That old t-shirt you wear to bed
Hangin' off your shoulder by a thread
The one you ripped off me when
We first met
Still feels good
Brooke had called Haley as soon as she woke up at 6am. She had told Haley she was going to jump into a quick shower and wanted her to be there as soon as she was done. Haley didn't question anything, just agreed to be there in twenty minutes. Brooke knew Lucas was up because she could smell the coffe so she tried to stay in the shower as long as she could. She was thankful when she was drying her hair and heard Haley downstairs with Lucas. She would be able to avoid the awkward morning after conversation that she did not want to have.
She threw on a pretty white sundress and clicked her hair into a messy bun. She dabbled on a little makeup and put on a pair of clogs. She went with a simpler look today. She wanted to be comfortable but still look cute. She made her way down the stairs quietly and listened to their conversation without making her presence known.
"How does she look," Haley asked.
"Amazing. She is as beautiful as ever," Lucas said and she could already picture a smile gracing his face and his eyes a little squinty. She didn't want to hear him say anything else that is nice about her so she cleared her throat and made her way into the kitchen.
"Brooke," Haley squealed and flew out of her chair. She was engulfed in Haley's arms in a matter of seconds. It felt so nice to be embraced by the girl that has been her best friend for years. Just being home for one day made her miss being home so much. She had just spent time with Lucas and now Haley and it made her realize how much she missed her friends. She loved her life in New York, but being in Tree Hill was just different.
"I miss you so much Brooke. Oh my God you look amazing. Look how pretty your hair is and your face," Haley babbled on while cupping Brooke's face. Brooke couldn't do much but laugh. Haley was still as energetic as ever.
"I miss you too Tutor Wife," Brooke said and playfully pinched her cheeks. Brooke pulled her in for another hug. "God I miss you so much," Brooke said glancing at Lucas. She noticed the small smile gracing his face, but his eyes never left her.
"Okay we have a big day ahead of us. Lucas," Haley said and turned to face her brother in law. "I'll see you in a little while. I'll give you guys a minute together and I'll meet you in the car," she said turning to face Brooke who looked a little uneasy, but still gave her a smile and nodded her head.
Brooke stood awkwardly for a moment sipping on the coffee Haley had left on the counter. She wasn't sure what to say to Lucas after last night and being in front of him seemed to cloud her thoughts. She walked behind the counter and placed the mug in the sink. When she turned around Lucas was right behind her and she gasped and bumped her back closer to the counter. "I—I have to go," she said but didn't move.
"Brooke," he said and brushed a piece of hair behind her ear that had fallen. He saw her close her eyes and take a deep breath. He knew she was nervous and he didn't want her to be uncomfortable around him. He brought his lips down and gently kissed her lips before pulling away. "Have fun and I'll see you in a bit," he said and walked from the kitchen.
She let out a sigh of relief and took in air. She didn't realize that she had been holding her breath until he had left the room. She grabbed her purse and headed to the car to meet Haley.
(-)
Haley and Brooke were currently picking up the cake at the bakery. They had spent the morning buying gifts for Jamie and Brooke even bought a few for Lauren. Brooke had only seen pictures of the spunky little girl. There was no denying that Lauren was the daughter of Nathan and Haley. Jamie had always reminded Brooke of Lucas but Lauren had her fathers dark hair and his smile.
"You think we should get Lauren a little princess cake," Brooke asked as she eyes a beautiful little cake.
Haley looked at her an rolled her eyes. "Brooke, we can't do that. I have finally gotten to where I don't have to give her gifts on Jamie's birthday and her own cake and you," she said as she pointed. "Have already bought her gifts."
"Hey in my defense I have never gotten to spend time with her or even meet her. I had to make sure I got her stuff so she will like me," Brooke said and stuck her tongue out at Haley. She hadn't had this much fun in so long. Being home made her feel carefree and normal. In New York she was a businesswoman and proper girl at all times.
"Well I am sure she will love you…when you get to see her," Haley said and looked at her friend remembering that Lauren wouldn't be there today. Brooke glared at her. "She is with my sister. She should be home later tonight though. I promise you will meet her and you will love you. And if you promise not to kill me I will let you in on a secret that no one else, not even Nathan knows," Haley said secretively. Hook line and sinker!
