sasha's hand as she stood up forcing Sasha to stand up with her, exiting the living room (lounge) leading Sasha by her hand until they reached the guest room of the apartment the cousins as they entered the guest room Octavia gently pulled Sasha into the room closing the door gently behind them she turned to Sasha grabbing Sasha's neck with both hands she pulled her forward softly kissing her on the lips pulling back she rested their foreheads against each other's softly she asked "Can we just lay together for a while?" When Sasha looked at her worryingly she added "I just want you to hold me"

"I'd love that" Sasha responded leading Octavia by her hand until they were at the bed, crawling onto the bed she positioned herself on her back as Octavia climbed onto the bed laying her head on Sasha's chest as her arms wrapped around her waist. As she felt Octavia arms wrap around her waist Sasha wrapped her arms tentatively around Octavia's back softly kissing the top of her head as she pulled her tighter against her body, silently ignoring the pain that was shooting up and down her neck at the pressure she was putting on her wound.

Lexa's Bedroom

Lexa was laying on her bed re-thinking everything that she had told Octavia about Kane's blackmail she couldn't stop thinking about all the pain that would have been stopped if she had just told Clarke from the start maybe things would be completely different now but then again maybe they would be the same. As she twirled her phone around in her hand she'd been doing this for the last ten minutes debating contacting Clarke the more she tried to talk herself out of it the more she wanted to message her, unlocking her phone she opened her contact list scrolling until she found Clarke's name she remembered she'd debated deleting the number when they broke up but instead she had opted for changing the contact name from My Love back to just Clarke as she clicked on the message contact option trying to think of an excuse to message the blonde when she remembered the photos she'd taken earlier at Costia's request attaching the two pictures she sent a simple message: Hey Clarke, Here's the pictures as requested. Sorry for the late hour, hope you got home safely. Lexa Sending the message she placed the phone down on the side cabinet not expecting a reply, she got up to get changed into her pyjamas, as she pulled on her vest she heard her phone buzz walking over to the side cabinet she picked the phone up as she laid back down on the bed reading the message:

Clarke: Hey Lex, thanks for the pictures I love them Costia looks so cute. And got back to Bellamy's fine thanks xCx

'Two Kisses' Lexa thought to herself, how was she meant to respond as she thought to herself she could hear Sasha in her mind telling her to stop overthinking things which she decided was probably the best option at the moment.

Lexa: Glad your safe And you looked pretty cute in that picture as well xx

Clarke: I do try, I'm not naturally cute like you and Costia…. Must be that Woods' gene ;-)

Lexa: Does that mean you think Sasha is cute as well?

Clarke: I reserve my right to remain silent cause you'll tell her and then she'll tell Octavia who will hate me even more than she does

Lexa: Octavia doesn't hate you and I'd never reveal a secret you told me…I've still not told them about Octavia's bed

Clarke: Let's not talk about that…. Are you sure she doesn't hate me? She left without saying goodbye after we kind of had an argument

Lexa: I'm sure she's fine, Her and Sasha are kind of indisposed at the moment

Clarke: That explains a lot

Lexa: What argument did you have? If you don't wanna tell me that's fine

Clarke: She thought I was flirting with you and told me it was wrong because of Mitch

Lexa: Were we flirting?

Clarke: For us, probably not. But that said she made me think….

Lexa: About?

Clarke: I think it'd be good if we could be friends, I was just thinking about how much I've missed having you around

Lexa: I've missed having you around as well Clarke, being friends would be great as long as your boyfriend is ok with that, I don't want to cause any problems between you both.

Clarke: He doesn't get a say in who I am friends with So there's no problem

Lexa: Great I'll chat to you soon I'm gonna get some beauty sleep

Clarke: Like you need beauty sleep lol but I'll definitely chat to you soon. Goodnight Lexa

Lexa: Goodnight Clarke – As she sent the message she felt a rush of relief and panic hit her at the same time she was happy she'd get to see Clarke but at the same time being friends meant certain thing she could get too close to Clarke for one and another was she'd probably have to spend time with Mitch as well and at the moment that wasn't going to be possible. Shaking her head, she placed the phone on the side cabinet and rolled over in her bed pulling the cover over her deciding sleep was the best thing for her at the moment.

