So I'm leaving tomorrow to go to LA. I will try my best to update it throughout the week, but that may be hard. BUT i do have two 5 hour plane rides to get some good writing done.
Anyway I hope you enjoy Pt 2!
"Now can you tell me what the fuck she was doing here Nicky?" Alex's tone was full of anger.
"I'm sorry. I didn't know it was her!"
"Of course you didn't. Fuck. It's not like she made your life a living hell."
Nicky looked down. She knew what Jessica had done to Alex. She knew how hard it was for Alex to even speak about what happened. "Alex I'm truly sorry. You can't really blame me…"
"What? I can't blame you? Did you just fucking say that? Of course you are to blame for almost fucking her."
"Well maybe I wouldn't have been in the same fucking bar as her if you hadn't ditched me for Piper!" Nicky yelled.
"Seriously? You're going to bring Piper into this? What, are you jealous or something?"
"No I'm not fucking jealous of you two, in fact I'm really fucking happy you found someone else who can deal with your fucking shit. I'm pissed off because you are completely ditching me for this girl, and why? I mean, what's with you guys anyway. You act like you're dating, but you only ever think of each other as friends. So maybe deal with your shit with her, and also remember you have other friends."
Alex was too angry to really take in what Nicky had said. Sure heard it, and thought about it for about two seconds, but she couldn't focus on it. "Fuck you."
"Well fuck you too. Now get the fuck out of my house." Nicky said as she pointed towards the door.
Alex was being kicked out of her best friends house, just like Jessica was only moments ago. She was being treated like her. She was being treated as if she was someone who was hated.
She turned around, opened the door, and walked out.
Nicky slammed the door. She slid down it onto the ground and put her hands over her face and cried. She cried and cried. This was the biggest fight that the two had ever had. Nicky knew she fucked up, but how could she have known it was Jessica Wedge?
"I should have fucking known!" Nicky yelled.
The worst part about this was that Nicky was all alone. She would be all alone for two weeks.
We've been friends almost our whole lives. We can't just end a friendship because of this, now can we?
All night Nicky cried. The same thought's crossing her mind. She had to make this right. She needed Alex.
"So Piper. What the hell was that?" Cal asked as the two of them sat in their basement. Piper watching Cal play his soccer game on the PS3.
"What do you mean?"
"Nothing it's just that you and Alex seem pretty close…"
"It's nothing. We're just friends! I mean, sure she's gorgeous and sure she's gay, but i'm still straight. Right?" This was the first time that Piper had ever really thought to question her sexuality. I know I like boys, but is there a chance I like girls too? Or maybe it's just Alex who I like. Wait- Who said anything about me liking Alex? Oh shut up Piper. Her thought's were starting to race.
"Look Piper, I don't want to be the one to tell you how to feel, but it seems pretty clear that she like's you."
"It is?" A smile crossed her face.
"It was to me. Mom and dad on the other hand… they seemed more focused on disliking Alex."
"You are so young. How are you this smart?" Piper said as she rustled his hair.
"I'm not that young. I'm two years younger than you!."
The two of them sat there for a while. Cal focusing on his game, and Piper stuck in her thoughts.
I mean. What if this whole thing started because I was attracted to her? What if I've always want to be more then friends, but didn't really realize it? No that's ridiculous. But is it?
Piper kept questioning herself. She was so unsure of how she felt. She didn't feel like she could even trust herself.
What if I am interested in her, and she doesn't feel the same way?
"What made it seem like she liked me?" I blurted out.
"Just subtle things. The way she looked at you. How she touched you any chance she could. Oh and probably how she lifted up her glasses to talk to you. I think that was a pretty big sign."
Alex and her damn glasses. Always playing with them. I swear she knows that it really turns people on when she does that.
"She does that with everyone... The whole glasses thing."
"Sure. But she does it with you a lot more."
"Would it matter to you if I did like girls?" Piper was fairly sure of the answer, but she kind of needed something to reassure herself that it was fine.
"Of course it's fine." It was silent for a few minutes. Cal paused his game and looked over to Piper. "Do you like her?"
"I mean, as a friend of course. I've never really thought about if I like her in a more intense way..." That was a lie. Piper had thought about it a lot.