"Oh come on Haley. I have to know. I hate secrets," Brooke whined. Haley picked up the Toy Story cake and made her way out of the bakery with Brooke hot on her heels. She felt so at ease with Brooke. It was as they were walking back to the car and Brooke was nagging her, that she realized how much she truly loved and missed her best friend. They were both in the car and Haley finally turned to Brooke. "Okay so..Nathan and I are having another baby. I haven't told him yet," Haley said and watched the joy spread over Brooke's face.
"Geez you are like a tutor slut Hales," Brooke said and laughed when Haley looked at her all offended. "Just kidding. I am so excited. Can I ask you a question though," Brooke said seriously. Haley nodded. "Do you think it's a good idea with Nathan gone so much for work?"
"Actually the best part of all this is that Nathan has decided to retire. We have the money and he wants to spend time with his family. He made the decision on his own so I know this baby," she said and stroked her flat tummy. "It won't be because of this," she said and smiled at her friend who was all teary eyes. "He'll have given up work because it was his choice."
That old familiar song blarin'
From my car
We know every note, every word
By heart
Puts a smile on your face 'cause
You know it's ours
And it still feels good
Brooke didn't want a serious moment. She was incredibly happy for them. "You must have an incredible sex life," Brooke laughed and turned to buckle her seatbelt.
"Please Ms. Fashion Icon with an incredibly good looking fiancée. I'm sure you are the queen of hot sex if high school was any indication," she said and laughed at the shocked expression on Brooke's face.
"I'll have you know I have a boring sex life. God the last time I had sex was over a month ago. Wow that is pathetic," Brooke said as she thought about it. Haley looked at her funny and Brooke realized how that sounded. "It's just mine and Julian's schedules are so conflicted. I'm home, he's gone or vice versa. Then when we are together we just cuddle and talk.
(-)
Brooke and Haley walked through the door laughing. They had their hands filled with balloons, cake and presents galore. Nathan and Lucas met them and gave them a hand. It was perfect timing because Jamie came flying down the stairs and crashed into Brooke. He was so much bigger and stronger than Brooke remember because when she caught her breath she was on the ground and Jamie was hugging the shit out of her. Nathan had yelled at him for knocking her over and Brooke had waved him off.
"Jimmy Jam, you are so big. And I missed you so much so give your aunt Brookie a big kiss," Brooke said and pulled him towards her. He gave her a hug and stood, holding his hand out for her. Brooke laughed when he actually pulled her up. "Are you seven or twenty today," she said and ran her fingers through his hair.
"Well seven," he said rocking on his heels. "But Uncle Luke says I am a grown man in a little body," he said proudly and Brooke couldn't help but laugh. He was much to smart for his young age and it amazed Brooke. "What is up with this hairdo," she said finally noticing his mini-Mohawk.
"It's just like what Uncle Luke had. Isn't it rockin," he said and Brooke burst out laughing just as Lucas joined her.
"What's so funny," Lucas said as he noticed the both of them looking at him and laughing.
"I was just telling Aunt Brooke about your hair that was like mine."
Lucas got a little nervous. He knew what Jamie had meant and that was something he didn't like remembering. He was drunk all the time and had gotten a Mohawk and Jamie had wanted one. He had kept it ever since, much to Haley's dislike. Lucas knew that Brooke knew he went through a rough patch but he also knew she wouldn't approve of Jamie seeing him like that. He laughed nervously, not knowing what else to do.
"Ya know, I think you can rock that look way better than Uncle Luke. He's a little too old for it," Brooke laughed and got a glare from Lucas.
"Watch it Brooke. You're as old as I am," he said moved closer to her. She noticed he had a playful look in his eye and that's never a good thing. "Jamie," Luke said and grabbed the attention of the little boy. "Doesn't Brooke look hot…I think maybe she should go cool off," he said only a few feet from her.
"Don't you dare Lucas," she squealed as he reached for her and picked her up.
"Yeah lets throw her in the pool," Jamie chanted behind Lucas as he walked her through the door to the backyard. Brooke was trying with all her might to wiggle out of his arms but he had a pretty good grip on her. Right when they reached the edge of the pool Brooke panicked. "Lucas I swear if you do this I will never talk to you again," she said in a serious tone.