3:30am

Sasha was laying on the dark brown couch in the front room she'd been awake since 3am after she'd had a nightmare about when her unit had been ambushed on their last tour just before her PTSD had kicked in, the memory of being pinned in with nowhere to go no way of escaping being 100% sure she was gonna die felt so real, Dr Jaha had explained to her that this was probably the catalyst in her PTSD the start of it all. Whenever she felt like this she'd usually just lay in bed and listen to some music to calm her mind and stop her thinking but she had opted for the living room on account of Costia still being asleep in her room and Octavia being fast asleep in the spare room as she laid on the couch she flicked through her iPod and her PTSD playlist as she liked to call it finding her Elton John Greatest hits album she pressed play softly smiling as Something about the way you look tonight came through the headphones, refusing to close her eyes she stared at the darkness in front of her eyes she couldn't help but smile as she thought about Octavia the more the song played.

She must have been on the 5th or 6th song when she saw the light from the bathroom go on in the corner of her eye as the light disappeared she went back to looking into the darkness, but seconds later she was meet with a figure in front of her instantly she knew it was Lexa, as Lexa walked over to the lamp turning it on Sasha turned her iPod off taking the headphones out and wrapping them around the iPod before gently placing it on the table, as Lexa gently moved Sasha's legs off of the couch forcing her to sit up straight so she could sit down herself. Sasha looked at Lexa knowing exactly what she was expecting,

"I'm not going to talk about it Alexandra" She firmly stated not looking at Lexa

"Don't make me call Mema Alexis" Lexa counter stated

"Very mature"Shaking her head at Lexa "I'm fine it was just a nightmare"

"If it was just a nightmare then why are you out here"

"I couldn't sleep and didn't wanna wake Octavia up"

"Don't lie, I know when you're scared Lexi I know somethings bothering you" Lexa placed a gentle hand on Sasha's shoulder causing the slightly younger of the two women to look at her, the helplessness and fear evident on her face

"The flashback at Grounders, you know what I saw don't you?" When Lexa nodded sadly she continued "I've been having nightmares of the same thing every night since"

"Why didn't you tell me the first time it happened?"

"I was embarrassed I guess, I know you keep saying it wasn't my fault but I can't stop it Lex, you could have died"

"You didn't overreact Lexi the inquest proved that, they attacked us tried to capture us we had a right to defend ourselves, their boss was going to kill me he was going to kill all of us"

"I know that but I can still feel his neck in my hands seeing the life literally fade from his eyes until there was nothing staring back at me" Sasha continued as the tears poured from her eyes uncontrollably "I know I did what I had to, to survive to get everyone out of there alive but…"

"It's still not easy…I know Alexis" Lexa softly said pulling Sasha into a hug, Sasha instantly wrapped her arms around Lexa resting her head on Lexa's chest as she let the tears flow.

Lexa had been holding Sasha for around twenty minutes when Sasha sat up wiping her eyes and taking a deep breath, she had to admit that she needed to let that all out she felt so much better inside like all the pressure had been released. Lexa smiled at Sasha as she wiped her own tears away it broke her heart seeing Sasha in so much pain and destress when all she did was the right thing. Lexa looked at Sasha placing her left hand on Sasha's cheek firmly saying "Next time you come to me straight away don't hold it all in ok?" Sasha nodded at her "Good, otherwise I call in the big guns and yes I mean Mema" She smiled winking at Sasha making her laugh softly, "You should go back to bed try and relax you know that helps" Sasha again smiled and nodded. As Lexa got up off the couch and walked to her room she noticed the light that was coming from the guest room looking to Sasha she said "You might have some explaining to do" As Lexa went to walk off she stopped turning around smiling she said "Oh and don't sleep in your clothes, you're a grown woman get changed" When Sasha smirked at her softly giggling with it she poked her tongue out at Sasha who in turn poked her tongue out at her as well before she walked in the direction of the guest room.

