Message of Regret

My name is Lady Rin of the Kagamine household, Princess to the throne of the Yellow Kingdom. That was to be, before my people rebelled against me. My first thought, if this had happened before the incident, would be; " Nasty little insects that don`t know how amazing a princess I am to them. They should be dead."

But I know now, that I deserve this. Len, my brother and servant would shake his head in despair and gently tell me to have mercy.

He couldn`t order me around. I would have thrown him into the dungeon. Not that I would have such a heart to do that to my own brother. Really.

I was a selfish, spoiled and corrupted leader. My people have been suffering in silence for a very long time.

I guess my downfall came when I requested the death of Hatsune Miku. The infamous daughter of Lord Hatsune of the Green Nation. I was jealous that day when I saw her with the prince of the Blue Empire. Prince Kaito has been in my heart for awhile even though we have never met before. His heroic deeds to the society have been well known to everyone far and wide. It was my wish and dream to be able to share his life with him. But that was not to be.

I was to attend a diplomatic meeting in the Green Nation. Len brought me there. Then, we saw a café that sells Brioches. That`s where we met her… Clutching Prince Kaito`s hand as though it was a teddy bear she could hug. Then I noticed Len was staring at the couple as well but… He was looking at Hatsune Miku with love struck eyes. Well, I was so disgusted and the overwhelming sense of hatred consumed me. First she stole my man. Now my brother? She was too much!

Then, I noticed after awhile, Len was not present in the Yellow kingdom during his breaks. He was in the Green Nation`s border. The forest. I knew he was meeting someone there. Then I snuck into his room one day. Luka, a maid was forced to lead me there and to cover for me. And in there, I found, a green rose, recipes that were hand written by a woman. Len`s handwriting was bad. Not that neat. And I found a trace of perfume on his shirt. He must be seeing a woman in the forest.

So, I took control of the situation and requested… Or ordered Luka to tell Len to see me when he returned. Well, he sure took his own sweet time. But patience reaped rewards or so my adviser had said. Pity I have only exercised patience on my brother. I was screaming at him when he returned. I can still remember his hurt expression and the horror-stricken look on his face when I told him to kill Hatsune. I had also launched a war for the rights of the forest that has served as the border for many years. Since I was born in fact.

"Murder every green-haired woman like that girl… Hatsune Miku."

That was the order I gave Len. And he actually followed the order and carried it out. Even though it caused him much pain and sorrow. He was crying when he saw the newspapers the next morning. I was peeping by the corner of the door, wondering if he had gone mad by grief. I nearly executed this woman once. She was driven mad by grief but Len pleaded for her pardon. He begged me.

I was wandering what kind of relationship they had shared. Probably an 'sibling' relationship like how Len and I had once shared… But Len is gone now. Because of me.

We then went on a vacation to the sea where Len told me about a myth.

" If you threw a bottle with a message inside out in the sea, it would come to fruitition."

I can faintly recall the conversation we had;

"Len. Seriously, do you think this will work?" He then looked up and smiled at me. "Would Milady like to try this?" I shook my head. I thought this sort of stuff was for peasants and idiotic nobles. But now, since he`s gone. I have no one to grant me my wishes anymore.

We were in the castle after the holiday. We discovered it empty. Len told me to take a bath first while he went to look for everyone. Apparently, he found no one in the castle. Instead, he found out about a revolution against me. "Send out the army for goodness sake!" I snorted. But it turned out that they were involved in it. Ironic isn`t it? That the lady is being defeated, by her own people.

Len sacrificed himself for me. We traded clothes for my life. Len was going to act as the decoy. He sacrificed himself for me. I was reluctant at the idea but Len was adamant. He insisted to save me.

He passed me a photograph of the both of us and led me to the servants` secret path. At that time, I thought we could both escape together. But it was not to be. Len had realized that the most obvious route to escape was the servants` secret path and we would both get caught.

It was three in the afternoon when Len was sentenced to death. By the guillotine.

That was how I sentenced so many of the people. I quickly scribbled a wish on a paper, and stuffed it hurriedly in the bottle. I rushed to the square and ran to the front of the people. I looked up the stage to see my brother`s long, blonde hair, and his eyes wide with amazement. I bowed my head to him. Then… It all ended…

He smiled at me, and as the guillotine swished down, he uttered his last words.

"Oh, it`s teatime."

Then, I ran, away from this scene. My brother`s body would not be buried properly… I am such a horrible sister. Len deserves more than this…

I ran all the way to the seaside, stopping in my journey to rest every now and then. My legs were aching when I finally reached the seaside town. I went to the sea, and threw the bottle with my wish in it, with all my might. I then met a woman called Yowane Haku. She was occupying the cottage I bought. But since the 'Princess' died, it was mortgaged away, and it now belonged to her. She was so nice to me...

I got a crash-course on how to survive in this world. Haku was from the Green Nation, but after the war launched by the Princess of the Yellow Kingdom. (Me…) Haku taught me how to make brioche. It was burnt on my first go. But, gradually, I learnt how to make them. Len would have been proud.

Every now and then, I would throw a message in a bottle into the sea, hoping, my brother would receive my heartfelt wishes. But I know, that no matter how many wishes the sea could grant, it would never grant my wishes. I am evil. I sentenced so many innocents to their death. I sang to the sea everyday. A lullaby of melancholy and sorrow .A song of grief and despair .The melody of my tears is equivalent to my wish. My wish, was to let me be siblings with Len again.

I confessed in the church one night. When no one was around. Not a soul… or so I had thought. Yowane Haku had followed me and was listening to my confession. For the next few days, she was very cold towards me. I wondered what had happened. In the evening, when I went to the sea to express my regret, I was too busy sobbing and wallowing in regret that I did not notice Haku oming up from behind me. And she was holding a knife. Haku had told me afterwards that the Lady of Green was her best friend and I had killed her. I supposed that the most suitable ending for a murderer like me is for me to die but Haku had became such close friends with me she just couldn`t kill me. She had forgiven me. If only I knew how to forgive. Len would have been happy to see me smiling here with a new friend. Dearest Len, please rest in peace.