He wasn't sure if she was serious but he didn't want to chance it. He put her down, much to Jamie's dismay. Well Brooke must have thought she was so smart because as she went to walk around him she pushed him in. He was able to grab her arms just in time and she ended up in the pool with him. When she came up for air she looked pissed.
"I can't believe you did that," she glared at him.
He chuckled. "Hey Brooke you pushed me in. I just pulled you down with me."
"Yeah you have a habit of doing that," she said as she turned away from him and got out of the pool. She grabbed a towel and pulled it around herself. Of all days to get thrown in the pool it had to be when she wore all white!
"That's not fair," Lucas hissed as he got out of the pool and stood in front of her. "Can't we be adults and have one conversation where you don't insult me," he said as his voiced rose. He was trying to hard to be nice to her and she just wouldn't give him a break. He saw Nathan look at him and shake his head. He knew they didn't want a scene at Jamie's party.
He followed her as she stomped away from him into the house. Haley had told her to go borrow some of her clothes and till her dress dried off. Lucas followed her in. He wasn't going to let her just walk away and avoid him. He had only another day with her and he couldn't get her to change her mind if she wouldn't talk to him.
"Brooke," he said through gritted teeth as he came through Haley and Nathan's bedroom. He heard her squeal and try to cover her naked chest but it didn't distract him from what his mission was. "Why do you keep running away from me," he asked as he stood in front of her.
She had her hands folded over her chest so her breasts were covered. She felt very awkward standing in nothing but her underwear. "Do you mind? Can I get dressed please?"
"No. If I leave you will keep avoiding me. Why did you freak out last night and why do you always have to throw in a dig when we are having fun," he demanded and copied her move of folding his arms over his chest. He was standing his ground and he had her cornered. He wasn't going to let her out until she gave him answers.
She looked to the floor and then back into his eyes. She could see so many emotions playing across his eyes and for some reason it just made her open up. "I freaked out last night because I kissed you Luke. I promised myself to another man and within hours I was all over you. And it's easier to be mean to you and push you away than to give you false hope," she sighed sighing heavily and leaning her head against his chest.
He moved his arms and cupped her chin to tilt her head up to look at him. "No matter how mean you are to mean I won't give up. And are you so sure you want to be with this guy," he said and saw her nod her head. He searched her eyes and saw a glimmer of something that resembled being unsure. He had to take one more chance. He brought his mouth to hers and she kissed him back.
She pulled back from him. "Lucas…this…this can't go any further than this weekend," she said not sure why she was giving in. She loved Julian and she knew this would destroy her relationship with him but she just wanted to have this one last weekend with Lucas. He nodded his head at her, but she knew he wouldn't agree when it was over. That should have stopped her but it didn't. She moved her hands away from her chest and brought them to his. She pulled his hands to her body and immediately locked her mouth back with his.
(-)
"Momma can I go find Aunt Brooke and Uncle Lucas," Jamie asked as he pulled on his mothers hand.
Nathan was the one to answer. He pulled his son up into his arms and gave him a big bear hug. "In a little bit Jimmy Jam. They need to have a grown up talk first."
"Is that like what you and mommy have, like last night," he asked and both his parents looked at him.
"What do you mean buddy," Haley asked and ruffled Jamie's hair.
"Last night I tried to go in your room but you were making grown up noises. Were you talking," Jamie asked as Haley turned beet red and Nathan busted out laughing.
"No buddy. It's a different grown up talk. I'm sure they will be out shortly. Why don't you go see your friends who just got here," he said placing him down and Jamie running to his newly arrived guests.
"I told you I heard a noise," Haley said as she slapped his chest.
"It's okay baby, he didn't see just heard," Nathan laughed and went back to the grill.
(-)
Your fingers hooked around
My belt loops
Leanin' up against my ride
Remember that first time I touched you
It doesn't matter-I've held you a
Million times
Oh, and it still feels good
"Harder Luke," Brooke said as she clawed at his back and moaned in his ear. She knew what she was doing was completely wrong and that she was risking her entire future but she needed this closure. She hadn't been intimate with Julian in a while and her body had been craving Luke's since last night. She wanted him and she knew if she gave herself this weekend then she could forget about him and finally give Julian her whole heart.