As Sasha opened the guest room door she was meet with a bra and panties clad Octavia who was holding a t shirt in her hand as she closed the door quietly behind her, her mouth hung slightly open as she looked at Octavia putting on one of her t shirts on, this was the only time she was happy she had spare clothes in the guest room, now noticing it was her England Soccer jersey in Octavia's hand she smiled softly as Octavia turned around finally noticing her. The brown haired girl smiled at her brightly as she walked to the door where Sasha was standing;

"Hey you, where'd you go? I woke up and you weren't here" When Octavia didn't get a response she noticed that Sasha's attention was on the t shirt she was wearing more precisely on the bottom of the shirt and the beginning of her bare legs, she softly said "I didn't think you'd mind me borrowing a shirt, I couldn't find any comfortable bottoms…. You don't mind do you?" Octavia asked tugging on Sasha's jersey finally get her to break her gaze.

"Um of course I don't mind"

"So where were you?"

"I had a nightmare I didn't want to wake you so I went in the living room to calm myself down" Sasha decided that telling the truth was the best way to go

"Are you ok? Do you wanna talk about it?"

"I'm fine and I don't think I'm ready to talk about it completely" Seeing the slight disappointment on Octavia's face she decided to explain why "It's not that I don't trust it's just it's hard for me to think about it let alone talk about it I can barely tell Lexa what I feel and what happens in them. It's something Dr Jaha is helping me with" Sasha explained as she moved closer to Octavia

"I just want you to know I'm here for you" Octavia said closing the space between them wrapping her arms around Sasha's waist squeezing her tightly

"I do know and as soon as I'm ready I promise I'll tell you everything. Deal?" She said smiling down at Octavia

"Deal" Octavia replied pulling back slightly so she could kiss Sasha on the lips. "Are you ok to go back to cuddling?"

"Are you kidding? I'm always ok to cuddle" Sasha responded trying to let Octavia know she was really ok "I'm just gonna change" Sasha smiled as she released Octavia from the hug walking smiling as she walked over to the chest of draws that held her underwear and pyjamas pulling out a pair of black checkered lounge pants and a transformers t shirt, she slowly removed her combats making sure she turned away so Octavia couldn't see the scar on her thigh she knew that Octavia hated the scar it reminded her of what Sasha had gone through, once she had pulled the lounge pants resting the waistband just under her hips she removed her jersey dropping it on the floor.

Octavia was now lying on the bed on top of the covers looking at her, she'd watched every move Sasha made even when she turned away from her, she knew it was because of the scar on her thigh as she continued to watch Sasha, she smiled to herself when Sasha removed her Jersey revealing a red checkered bra underneath it, as her eyes roamed up and down Sasha's top half she noticed a new tattoo on Sasha hips it started on one hip with a cross that lead into a tribal design much like the one on her arm the design snaked around her back emerging on her other hip moving downwards disappearing under the lounge pants Sasha was wearing, as her eyes moved away from the tattoo she began to take in Sasha's appearance she looked in even better shape than she was before they broke up, Octavia had noticed that her arms had looked more toned but she didn't think her whole body was the same, it looked as if there wasn't an ounce of fat on Sasha's body her body looked like it was carved out of stone she couldn't help but feel turned on a little as she took in the image in front of her. She blushed slightly when she noticed Sasha was looking at her with a small smirk on her face "I was just admiring the view" she said smiling as she bit her lip softly.

"I bet you were, though I'm pretty sure my view is better" Sasha responded moving forward placing her shirt on as she did so, she crawled onto the bed stopping when she was next to Octavia "Now what was that you mentioned about cuddling?"

Octavia smiled at Sasha as she laid down as Octavia positioned herself how she had been hours before, as she looked up at Sasha she couldn't help but kiss her the kiss took Sasha a little by surprise after a second she kissed back placing her right hand on Octavia's neck her fingers tucked under Octavia's hair, within minutes the kiss had deepened both women trying to control the sexual urges rushing though their bodies, Octavia slowly moved herself until she was straddling Sasha the kiss becoming even more passionate than it already was digging deep she pushed Sasha backwards forcing the kiss to break bringing her hands to rest on Sasha hips trying to control her breathing she decided talking was only thing that could calm her breathing down so she softly asked;

"When did you get that tattoo?"