"Why are you so afraid to even think about these feelings?"
"What kind of 14 year old are you?" Piper laughed.
"One who notices a lot. And come one, you're my sister. Now answer my question,"
"I don't know why I'm scared. I guess I just don't want to ruin this? And I'm also scared that she won't feel the same way..."
"Oh. So you do like her?"
"I guess I do... Yeah." It finally hit Piper. She does like this girl. In fact, she likes her quite a lot. But it just brings back the same question, were they ever really just friends in the first place?
Cal un-pasued his game and comminuted playing. "So what are you doing here?"
"What?"
"Go confess your undying love for her or something."
"I'm not sure love is really the word to be used here..."
"Whatever. Go to her. If dad asks I'll cover for you."
"Thanks." Piper gave Cal a quick hug before leave. She raced upstairs, put on her shoes and raced out the door.
What the fuck am I doing?
The whole way home Alex tried not to make it look like anything was nothing her. She tried to act as cool and unbothered as she ever has. She didn't particularly care about what other people thought, but she cared about how she seemed to herself in public.
She had hoped her mother would be gone by the time she got home, so she could be all alone when Alex walked through the door though, she smelled food.
"Mom?"
"Oh hey."
"What are you doing here? Why aren't you at work?"
"Someone fucked up the schedule for today, but it actually worked to my benefit for once."
"Oh. Okay," Alex was about to head into her room whenever her mother stopped her.
"What's wrong honey?"
"Nothing. Everything's good." Alex avoided eye contact because she knew her mother knew her too well.
"Bullshit. Come into the kitchen and talk to me. What's wrong?"
Alex reluctantly walked into the kitchen after her mother. She sat down on one of the two chairs that were there. From the time she got home to now, she got progressively sadder. You could see how upset she looked.
"I know you want to tell me." Diane said as she put her hand on Alex's shoulder. "I'm going to continue making this soup, and you can talk to me when you want." You could tell the she was trying to subtly hint to talk about it now.
"I had a fight with Nicky."
"Well you two have fought before, what makes this different?"
"It's because she was about to fuck Jessica Wedge."
"Seriously? I didn't think either of you should take 'fuck Jessica Wedge' so literally." A small smirk crossed her face. She found it quite amusing.
"Yeah well fuck both of them. She knows how much shit there is there. How the fuck could she do that?"
"She's a teenage fucking girl. Look, Alex I know how much this must hurt, but you always get a little hot-headed sometimes. Cool off and take a fucking break from all this drama you hate."
It was silent for awhile. Alex sat and thought about what had all happened. She thought about what Nicky had said. So maybe deal with your shit with her, and also remember you have other friends.
"What's the date today?" Alex asked suddenly.
"It's the 7th today. Why?"
Fuck. Yesterday was the day Nicky's mother leaves for two weeks. Fuck.
"She had no one. She has no one and I wasn't there for her because I was with fucking Piper. Fuck!" Alex said as she stood up. "I need to get some air.." Alex said as she walked over to the front door putting on her shoes. She opened the door and left.
What shit with Piper? What the fuck does that even mean? Alex thought to herself.
Alex was angry. She was furious at herself; At this whole situation.
"I can't blame her for not recognizing her… she looks… different." she said to herself. Alex lay on the roof of the building. There was a maintenance door the lead onto the roof, where there was a cement floor. Alex had a special spot there. There was this part the was risen up on an angle that she would lay on. She was able to see the rest of the neighbourhood, as well as part of the city skyline.
This was her favourite spot. Whenever she needed time to herself she would go up there. She liked her room, and she was alone a lot, but she found it peaceful. She wasn't just alone in an empty apartment, but she was alone outside.
Alex was use to being treated badly, but the fact that she could hurt someone else didn't settle right with her. She knew she could be a real bitch to people, but she never thought she would hurt one of the two people who meant the world to her.
I could never hurt the two people in my life who mean the most to me… or wait- three people?
Her thoughts went back to Piper until she stopped herself.
No. this is what she was talking about. I spend too much time with Piper. Thinking about her, that I forget about Nicky.
Everything that had happened tonight made Alex feel so many emotions. All she could really do was cry. That was the only reaction she had to these emotions. Her eyes started to water a bit when she heard someone come onto the roof.