He gripped her hips harder as he thrusted as fast and as hard as he could into her. Somewhere in the heated kiss they shared they both had ended up naked and in Haley and Nathan's walk in closet. He had her pinned against the wall. "Uhh….you uhh…God you feel so good," he grunted out.
"N..not as good…uhh…as you," she said as she bit down on his shoulder. She pushed him back gently and covered his mouth with hers. She could feel how shallow his breaths were and as she ran her hands over his chest she felt his heart pounding. "Don't..don't stop," she said as she felt him move slower and softer into her.
"I…I'm not going….I'm not gonna last," he panted out. He placed chaste kisses up her neck as he kept up his slow pace. She kept pushing herself harder into him to try and make him go faster.
"Give me your hand," she whispered into his ear. He pulled back slightly and looked at her questioningly, but still gave her his hand. She slid it between the two of them and instantly arched her back and threw her head back. "Just do…do it harder," she begged so close to her ending.
He felt her walls clamp around him and he was able to pick up his speed. He wanted them to finish together and when her fingers clawed into his back he let himself go with her.
(-)
"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you. Happy birthday dear Jamie, happy birthday to you," everyone sang as the cake was placed in front of him.
Brooke and Lucas were able to sneak back in when nobody was watching and Brooke appeared by Jamie's side. "Make a wish buddy," she said as he looked between her and Lucas. He blew out his candles and made a seat right beside him for her to join him.
"Where are Peyton and Jake? I thought they were going to be here," Brooke asked Nathan as he took a seat next to her.
"Yeah they were but Jenny fell down and broke her arm so they have been at the emergency room all morning. But how is my favorite sister in law," he asked as he bumped his shoulder into hers.
"Ex," she said and he rolled his eyes. "I'm good. Things are going good and I'm happy," she said and smiled her first real smile in a while.
"Where is this infamous fiancée we have heard so much about," Nathan question wanting to meet this guy. Brooke was special to him and his family and he wanted to make sure that whomever she was with was good enough for her.
"Work. He had a business trip this week. You guys should come up to New York and visit. I'll make a nice dinner and you guys can get to know him. He is a great guy and he wants to meet all of you so much," Brooke said as she locked eyes with Lucas. She suddenly felt so guilty for talking about Julian when she had just had sex with her ex-husband. He gave her a smile that melted her heart and then went back to playing with Jamie.
"That is a great idea. I'll be done with work soon so we can pack up the kids and come visit you. I'm sure that Jamie would love to go to New York and I know it would be nice to get away too," Nathan said and smiled.
She felt her phone go off and excused herself.
"Hello," she said with as much enthusiasm as she could muster.
"Hey baby. I just wanted to call and see how you weekend was going. Are you having fun?"
She saw Lucas making his way over to her and it made her nervous. "It's going good," she replied with the short answer. He really wouldn't want the honest answer over the phone and hearing that she just screwed her ex husband an hour prior wouldn't be a pleasant conversation.
"I miss you."
"I miss you too, but can I call you back later. I'm just at Jamie's birthday and it's a bit hectic," she lied.
"Sure. I love you," he said and she could see the smile on his face as he said it.
"Me too," she said as she hung up. She looked around and grabbed Lucas's hand. "Come here," she said as she hid behind a wall and slammed her lips into his. She shouldn't be doing this, she knew that. But her heart was torn between two men and she knew when the weekend was over she will have lost both of them.
"What's gotten into you," Lucas smirked against her lips.
She pulled back and just starred at him. "This weekend is it Lucas," she said and noticed the look of hurt cross his features. "Just don't question everything. Be with me tonight and then let me go."
"I love you," he whispered against her lips.
"Don't. Just don't," she said as she walked away and back to the party. She couldn't promise him anything because she felt like she wasn't good enough for him. Why he wanted to be with someone who was cheating on her fiancee and not even sure where her head and heart were confused her more.
We made some crazy plans, had some
Crazy dreams
And now that we've reached
A few you would think
That it would get old to you and me
But it still feels good, still feels good
How could he let her go? He knew she still loved him but would that be enough?
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