"Just over a year and a half ago"

"We were still together"

"Yeah I started it when we were still together I was gonna surprise you with it but then the PTSD got worse and everything else happened, I got it finished about Seven months ago"

"Can I see?"

"Sure"

Octavia slowly pulled Sasha's top upwards until she could see the tattoo in question "What does it mean?"

"It means numerous things but mainly its about my faith and the things or people that make me keep having faith" slowly Octavia's hands came to the part of the tattoo that disappeared under her lounge pants holding her hand over the material she looked at Sasha seeking permission, when Sasha nodded she slowly pulled down the material revealing a 'O' she stared at the letter her mind trying to process what the letters meaning could be "O?" She asked looking down at the letter now noticing a small patch of un-tattooed skin as her eyes meet Sasha she was given a response to her question;

"Isn't it obvious" Sasha calmly replied, she knew at some point she would have to mention the tattoo to Octavia she knew it'd have to be before they starting sleeping together again but she'd not planned that far ahead, when Octavia looked at her shaking her head she continued "It's an O for Octavia"

"You have a tattoo for me?"

"Um yeah it was gonna be a surprise, it was meant to be your whole name that's why there's a space next to it but Lexa called me when I was getting it done she was upset about Clarke and she needed me I never got a chance to go back then I broke up with you and never wanted to go over it I suppose"

"You never said"

"That was the surprise part, it was meant to go with the proposal"

"Proposal?"

"Argh I'm such an idiot" Sasha said as see threw her hands over her face 'way to go Alexis reveal everything you numpty' she said softly hitting herself in the forehead

Octavia reached forward grabbing hold of Sasha's hands and pulling them from her face resting them with her hands on the exposed tattoo, "You were gonna propose?" Squeezing Sasha's hands she gently said "don't be embarrassed I just wanna know"

Sasha took a deep breath looking Octavia in the eyes but before she could answer they heard a massive thud come from the direction they knew was Sasha's room the thud was followed by the sound of Costia crying, hearing the sound Octavia quickly jumped off Sasha they both darted out of the guest room running full speed until they reached Sasha's bedroom throwing the door open they saw Costia on the floor crying her eyes out they both rushed over to her, as Sasha reached her she knelt down on the floor in front of her little sister when she tried to pick Costia up however she was slightly shocked when the little girl shuffled backwards bringing her knees up and burying her head in them as she hugged her knees tightly

"Babe look" Sasha looked to Octavia seeing she was pointing at the bed she pushed off her knees slightly until she could see that Octavia was pointing to a wet patch on her bed, now noting it looked like someone had started removing the covers, looking at the room Sasha realised that Costia must have been trying to remove the sheets and ended up falling off the bed instead

"Cos, it's ok we all wet the bed sometimes" Sasha said softly trying to ease Costia's embarrassment "Come on Cos I've wet the bed before" That comment got the little girls attention as she looked up her from her knees her eyes filled with tears

"You have?" She asked sniffling as she wiped away her tears

"Yeah, sometimes I have really bad nightmares ones that scare me so much that I wet myself" Costia looked at her and slowly shuffled a little closer to her "Did you have a nightmare?" Costia nodded "Do you wanna tell me about it?" The little girl looked at her unsure "Was I in it?" Costia again nodded "What happened? You can tell me"

"You got hurt by the bad doctor man"

"What else happened?"