"Alex?"
Alex sat up and turned towards the door where she was Piper standing there. "Oh hey. How'd you know I was here?"
"Your mom told me."
"Right…"
Piper walked over to Alex and sat beside her. She had no idea what she was going to say. The second she saw Alex she lost all of her words and thoughts. Piper then noticed that Alex didn't look particularly happy. "Is everything okay?"
She didn't say anything. She just looked down at the ground and shook her head the slightest bit.
Piper moved closer to Alex and put her arm around her. There were no real words to be said, as Piper knew that Alex wasn't someone who liked to talk about things like this. She always wanted to seem so put together.
After a few minutes of silence Alex finally spoke up. "So what are you doing here anyway?"
"I uh, wanted to tell you something I think…" She looked away.
"Yeah? And that is?"
Piper was about to speak when Alex's phone lit up. She opened up the message that was from Nicky.
Nicky- Alex please. We really need to talk about this. I can't stand this.
Alex started to look even more upset. Piper noticed but wasn't sure she should say anything. She didn't even know what to say.
Alex- Fuck you.
She had no idea why she said that to Nicky. I'm not even that mad about this anymore, why the fuck did I say that?
Things were really getting to Alex right now. She felt so many things, and at some point she knew she was just going to blow up at someone. Weather it would be angry, or sad, or both, she didn't know.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Piper asked calmly.
"Nicky and I had a huge fight… And I keep fucking this up even more."
"Oh…" Pipers phone then buzzed. The message was from Todd. The two of them hadn't really spoken since their date. Todd would text Piper a lot, but she would rarely respond.
Todd- Do you want to go out again? :)
Piper felt bad because each time he asked her, she very obviously ignored the question. Once he even went up to her in class and asked her, but she just ignored his question as if she had never heard him say it.
"Who's that?" Alex asked.
"Its uh, Todd…" Piper was hesitant to answer, but she knew she would be better off just telling the truth, even if there wasn't a great reaction.
"Oh." Alex was surprised, but there was a more of an edge to her response, even though she wasn't that angry. Except… Maybe I am sort of angry? No… I'm kind of jealous of that jerk. Wait what? Why would I be? Alex thought.
"He talks to me every now and then… He has asked me out quite a bit. I use to think about accepting… But now it's just annoying…" Piper mumbled.
There was that uncomfortable look Alex got.
"I don't like him though."
Alex looked up at her with a curious look on her face. She was happy to hear that Piper didn't like that jerk anymore. Just because she doesn't like him anymore doesn't mean she likes you. She thought.
"I like you." Piper then said. Shit. Do I actually mean this? Why was I just thinking about saying yes to Todd two seconds ago? Fuck I'm scared right now.
Alex had no idea how to even feel at that moment, except this time she knew exactly what Piper meant when she said that. She felt happy, and confused. She was confused as to why she even felt happy.
Piper started to lean in. The two go closer, and as they were only inches apart Alex remembered what Nicky had said to her: So maybe deal with your shit with her, and also remember you have other friends.
This was what Nicky was talking about. This is what I have to deal with with Piper. But why am I dealing with it now when I need to be with Nicky?
Alex pulled away just as their lips were about to lock.
"What the fuck?" Alex said as she got up.
Piper looked shocked and confused and scared by Alex's sudden outburst. She then got up. "Alex-"
"Seriously Piper, what the hell?" Alex wasn't angry with Piper, she was angry with herself, but she couldn't keep a lid on her emotions. They were all blowing up, and anger is what decided to show. "I can't fucking believe you. You know I'm upset about this fight, and you decide to make it about yourself? You are so fucking selfish. Jesus."
Where the hell is this coming from? Piper thought. "I'm sorry I never meant to-"
"Yeah well you did." Alex said harshly. She could see the hurt in Pipers eyes. She was doing it again. She was hurting someone she truly cared about, but she couldn't not be angry right now. "I can't deal with this right now." Alex said. She walked past Piper, not even daring to look at her, because she knew she couldn't bare looking at how hurt she looked.
Piper was left standing on the roof of Alex's apartment.
Well I told you... I like cliffhangers...
