Hi lovlies! We finally made it! THE MOMENT is here! Tell me what you think, please!
- HOTCHNER'S LIVING ROOM -
After Aaron had brought Jack to bed this evening they had really watched a movie. It was in English and only two hours long. Spencer kept explaining the special effects to him, pointed out anachronisms and complained about the illogical plot. Hotch didn't care. He hadn't been this happy for a while. This is almost like having a family again, he thought with a little twinge of guilt in his heart. He wanted this evening to last forever.
He knew the results of the MRI were due the next morning, so after the film had ended he turned towards Reid and asked how he was feeling about it.
His crush forced a smile. "Well, the headaches are still there, if that's what you mean. Sometimes they're a bit less fierce, though."
"Oh, I feel so sorry for you.", Hotch sighed. "And how are you coping emotionally? Just having to wait must be like hell for you." He was sitting rather close to Spencer and realised that, once again, he had to pay special attention to his hands' movements. They both wanted to reach out and hold the object of his desires. Bubbles were flooding around in his chest and he felt how he became nervous again.
"Oh...", Reid replied quietly, licking his upper lip in a most adorable way. "Yeah, that does make me feel bad as well. I just want to know the results, this uncertainty is almost not endurable. Well, I'll know tomorrow. But I'm really glad to have you, Hotch, honestly. Being with you and your family makes me feel less lonely. Thanks for being here for me!"
Reid looked him directly into the eyes again, smiling hesitantly, and he felt his mind going blank again. He had locked his gaze with these heavenly brown eyes, and he had to suppress the vivid notion of leaning forward and simply kissing his crush. He parted his lips in expectation and felt his mouth watering. These eyes had completely robbed him of coherent thought. The seconds became timeless. His heart beat quickened and he seemed to have trouble with breathing steadily.
After he had found his brain again, Aaron took a deep breath and blinked a few times before he responded "And I'm glad that I can be of help. You can always confide in me.", smiling back equally hesitant.
Suddenly he spotted his hand (which, of course, had taken the opportunity to act on it's own initiative while the brain had been inactive) in the small space that was left between them on the sofa, firmly holding Reid's. For a fraction of a second he felt panic rise in his chest but then Spencer's fingers tightly entwined with his own. When he looked up in surprise, Reid drew nearer and placed a shy kiss on his lips. Briefly he didn't react because he had never even thought of his feelings to be mutual, but when he finally grasped the meaning of the situation he began to relax and kissed back.
After several seconds Hotch pulled back. His heart and mind were racing. Was this just a dream? Could it really be true? Did his crush genuinely fancy him?
"Spencer, I love you.", he said.
"I'm in love with you, too.", was the answer, "Have been for ages."
Hotch leant forward and took Reid's face in his hand to kiss him again, a bit more intense this time. The younger man came as close as possible and put his arms around him. Aaron's heart beat hadn't slowed down even though he was relieved, on the contrary, it was beating faster than ever from joy. He parted his lips as he felt Spencer's tongue against them, and one of his hands slid down to stroke the delicate skin of his lover's neck. Reid sighed at the touch, a sound that sent a shiver of rapture down Hotch's spine. Their kiss had become a snog, on and on it went, none of them wanting to part, and they hardly found time to breathe.
At last Aaron backed away a little, still holding Reid close. "How did you know?" The other's shy smile made him beam with delight. He felt like he could explode with happiness any second now. "
Well, I always felt that you're incredibly confident, that you keep calm in the most frightening situations and all that. But not lately. Whenever I was around I saw you becoming all jumpy and nervous. First I thought you're worried about me. And then I was in your office yesterday and you seemed... all bashful and self-conscious. You avoided my gaze and still you wanted me to come home with you. That did make me wonder. And then you said that thing about me wearing your underwear. At that moment I just knew."
"I'm sorry for avoiding your beautiful, beautiful eyes! How could I!", Hotch murmured and started to playfully place pecks on the edge of his lover's chin, who started to chuckle at the touch. "You... smell so... good...", he added between kisses becoming fiercer as his mouth wandered towards Spencer's ear. He felt the younger man's hand in his hair, gently pushing his head against that heavenly chin. As his tongue licked Reid's earlobe, he heard him moan under his breath and press his face against Aaron's shoulder.
At that moment the long case clock in the living room chimed half past eleven. Hotch stopped his caressing and parted from his beloved, catching his breath. "I think it's time to bring you home.", he softly said, even though the tiny voice in his head screamed in pain. ("Don't do this to me!", it wailed, "You won't survive being separated from him! Not now!")
Reid's eyes widened in confusion. They were incredibly close to his face and made Hotch's heart beat accelerate even more. "Why can't I stay another night?"
"But... but you told me... that you wanted to sleep at your apartment tonight... You know, because you have to go to see the doctor tomorrow.", he spluttered, "And... and you know that I can't take you there in the morning since I need to drive Jack to the kindergarten."
"Oh, right...", Spencer said, blinking as if he was coming to his senses again, "Sorry, I forgot about that."
Hotch sighed, and both remained seated because none of them wanted to get up.
"Perhaps we could wait till midnight before we depart.", Spencer suggested, making a very cute puppy face. Aaron stood not the slightest chance to resist it, he just nodded and they immediately went back to making out.
Twenty-two minutes after twelve o'clock they eventually managed to detach themselves from each other. Holding hands, they went to get Reid's bag and then into Hotch's garage. They drove in silence, both of them struggling against fatigue. It hadn't been a very reasonable idea to stay awake for such a long time. But at the moment of their first kiss, Aaron had decided to ignore reason's voice, at least when it came to his feelings for Spence. When they arrived at their destination, they snogged for another ten minutes before Reid could bring himself to say goodbye.
"Will you call me after seeing the doctor?", Hotch asked.
Spencer nodded, a speck of anxiety creeping into his punch-drunk smile. "I'll let you know right away!"
Aaron leaned forward to place a last, hopefully reassuring kiss on his lover's lips, then his subordinate was already out of his car, turning to watch him drive away. Hotch looked into his rear mirror as often as he dared, hoping to catch a glimpse of his beloved who looked heartbreakingly lost as he stood alone in the dark street, his hands tucked in his trouser pockets.
Fear gripped his heart. He would not stand losing Reid, not now that he knew his love for him was mutual.