"He took Tavi away forever he said I was a bad girl and I didn't deserve the medicine and I was gonna be sick forever"

"Oh Cos, it's ok now because it was just a nightmare" The little girl looked up her unconvinced remembering what her mother used to tell her about nightmares when she was Costia's age she added "You know a nightmare is just all the bad thoughts leaving your mind"

"Really?" Costia asked shuffling forward until she was at Sasha's knees her hands gently placed on Sasha's knee

"Yeah, and once the nightmare is over it means all the bad thoughts are gone" Sasha explained wiping the tears from Costia's cheeks smiling down at her "So can I get a hug now?" Costia shook her head "Why not?" Sasha softly asked, when Costia looked down at the shorts she was wearing Sasha asked "You wanna change first?" Costia nodded the embarrassment still on her face, seeing the expression Sasha added "I tell you what, you can either wear your pj's or you can wear something of mine? What do you reckon?" She knew the little girl loved wearing her clothes knowing this she hoped it'd cheer her up a little

Costia bit her lip softly as she thought about what she wanted to do, "Can I? Can I wear your special shirt?" She asked softly looking up at Sasha. She watched as Sasha stood up walking up to her wardrobe opening it up and looking inside for something, seconds later Sasha pulled something out of the wardrobe.

"You mean this one?" Sasha said holding her army t shirt up showing it to Costia, she noticed the little girl went to get up but instantly sat down, moving back to where she had been previously knelt in front of Costia "Do you wanna know something secret?" Costia nodded at the comment "Tavi stole this shirt from me, I had to secretly steal it back"

"I did not" Octavia softly responded playing along, she knew Sasha was trying to make Costia less embarrassed about the whole thing. "Ali used to hide it from me"

"Bad Ali" Costia said slapping Sasha on the knees

"Ouch, what was that for?"

"Being mean to Tavi" Costia firmly replied giving her big sister a firm look, "Nobody's mean to my Tavi" Octavia and Sasha looked at each other softly smiling at the little girls words. After a second Octavia spoke;

"Yeah don't be mean to me" She said as she gently knelt down beside Sasha looking at Costia, the little girls hands were resting on the t shirt Sasha had been holding when she knelt down "How about we get you changed now?" Costia looked at her for a second or two before nodding her head, "Do you need help?"

"Nope I'm a big girl Tavi I can do it"

"Ok, we'll wait outside for you ok?" She softly said as she nudged Sasha softly causing her to hand to t shirt to the little girl

"Ok Tavi" Costia beamed up at her with a massive smile now on her face, with that Sasha and Octavia got up walking out of the door, closing it so they could still see what was going on inside the room. As they stood waiting Sasha looked at Octavia softly whispering;

"Thank You"

"For?"

"Just now"

"Your welcome" Octavia responded leaning against Sasha softly placing a kiss on her lips, she couldn't believe what a night tonight had turned into, especially finding out Sasha was gonna propose to her the more she thought about it the more she liked the idea, she knew Sasha was 'the one' for her and she knew that she couldn't lose her again not after spending a year apart, her brain instantly went to the secret she had been keeping the one that she was going to tell Sasha but now all she could think about was Sasha's reaction to it, it'd be bad and most likely that she'd never want to see her again and she wasn't going to risk that not now she had what she wanted, thinking of an excuse she softly muttered "I'm gonna text Clarke so when she wakes she knows I'm ok, I'll see you in there" Sasha nodded at her softly, kissing her quickly on the lips she walked to the guest room looking on the floor she found her shorts picking them up she pulled her phone out of the pocket noticing the text messages on the screen she quickly replied to them all telling Bellamy and Clarke she was ok, after she was done with that she opened a new message typing out what she wanted to say she sent the message;

Octavia: I changed my mind Sasha can never know we slept together

Octavia sat on the edge of the bed waiting for a response she hadn't felt this nervous and sick in a long time as she heard Costia say she was ready her phone vibrated in her hand quickly unlocking it she sighed in relief as she read the message to herself;

Raven: Agreed

Soooooo…..Raven and Octavia hooked up…thoughts?...More will be revealed in the next chapter….plus more Costia and Clexa…..Hope you all enjoyed it…Apologises for any mistakes I'll be going through all the chapters on Sunday and spell checking them then reposting them….As always please feel free to review the chapter they are always greatly appreciated :-) …so Until Chapter Eight guys and girls :-)